(..End of Summer, Start of Rain..)
There was a time in my life na masasabi ko, satisified ako. One of the reasons, I love rainy season.. hehe I mean, despite sa stress and conflicts basta there is one thing that keeps you going, anything can be managed. Love is such a beautiful thing to keep. Always.
Never in my wildest dreams that there was a woman na tinanggap who I am and motivate to do better everyday, and yes, gives a smile in my face when I wake up. I also never thought that I'll meet na babae that is very sweet, yet fierce but gentle. Most of all, loving. Of course, admitted love first before even we meet in person. Despite the odds, and consequences..
Pero siyempre it took a long way before maging kami. I mean hmmmmm we were just chatting tapos texting, then talking over the phone, grabe mahal pa ang load noon kasi walang unli call! hehe Friendster pa noon dahil na din sa pics and stuff. YM and yun lang, exchange pleasantries sort of thing. Until one night...
She acted weird at nagdradrama, ayaw niya na makipagkita o makipagusap sa kin. Edi ako naman, siyempre di ako sumuko malaman kung bakit. So I called and sent lengthy text at yun thru probing, eh umamin. First time in my life especially searching that true love na ako yun di umamin agad. Alam mo naman ang history ko sa courting ladies, nauuwi lang ika nga today, friend zone. hahahaha Siya, nope.
Ako naman, napaoo din agad kasi first time saka for the record, less effort. haha Ang kapal ng pez ko that time.
Anyway, after that special night.. There were no days na di ko siya pwede imiss tawagan or text kasi parang kulang ang araw ko. Without her sweet words or sometimes hate words, hahaha I really appreciate yun effort niya at ako din for her nung mga reply niya. Of course we can't help but eager to meet right away but due to some factors, we can't. =(
Well, a year past.. Or before going into our anniv eh we decided to meet, thanks sa election kasi busy sa kanila that time.. Pumunta siya Manila and sinundo ko siya from airport. That meeting was nostalgic, that glance of hers.. Her simple beauty mesmerized me, I mean in pics medyo di siya photogenic, pero sa personal.. Kaboom. hahaha Iba na eh. Wow..
So there, we rode a cab and stayed home. Mom was kinda surprised that day kasi di lang friend na girl ang pinakilala ko sa kanya, girlfriend agad. hehe So ok naman. Then first test of relationship comes right away. May pupuntahan kami event, reunion ng 4BA1, ayun meet number3, katapat si GF. Eh alam that time ni ex ang story ni number3, nakita ko yun lisik ng mata niya against her. Patay to, selosan agad. haha
Pag uwi away agad. Naman oh. hehe After that and of course, honest naman ako at wala naman talaga kami ni number 3, eh maayos na. Well, she stayed for sometime sa bahay and she is always out everyday due to a lot of relatives, wondering until now, dapat, tumira na lang siya dun. hahaha Kaso, may rason kasi na di pwede ganun that time. =(
She went back to her home way down south... After weeks na she went back, then of course mas sobrang namiss namin ang isa't isa.. Biglang nagdecide siya na dito sa manila siya mag aral daw and magtapos. Grabe, I'm thrilled that time na akala ko I won't see her for another long time. But it will be soon agad. Wow! hahaha
That time, medyo buenas pa ko sa work kasi inilipat pa ko from HSBC Alabang to HSBC QC na nasa discovery suites pa dati. hehe So mas madali sa kin ang makita siya.
Another surprise was well, sa amin pa siya titira! hehe Well, like others described. Live in na talaga to pero yun lang, kasama ang family ko dito. That time, I guess we did not really think others or what they say, what important is we just living full of love. =)
She went back at my birthday, one of the best birthdays I've had. hehe Then 6 months later we broke up. Sadly, we need to. =(
As much we did live together full of love, we faced reality within our midst. Fate like I always say against us. Dagdag mo pa ang other factors which won't be named but the ones who listened to my story, alam na. hehe Pero ganun talaga, sometimes, what you feel is for both of you is not in reality.
I realised we should blame ourselves for this falter. Noong una ibang tao pa, pero ung nagtagal, talagang kami na din ang cause. Lalo na if we we're kind indecisive in important things. Well, hanggang memorya na lang ang aming naging pinagsamahan. hehe
Di pa natapos sa hiwalayan, may problema pa after that! Lalo na sa side niya. Masyado naman siya pinarusahan.. =( Sometimes, I was so blinded due to love, naisip ko na puntahan sa place niya at check her out. Mabuti, natigil ako ng CRAP. hehe Ika nga ni doc, baka pugutan na lang ako dun. hehe Not kidding. It may be true.
I admit, it took me a longer time to move on due to well... How this relationship went far talaga, as much I want give every fun and darkest moments of this one, baka di na matapos ang post na to. hahaha Yun kasi.. Naisip na nga namin na magpakasal if everything went right. Edi magkakatotoo pa yun biro nila sa kin ngayon. hahaha
I loved her caress and those lovely whispers.
I loved her natural hazelnut hair with that angelic face.
I loved her awesome dishes that she cooks, can match Mom's.
I loved her grace and posture.
I loved her voice, especially when she sings..
I loved her frailty that I should be besides her when panic starts.
I loved her above everything. Which of course, sometimes sobra. hehe
I used to send her something every monthsary, lalo na anniv. =) And she valued it. Especially my corsive letters, laki ng kinita ng air21 at lbc sa min. haha I wonder what happened to those stuff things.
She also sent something to me, which some of them I kept. Hmmmm very good writer din.
What also surprised me, eh kilala niya ang mga taong malapit sa kin. Not only family, but lalo na yun CRAP, aba may time na lumalabas sila na wala ako! hahaha Which ok lang, at siya lang talaga nasama sa mga gimik ng CRAP, wag lang sa swimming, pahiya kami eh. hehe
Siyempre makakalimutan ba ang araw araw na taktak portion, ika nga ng CRAP kahit may reply madaling araw. hahaha
Everytime I tell this story, they ask friends pa daw kami. Nasan na siya, or nag FB ba kayo.. Siya yun hinanap. Grabe. haha As much I want to have connection to her, sad to say, I don't know. But I do know kung nasan siya or what. Block nga ko sa FB. hehe Mabuti pa yun iba, inadd niya, ako hindi. haha Bitter pero di naman. Kasi alam ko kung paano naman niya ko hanapin or well, she can just reach naman. Alam niya yun. Im just here and not really expecting from her. =)
The only things mattered for me after we broke up were she should be happy and free. With the news I heard from somebody about her, those things perfectly happened to her. =)
I'm now relieved.
As for me, with all the ladies I met after her, medyo kinapos ako. hehe Because of her, bumaba ang standards ko. hahaha Kaso naging busy ako, alam niyo naman kung bakit at yun, ayaw ata talaga sa kin.
But it doesn't mean single na lang ako. Soon, there is one special lady that kinda gives me that love again. Ahay. hehe
Looking back, I learned a lot in that past relationship. Yun pinakanatutunan ko eh yun nalaman ko kung dapat yun tao pag nagmahal. It gives you not only joy or happiness in good times, but gives you hope in bad times. Of course, iba siyempre yun nasa taas, pero instant effect kasi yun iba ang nagmamahal sayo. Lalo na kung kasama mo pa parati. Saka masarap pag ang relationship defied all odds. hehe Paginiisip ko yun now, deep crap pala yun dati. hehe Sayang but at least we tried.
Kaya pag nanood ako ng eternal sunshine and blue valentine, peste naalala ko yun nangyari. hanggang dun lang. hehe
Great thing today, whatever path we chose for our lives, either way..
One time, as part of our lives, we loved each other.
Despite that coldness of rain, strong stormy winds, dissipated with the heat of the love.
Cherished.
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