nega plus nega

For the past weeks, I don't know why I met sad people..

I mean, kilala ko silang masaya biglang what the heck. hehe Seriously, they just have problems that can't easily handle..

And they talked to a person na let's say negative energy na.. However, I don't show it naman, besides, they're my friends.. For them, kahit inaantok na ko, gising ako for them..

Medyo marami sila ha, kahit ako nagulat.. I won't really divulge what were their problems.. Let's say serious..

Pero ang important at those times, masaya naman kami. hehe Kahit na sa una siyempre malungkot ang mood, subalit pag tagal, ayun nagiging masaya kami. Negative and negative, positive?

Ironic talaga, dati taga kinig lang ako, tapos minsan nagpapatawa lang, pero ngayon, nakakaadvice pala ako. Ewan ko lang kung nakatulong sa kanila. hahaha

Importante naman sa kin ay makatulong sa kanila kahit papano. Alam ko kulang pa yun nalalaman ko sa mga problema, kasi iba naman yun mga buhay namin, pero ang sabi ko lang lagi, "ganun talaga", "change your perspective", "tuloy lang ang buhay" and other answers na about life..

Life really is a hard pill to swallow. It is also ironic.. Sometimes, you can't believe it just happened. Pero, ang magandang gawin sa buhay eh ayusin na lang..

Well, one day, I just hope life will be easy for all of us.. I mean, less problems, worries and more focus to the good things we need to do. Rather than staring at a blank wall.. Or crying all day for nothing.. Or how about cursing yourself why this and that.. It won't do any good.. That's what happened to me before. hehe

Mabuti na lang at holy week, I guess we should spend time reflecting and contemplating ourselves. Ask and talk to him..

Maybe he'll give you positive answers..

gOH. Kenshiro (Fist of the North Star)

Dapat is Ippo ng Knockout yun fifth kaso, naisip ko, ang unang astig na anime character nakita ko nun bata, is Kenshiro. VHS pa noon, eh galing si Kuya Allan sa US, naguwi siya ng mga anime shows, some of them dubbed, tapos some of them may subtitle..

Tapos may napanood ako na anime na kakagulat. I mean, siyempre typical anime or cartoon nun panahon ko talagang pambata. Like Smurfs, Transformers, Bravestar, and others, pero eto, first scene pala, sabugan na ng ulo. hehe Wow, tapos astig yun sapakan saka siyempre si Kenshiro, well Ken lang sa english version. Kamukha ni Bruce Lee, tapos tahimik saka pagnagalit, angas. hehe With his rubberized jacket. Kasi pagnagagalit, napupunit yun jacket pero next scene suot niya ulit. hehe

Pero yun lakas niya, grabe, kahit talo siya kay Raoh (kapatid niya) eh bago naman niya nakalaban yun parang panis naman lahat ng kalaban niya.. Saka yun character niya, mabait pero masama pag ginalit. Hehe Tumutulong siya saka calm lagi, at alam na ang gagawin sa kalaban. Lalo na yun scene dun sinabi niya pagkatapos siya sapakin, kala nun goon eh buenas siya. Ayun pala, he's dead na di niya alam. hehe

Ah, you may wonder, the series itself it's like Mad Max, just remove Mel Gibson and add Bruce Lee, gigantic punks and most important part, the Martial Arts concept. Bloody good.. Good thing yun mga remake niya these past years, never dissappoint naman. Lalo na yun isang bagong OVA ata, maganda yun drawing, so I need to search that and download it. hehe

Bakit siya 5? Hmmmm dude, medyo di realistic siya.. If may ganun na tao, the perfect killing machine. hehe Saka kahit ganun siya, ewan ko, lagi siya talo sa huli. Bad trip naman, lalo na kay Raoh. Pero sa bago, panalo na siya. hehe Anyway, I still like the character, especially when he shouts!!! Watah!!!!

March 25, 2004

As I walk in the dim streets of Speaker Perez, wearing this very old UST PE shirt, I thought, what the hell happened after graduation? 6 years past? No damn way!!!!!!

Nah, di ka nagkakamali, that was the date we graduated, at least yun ang sabi sa TOR namin. Letche, nagfade na nga yun TOR ko eh. hehe

Time really flies fast, like I always says in my blog. I can't believe ganun kabilis ng panahon. Marami siyempre nangyari after graduation. Iba nagsettle down na. Yun iba, kung ano yun first job, hanggang ngayon dun pa din. hehe Yun iba, masaya na or has been successful in their chosen careers.

Me? Do I need to renumerate all over again?

No way.. It's all here..

Just scan my posts. hehe

Hay, actually pagkagraduate parang walang happening.. Nag kanya kanya for short. Pero nung pagkatapos ng final exams at bago mag graduation eh nagpansol kami. Damn, one of the best outings I had.

Sana may magpost dito ng pics nun. hehe Baka si Joanne mayrun. hehe

Or even the official photographer Ivan who will be expecting to go home this year. Pasalubong tol. hehe

Seriously, one thing is for sure, after those damned years, I know what I need to do in life, not only to be successful but to be happy as well. Happy on what you do, and what you believe for.

I didn't learn that in school...

I learned that in a very hard course, a subject that you don't know if you pass because you will fail first at the first time.

It's not like math that you know the answer right away even you know before hand how to answer it..

It's not like what, feasibility study that you'll pass as long you work hard and do good in presentation..

Or even yun pesteng business writing na muntikan na kami ibagsak ni Bruselas, muntikan na kami ni Al dun ha. Na dapat paimpress ka sa business writing which is not really needed..

Those subjects I learned well, not totally applied here in this difficult subject..

A subject called LIFE...

It is a forever course with limitless number of units..

Pero sa ngayon naman, pasang awa naman sa buhay. hehe

Kaya lang, in these times of hardship saka kung may gusto ka talaga makuha, eh di lang 3.00 ang kailangan, kundi 2.00 o 1 sa subject of life..

Mahirap nga lang, pero masaya.. Masaya kasi marami ka matutunan, at para sayo yun. Di naman kay Prof o parang maging DL. hehe

Well, sana nga may diploma naman ako sa huli pag naayos ko na ang buhay ko. hehe I don't want to eat at Emerald in Roxas blvd.

Maybe in a different place, a place which I can savor the moment of success.

With someone special.

Well, congrats to 4ba1 batch 2004, kung tama. hehe

Reunion na!!!!! Manlibre na yun mga taong dapat manlibre. hehe

Sorry di ako yun!!

5:28

Pagkagising ko kanina eh alam ko sa isip ko daming gagawin, listahan dito, yun padownload, saka siyempre yun mga blog.. hehe Ah another thing, to fix for today's shift.

Unfortunately, I woke up at the wrong side of the bed. Sabi ko pa sa sarili ko, ang sarap ng tulog ko, parang ang haba ata. Yun pala, mali yun alarm ng cel ko, at ayun, 32 minutes na lang, kailangan nasa RCBC na ko.

Oh shit. hehe

Feel the rush na naman.

Sakay naman ako ng cab agad then, well, marami akong namiss na gagawin at ayun nagmamadali. Pero sabi ko na, wala na to, I'm late. hehe

Pagdating sa work, gutom at pagod, pero tuloy pa din. Nandito na saka di naman masyadong late. Nice!

Pero late is late, and I'll be getting a love letter. hehe

Tapos, ayun take calls, getting feel kung ano yun account. As of now, I can say manageable naman, ang problem lang eh kung ops na kami, sangkatutak ang calls.

Ang staff eh 42 pero ang calls waiting 52 ata. Ayos, we need more manpower. Headcount. Grabe. hehe

Ah yes, may bagong team na ko at I'm looking forward working with them. As usual, I'll just do my best to help the team!

Mga next week, nasa kanila na ko. Saan kaya kami makakarating?

Are we going to the same path like my previous teams before? At first we're very bottom of the stats then at the end, near at the top. Naks. I like that challenge.

I hope the team will make it.

After that, ayun uwi sa bahay, check ang mga download at ayos na din ng mga gamit. Dami ko talaga na miss. hehe Peste kasi.. Hay.. Sana makapahinga naman this holy week.

For all these days, I was so busy that some of the time, I can't think anymore. Or don't plan, come what may. hehe

Pero I just still move on, finish the task and just think at the end of the day, I can finally rest and no worries!

Sana. hehe

Sana mamaya, at sa mga susunod na araw, wag na malate ng gising.

Sana di ako magising ng ganun oras ulit. Depende kung 7:30am ang shift. hehe

Well, I hope as well that next week, may routine na ko para naman di na ko mahirapan. Jeez.. Kung pwede lang mag clone noh? hahaha

For now, let's take an early sleep as a first step..

unplanned 11

I got a massage last week, good. I should do that every other week. fortnightly. hehe

Nothing new..

Ah, siyempre, new downloads meron. hehe

Less rest for quite sometime...

I'm missing some errands to finish..

Met great friends for a nice chat..

Ah, oo nga pala, tuloy ata ang swimming. hehe

Watched Alice in 3D, good thing there is Depp and Carter, anything else, eye popping yet not a wonderful story..

Although I like snacthing the 3d glasses. hehe

Got addicted in movies yet di ko pa sila napapanood ng straight ha.

Everybody got to learn sometimes -Beck

I wish palabas na ang Kick Ass!!!! hehe

At last, may time na magpahinga next week.

At last, no more worries in training.. Passed.

Yun ang mga nangyari for the past weeks. Kaunti no?

isang taong nakalipas

Oo nga naman, galing. hehe Pagkatapos basahin ko ulit ang blog na http://blackswordsmann.blogspot.com/2009/03/in-japanese-not-word-itself-but-usually.html, naisip ko, ano nga ba nangyari pagkatapos ng isang taon.

Ang sigurado, I'm back at the corporate ladder. hehe Pero, mabuti at normal na sked na ang work. Diyos ko, pag pang gabi pa din ako, ewan ko na. Baka wala na magsusulat dito. hehe

Sa totoo lang, napakabilis ng panahon ng isang taon nagtratrabaho sa araw compare mo sa gabi. Mabuti naman, walang sakit ako naramdaman last year, siguro parehas na sakit, may kabagalan at laging pagod. hehe Pero di kagaya dati na "pagod" na laging reklamo ni Rheg. haha Siguro, ok lang sa kin yun pagod, doble kayod na nga eh.

Alfred, doble kayod? Wow, parang anong gamot ang ininom niya. Dati lagi inuna ang pahinga muna o saka na yan at most used excuse, ok na yan kahit hindi. Which ngayon ginagamit pa din.hehe Pero di naman sa lahat ng bagay, lalo na pag sa relasyon sa bahay, o sa shop and even work. Mahirap din yun ha na kahit papano, magbago para sa ikakabuti. I will try na matuto magdrive this year. Sayang naman, matanda na ko, even wala pa ko kotse, at least sana makadrive na ko. Kakahiya naman sa future love o family. hehe Or even business meetings or other endeavors perhaps. Marami siguro ako magagawa pag marunong na ko magdrive, yun nga lang, ingat!

Marami na din ako plano this year. Mukhang sigurado na ko sa isang endeavor, I'll just stick it with me. Sayang ang ikot. hehe Kaya pa naman..

Tapos siguro time to be healthy na din, kasi pumayat na ko. I just learned that nun bumili ako ng shorts. Oy, I don't know bakit lumiit ang size ng waist. hehe

Ah, siyempre, investments at lalo na, spend more time to rest and for myself and well, looking for love.

Yes.. Sana magawa ko yun at alam ko, at a optismistic perspective, yun mga kailangan iimprove sa sarili ko. Di ko magagawa lahat yun for this year pero at least may progress, in small steps..

Naalala ko last year, wala ako iniisip kundi sugod lang ng sugod, kala ko ok lang sa kin. Pero pag tagal, siyempre di lang yun pagiging simple kundi pag grow na din ng sarili. Besides, I'm not getting younger. Jeez, I'm approaching my target age to get settled down. Don't worry, that will change, di ako aabot. hehe

Marami ako pinagdaanan last year na pagtumingin ako ulit, sabi ko, nagawa ko pala yun. hehe Salamat kay Kuya Alpro at marami naman ako natutunan sa kanya di lang sa biz, but in life. I kinda appreciate what he did. Although sometimes medyo harsh pero well, like he says, that's life.

I've encountered the painful and happy times last year.

The one time revival of an old flame...

Most importantly, ano ba talaga hinahanap ko sa buhay. Yun magpapasaya sa kin, o magbibigay sa kin ng comfort and security. Pwede pera, pero in the long run, parang di lang yun magbibigay sa kin ng ligaya.

I believe success is not measured only what you have, it's what you achieved and you became happy for it.

Alam ko marami ako dapat pasalamatan for the past year, of course, one is Family. Salamat.. Even I was timid or sometimes, selfish, well at least they understand me. hehe And I was more understanding to them.. Kaya sana, kahit di mangyari lagi, magkakasama pa din tayo.. I love the xmas reunion. Bakit walang pics dito? hehe I pray everyday... That God always bless this family despite these situations..

Friends, I don't know how much or how to describe or I don't know what words to say for helping me get through this past year. Yun mga brothers na laging nandiyan, Doc, Chef and Becky, este ang Counselor. hehe I'm grateful na nandiyan ko lagi at gabayan at tulungan lagi. Mahal ko kayo mga pare! hehe Alam ko may pagkukulang pa ko sa inyo, wag magaalala, babawi ako!!! To my college best and special friends, from 2012 crew, 4ba1 peeps, 2cpm barkada, salamat, at lagi din kayo nandiyan at nagkikita pa din tayo for a good time. Good luck sa inyo. Other acquiantances, wow, nandiyan pa din, from my previous jobs. hehe Ah special friends.. You know who you are. hehe Many to mention, but just thank you. Sana kita kits pa din and I pray for God's guidance sa inyo..

And to the people that I don't know much. hehe Well, di ko din alam kung ano sasabihin ko pero thanks na din. Whatever..

I want to leave behind what happened after a year when I started working and survive the challenge. I know di pa ko tapos, at marami pa ko gagawin pero sana balang araw, I don't need to worry much everyday, I just need to get the job done or if not, relax and enjoy...

Life!

By the way, I shouldn't forget to thank Him, for every moment of this life.. I've falllen so many times, yet he's there to raise me up.

Always..

Tamang tama for holy week. hehe

I listen to.. (disk 6)

1. Everybody got to learn sometime (Beck) - from the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind OST whatever. The only song. Actually a very good song kahit ilan lines lang siya. Hay... Lovely. hehe

2. Huwag mo nang itanong sa kin (Eraserheads) - naalala ko, ito lagi kinakanta ko sa Music test namin wayback HS. Madali lang kasi saka maganda naman yun kanta di ba?

3. Feels like Heaven (Fiction Factory) - siguro pag friday, pwede na. hehe Very new wave song, like pag narinig ko to, I still remember 80's with those haircuts. hehe

4. Turnip Farm (Dinosaur Jr.) - from reality bites OST, grudge whatever song na ngayon ko lang naappreciate. hehe

5. Blue Monday (New Order) - best selling 12 inch single of all time and I know why. However, fun fact, it made sense New Order doesn't want to show or perform this song live. It sounds rubbish and they don't look good. According to one of their interviews, I saw it as well, it made the sales of the song down at some point. hehe

6. Too young (Phoenix) - lost in translation OST, good song with a pop beat. Not too short.

7. Soma (The Strokes) - short yet energetic song, bad trip lang, bakit lagi silang maiksi kumanta. hehe

8. Change (in the house of flies) (Deftones) - a rock song na medyo romantic. Ewan ko, basta kakaaddict siyang pakinggan.

9. Lucky (Radiohead) - Pag nasa travel ako at bagot, eto yun kanta gusto sa trip.. Pampaantok pero masaya. hehe Labo noh, but I like the mood of the song.

10. Sanctified (Wolfgang) - one of my favorite pinoy rock songs. Short yet straight to the metal!!! Rock on!!!

yan lang muna.. hehe some were short, some were long.. Songs..