Eye of the Beholder

Wow, I can't believe that I have survived six months of anxiety and confusion. Still looking this plain ID. I don't know what will happen to me after this.. Green lace looks good but now looks rusty. Almost dirty it seems.. The ID I bought from office warehourse surprisingly sturdy. Although it has dust on it, it can look clean in seconds if I want to.

I'm now also feeling nostalgic.. 10 years in the industry and I felt just right. Not satisfied but I feel peace. I mean as other contemporaries I know, they are now successful. I'm such a sore loser. Hahaha But as I prepare myself to a different path this coming year, although I'm nervous but I feel at ease. I don't know why, but I feel I will nail it this time. 

Besides, I look at my side and it seems I have no choice but to try. Enough of this pathetic ID, I'm now watching another pathetic jdrama, which I'll discuss later. I can't believe I'm surviving watching this one. hehe

Watching japanese dramas or series, kinda soothes me.. Even I gave up listening to my music library. I'm looking at this computer table, and I hope I can change this soon. Although it has many fun and interesting things and computers supported this table.. It served enough and time to make a change. I'm not looking for a very glassy table or shiny leather ones.. I think I just need a productive table.. I can't believe my computer is running so smooth that it's like a new computer again. I just hope that my old HDD still works even as a storage. Besides, I need a lot of storage especially 5 TB of data is running out. Surprisingly, I stopped getting files at that rate! 

Now.. I only staring this letters at the pointer. Thinking of not to write anymore as it will overlap my final blog of the year. 

I'll just focus staring Kurashina Kana. =)