My Redeemer

All this time, I've been wondering, how I've anticipate change in my life. Although I haven't reached success in a consistent way around a long time.. I wonder, is there time life to make amends, or is it too late for me to do so..

The answer for that question, is Jesus, will help me to redeem myself in a better way. My life these years I can say, a rollercoaster ride. Even I had a consistent role in different companies, I've been in different cultures.. From a toxic company, to a laid back one but no direction, to a company that gave everything which I was not able to hold all of it.. Lastly, another one which gave me a sense of loving a job and at the same time, doing extra which helped me to pay off some of my troubles.. But well, good things never last. It was cut.. Both of them.

Other events in my life that I thought I'll be worthless or indeed, unworthy of love. He gave and showed me, what others can't really do.. Showing his unconditional love, no matter what happens, helped me to be strong.

Although, after that.. I felt, something not really missing.. I felt since last year, when I was very busy and sorts, I've known him better... The faith that I have before became better, through his teachings, I had more time to know him everyday.. The hope he shown me these years which I did not realize that he gave me all along.. The love that conquered my pains, failures, obstacles and emptiness.. He indeed redeemed me from those worries all along.. I thought God was that strict, or even vengeful..

I forgot one thing, his son that helped me all the way. He helped me to make some changes, view in life.. Helped me to be not really stick to what I planned, but I should also put him in my dreams and goals. To raise me up and say to me, I know you can do better, try it again and redeem yourself.. In God's way.. For his glory.. Always.

I know he did not only do this for me, but all who come to him.. Healed the sick, forgave sins and love the poor.. Totally revealing his grace to all of us. I'm grateful, this time, even at this stage of my life.. I pray, in this journey.

There will be a time that I can redeem not only through my own skills and strength or even wisdom. But I have a helper.. My only Redeemer that can help me along the way, to change me. That is Jesus! =)

He is always.. My Redeemer.