broken lines (collection 64)

Oh Summer! I don't what to say if you are a girl..
I never get angry but these past month, you make me swirl!
Swirling into this scorhing heat, inside and out.
It got to my nerves and made me angry, fall out!

It is fine, thy sleepless nights because of you..
But if those sleepless times caused by this heat, I'll get rid of you.
The crimson heat flowing everywhere, seems unbearable.
I don't know how I'll survive this, until I find something to disable!

Summer, please don't make this longer..
Or else, we all falter in this living desert. 
For now, all I can do, is to eat more dessert!
This Summer, you are making me a bummer.. 

flashbacks: Cooler Summer

(Summer Lovin')

I haven't seen her for a while, for exactly more than a year.. 

Hmmmm musta na kaya siya? Anyway, this part eh di ko talaga nasulat pa dati pa because it happened around 3rd year. That time, di pa sikat ang blogging, sikat pa ang friendster, at Counterstrike pa. Samba craze and yes, summer job. OJT crap.

That time, wala naman required OJT ang business admin course sa UST, but to be at least competitive in the market, eh we decided, small group of friends sa section namin to have OJT. We tried to look for a better OJT package but dahil sa daming tulong binigay ng UST (wala talaga, as in!) We end up sa PLDT. At maganda, dito lang malapit sa bahay namin. hehe

Lagi ako dumadaan dun kahit dati pa, even HS days thinking ano kaya nasa loob nun besides it's a payment center for your PLDT bills, ano pa kaya? Well, yun ang opportunity namin. Pero before you can be a OJT dun, you need to get like ID and authorization sa PLDT manda office nila. Ang layo noh? Dun naman kasi yun kanilang main HR office. Ang tagal namin naghintay noon. Grabe, parang 7am pa lang nakapila na kami then mga after lunch na kami natapos. I forgot kung sino yun buong group, but what I remember, nandun malamang si ungas na Al, ako, Number 3, I'm not sure kay Kathy pero parang kasama siya dun. hehe At may iba pa eh, di ko lang sure, pero ang sure, basta yun barkada ni Al halos nandun.

Siyempre, special dun si Number 3. hehe That time, we were just having great time together pag sa skul at sa gimikan. Although that time, I can't really go for broke para sa kanya kasi may BF siya nun. Scary pa. hehe But I don't know, that time, it's just why are we that such close to each other... Siguro pesteng math subject yun. hehe Pero I'm lucky that time, two lovely ladies at my sides, one at my left and she at my right. Kung beautiful scenery lang paguusapan, di ko na kailangan tumingin sa malayo. hahaha

But anyhow, well, what are we doing sa OJT? Grabe, calling deliquent accounts, at mahaba ang listahan nila! Grabe. Ang sarap nga ng buhay nung ibang kasama ko, may time na petiks, samantala ako, yun boss ko that time, pinauubos sa kin yun listahan! Wala pa ko kasamang classmate! hehehe Pero yun lang.. 8 hours kami nandun, admin work and calling customers, then that's it. That time, I'm not really focusing on that OJT, despite siguro dun ako naging phone eccentric person, kasi outbound to the max talaga.. I'm looking forward talaga that time, after work. Siyempre yun iba deretcho uwi, kami naman ni Number 3, we ain't done yet. hahaha

Going sa bahay namin to watch Knock out anime, yun is Ippo ang bida. Siyempre both kaming anime fan. Tapos, that time, gimik! Punta sa St. Scho to meet her best friends, one of them, Joyce Jimenez look alike. hehe Bilyar malapit sa St. Paul manila, tapos siyempre may kasamang inom din. At yun paresan ngayon sa tapat ng Mcdo sa may retiro, bilyaran yun dati, naalala ko pa, may inuman din, minsan nagpalibre pa isang boss namin sa OJT. hehe

Punta din kami sa RP, then  other malls din. Tambay din sa bahay minsan.. Bahay nila at minsan nakakalusot na inuman din. At inuman din sa bahay namin, which is true and nothing else. hahaha Those stuff, pretty I can say, growing up stuff. Kaya sa dami ng beses ko hatid sa bahay nila, nalaman ko yun balut, and the tondo area until now. Geez.. Never changed lalo na pag gabi, at scary dun. 

I admit that time, as I'm a dumbfounded sa love. I felt that way before, from the day na lagi na siya nagpapaturo sa math, until the day we talked about why we can't be together which was just past years ago lang.. Alam ko I knew love I felt. That summer made it na nagpalakas pa ng feeling. I mean, we spent more time and closeness each other than it's own routine. We fought din paminsan minsan na di ko alam kung bakit. Her at that time with BF, while I'm focusing studying, planning sa future noon, at yeah nacut short ako sa OJT kasi operahan ako nun at last sa bukol ko sa ulo and siyempre that time, nursing a broken heart from Number 5. hehe It was harsh, pero ganun talaga.. But for number 3, that time, that summer, we never talk about it. I felt and knew, it will be trouble or it may destroy yun friendship namin na mayroon na kami even we have some moments, na I just can't believe it. hahaha Put it that way. 

That summer was kinda special, to cap it off, eh siya yun unang dumalaw sa kin nung naoperahan ako. hehe 

Years passed by, I had a relationship with number 1 but it did not last long. She did not end up with her BF, but she had a lot of let's say encounters pero did not go off due to complicated circumstances. We still meet, have fun and yeah, talked much serious things and these past years, college days. Our days. hahaha Even my family still looking for her, even tita is looking for me or her sis for some time. I'm surprised nga she did not have a relationship after her ex, despite nagpaparamdam siya at almost the same building, galing. hehe But yeah, remained single.

Ah yeah, nakita na din ng counselor ko 'to, tama assessment niya. Iba ang trip, di ako. hehe

I gave her something some years ago, said what I felt and end up...

She really didn't feel the same way as I do. Well, I have to move on. Pakana kasi pag nakikita ko siya, iba eh. hahaha And from her as well, pero ganun talaga. After that, yeah move on, when I see her, parang normal close friend, little sis as I can recall, number 2 is the big sis, and I wish, she'll find a partner that will really take care of her. I know medyo boyish siya, mataray pa, hehe But deep inside, a real woman. Paano ba naman walang BF, eh grabe ang taste ni ate, weird kaysa sa kin. hehe 

Pag ako naayos ko na ang dating ko, ewan ko pa pag di pa maiba ng isip. hahahaha Malabo na siguro yun.

I wonder, well sobrang busy na siya coz she went to a different bank na pala.. Higher education holder and I don't know if she is still using that car. hehe Anyway, I hope she's ok and one day, she'll have a family in her own. I can't imagine her not settling down.

Especially when you have a face that can launch a thousand ships, without make up. =)

Let Loose at La Luz!

Hay, after that pressured packed week, mabuti na lang talaga at etong company na to may summer outing! hehe It's been a while since di pa ko nag company sponsored summer outing! Last time was around 3 years ako, CME pa. But that was fun, this time, fun din. =)  I heard na this place which is right at San Juan, Batangas eh maganda daw at ok sa amenities. I heard well sa team mate, at dating ka team mate ko sa 24/7 which mukhang lagi siya nagpupunta dun.

Well, I don't really expect so much of it but what I expect is to relax and go back to that really great place. San Juan, Batangas eh nakapunta na ko thanks to that outing with CRAP around, 5 years ago, at sa kabilang part pa yun. This time, after that early ride sa bus with the company at siyempre yun team ko eh same time span, around 4-5 hours. 5 hours kasi itong mamang bus driver eh naligaw pa, sa Quezon pa ata kami dadalhin! hahaha

We arrived at nagulat naman ako, ang laki ng resort, bigger than the one na napuntahan namin ng CRAP. With the matching counter, tapos cottages at rooms, mukhang ok ha. hehe Then ayun, parang nasa maliit na cottage na made of bamboo na comfortable, siguro mas sulit pa kaunti kayo. hehe Kaso yun lang, mahal daw dun but the looks of it, sulit.

As much I want to just lay down and relax for the whole day, it did not happen. Akalain mo may program pala sila. hehe From singing and dancing programs, then competition na panalo ang SE!!!! Tug of war pa naman at nilabas talaga ang buong energy namin. hehe Some band playing na di ko alam nung lumapit ako nung hapon. hehe Well, sa dami sumama siyempre mahirap kumain, pila talaga at waiting to the max. Patience indeed tested, kaya mabuti pala nakakain na ko sa bus at kumuha talaga ako ng marami nung turn ko na! hehe Kahit sa pagalis, ganun pa din. What I really enjoyed sa affair na yun, siyempre team bonding sa team kahit hilo hilo at wasted na lahat. hehe Knowing other teams at swimming sa beach after a long time! Mabuti umaraw eh, kasi makulimlim noong nakapunta kami.

Tapos yun favorite ko of the day? Yun nakahiga ako sa bench at the other side. Just looking up at that blue sky and feel the cool breeze even sa ganun kainit. Talagang nafeel ko kahit sandali ang summer. Sabagay, matagal na din ako di nakakaouting, dapat mayroon with CRAP, kaso nacancel eh. Mabuti na lang may ganun moment na tahimik tapos presko at serene.. Hay.. I hope I can spend that whole afternoon doing that, just at happy and peace..

Kaso pesteng FLUOR team building eh nandun pala sila! Erghhh... Ang ingay, doing team activities and sh*t! hehe Dsturbed my silent sanctuary, but I promise, I'll have that kind of endeavor sometime. Mas gusto ko yun ganun tapos less swimming. Ayun nakiswimming na lang ako sa ibang team.

We left around 5pm, bad trip kasing priority bus yun dapat 4pm ang alis pero wrong bus daw. Kaya ayun lipat lipat din pag may time. hehe Ah, to cap off, La Luz is definitely worth going back into, lalo na pag di naplan ang vacation kasi malapit lang naman. Food is great, it's just yun pagserve eh malabo, but I'll forgive na lang kasi 600 naman yun tao. hehe Masarap, lalo na yun adobo, at yun chopsuey. Ambiance is great lalo pag di crowded. Ok ang program ng Stellar sa outing ha, at least organized and not trying to do a lot. Besides, it's a summer program, kahit yun sa xmas program dapat ganun lang, kaunting program, kung may prize pabigay na agad, at higit sa lahat, pakain na agad! hehe

Yun nga lang, as much I want to be sober for wow 6 months and running, di man lang ako nakatikim ng light! Draft beer daw dadalhin eh nung nakita ko yun lata, sabi ko.. Malabo dumating sa kin to. hahahaha Ok lang, weird but I"m happy, medyo lumalayo na sa beer na ko ha. Wow. Even hard drinks, parang di pa ko nakakatikim ulit. Is it really me?

Anyway, after this summer I can say, at least nakaranas ako ng summer outing.

Let loose for a while perhaps. =)

flashbacks: Cooler Summer

(Summer in my childhood)

Just a collection of events of what I can remember in my childhood days pag summer!!! hehe 

Summer for kids is fun, lalo na walang pasok, di ka gigising ng maaga at higit sa lahat, almost 2 months of no assignment or what.. Siyempre, yun lang, medyo maraming sermon galing sa parents!!! hehe

~ I won't forget, the first and hope not the last, went to US after my grade 6 graduation! Kasama si Kuya Alpro. It was fun, really fun!!! Met at last mga relatives sa father side, lalo na ang cousins na napakadami! I hope, I could go back there. We went to great America, childhood dream na Disneyland, Hollywood din.. At ang aking favorite kahit di ako mahilig sa dagat, Fisherman's Wharf in SF dahil sa lintik na chowder! hahaha Siyempre, the US experience, groceries, gadgets, Mcdo, Sears, Target, KMART, The big mall in LA, at ang village na tumira kami. A lot of action. hehe Damn.. I can't wait to come back if possible. 

~ I used to yun, a day na nagbenta ako ng mga mani, banana chips, tapos yun buto ng pakwan, right there sa gate ng Proj. 7. I don't know kung bakit ako nagbebenta nun, basta naalala ko lang may naguwi nun tapos ang dami! Pwede ko daw ibenta. Ayun nagbenta ako isang araw, parang piso lang ata kinita ko. hehe 

~ Ah, basketball!!! Eh ilang lakaran ba naman malapit sa court, di ka pa maglalaro? hahaha Well, yun court nandun pa din until now, may gate na.. Pero isang court lang siya. Dati, grabe, back to back!!!! hehe At may paliga pa nun dati. I don't know now.. Basta sino sino kalaro ko nun at ayun panay laro ko nun kahit natapilok ako.. Paano tsinelas lang kasi ang gamit. 

~ Bisikleta din hilig ko nun, but due to that freaky accident, I never rode a bicycle, lalo na with a sidecar again. Natrauma. hahaha But those days, kahit kaskasero ako o nagasgasan, sige lang ang sakay sa bike with sidecar. Paikot ikot lang sa Proj. 7..

~ The reason paano ako naadik sa video games eh because pag summer na, walang curfew mag video games kahit sinisigawan na ko ni Dad! hehehe Paano ba naman, may atari, then nauso yun family computer na Red ha. Tapos SEGA genesis, then Sega CD.. At nung kasikatan na ng PSone, yun na, lalong walang pahinga to! Kahit may warning na baka madevolop ng Epilepsy, I don't care!!!! hahahaha Grabe, lalo na yun nintendo, di na ko nakakain basta makakita ng mario3, contra, Galaga, donkey kong or those 100 in 1 games. Minsan nagaaway pa kami magkakapatid. hehe Then the rest ng gaming console, ayun na, alam ko na.. Lalo't may mga games na adventure like Resident Evil, ako ang taga tapos, tapos si Kuya Allan ang susubok ulit. Naisip ko, parang ang daya! hahaha At siyempre, I won't forget na may arcade sa may Muñoz Market pa nun.. 5 piso bawat laro.. Dun ako natuto ng arcade, paano ba naman, challenge lagi sa mga skwating dun na sobrang galing.. Ayun natuto. hehe From air combo, combo sa Tekken, KOF.. Ayun na, kahit ginagabi, walang paki. Yun lang, sabon kay Mommy. hehe

~ Ah those days na pag gising ng umaga ng Saturday, definitely, punta sa QC circle. Di ko habol yun jogging or yun magbike. Tropical Hut or Max's yun hinihintay ko after magjogging kami ni Dad! hahaha Alam niya ano gusto kong order.. Every saturday yun until that accident happened. Geez, those were the days.

~ Summer class? di ko gusto yun.. Tambay sa mga bahay ng mga barkada, lalo na nung HS na may mga barkada na kahit kaunti. hehe Kaunti lang ang date eh. Ah naalala ko isa lang. haha At di dahil sa kin, dahil kay gummybear na may nameet kami with other friend. Ayun torpe ako at quiet. Pathetic for short.

~ Childhood memories won't be complete without the TV classics. From animes, Eat Bulaga, movies, tapos sitcoms, then other shows. Late night shows, yun tipong minsan paggising mo, bukas ng TV until magpakita na yun lupang hinirang sa gabi. hehe A lot to mention kung ano yun shows na talagang tumatak sa buhay ko. Makikita o maririnig niyo naman sa kin, yun ibang banat ko, malamang natutunan ko sa TV dati. hehe Saka yun influences ko din.. Hay nostalgic years talaga..

~ One summer, quite serious, ayun.. Unang partnership in business, eh si Kuya Alpro, nagtalyer kami! hehe Very short lang.. Pero grabe yun, ako yun taga pantay ng masilya, tapos ako taga timpla ng kape ng pintor namin. Taga bili ng gamit sa hardware, lalo na yun pintura. And other things.. Paano 3 lang kami sa venture na yun. hehe Kapagod din, lalo na yun pinapantay yun masilya part. Ang sakit sa balikat. Geez..

~ At there is one thing I won't forget pag summer, or even in my childhood. GI Joe!!!!!! Action figures.. My mom used to be worried na sino kausap ko na ako lang magisa, tapos ang hawak ko lang eh yun maliit na action figure na GI Joe. Paano ba naman kasi, for example.. Shaider, eh since di naman lagi may laruan ako Shaider na action figure.. Iniimagine ko yun GI Joe eh si Shaider tapos yun voice ginagaya ko tapos ayun na! hahahaha Kaya ayun, from Dad, sila Kuya, Ate, napapansin nila sino kausap ko o naririnig nila. Baliw ata ako. hehe Ayun.. Kaya sa lahat ng laruan, eto yun masasabi ko pinakamarami at dito natuwa ako.. Kasi dun ako lumawak yun imagination ko. Kahit sa movie na pinapanood ko, lalo pag action? Naku maya maya after ko mapanood, magkukulong na ko sa kwarto, kalaro yun GI Joe! hehe Mabuti na natigil ko yun nung HS na ata ako.. Kung hindi, baliw na siguro ako. hehe Napagsabihin ata ako nun kaya ako tumigil. Sorry kay Kuya Allan kasi marami akong Gi Joe niya nasira ko. Alam mo na, dun sa beywang na part. Sobrang natwist ko lagi, nasisira ko! hahaha Kahit yun mga display niyang di dapat galawin, siyempre minsan pasimple din ako.. Ayun nasisira ko. Although pwedeng ayusin ng goma, kaso manipis goma natin eh! 

~ At siyempre, yun mga outing na talagang memorable, lalo na pag pumupunta sa Laguna kasi si Mommy dun ang probinsya. Pagsanjan at Pansol, sure na ang swimming!!!! hehe Minsan Baguio din at pag budget, Philam din minsan, sa may clubhouse nila na may pool. =) Pasyal pasyal, malls or kahit sa National Bookstore lang to buy stuff, ok na sa kin. SM din lalo na sa SM North.. Naku, wala pang the block yan at Annex kakagawa lang dati, diyan na kami. Paano ba naman, isang tricycle lang. hehe I used to have this fear nung bata ako, pag namamasyal kami, gusto ko bago magsara uwi na kami. Takot kasi ako nung bata sa mannequin, lalo na pag sa gabi at yun rollers bumababa na, eh eto pa si Dad gusto yun tumatakbo ako na umiiyak!!! hehe Kaya ayun iniiwan niya ko pagpasara na.. Daddy talaga. hehe Mommy naman hindi ako iniiwan.. hehe 

Hay, these memories are indeed memories.. Staying not only in my mind, but in my heart. Whether they left me fear, or trauma.. Pero most of them eh masaya, vivid and happiness.. Great thing I have these childhood memories that I can look back and say to myself. At least, naging bata talaga ako, naglaro, nagsaya at tumawa.

I felt one time of my life despite my looks, lalo na yun pesteng bukol.. hehe

I'm a normal kid! =)

hours before outing

yes, I thought, I can go to church, like the anticipated mass.. maybe because, tito Boy came yesterday and downloaded some oldies but goodies songs to his Ipod.. the song came from his bunch of CD's, including marvin gaye, with hair.. well, of course, it's black and white.. so I am surprised.. hehe and then, I watched the Game 2 of the Lakers vs. Spurs.. and remember, I bet on this game for a wendy's salad.. I bet at the Spurs.. and of course, I lost.. what a miserable game.. Manu is really out of sync.. Timmy is not banking shots and Parker was checked.. freaking game.. well I lost bad, but I am angry or sad.. hehe because for me, I'll better lose this game than in Game 1 which they had a 20 point lead and then lose the game.. anyway, the age is coming a factor right now and Manu need to show up his game, or else.. well, they will simply lose the series.. that's all..hehe good luck for the silver and black team.. I decided not to bring any swimming trunks or whatever to swim.. I just brought our summer outing shirt.. hehe I am looking forward for spending my time with Dell and of course, my team.. and the free food and raffles.. hehe so I hope it will be a very fun event!! I will meet Nick later since it a company wide outing and we will play Magic, I will test the black weenie deck.. let's see if I win.. We will play when we got home after the outing.. let's see if his deck got steady and stronger. It will be an interesting Sunday Magic.. but of course, I will go to church first.. hehe what else, nothing new to me.. I'm still broke.. hehe hmm I got a great sleep before I went to work.. and then, I ate a good dinner and took a warm bath.. whoa, what a way to release the boredom.. hehe by the way, Detroit and Boston today, Game 3, so Detroit needs to do is to become confident not arrogant and very good team play, both offense and defense.. anyway, tomorrow will be US Memorial Day, so expect for the long avail.. hehe like today.. it is so relaxed.. trabaho ng kaunti.. hehe I don't know what to do.. I hope I get the money next week, to pay everything.. oh well.. we hope for the best.. that's all for today.. take care, good luck, good day and God bless to all!!