Sleeping Room

Pag gising ko lagi, naisip ko na sana may electric fan dito.. Unting unti lumipat ng bahagya ang mga gamit ko sa kwartong di ko maisip na nandun ako mamalagi ulit.. Naiwan na kasi ni Kuya Allan, at ayun, nandun pa din mga plaka niya at mga japanese stuff at anime.

Wala ako magagawa, kasi si Algerro nakabalik na at gusto sa dati ko kwarto, dahil naman sa computer ko.

At ayun, balik sa kwarto na maraming alaala na may masama at masaya.. Di ko na siguro ilalahad yun, akin na lang.

Nakakagulat nga at yun TV binili ko nung nasa ventus pa ko ay buhay pa at gumagana, kailangan lang ng matinong antenna..

Yun DVD player iniwan dun, ayun gumagana pag di mo tatanggalin yun daliri mo sa power at magdasal ka na malalabas pa yun DVD sa kanya.. Malas lang ako, di na lumabas yun isang DVD ko dun.. Bubuksan ko siya pag kumuha na ko ng player..

Naisip ko na din na ayusin siguro yun kwarto, nagawa ko na nung linggo, kaso di pwede galawin lahat kasi sa mga gamit naiwan.. Buti nga wala na yun mga anay sa kabilang sahig..

Pero di ko lubos maisip na masarap pala matulog dun sa kwarto pag gabi, sa sobrang lamig.. Kasi dati di ganun, siguro nun ibang posisyon ng kama ko, ayun ayos na.. Di kagaya dati.. Grabe init lalo na sa hapon..

Subalit, kailangan ko pa din ng electric fan, industrial para malakas, lalo na sa tag init.

Dapatwa't alam ko sa hirap ng buhay ko, pasalamat naman sa kwarto kong ito, kahit medyo iba eh nakikisama naman.. Malaking kama, malapit ang TV at maganda ang bintana, kita kahit papano yun sinag ng umaga..

Kahit nasa kabilang kwarto pa yun importanteng computer ko eh, ok lang, para naman malayo siya di ba?

Sa paglipas ng panahon, nakita ko din pagkatapos ng lahat, natanggal na yun pintura at gumulo yun ibang gamit, ayun nandun pa din ako..

Tatagal ba ko dun sa kwartong iyon? Siguro, at depende din.. Mas mabuti naman kaysa magkasama pa kami ni Gerro di ba?

Palagay ko magugustuhan ko balikan yun kwarto.. Kahit papano, nawawala kahit sandali yun gulo o problema, pahinga lang ako at ayus na!

Siguro kulang na lang.. Ang fan at matinong DVD player..

Nasabi ko na nasa kwartong yun ang masaya at malungkot.. Oo, at tuwing babalikan ko yun..

Lintek yan!!! hehehe

Isara ko muna siya, at babalikan ko siya mamaya...

Dun ako matutulog!

March Madness?!

Still staring at myself for what happened these past days.. I can't believe after all the hard work, the sacrifice and everything, yes.. It ends up, bad.. I hope January won't happen again, and please.. Make this month interesting, not frightning..

Nah, this is not about the NCAA playoffs marching to the finals.. I rarely watch that, besides, I rely the updates in the net..

It is madness..

After a day I got a very pathetic survey which I feel, unfair. Then other problems came, left and right.. Maybe stress is coming in and I can't seem to be handling it well.. I hope this will end.. Sometimes, you will set expectations and end up, wrong.

Misfortunes come in the way, low in sales for weeks.. Then my memory card acted up crap, which I lost so many pictures! Damn..

I hate this.. Oh well, great thing, this wordpad is here to at least ease the pain and stress.

I can't help to really give up, but well, he is still there to support and love and give us grace.. I can't forget all of these because it is still happening.. I wonder how it will go in the next following days. I can't really smile right now but all I can do is smirk at it and frown, I hope I'll have a long rest..

Speaking of rest, yes.. My plans for next week was ruined due to the unusual thing happening in this company. For the second time, my VL was cancelled just like that. Yes, can you believe that? I do now.. I was frustrated earlier but all I can do, is give a sign for that freaking mistake.. Geez.. Oh well.. Damn. They have their days..

Due to that pathetic survey, well, my days in the company are numbered, at least for the next quarter which I do need.. I don't know how I will make up for it, especially when you have less calls.. Is their anyway to reverse that result? I tried and nah, not valid. Good job, love it!

You may seem how frustrated I am this week, unlike last week which full of fun and happy for the team, went victorious, my stats are steady and sales picking up. But all of the sudden, that was changed in just a matter of days.. I am demotivated in some way.. It is.. It was.

I'm in a daze.. Geez.. I can't believe it.

Well, I am still optimistic what's going to happen.. Nevertheless, let's see how this week patterned in such a way that will motivate me..

I always think, maybe I'll bet at Lotto and I might win! But oh well, luck is not really at my side.. Especially these days..

I'll just continue to work hard and pray, and hope and have faith.. Love? Hmmmmm yeah, love life! Even in this situation.. By the way, next week? I know it's quite special..

Let's do something special with a mix of madness..

Let's see if destiny will allow it.

flashbacks: Eat Bulaga!

Di ko napanood yun concert last Sabado. May paconcert ang dabarkads at may surprise pa si Bossing! Naman, naging busy ako at ayun.. Namiss ko. hehe

Sa tuwing mapapatingin ako sa show na yun, parang di pa din nagbago, siyempre nandun yun TVJ tapos sang katerbang host na makukulit at masayahin. =)

30 years almost running..

More than 10 shows tumapat sa kanila, at lahat giba, at sasama pa tong show nila John and Randy na hanggang ngayon di ko pa nakikita. hehe

Parang 4 TV network stations na ata sila palipat lipat and they found home at GMA 7, pero malay mo, baka lumipat pa sila sa TV 5.. hehe

Millions or I can say all the Filipinos watched their show.. It's a staple, a ritual when 12pm starts, followers all over the globe, basta pinoy, eto na ang show na pang pinoy!

Siyempre kasama naman ako dun.. hehe

I did visit their set for 3 times and masasabi ko masaya talaga at sulit, forever I will cherish.. Better than watching or joining the Uncle Bob's children's club. hehe

With all the fun and laughter and sometimes, cry lalo na may mga sad times sila..

However, at the passage of time, I believe, wala na, sila na, at hindi na matitibag ang

one and only show, Eat Bulaga!

I started watching the show, siguro nasa channel 2 na sila.. I mean talagang inaabangan ko yun mga portion nila, lalo na yun bulagaan! Saka siyempre yun TVJ, Tito na tahimik pero talagang maloko din pero tama lang.. Vic, bossing talaga, pag bumanat, talbog lahat! hehe At siyempre, kundi ka naman bossing kung matinik din sa chicks! hehe Joey, ay, wala na tatalo kung sa asaran at banatan lang, saka sa jokes, eto na, one of the best.. =) Saka magaling din magsulat ng kanta, nandun siyempre ang favorite ko, Itaktak mo! bwahaha

At siyempre, may mga host pa na magagaling din, siyempre, from Jimmy, Ruby, tapos si Francis M na namayapa na.. Tapos Micheal V, hmmmm kahit sina Janno, o even Toni Gonzaga na I remember, bago siya umalis ng EB, eh panay kantiaw na lilipat na sa 2 which she did. hehe Then maraming na dumaan sa EB, eh siyempre mga legends na Coney Reyes, Aiza tapos Christine Jacob, then, ayun marami pa..

Today, ayun Jose and Wally, badet na Paolo and the hot brazilian chicks being lead by Daiana if I got the spelling right.. Ah, yes, Sex Bomb na una limang dancer lang sila. hehe Then EB babes and yes kahit si Ana Feliciano, ayun dancer ni Willie. hehe Galing din EB..

Kumbaga, yun mga kalaban nila ngayon, dumaan din palang EB. Grabe!!!

Di lang naman yun ang panalo sa EB, kundi siyempre yun mga pacontest nila.. It proves the theory, na lahat gagawin para sa pera. =) Of course from Little Miss Philippines, Mr. Pogi na may mga generate na artista, example, Echo. hehe Then lotong bahay, ah Super Sireyna, even mga katulong may pacontest din.. The usual acting contest pag may bagong pelikula! hehe At yun matindi talaga, I forgot yun name ng contest, basta may papagawa tapos kailangan talunin mo, example, kainin yun utak ng baka.. Ayos. hehe

Then maraming pa silang pacontest na pinauso.. Laban o bawi, at ang favorite, Taktak Mo! Alam ng CRAP kung bakit. hahaha

Ngayon siyempre, walang kupas yun Pinoy Henyo at Juan for all.. Madami, geez kulang ang isang post for all the pakulo at pagimik ng EB na di naubusan..

Galante din naman sila, lalo na sa papremyo, minsan pinapanalo nila yun contestant.. Which is good..

At least, kumpleto rekados ang EB at mantakin mo, araw araw nila ginagawa yun Mon-Sat.. Geez, at di sila napagod. Dapat kunin na din nila yun linggo kasi panget naman yun Party Pilipinas. hahaha

Well, ah pag holy week, ayun, imbes magsaya, gumagawa sila ng drama in observance sa holy week.. =)

Bulagaan, grabe yun ang portion na pag malungkot at yun pinanood mo portion, tanggal ang lungkot. Hehe

I want to really thank EB not only because for the fun and laughter but also the memories na nakuha ko.. From the hosts hanggang audience, talagang sulit ang oras mo of just watching the show.. Very stress free at kahit marami pang critics or kalaban, wala na tatalo sa EB.. Besides yun mga banat ko, dito ko nakuha ha. hehe

I hope in the future, of course tatanda na yun TVJ, they should get yun papalit sa kanila, not as TVJ but host ng show.. Marami naman pwede pumalit sa kanila at tuloy ang show..

I don't know if they will reach 50 or 100 years, but it they are able to do it, wow.. More than Guiness record na yun!

Pero we are indeed lucky in our country despite all the chaos and trouble we everyday face..

There is a show that makes us smile and forget all those troubles, for a short time..

What a show, one of the best, in my lifetime!

Mula Aparri hanggang Jolo, isang libo isang tuwa, Eat Bulaga! =)

Black Swan

I was surprised last year, that Aronofsky has a new film and it's with Natalie Portman, Vincent Cassel and the hot Mila Kunis.. And yes, if it's Aronofsky, better to expect, the theme is dark and depressing. It was..

After my Wednesday shift, I decided to watch this film, besides I waited for it and quite surprised that they will show it here. Even I know for Darren films are not only dark but some scenes, well, it also involves nudity, or obscene or how about gruesome scenes.. But geez, I was surprised it will be shown here, than Scott Pilgrim. Anyway..

I went to Trinoma and watched it, even I already invited two of my closest friends to watch it. One well, very busy, and the other one, too far and it will be done on Friday which I know, it will be a hectic day and a damn traffic at down south..

I decided to watch it by myself..

Great thing, I arrived at the perfect time to start..

Nina is an aspiring dancer in a ballet company which hoping to get a big break. Nina by the way is played by great Natalie Portman. Then, her director, Thomas, had set up a new play and it is for the title Swan Lake. He also needs a new lead which was handled before by Beth which is played by surprisingly Winona Ryder.. Thomas played by the way by one of the luckiest actors in the film, Vincent Cassel, the Mesrine dude! hehe

Nina is trying hard to get the role and all of the sudden, got hard when another dancer came in which is Lily.. Played by Mila Kunis.. Damn chick. hehe

Then yes, added to that pressure is Nina's mom who was a former ballet dancer, played by Barbara Hershey and they indeed look like mother and daughter. =)

As Nina auditioned, well, Thomas thought not giving her the role since oh well, she is good being the white swan but so lame being the black swan. However, director changed his mind due to that "small talk" and gave the role to Nina anyways..

Then that made Nina not only happy, but also got mad, mad in the sense of perfecting the black swan dance even she did not know what is the right thing to do. Due to that pressure, she is getting images or events that she thought she is doing of. Getting worried aobut her skin and her habits like scratching, and fear of her mom and other things.. Even her likeness to Lily, even at first she is pissed at her...

Nina was getting paranoid as the performance comes near, and she is getting crazy.. Even the only advice from her colleagues or even the director is to loose her self, and being more sensual and real to herself..

She did not follow that advices especially with the series of events happening to her which she cannot understand, until the performance came in.. She gave her best performance, at first quite nervous but at the black swan part, she was able to pull it off admist of the complications happening to her.. Then at the last one, she was able to finish it and everybody seemed impressed.. Yet her, slowly dying inside, smiling that it's over.. Then cut! =)

As I am a Darren Aronofsky fan, I can say I am satisfied what he has done in that film.. It is depressing but masterpiece of sort of.

Of course there some flaws, like as you see, the story is simple, it only got complicated with what Nina feels and see about her pressure and being paranoid.

Another flaw is hmmmmm yes, performance is great but the emotional bond you can relate, like the one in the Wrestler, you can hope that Mickey Rourke can survive the agony, in this one.. You don't want to root for Nina, because she just need to get hold of herself.. She was able to do it but it was too late. How pity. hehe Or how about in Requiem for a Dream, you just hope you can help any of those 4 characters but well, you can't, there are so addicted it seems.

However, those are the only flaws I can see..

I can say, it's between 2nd or 3rd best film of Darren. In terms of performance, Natalie will go home with an Oscar tomorrow. I mean, I don't think Michelle Williams or Annette Benning will stand a chance against her. They are good actresses but Natalie's performance was just superb.. Not only in her acting but also as a ballet dancer, it is very hard to dance in one scene then get crazy in another scene. That's it.. No other explanation to add.. Definitely, that's her.. It's a long due for her to get an award..

As for other characters, it was well delivered. From Barbara, Winona, and the dancers and of course, Mila Kunis! Yeah! hehe I think that character she played, she played it naturally. =)

And my man, Vincent Cassel, it did not show his difficulty in speaking english.. And how he played that director, great! and added, he got his chances for the 2 chicks! hehe But yes, he was great.

Great thing about the movie, the pace as well.. Like other psychological thrillers, it will work with good editing and many events happening at the same time then cuts out.. It worked in this movie, like the scenes from the bar into Nina's room, I know it was raunchy and hot, but it was artistically done. How about the way she practices and other scenes, the scene which she was visiting Beth.. That was scary. Yikes. hehe

Her paranoia scenes were great as well, and of course well delivered.

Cinematography, geez it was hard to spell but yes, it was good as well. Even in a tight budget, it was realistic and kept with the pacing and the art involves in the film..

Speaking of Art, the dancing part help as well, how ballet works and the difficult training and the process, it was interesting of sorts. Sounds, perfectly fit for the movie and the dancing as well, I mean for the ballet performances..

And it look you thought it was a ballet film, but it was not fully for that. It's because of the feeling of Nina going in that process.. It just fit together in the film, with it's dark elements, it was a fit. Not that much but not that less.. Just fine, not perfect though.

Directing, well, it's Darren Aronofsky, he combined it with a sense of giving the thrills and feeling on how to achieve perfection, in a dark way.

But he should make lighter films, geez, even Pi was dark but has one of the good endings in his films. hehe I hope he can venture to that topic.. A happy life.

He won't win best Director or even the best film, I feel sorry for him because I thought at first, he will win this time for the best Director, but when Inception and other films came in place, it is not his time. Damn. Better luck next time!

But he is good already, actually one of the best movie directors I like. Maybe because his films even it's depressing, but it's great with its other aspects, artistically and creates a deep bond with the viewer..

Great movie and definitely, one in my collection, except for the Fountain. hehe

unplanned 21

Yes, I'm quite addicted to Amy Winehouse these days. hehe I hope she's fine.. Pano ba ko na addict sa kanya?

Last week, I was able to watch the grammy's and yes I saw the egg stunt by Lady Gaga and there was a rendition to Aretha Franklin.. Christina, Jennifer, and some diva's.. I listen to their voices, sabi ko, well, si Christina pwede.. pero yun iba, parang hirap.. Sana nandun si Amy and Joss siguro. hehe O kahit si Amy na lang lahat with Christina o Joss.. Pwede na.

Then yes, I got the 2 albums at ayun, like one of her songs, Addicted, to her. hehe

I hope well, she can have her head clear and make the 3rd album asap! Damn great voice and very intelligent songwriter, very clever, and raw.. Good looks as well, it is, than her chubby look before. =)

Tama na nga kay Amy.. Actually ang isusulat ko dapat yun Soma, sona ni Pnoy. hehe Kaso change of heart, katamad at mahirap yun isusulat ko.. Siguro sa July na lang, masyado kasi political powered yun isusulat ko.. Inatake na ko ng katams eh. hehe

What happened for these past weeks, well, still single, not had a special valentine pero siyempre done something special naman na wala narating. hahahaha Bahala na siya dun..

Yes, medyo surviving na stats ko this month, kinapos lang pero this March, eto na kailangan push na for passing na para makasurvive na for the next quarters. hehe

Ah sa shop, ayun, medyo mahina this past weeks. Naipit nga ko, peste talaga, kaya kailangan makabawi sa March.. Lalo pa naman mahina these months na walang pasok. Hay.. I hope yun mga plans for my shop magwork pa din!

March will be an interesting month.. Yes, like I always write, I tend to forget that month. hehe Pero yes, this year, let's make it interesting na lang.. =)

Algerro's stay is quite productive, more safe and I'm happy.. =) Pero naman, ang gastos ha, sobra. hehe

I was able to watch some movies and docs, which I was quite suprised. Kasi sa sobrang busy ko, ayun, di naman ako makapanood.. Siguro, pag gusto, ayun manonood. hehe And yes, I think I should get a good DVD player and a fan sa kwarto ko na tulugan..

I can't believe na this Feb, nareach ko yun target ko 15 per month even in a rush work.. Kasi parang every month lalo ako nagiging busy pero good thing, this month, I was able to manage it and besides, kahit walang kaha computer ko, gumagana siya. hehe

March at work, will be tight and tired.. Tight because of the target stats, tired, kasi OT's to come! hehe Good job and yes, medyo malungkot kasi there will be a big change eh. Which inevitable.. I hope that change will help me to stay in the company. hehe

Tired as well, due to some changes I need to do sa shop, kasi yes, it will be a difficult month at kaunti lang customers.. We hope we can survive that small customer count. =) Need to do promos and price adjustments, it will be a long month.

March also showing na ng Sucker Punch!!! 300 was for motivating guys to fight for honor, till death! This new movie from Zack is for the chicks, and yes, for the guys beccause of the hot chicks involved.. And the geek stuff as well, I love a blonde with a samurai sword in a sailor uniform fighting a big monster samurai with a machine gun. hehe It's like a video game/anime inspired movie, a dark one. If Scott Pilgrim is a lighter note, Sucker Punch is a darker note.. Hehe I don't care for 3D, it looks good at 3D.

Masyado ata advance, wala na ko masabi sa Feb eh.. It was a short month yet indeed better than January.. Kahit medyo short. =)

March? Let's see how it will go.. If it will be interesting and progressing as well..

Ah yes, I like what Amy sings.. Love is a losing game. Geez..

Ako

How to describe myself? As I answered it to an interview, yes, I am a team player, patient, fast learner and versatile..

Of course, palusot lang yun para plus points sa interview.. hehe Sino ba si Alfred? Siguro kulang tong isang post.. Pero ang plano ko, paiiksiin ko na lang..

Siguro naman, with all the post written here, you still can't figure out who I am.. How I think, or feel on certain things.. How I work or do things.. Maybe how I sleep or daydream.. Nandito na din. hehe

From my team, sa friends, kahit sa business ko or most especially my family.. They are the best people to describe who I am.. Kahit sa comments na lang ng CRAP, kilalang kilala ako. hehe

Pero as I look to myself these past years, yun former self ko parang nawawala.. Shy type overboard almost lost na, shy na lang sometimes. hehe My bump in my head lost for almost 8 years already, which it helped me alot.. Yun slow reflexes ko, nagimprove. hehe Or yes, naging business minded na ko, due to of course of my shop.. Professional because of my job.. And due to business and job, yes, naging goal oriented na ko.

I can say as well, romantic in the sense what I did to just court a lady.. Even I tried to many of them, only one worked. hehe Pero siyempre, ok lang yun, at least di naman sobrang effort ginawa ko dun. Hahaha, kaso patay naman ako sa CRAP nito. hehe

Hopeless romantic for now.. Yet, still working out. I can say as well, I'm out of shape.. Peste kasing chic-boy yan eh.. Pero don't worry, nakaplan na kung paano ako magiging healthy at the course of the year..

Conscious na din ako for everything.. Maybe because I'm getting old na din.. Geez.. What's going to happen in my story?

I also think I'm imaginative or creative, due to business kasi you need to make new ideas to make your business survive.. Creative in the sense here, in writing stuff.. And yes, because of movies and music, nadagdag pa ang kaalaman! Grabe eh. hehe

Sociable naman na ko.. Lalo na sa work ko, kahit quiet pero di pwede dun na tahimik ka na lang sa tabi kung ang katabi mo eh makulit at maingay. hehe

Pero masaya naman kahit mahirap yun work as long the team is great, at least tanggal ang pressure dun sa work..

Faithful, to God, everybody else.. Being faithful and leaving other things or worriness to him.. Just him, a big reason why I'm still here.. Doing all I can to really enjoy life. =) I'll do my part and the rest, it's up to Him.

Happy? Hmmmm I can't tell, park that muna. hehe

Siguro yun lang masasabi ko sa sarili ko kasi for now, I am reinventing myself to become better.. Even I have little time to spend everyday to do that, but I know someday, I can focus to myself not only to improve but also enjoy this short life..

Kaya, ayun, try to make out most of it and with the support of the people around me, I believe I can achieve it..

I will, definitely will..

I am now in the middle of my journey.. Moving forward to a better path. =)

Son

Reaching my 28 years of existence.. Yes, belonging to a simple family..

As I sat in a white couch, listening to the usual talk from my dad. Usual talk includes, siyempre advices, sabon and reminders.. I tell to myself, yes I can do those but di naman lahat. hehe But thanks to him, especially in these past years.. I am very grateful to have him as my Dad, even I know malayo pa at marami pa ko kakainin bigas just to make him proud of me.. But I won't give up, and I'll take his advices hopefully this year, magawa ko naman kahit ilan dun. hehe I hope he'll recover sa condition niya and long life..

Looking at her reading the results of lottery which I thought, sana manalo na para di na taya ng taya. =) I think she enjoys it, and well, telling me na sana ganun tinaya number and that.. Of course, di naman mawawala ang sinasabi niya na medyo malungkot. I don't want to dwell on that.. =( However, a Mom like her that I am proud of, on how to take care of us, making sure we are safe even matanda na kami.. Or how about chores? Siya naman nagturo sa min.. Thoughtful as well, and yes, the best magluto.. No joke! Ask my friends.. Naku lalo na yun salad niya, may pending pa ata.. I hope well, long life ahead of her..

Then of course, I am now sleeping in his room full of anime stuff, and vinyl which are endangered to be eaten by pest.. And yes, the room has a TV but no fan.. Pero sobrang lamig naman sa gabi.. hehe It was my first room before pero ayun I ended up there again. He is with dad and well, I tried to help him or us but ayun, he needs to really think what's best for him and simply work hard.. Lalo na ngayon, may family na siya.. Ah, I owe him my likeness in movies and japanese culture. hehe And yes, chores and odd jobs, he's the one you can trust..

I went to her place last week, and yes di ko pa din nakikita yun bagong house niya. hehe I am glad na kung kailan tumanda ako naging close ako sa kanya.. Before nah, siyempre kasi nahihiya ako sa kanya.. Lalo na nung HS and college.. But at the passage of time, ayun nagiging malapit ako sa kanya, at lalo na siyempre may utang pa ko sa kanya. haha But other than that, yun support, she filled it.. I think she inherited yun mainitin ang ulo, like dad.. hehe Peace Ate! However, for now I can say she is a loving wife and good Mom to her kids, my nieces pala.. A die hard Rick Ashley fan, and Sharon ata.. hehe But because of her saka si Kuya Dong, yun musical love ko, almost sa kanila galing.. Love it! Advices that she tells me at yes, yun mga gifts ko sa special friends, sa kanya galing. hehe Thanks Ate.. Well, I hope I could visit her new house sometime.. Kaso ang hirap naman pumunta sa LP ngayon. Lintik kasi, ngayon lang magkaka Maynilad sa kanila. hehe

Ah yes, one of the prominent alumni ng LSQC.. How prominent, eh nung GS hanggang HS na teacher, kilala siya. hehe I still remember, sinusundo pa ko sa LSQC using the blue wagon.. Which I know pinachop chop na ni Dad.. hehe Siya naman si Kuya, eh really I can tell right of the bat, di kami close noon.. Even he's the one before me.. Kaso due to what happened to him before until this 2000 ayun medyo nahirapan siya. Pero bilib ako sa kanya, kasi even he was not able to finish schooling in college, may shop siya ng cellphone na malaki.. At kung sipag at tiyaga, siya na yun primary example.. =) I still remember, he used to work at dunkin donuts sa Mu�oz, eh taga dala ako ng baon. hehe Then, ayun buy and sell ng kotse hanggang now, well, may stable na siyang shop... We became close when dito na sa D.Tuazon sila nakatira.. With his loving family na laging nasa tabi niya.. =) Kakainggit nga eh..

Kahit nawala sa kanya si Prong, he still became strong and overcome it and now, moving on happily with Ate Jen and Jeleane.. =) I just wish for him more success and better health.. I think he needs a stronger knee. hehe Tol salamat sa lahat.. At kahit minsan nagkukulang ako, pasensya na...

Yes, he is just smiling around, in my bed.. My special brother, after that unfortunate incident last year, now.. I can't believe he is sleeping in my room. hehe Smiling and calm.. =) A person who needs not only love but also longest patience and strong understanding.. Kahit lagi niya sinasabi yun hate niyang artista and gusto niyang superhero.. Oo lang ako ng oo.. hehe I am relieved na yes, he likes living at our side.. At least, I am getting close to him at take off pressure from Dad. I love him and I'll do my best to make him a better man even at his state.. =)

As you see, in this family.. I'm a witness..

I'm a listener..

I'm a messenger..

I'm a mechanic who fixes some problems within us.. Even sometimes, I have the wrong tools. hehe

I'm a bridge who connects the broken sides and roads.. Pero baka maputol in some time, which I don't know when..

Pero kahit I'm tired or bored or worse, fed up with it. I never lose hope or love to this family.. Because I think that's my purpose in this life, to make this together.. I still love them and because of them, it made me a better person, even in a wrong way.. Maybe because they show naman they love me and trust..

Kahit sometimes, they show none of those. But ok lang.. hehe Even we went downwards, well, we are doing our best to go up again with our own efforts.. For me, geez.. I'm doing everything to make it but I think we need everyone's effort. =)

Well, for now, even I think in the future that I may end up single because of the task at hand and as I get older, maybe I just do what I need to do for this family.. I always ask Him, continue to guide us and make Him the center of our life, to be strong to face adversities and continue to love each member of this family..

I almost lost hope before but I don't know what made me believe again for this family..

Maybe because of the memories I had, the events and yes, simply the pictures in those albums..

I can't believe, we were so happy together back then..

I just hope now, I'll see another recent picture of us together..

In one happy family picture.. =)