nasaan ka na

hay kakapagod ngayong araw.. hehe di naman buong araw pero itong umpisa ng shift.. sa pagkatapos ng shift ko, nagkita kami ni Joanne, best friend ko nun college, pumunta kami sa puntod ni Prong.. well, mahabang lakaran nangyari kasi pinuntahan di namin un friend niya namatay din na halos katulad ng araw kay Prong.. un friend ni Joanne pumanaw ng Sept. 4, 2007, samantala si Prong, Sept. 5, 2008.. napakasaklap ng kapalaran.. pero ganun talaga ang buhay.. kailangan tuloy ang buhay.. pagkatapos noon.. dumerecho kami sa gateway ulit, at kumain.. masarap pala ang teryaki boy at siyempre, matagal na ko di nakakatikim ng coffee bean, kaya nangyari na noong sabado.. hehe maraming salamat Joanne.. di bale, babawi ako sayo.. at un, nakauwi na ko ng mga 3pm at nanood sandali ng NCAA.. hehe malakas ang San Beda.. 3 peat na to.. sayang un Mapua.. wala na naman silang malaki.. maraming tao sa Araneta noong sabado dahil opening ng NCAA, pero nanood na lang ako sa TV.. isa pang team na bilib ako, Letran.. wala na silang malaki ha.. pero nanalo pa rin sila sa JRU.. iba kasi ang batak na players ng Letran.. pero ang problema, pag San Beda ang kalaban, sure na talo sila.. hehe kawawa naman.. next week naman, UAAP na.. go uste!!

tapos, Linggo na.. siyempre, Paquiao day.. bad news, wala ako net.. naputulan.. yan ang nangyayari pag broke ang isang tao.. hehe pero ganun talaga ang buhay.. eto na.. puro warcraft at NBA Live na lang ang ginawa ko.. pero ang plano ko dapat, tignan sa net kung sino nanalo, kaso ung nga.. putol.. bad trip.. mga 12pm na nagstart un laban.. Round one.. ok pa naman si Diaz, pero nun pagdating ng ibang round, na punching bag ni Pacman.. durog.. hehe pero mantakin mo, Round 9 bumagsak si Diaz ha.. ang tibay pala talaga, pero di pwede kay Pacman yan.. galing!! dapat sumunod kay Pacman eh si Valero, or si Campbell para marami belt niya.. or si Hatton, pero para sa record din at pera.. hehe pero, tama si Freddie Roach, dapat magretire si Pacman by next year kasi sa mga laban na naharap niya.. di biro ha.. lahat legend at hall of famer.. buti nga, di niya lalabanan si Cotto eh.. tapos noon.. natulog na ata ako.. ah, nanood pala ako ng TV, PBA pero ok lang.. nakatulog ako.. hehe

tapos ng Linggo, siyempre, Lunes.. at naglinis ako ng kwarto, nagayos ng mga magic decks at mga gamit ako.. anu pa ba.. yun, nagayos ng mga kalat din.. bale, napaaga pala ako gumising.. napapanood ako ng unang hirit at umagang kay ganda.. hehe saka myx pala sa studio 23.. voltes V din saka pokemon.. napatagal ata ang nood ko, di ko napansin, pero ok lang, wala naman kasi akong internet.. para sa ngayon.. ang napansin ko lang na kakaiba eh project 1 na kanta.. ung ang sarap dito.. ok ha.. all star cast pala sila.. hehe sandwich, imaga, saka may isa pa, pero di ko kilala un name ng banda.. tapos, ang malupit, ung bagong kanta ng pedicab na ang video eh hinaharass ng mga Japanese Girls!!! mga hayop kayo!! ang buenas ang mga letche.. ang title ng kanta, ang pusa mo.. maiksi pero astig nun kanta, video din.. pero overall, wala lang sila magawa.. nanggugulo lang.. haha pero astig talaga nung video.. one of the best of the year.. nakakatawa.. saka sino un mga chikas dun.. hehe pero pagnaayos ko na un internet ko, ilalagay ko un mga pamatay na OPM video.. hehe sa mga bumabasa, baka magtaka, kung bakit nasaan ka na ang pamagat ng aking blog para sa araw na ito.. tuwing pakikinggan ko ung kanta ni nyoy volante, parang napakalungkot ko.. siguro.. talagang napakahirap, lalo na pagnatatandaan mo un mga panahong masaya kayo.. sa isa't isa, sa hirap o ginhawa.. kaso talagang ganun eh.. mahirap ang pag ibig lalo na pag may bahagi na bawal.. hay, napakahirap.. magmahal siguro ulit.. talagang siguro, ganito muna ako.. magdusa at maging mapagisa siguro.. mukhang di na siya babalik..

hay naku.. ganito na siguro ang buhay para sa kin, para sa taong na to, gulo, away at lahat na.. hehe pero malamang, kailangan bumawi talaga ng matindi.. hehe sige, eto na lang muna sa ngayon.. magandang araw, pagpalain tayo ng Diyos at.. salamat sa lahat..

2 years..

well, it's queuing today.. good job.. hehe so the real work starts today.. by the way, I came from the wake of Nina's mom.. it was sad thing for her.. losing a mother is really hard to accept, I can see it to her eyes.. even she is telling us that she's ok.. but still, you can deny that she is having a hard time coping the loss.. I hope that she will overcome it and just pray that her family will cope up what happened.. hmmm, before I went to the wake.. of course, I fell asleep on Monday night.. and woke up early around 6am.. I talked to Joanne and planned how to go to Nina's house.. so, at 9am.. I left the house and proceed right away to LP.. I went to RFC but the Magic shop there, unfortunately, was already closed.. no notes left on where they transferred or what happen.. anyway, I went right away to my sister's house but well, they are not there.. the only person I met was the carpenter.. he told me that my sis asked him to do some paint and cabinet jobs.. hehe so I left and went straight to Festival Mall in Alabang.. Joanne was late, we met like 1:30pm at National bookstore due to some errands.. but that's fine.. and then we went to Nina's house, which is kinda far.. hehe but I was able to remember it because we went there last 6-7 years ago because of her debut party! hehe it was a very long time ago.. so, we ate, talked a lot about our batchmates and our lives as well, then we went home around 5pm.. it took me 2 hours to go home from Alabang.. hehe so good thing for me.. I was not late.. hehe time for redemption... that's all.. good job..

but that's not the main topic for this blog.. hehe sorry.. this is the time.. why 2 years.. to tell you the truth.. everytime I am alone, or travelling around.. I am reminiscing the events happened last year.. as you see, I was in love with a person.. a very speciall person.. we should be celebrating our 2 years of intimate relationship, but unfortunately.. due to some difficulties.. some wrong decisions.. some troubles.. I don't know.. we did not reach on January this year.. at first, there is denial stage.. it is very hard to accept.. that it's over.. everything between the two of you, was over.. so much hurt.. so deep.. so I don't know feeling.. hehe just plain bad.. that's life.. very unfortunate.. that's love.. as well, very sweet when it's working.. very bland when it's gone.. and yeah.. after a while.. I was to accept such fact.. such feeling everyday.. however, like I said to Reggie.. memories are hard to remove.. especially fond memories with the someone you used to love every moment of the day.. and everytime that happens, I just stare at a blank state.. and back to normal.. yet, it's keep coming back for a while.. but after that kind of blank state.. I just give a smile on my face and move on.. but nonetheless, it is a hard process.. very hard, because I want to have that feeling back, but I cannot.. despite all of these, what can I say.. I will get that feeling back in a different time, maybe spending this feeling in a different lady.. I believe that love moves in mysterious ways.. naks.. hehe but yes.. I do.. love just comes that you least expected.. or some times, a surprise.. like what happened at that same night.. two years ago.. it's really a funny yet solemn feeling.. love.. there are so many definitions of love.. if I will state each of one of them.. it may take forever.. hehe but for me, love is heaven and earth.. simply as that.. why? when you're in love, it's like you're in heaven.. but when both of you are fighting, it's like earth.. it's chaotic.. yet manageable.. hehe I like earth as a better metaphor than hell.. in love.. heaven and earth.. if you see it, it's like one place yet a big place interconnected to each other.. like what happened to me.. we defied some laws I guess.. but despite what happened, what was the outcome.. I never regretted what happen.. even I know she is still bitter what happen.. I can't blame her.. but whatever it is.. If she is reading, which I believe it's impossible.. I apologize for what happened.. I know, you won't reply or whatever.. I hope you'll forgive.. me.. for anything that I did to hurt you.. I know you will not tell me.. but that's fine, I will be waiting just for that.. take care, good luck to your future endeavors.. if you have time, you can just drop by at our house.. hehe and pray as well for your health and success.. never give up ok.. so that's all I can say.. for you.. do I miss her? yes.. do I still love her? it's almost gone.. time is a one big factor, for healing.. the feeling I have for her, now, hmmm I don't know.. in between I guess.. hehe so.. that's all.. I hope, I can still send some flowers for you.. again.. anyway, what else did I do yesterday, I saw a magic shop at Festival, a bit expensive yet I got the cards I needed.. hehe so that's fine.. I wasn't able to sleep before I got to work.. damn.. hehe so I will make up for it.. later when I gone home from work..

anyway, I just need to focus now at work because we have only few avail.. hehe so take care.. good day, good luck and God bless to all! I hope, yesterday was indeed 2 years..