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Before going to work, eto, planning what's going to happen in December!

Dad's birthday coming soon, hmmmm holidays na din and yeah nothing special. This new work I have I can say, mga 1-2 months ko pa mamaster at least 80% of the work, kasi yun remaining 20% eh di mo naman mamemorize kasi even the veterans eh nagtatanong pa ng answers sa TL. Mukhang challenging backoffice work to really prepare myself for the dream job. Naks.. Tamang brain excercise lang. 

I've decided to well, make some activities sa LOJ since Sundays off and sure na! Yes, thank God! hehe Hmmmm I'll tell it to my current CG head. Actually schedule na lang hinihintay ko, sana Saturday off ako pag nagseminar na. =) December this year, even drought financially eh masaya naman ako, kasi it's the time that I can rest, no more holiday rush sa orders and even managing the shop, looking ahead sa inventory and sales at cash! It's all about preparing for next year and budget na din. Besides ang problem ko na lang eh, well survive this job, get more bills to generate to earn extra income. As much I want or need to do a part time job, I hope I can find one na pwede dito sa bahay lang... More doing my work sa computer ko lang. Wag nang extra work in another company kasi mahirap since galing Eastwood tapos kung malayo pala yun company, wag na te. hahaha

This month, looking forward to read another book, or buy a new one! Ah more movies to watch as I dig my collection... Reunions eh nandyan na yan, sana sa mga dating team ko.. Or even CRAP, friends, special friends, new ones, or kahit sa CG. 

This month, I announce, sadly this will be the last month na 15 number of posts ko for each month. Reason one, I feel I'm running out of ideas to write! hehe Second is yeah, other movie posts will be in a separate one, although baka di agad agad, pero target ko for my personal ones are 10 then kung ano sumubra dun, that's a bonus. I'll find pa kasi a good site where I can post the other blog. =) More of a movie blog, actually it's a movie blog, just for fun! 

This month, yeah, another year of bliss and white christmas.. Geez, I pray na next year, I'll spend with somebody special! Naks.. How I wish. And yes, looking forward for next year, progress and change. If there will be small progress next year, I'll be damn happy, kahit saan, even in financially, emotionally or physically.. That's a big step for change. =)

So, that's it oh yeah I forgot, will I go sa Cinemanila? Very dramatic selection they have this year.. Wala manlang action packed!!! =(

December to remember....

a Christmas rush

I haven't get any sleep or rest for a while, but after what happened these holidays, especially Christmas, it was a very good time.

Before Christmas, I already know what will I do, it's like a kid who saw a great toy. The thing that I should do. Well, things I should do. Thanks to some people who gave me some enlightenment and most especially, God.

Truth as well..

Before Christmas, well, very busy, from running to shop to shop and I tried to get a rest but oh well, so many customers. Hehe

Then, yeah, as I visited Dad and Algerro. I also what, eat and ate. hehe Damn it's Christmas and I changed my appetite, missed a lot of good food and oh well. hehe

Before Christmas as well, I've done which I never did like years already, going mass before Christmas. Before, I am with Dad or some years, Mom, but as time goes by, I am with myself. Watching the play of the nativity and of course, the mass proper. Standing for one and a half hours of pure hope, faith and love from him.

Christmas came, oh well, I should be with the other side of the trip. hehe But that's fine, went to Moonwalk, and it changed a lot. Met some uncles and aunties, and Ni�a Jose table calendar. Nice chick. hehehe Went home, sleep and next day? Work. Kinda went to the malls and want to watch Avatar. Unfortunately, since it's MMFF, Avatar is only at Imax.

Forget it. Just played my timezone card. hehe

After a hard day's work. That's it.

A very boring yet fulfilling Chirstmas. Boring because nothing much happened, except for the eve of Christmas which all the siblings are here, giving money and singing their hearts out. hehe Yeah, I am not that type of guy. That's why I said boring. hehe

Fulfilling because the support I got from my family, is up a notch. Never been this before. Do what will make you better. As long you're ok with it. They are there to understand. It's once in a blue moon. hehe But I'll take it and that is one of the best gifts I got in Christmas, support and well, a family.

Not material, not in new paper bill, but something you keep not only for the whole new year but for a lifetime. Oh yes, better than the toy gun I got decades ago. hehe

Kinda late but like she said, Happy Christmas!!!!!

pasiyam

What a day, I thought it won't end good. Hehe Even palapit na ang xmas eh I feel just tired or whatever. hehe Or even worry. Time is indeed fast. A bliss passed by my face, already 9 months? Well, what can I say... Did I reach something at this time. Most importantly, masaya ba ako?

We'll find that out when the real Christmas come. Oh boy. hehe

I haven't really relaxed yet, punta dito, bantay doon. Mga ganoon baga. Kahirap naman. Pero ganun talaga ang buhay. Mga akala, may tama, kaso maraming mali. hehe

I can't blame anybody but me. However, I hope there is a second chance. A real second chance. I have chances before but this one I'm asking is a different one. It's like rejuvenate my life in an awkward way. Learned lessons, discovered truths, finding happiness, those sorts of life things. Which you never learn in school. You learn it, by experience. I hate that subject. hehe It's because you fail first before you pass.

Indeed, another one you need in life, is to be free. Inhibitions, fear, failures, coercion, worries, depressions. Gloomy words isn't it? But as time goes by, I felt that way. Nothing seems going right for me.

Pero, yeah, kalimutan na yun, move on and start great I guess. I hope, it will be right this time...

Coming back isn't the only option right? hehe

flashbacks: A big tree and a toy gun

Christmas is a very special occassion for all of us! For me, well, it's like a normal day. For now. However, wayback my childhood days, this is the season to be really merry. Why? Gift giving as usual, noche buena, the big xmas tree and my most memorable gift was a toy gun.

It's a big one as well. Everytime xmas comes, especially in the Project 7 house, Mom and Ate Aila or I don't who else preparing a big christmas tree in our house. I remember, I am also a part of setting that big one up, like putting the decorations in that big tree. Nah, my fave decor in the tree is the angels with trumpets. Not the big star. Hehe

I don't know what happen to that tree today, but it's memorable because when xmas comes, we gather there, open the gifts, and have fun as well, of course eating Mom's cooking. Hay, what a sight to remember. Well, time does change, I don't know as well, when that mood will happen again. I used to remember when I was a kid, I thought the leaves of the tree are true, well, it's just plastic. hehe

I believe it was after xmas, when I woke up in the morning, I saw this big box. Nicely wrapped and as usual, it has a card says, merry christmas! to Alfred. Well, that time, every kid is talking about Santa Claus and me? I don't believe at that time ok. hehe Gift giving already happened at noche buena and I don't know who will give me this gift. As a child, of course, I opened it and wow!! A big toy gun with sounds. It shapes like a WWII machine gun, not the big one, but the small one. Like hmmmm a tommy gun but no round clip. hehe Anyway, I was screaming happy and oh well, like one of the kids, use the gun all holidays long. After the batteries run out, I throw it away. hehehe

That gift was so memorable up to now, I am puzzled who gave that gift. Well, thanks! hehe I don't care if it's Santa or Mom, or Dad, or member of the family, it's just thanks!!! Memorable that I can say, one of the happiest times in spending Christmas. Even I'm old and not expecting any toys anymore, I'll just see what will make me happy this coming Christmas, like that time, not the screaming part, but put a smile on my face. Even without that big toy gun. hehe

Or even that big Christmas tree. I am looking for the spirit of Christmas, which is important for all of us. The spirit of giving, forgiving, finding happiness and most especially, celebrating his birth. The birth of our savior, which really I can say, saved me many times, because of him.

We don't notice it when we're kids like me, I just notice the big tree, good food and well, the toy gun. How I forgot, we should celebrate the kid in the manger. The kid who will become a man. The man who loves you for the whole year, again and again.

Maybe that big star up there in the tree is the most important decor in it.

Kris Kringle

Ah yes, one part of spending the holidays! Exchanging gifts. hehe Well, after college, di naman ako masyado nagsasali sa ganyan, except nun Dell days. But the years na talagang masaya ang gift giving eh nun college. Ah siyempre masaya yun section saka, ehem. hehe Oh well, those days of gift giving, not that memorable but masaya lang. Lalo na yun suspense, give something sweet, or next week something whatever.

More than gifts, is the act of giving that counts. I don't if I can give something for this year, pero siguro nabigay ko na even bago dumating ang holidays. hehe Sa mga taong mahal ko, or natulungan ko kahit kaunti, yun na lang ang pang Christmas ko sa kanila. Sorry, broke pa ko. hehe

Maybe this season, I thought of giving something for myself. The best gift for myself for this year? Hmmmmmm Think what's good for me. Tumatanda na ko, and I just want to enjoy life in what's should be. I mean kala ko being responsible should be caring all of them, like giving yourself to them with no questions ask. But, naisip ko, siguro before helping or being responsible for those persons, siguro, I should help myself first. Damn, those long years. hehe Wasted I can see, but that's fine. I learned anyway. Learning for me is easy for those technical things, but for life learning, is kinda hard to learn. Wala kasing homework eh, puro quiz agad. Hehe Masama pa, laging bagsak at make up lagi. hehe

Give something for me... What should be.. Well, I have 7 days to think for it. In exchange? Wala noh. hehe Unconditional giving.

Ah about Kris Kringle, yun name ko is laging blackswordsmann or berserk. What a xmas name. hehe I suck at kris kringles.

Mahirap eh, baka ayaw naman ng pagbibigyan mo..