Burden. Sacrifice. Disappointments. Luck.
4 simply words I can describe what I went through this year. Pero malaking luwag sa kalooban ko na masaya pa din ako. hehehe Next year, parang ganito na lang gagawin ko, not ReView every other month.
Anyway, kung ano ang naiwasan namin bagyo ngayon taon para di masira ang bahay.. May bagyo naman dumating sa kin ha. hahaha Akalain mo naman, nalampasan ko yun kahit papano. Eto na, ilang buwan na lang, nakakapaghanda na ko. It's time, to be alone in my career. Whatever it is, maybe curving into my own path at the same time.. Doing responsibilities as a head of the house. Naisip ko, mabuti pala single ako.
But I'll make sure that will change. Looking back this year, I really felt behind from my other colleagues or kabatch or whatever. Envy was the first feeling. Motivation became my strength to improve. Pero siyempre, di naman naging madali na gawin agad agad kung wala pa ko ibang iniisip. Pero pagtagal, parang kaya ko naman.
Maraming factors siyempre nakatulong sa kin para makaraos ngayon taon. Una eh, parang Aussie, laid back lang pre, with the family and friends. hehehe Second, learn new things and be at least good at it. Best example, laba ng mga damit at maglinis, at medyo sama pa ang luto. Simple init at luto. hehe Pangatlo, lumayo sa mga ibang tao, pero di din masaya pero nakatulong na din na para isipin ko muna ang sarili ko at yes, marami talagang utos and errands. Naku, kaya't di ako nag FB lagi or SNS. Don't worry, that will change. hahaha
Pangapat, DOTA, kahit magisa lang ako o minsan with Doc at Igz, the moment of childish joy keeps me, enjoy youth. Panglima, films! Para masabi lang na in. hahaha Hindi, of course, as a film junkie, need a dose of it, kaso nabawasan talaga this year. Naman, dahil sa panghuli.. Japan! Jdrama, japanese news, food and ehem, japanese stars, (JAV), and a few anime. One day, I'll be there. hehe I have books na for learning japanese.. I'm reading and trying to self learn. haha Good start!
Surprisingly, kinda like this year as I discovered a lot of myself and awaken my senses at least to do something important. Ah yes, one weird skill eh my visions or predictions.. Gaya nung UAAP.. hahaha Tama hula ko bago pa magstart ang tourney. Tinapa, kahit NBA or even jdramas. Weird skill, surprising and I'll enhance that. I can sense cause and effect in a far away..
Speaking of far away, sorry di ako fan ng star wars. hehehe Nung bata ako, oo pero marami na ko napanood na flicks na mas gusto ko eh. I'll try next month kung showing pa.
Oh yes, Thank Jesus for giving me such let's say blessings. Kahit na may araw na wala na ko inaasan, nandiyan ka pa din. Malamang, kailangan makabawi naman ako sayo. =) At yes, kinda missed the Feast every Sunday, so this past months pa lang ako nakabalik with yes, complete KCON na never ko nagawa last year. hahaha
Sorry for those people I failed in whatever way. I'll try to make up for it. Thanks for the friends na kahit simpleng usap or kamustahan lang eh natulungan ako. Sorry pala sa mga meet ups na di ko napuntahan, lalo na etong tsismis sa Jan 9. Malabo ako. Kayo na muna. Alam niyo na kung sino kayo. hahaha Walang tigil sa chat.. Diyos miyo.
3 words that I prepared for next year. Parang motto pero sige goals pala. hehe
Conversion. My promise to Him. Convert at last my old ways. =)
Independence. Well, on my own path and decision not only to achieve something but enjoy life..
Satisfaction. Satisfied not only reaching goals, but satisfying on how it's done. Kahit di na ko nagenjoy working but other things I enjoyed doing where outside of work, siguro it's time to do it as a career or simply do things that I like. That will help others of course. Be satisfied and grateful on what I have na din. hehe
Marami pang words pero yun na naisip ko agad. Hahaha
It's time to close the 2015, at malamang may bagong presidente na next year...
Importante, maka galaw na nga ko. =)
Before I go to work, actually dapat this weekend.. I just can't believe what happened. All my good plans for the weekend went to naught. I'm quite upset.. You saw it right, upset.
Worse.. What a way to start the year.. Broke. hahaha I don't know.. This month, ok na but I was stuck by let's say bad luck. Damn luck. Sabon dito, kusot doon.. haay... Once I finished these hurdles, back to the original pace, for a while.
This month, actually sorry na di ko napost to agad sa January pero nareach ko naman yun target ko. Talagang something bad happened this weekend. Actually, ruined my rest sana. Anxiety raised up!
Dagdag pa ang pressure this year, well, I'll say more pressure. Later. Geez, kung kailan! Ergh.... After this cold month, sana medyo uminit naman sa Feb. Mahirap maligo ng sobrang lamig! hahaha I admit some days, I just don't want to take a cold bath. Kakatamad naman kung papainit pa ng tubig.
Well, I almost can say that I had a good month but January has 31 days, and those 30th and 31st days ruined it. Talking about last minute happening.
Oh, that's not all.. Mukhang basta. Let's say, savor the moment. That is an appropriate expression. It is. It will be.
Nahirapan din ako magsulat this month kasi siyempre di sanay but nung matatapos ko na ang target, aba, the feeling of finishing such crappy works excites me. hehe Sense of achievement kung baga. I just don't want to elaborate what happened this month more.
Next month, well.. I hope I won't write the same thing again. I want some improvement, better path, and yes..
Moving forward! To start Feb, congrats to NE Patriots! Parang nga silang Spurs. Grabe si Brady! hehehe
God saved the best for last. =)
I can't believe one, 6 months passed at may bonus! hehe Second eh akalain mo ang pinagrap ko dati na sana umaga tapos backoffice tapos 6am-3pm.. Through prayers and hard work. Magkakatotoo na. Thank God! hehe Ok lang ang Sat shift basta wag naman buong month. hehe
I can't believe na I did endure yun mga pahirap ng midshift, with the new TL and of course, the work itself. Not including pa siyempre bago kaming lahat. Now, ok na ok na. Except siyempre malilipat kami ng bagong work sa dept kaya parang back to start ulit kami. Ok lang, umaga na, at walang rushing to take those calls. Or is there any? =)
Lastly, I never imagined that I'll be in a catholic community then actively joining activities or events. Gusto ko lang makita yun mga writers from Didache, now.. Well, Connect Group head na. hehe I did not really want to, pero as for the passage of time, and with the support na din, and from God, why not? Said Yes to his call. Let's start from hear. hehe Part na talaga ko ng LOJ nito. With the blessing na din from the Holy Spirit, and with enduring love from Jesus. =)
With all these things, despite sa mga nangyari at yun mga ibang pinagagawa sa kin, I'm definitely happy. =) Happy to stay, happy to serve. Parang SM save more lang. hehe
Bonus pa ang pagkapanalo ng Alaska! Yeah!!!
Of course it's not all happy, like I said at the end of the month lang to. Previous weeks were hectic! Sa work, may iniintindi akong stats, nalate pa ko ng 2 beses. Tapos, sa bahay, siyempre alam na. hehe Di matapos na mga problema. Yung ibang plano ko na ok na, mukhang mauudlot pa because of those problems. hehehe Pero salamat talaga from Him, naiiraos din araw araw kahit papano. At bonus na si Gerro eh biglang gusto magbakasyon sa min! hehe Yehey. At laging siyang calm. =)
Naman, natalo OKC, wala naman kasi Russ. Tapos MEM na kala mo sure na sa SAS, nasweep! hehe Bad trip. Well, asa na lang sa MIA. Although gusto ko si Pop this year talaga kaso siyempre, MEM,MIA and OKC ako. Isa na lang natitira. Kaya ni Lebron yan. hehe
PBA, siyempre dissappointing yun ROS, nasibak ng Ginebra kasi naman sa import nila. Pero babawi yan next conference. Saka di na naman BPC si Abueva, ano ba naman yan. hehe Basta ang team ko ROS or Alaska, masaya na at nakakausad sa PBA. Kahit dati pa well after Ginebra nung bata ako, kaso yun eh pagtagal, mas maganda silang panoorin kaysa yun ibang team. Di lahat superstar pero grabe naman kung manalo. =)
This May, well, I thought extension ng April na medyo so-so and tiring. But this one, sa huli mukhang tuloy tuloy naman ang ginhawa at kahit papano less stress. =) Thanks to all, and thanks to Him.
Looking bright at June, at sakto, ehem.. Getting a year older.
Never say die talaga ang Ginebra! Ok lang, walang tatalo sa Alaska! hehe
NBA playoffs na, and the only question is will MIA get the second ring?
April for me, as much I viewed should be fun and relax.. Eh hindi ganun, naging stressful pa this month bigla. Biglaan talaga. Hay.. But, thanks to him, and some support eh ok lang. I just want to finish this month.
Work, ok na halos na lahat ng stats, important I need to just pass QA. Yun ibang stats, ok na naman. Despite ganun ang nangyari, important eh kept going and adjusting my goals, be positive kahit chaotic ang environment. Somebody loses, somebody fails or worse somebody is gone. Ganun chaotic this month. Pero ayos na ang QA!!!! Yes, thanks!!! Kaso, mukhang may isang monits pa, bad trip oh. hehehe Ipasa ko na lang yun, please...
Me as quiet my life is.. Eh biglaan disturbed.
Am I sad? Am I angry? Am I dissappointed?
Yes, but tapos na yun. =) It's true.. I don't have time na magalit pa or get even or be sad further. Siguro kaya ko nasabi yun kasi, I don't want be affected so much at that moment. I'll just do what can I do at that moment, help or pray for the best then done. Tapos na. hehe Yun lang maya maya, eh may after effect. hahaha Pero unti unti, wala na. =(
It doesn't stop there, may things na medyo worried ako but I just hope, have faith and enjoy life with love to the people you care and siyempre wag mo kalimutan ikaw din. hehe This month, was challenging indeed. But I believe next months, medyo madali na lalo I receive some support, family and community to move and reach small dreams that I have. I'm very thankful for them. Love really motivates me to do something, kahit di naman pinapakita o sinasabi, ok na sa kin yun. Feel ko naman. =)
Once I can reach those small dreams, I can definitely build big dreams that I have. I know I cannot do that alone.. Or even with them..
With God perhaps. =)
Enough of this crap. hehe Life it's like playoffs, grinding matches, winning big and reach the goal..
Being a champion above all!
Ayun, kakakuha ko lang na bagsak na QA. Naman oh! hehehe
Kung kailan ok na yun streak, nabagsak pa sa ganito.
But may isa pang monitor kaya I hope, that will pass at panatag na puso ko. Akalain mo nalate pa ko before ng last week ng month. Talagang sa April, kailangan bumawi na. As I am disappointed today, I should not be affected to it as long it's not over yet.
This month was quite simple except for the last week. Holy Week. Wala naman ako plano umalis sa Holy Week, baka bantay lang sa bahay nila Ate sa South tapos yun lang. Although I missed the long recollections, I am happy naman last Saturday, kahit maiksi yun recollection, I was inspired naman by the 3 speakers. Niloloko pa ko nung pari. hehe
Well, nadelay ang bagong computer na sana gusto kong bilin but I shouldn't stop dreaming. hahaha I know that soon, no more frustrating times at my old computer.
I am also very happy turn out sa work, a lot of improvements done pero dapat by this end of the week, bago magbakasyon eh ok na yun score ko. Para kahit papano, kampante na ko.
What else, hmmmmm wala naman ako sobrang problema besides work. Talagang nahirapan ako magsulat sa Ring! Ring! Napakahaba kasi at parang drained out after I wrote just one post/chapter for it.. Kaya for next month pahinga muna tapos balik ulit. Parang every other month ko na lang siya gagawin, kahit gusto ko lang gawin tagalog na lang or english, nasimulan ko na eh. Tagalog version and English Version. hehe
Grabe naman MIA, di pa natatalo, as of the moment 26 straight games na sila walang talo. Sana may tumalo sa kanila oh. hehe Pag umabot o tinalo nila yun record na 33, wala na... Sila ang champion.
Ah what else.. Ah wala naman special nung 15! hahaha Nabati naman siya ni Ma. 18, di naman nagreply yun tinext ko, baka di na yun number. Wala naman FB. So there.
It was just a fun month for me, it will be more fun kung ok na scores ko sa work. hehe I mean, after that karaoke with 2cpm friends, CG meetings na may pics pa sa bulletin. hehe Ah, meeting with other friends, and yeah, I'm starting reading. As much I want to start sa excercise, damn I need extra funds for that one more equipment.
For the holy and last week of this month, I just hope for the best at by next month, the start of being good at everything I do. Work, writing, reading, computing (computer stuff.hehe) and praying perhaps.
And lastly, yeah, conversion. Nah, not religion.. It's something else.
Oh, I still can't forget that Smashed film.. Lovely sigh to Kate. =)
Hay, what a relief na tapos na ang February.. Although short sa QA but other stats, ok na. I can say possible tataas na ang score ko this March! Medyo nakukuha ko na yun work flow. hehe
"Aanhin mo ang maraming pera, kung wala naman romansa." Sabi ng isang lola sa kin.. Grabe naman lola. Nothing beats that statement in my status being single. hahaha Anyway, she's damn right. I should really seek one these days. But as much I want to search for one, well.. Medyo inaalat ako. hehe More snubs than hugs.
Anyway, ano pa.. Ang bilis ng Feb at ngayon ko lang nalaman na may Allergy whatever ako, from dust, smelling spicy and even perfume which parang di naman ako nagrereact sa ganun, lalo na pag maganda ang lady. hehe But that's life, as grew older, these reactions rises. Or how about a new prescription for my skin irritation, at least di na steroid cream. hehe Speaking of getting older, I'm quite impatient ha, siguro yeah sa work na feeling mo alam mo na pero yun bagsak sa isang monitor. hehe Pero siguro nga dahil sa eagerness to reach some goals but..
I need to be patient, it's not overnight you see to reach those goals.
I can really say that this month better than January, parang curse talaga yun month na yun. This month, it's more of a moving forward and yun a glimpse for best things to come.
Although schedule well, as much I want it early but there, di eh. =( But that's fine, at least weekends off and I can do much more. Paano pa kaya pag regular sked, I'll do a lot more! hehe
Yeah sad part pala, Sonnets vs. Haikus were gone, but well nandun yun ibang sinulat ko na pinaghirapan ko ha. hehe I don't know why she gave up. =(
Oscars pala quite surprising, especially one of my crushes, Jennifer Lawrence suddenly won her trophy. That's why, I'm planning to watch Silver Linnings Playbook! Sana. If there are funds. hehe
Acting, beauty despite rash well, you got an award.
It is full of love this past month, although wala naman ako date or whatever, despite loveless from others or whatever, important is...
I felt loved by Him and me..
Next month, more love and time to Him. =)
2 days away or more, sana tapos na nesting and go into production floor na.
Well, this month was quite pull some surprises but in the end, the only difficult thing to do is to follow yun steps and freaking midshift 5pm-2am due to lack of seats. Pest. hehe
Once I make it, eh alam na gagawin.. I have now prepared a plan for the next 6 months if I got unlucky, a year if I got lucky, 2 years if I really going into it. Then, I hope and I pray na lahat naman naplano eh masundo at dun natin makikita if I will be satisfied. Not only financial, important is career path and health wise. This month was not really pressure packed.
Enjoyed watching movies in a day, tapos fixing some things, keep myself busy at planning na din. Salamat sa punishing fire, I can now see my collection without any glitches. At nakakadiscover pa ko ng mga nadownload ko na palpak! hahaha
Sana lang maayos yun sked ko, kahit may Sat shift. Ok lang Sun off, makakapunta pa din ako ng The Feast and grow. Naks. hehe
Now I'm looking forward after this nesting, even mababa for what I expect eh di naman stressful, like taking calls at malayo pa. Sana lang maayos to. Looking forward to watch more until maaubos ko yun collection ko. hehe Great thing naisip ko yun film fest every week para di ako maguluhan when I choose kung ano papanoorin ko.
I feel right now na and envisioned that how unlucky I am this year, next year will be different and quite fun. I don't know how I became motivated and feel worry free despite what's happened to me or the people around this year. It's sad but God gives life, through his blessings.
Thanks to him, I feel cared, loved. Through Jesus..
For now, yeah, next week will be a special one, I wish all the success for Raims and yes, taon na naman ng St. James, and invade the sosi bazaar.
A year seems to be like days, that's how fast this time is. Geez.
Remember remember the fifth of November...
