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Too late for a review, 19 days later after last month. For the past weeks, eh just be loose at eto, back to normality. At least. Anyway, to sum up last month, it was chaotic for me. Tiring at higit sa lahat, I was shocked. All of the sudden, parang biglang ayoko na.

I can say, it's one of the dumbest moves pero after taking that leap, eh ok naman. I'll just think of other ways. More ways and better ways siguro. I was wrong all the time. However, it's my fault. Pagkakamali ko din.

Of course, I did hurt some people due to this pero I had no other choice as everybody around me or even me, starting to crumble. Naisip at naramdaman ko din na talagang may mali, at worse, after ko umalis eh parang may after effects pa. I don't know, that's what I felt. 
Natapos na at ngayon, kaunti lang options ko just to survive. But thanks to some support eh motivated ako to do work pa. I just need to work fast and enough of being NEET for sometime. hehehe

Anyway, sa ibang post na lang yun. Sa ngayon, masarap makahinga na maluwag. Kahit may takot, eh nakapahinga naman pagkatapos na lahat. It's time to go back to the real work. 
April, was really, let's say, searching month. Searching for the right path, or even sa crisis eh time to think how to survive and live the right way. 

Failure was hard. Pero di ko naman ako makakaluwag if I did not fail.. I accept it and well...

Back to square one. 

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A crossroad month.

It is, and now, parang it will start someting to define myself over the course of the year. 4 months almost done, very fast.

This month, fruitful naman except sa pesteng QA. hehe First time na lahat may update nangyari sa process eh dahil sa nakitang kong mali, at inayos ko naman, mali daw sabi ng QA. Pero yun update na lang at tama pala ginawa ko. Galing! hahaha 

I was able to spend holy week in a weird yet more solemn way. Did not really push myself into spiritual searching or soul searching stuff pero it gave me time para to reflect and rest. Enough to really check what should I do in the coming weeks. Or months.

Searching for better opportunities also came along, pero unlucky. Oh God, just give me hope. hehe
Then recently, worse comes worse, a move out might, or will happen. Well, kahit gusto ko gawin lahat para di mangyari, gusto niya yun, wala naman kami choice. Unless, that changes. It will be hard for me, for us. 
Brokenness will come into full circle if this push through. 

All I do, I just lift up to Him. Sakto talaga ang Holy Week. =)

NBA playoffs, crazy as ever, para wala naman kwenta ang home court advantage which is good. hehe PBA playoffs eh sobrang gulo, lahat na malakas na team sa papel, una na nagbora! hahaha

What else, baka malapit na din ako magreformat. Kailangan eh para bumilis ang Iron Maiden. 

Next month? We'll see, we might enjoy the last days, in this kindred place...

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Going into holy week eh naisip ko, ang bilis naman ng 3 months ng taon. 

At di pa ko nakakakilos. Naman. hehe

This month naman, well, I think and believe, time to move. 

Move into somewhere better.

Move my arse to become healthy. hehe

Move on to a good place. 

Ah, this month, it's a month of survival. From sa work na pwede mas humarap due to some well, mga nagpaparamdam. hehe 

House naman, adjustment sa ibang bagay.

My life, eto nga, masimulan na nga. Napagiwanan na bigla. At isama pa ang mainit na panahon.. Pero this month, at last, makakapahinga na din after months  of doing all the stuff and making ends meet. I'm quite tired. Not quite pala, kinda soft word. 

Very tired pala..

Pero sa ngayon, isipin ko na lang na at mamotivate na lang na tuloy ang dapat gawin and better to spend the holy week, with Him. Just to clear things and focus on the good things.

Instead of frowning or just daydreaming of something. 

It is time to move my arse. =)

Can't believe na medyo maiiksi na mga post ko ha. Wala na kasi masyado makwento. hehe

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Never say die talaga ang Ginebra! Ok lang, walang tatalo sa Alaska! hehe

NBA playoffs na, and the only question is will MIA get the second ring? 

April for me, as much I viewed should be fun and relax.. Eh hindi ganun, naging stressful pa this month bigla. Biglaan talaga. Hay.. But, thanks to him, and some support eh ok lang. I just want to finish this month. 

Work, ok na halos na lahat ng stats, important I need to just pass QA. Yun ibang stats, ok na naman. Despite ganun ang nangyari, important eh kept going and adjusting my goals, be positive kahit chaotic ang environment. Somebody loses, somebody fails or worse somebody is gone. Ganun chaotic this month. Pero ayos na ang QA!!!! Yes, thanks!!! Kaso, mukhang may isang monits pa, bad trip oh. hehehe Ipasa ko na lang yun, please...

Me as quiet my life is.. Eh biglaan disturbed. 

Am I sad? Am I angry? Am I dissappointed? 

Yes, but tapos na yun. =) It's true.. I don't have time na magalit pa or get even or be sad further. Siguro kaya ko nasabi yun kasi, I don't want be affected so much at that moment. I'll just do what can I do at that moment, help or pray for the best then done. Tapos na. hehe Yun lang maya maya, eh may after effect. hahaha Pero unti unti, wala na. =(

It doesn't stop there, may things na medyo worried ako but I just hope, have faith and enjoy life with love to the people you care and siyempre wag mo kalimutan ikaw din. hehe This month, was challenging indeed. But I believe next months, medyo madali na lalo I receive some support, family and community to move and reach small dreams that I have. I'm very thankful for them. Love really motivates me to do something, kahit di naman pinapakita o sinasabi, ok na sa kin yun. Feel ko naman. =)

Once I can reach those small dreams, I can definitely build big dreams that I have. I know I cannot do that alone.. Or even with them.. 

With God perhaps. =)

Enough of this crap. hehe Life it's like playoffs, grinding matches, winning big and reach the goal..

Being a champion above all!