7. Renegademaria

Find it weird of sorts.. but this is the alyas I've given of one of the great ladies I met in my life.. I also made this an email address, but was cut off because of gmail. Hehe I used this nick as well wayback CS days. Hehe Her real name, is kinda long, at first, I can't believe that's her real name. Very far from her nickname. Whoa.. Hehe

I met her wayback college, almost the same time with number 8. I'll be punk'd by doc for this post. Hehe Let's go back time, hmmmm when I am still in precom and doc is at the main building, I forgot what event we met but what I know was we were addicted to counterstrike! hehe (precom days are really damn crazy and lazy at the same time. Hahaha)

Anyway, moving forward, so for times that there were no prof, classes as well, doc will text and play CS for that vacant time. Or even at days off. Hehe By the way, she was a classmate of doc at that time, and doc also invited other classmates to play CS. (but most of the time, I play with cpm dudes! hehe) So, after hours, or even classes cut due to playing CS, hehe I had a chance to talk then eventually friends with her. Looks? hmmmm damn! Hehe You can actually see her at my facebook profile, but finders keepers. Bwahahaha At college days well she's a bit chubby but looks great, her face just fit to her height. Attitude? One of the boys type and bubbly, cheerful as well.. I can bet, that she's beautiful than any celebrities here. Hehe Especially now? Come on dude..

You might ask why we did not end up each other. One of them, closeness, since we are in different colleges and schedules, I don't know her that much at that time.. Second, conflicts as well, I can't just join the party. Hehe Lastly, she's far away even now..

Speaking of now, I want to give advance congrats because she is getting married. Good thing, she changed dramatically and has a great career now, so I wish for the best and success, I know you're happy on the path you took, just take care always ok? Drop by here at pinas some time. Hehe

What made her special? With that looks, she is very approachable, and down to earth. That's why she's one of the boys.. Sporty as well, she's fit to play basketball than me.. Bwahaha

You see how unhealthy I am since then. Hehe When I met her before in college, I thought of lucky, and I should find one kind of girl, at least like her. Never thought I can meet another girl like her. Easy going, same interests, free flowing friendship. Indeed. I did meet another one, I found her at 3rd year college... And she wants me to play fish world now. Hehe

Maria, what a name... I never thought I'll know 3 girls with the same name. But, that's fine, all of them, worth knowing.. and be friends with them. Amen.

Except for one of them. hehe

Teary eyes

Last night, as I fell asleep, my eyes are kinda wet. Am I crying? What for? Last week, I was in the same situation, but to remove sadness, binuksan ko ang "mahiwagang baul". Hehe What's inside? Hmmmmm, ngayon ko lang naisip nga, malamang nakita niya mga laman nun, kaya iniwan ako. Bwahahaha

Ano ba naman, puro sulat lang yun.. Hehe I always open that box when I'm such deprived and in state of oblivion.. Read through it, especially her letters.. Hay..

Everything seems to be normal now except for some areas. Kaso may nakikita pa din ako videos of calamity, like kagabi, grabe pala yun UERM. Di mo aakalain na lumubog ng todo yun. Tapos yun mga kotse, inalon. Grabe talaga. Lalo na yun scene kung saan tumalon yun guard to save yun babae.

On the lighter side, if there is any, hehe, it's been a normal day. Ang sales biglang normal. Me? Back to usual tired self..

However, optimistic in this remaining months of the year. Despite what happened to me, the people around me, I am still, full of hope and faith. Those are the things keeping me sane.. At least..

Staying strong and thinking positive.. Moving forward.. Oh, I want to hank my 6300 for this post. Saka yun sa sais post, at least may draft ako saka nakasave sa phone etong post ko. Hehe Naisip ko na agad and make a note, at least di ko nagtatagal sa wordpad. Hehe I want to thank, hmmmm lahat ng nagsupport to me until kahapon.. I don't know how to thank you more than ever. Without them.. Maybe, ill be in asylum by myself. Hehe

Ah! Sayang di man lang nadiscover yun shop ko kahapon sa abs. Nafeature kasi yun supermart, about price freeze of commodities. Eh sabi ni Carla, busy daw ako kaya di ko nakita yun camera. Bad trip, di ko man lang nakita si Zen ulit. hehe

If I am a student this year, I can slack all year long due to suspension of classes. They are so damn lucky! hehe Kaso wag lang yun UST pm sked, all year swimming and simpleng inuman. Hehe

I hope that when I sleep tonight, no more tears..

Like what that Johnson's shampoo says..

Twitt, twitt, twitt...

Aftermath (3 of 3)

Ok, balik tagalog. hehe Well, mga plano ko ay di natuloy. hehe I got the signs that I should stay put here. Many challenges to face and fix some problems here, which in some time, will go down.

Yeah, after a very nervous week, it became a very busy week ahead kasi naman kay Ondoy. Akalain mo, nilubog niya halos lahat. Lalo na yun QI ha, kaya ayun, mga customer ng puregold, pumunta sa welcome. hehe At siyempre, nakinabang ang shop ko.

Ah about that shop, oh well, kinda motivated to get it and start from scratch. hehe The whole story? Well, ask Rheg. hehe

But good thing is, I am half filled, so the real recovery will start sometime early next year. For short, next year pa. hehe Pero feeling ko, gusto ko yun shop ko at iisip na lang ako kung pano ko papalaguin. Damn business, but oh well, you can't achieve ultimate excellence when you're ultimate down. hehe

Oh crap. Sunday was a good day, still some people stranded especially those who live in Talayan. Alam ko binabaha dun but never lubog, well, it happened. Sana ok din yun mga friends ko sa Rizal and Marikina, I just hope they are A-OK, if they are kinda struck, please help them.

Nung nakita ko situation ng mga lugar na yun, grabe, I'm shocked. I mean, wala naman hurricane, pero grabe, I don't know what hit us. Mabuti nga isang araw yun, pano kaya kung parang Milenyo, 3 days of madness. Well, thank God, we are safe. Thanks pala sa mga friends ko na nagtext, sorry di na ko nakasagot, mahirap magtext sa globe until this moment. Crap globe, sa sobrang hirap, lumalabas pa kami para magload, sobrang crappy ng signal. hehe

About donations, bayanihan culture. Good thing, 2 networks are doing their share noh. Lalo na si Kris, nagulat ako sa mga sinasabi niya, like lahat ng endorsements nila, tumulong, sabagay, tama naman ginawa niya. Ayun, kaliwa't kanan ang tulong. hehe Nakakaawa talaga yun mga taong naipit, grabe, kasi ngayon lang ako nakakita ng ganun. I mean, sa lahat ng bagyong naranasan ko sa buhay, in my generation, this is the only time that in Metro Manila, you will see houses so much in deep water. Di ko nga alam, kung nasa Proj. 7 pa ko, malamang, ganun gagawin namin.

Well, umulan naman kanina ng malakas, pero mabuti at sandali lang. At mabuti na lang, wag muna umulit. Well, sabi ng weatherman eh baka may bagyo ulit coming this Thursday I think. Oh boy, not good news.

Sabik na ko sa UAAP finals eh, ganito pa. hehe Grabe, ang UE, saka FEU. FEU just had a bad karma. UE? They just peaked at the right time. Prediction? Finals, hmmmm it's ADMU but UE has a chance, not a big chance, but it's better than slim and none. UE can just stop Rabeh, and they can win. Well, kahit talo UST, may MVP naman kami and ROY. hehe What a consolation prize. FEU? basta, umayos sila. Naku naman. The most dissappointing team before was DLSU, but now, definitely, FEU. Plain stupid.

NCAA, mukhang ang manok ko nagpeak at the right time. hehe JRU!!! Ok, beatable na ang Baste. Yun lang. Just addict at watching basketball games. Kahit yun clear future league pinatos ko na, isang episdoe lang. hehe

At this point of my life, whether I'm dazed, confused, depressed, or drunk (I wish hehe which I can't) I am still focused on what I do. Reach my short term goals and kinda fix myself na din. That will happen siguro pag talagang I can say, akin na to. hehe

Once a priest told me, that in life, if you have a close relationship with him and have inner silence in yourself (actually di ko nakuha lahat ng advice niya. hehe), you will find what you want, or need. He told me that to tell him if I found that, personal eureka.

Well, when will that be? I hope I can find that now.

Ewan ko, I am always hasty these times, that's what happen when you feel old and did not enjoy life at the fullest, I mean, the peaceful part.

Not the crazy or wild parts, or fun, I am done with that.

Get my life straight up and get the things I lost, I want it back. hehe

By the way, Bayani should be fired, and the real person should be axed, right now, Gibo.

What's the sense of his informercials in the pacquiao fight?

Almost all barangays or even cities in the Metro were not prepared. What kind of crap is that? Oh, he boast that we were faster than the response US did in Hurricane Katrina. Well, that's US, this is Pinas.

If I am a President, I want his japanese resignation letter in my desk next day in the morning. He shouldn't run. He should save his face in these coming days.

Well, as days come by, he should save his head.

It's been a while not posting here, but anyway, life goes on like tupac says...

Oh, sana, ulan na lang muna, wag naman bagyo. Please..

Sais (2 of 3)

When I'm listening to Joy Division, you should know what state I'm right now. hehe Am I regularized? Nope.. Do I have my own shop? Uh not yet. hehe Sa 6 na buwan marami na ko natutunan, especially hands on business. Lalo na siyempre sa cellphone.. hehe

Other things, hmmm besides getting very sick last week, eh di na ko nagkasakit ng grabe unlike call center days.. Oh balita ko, speaking of Dell, may UK account na! Ang sarap nun, medyo normal life.. Hehe May graveyard shift din sa UK kaso wala nang tawag yun. Thanks to HSBC. Hehe I just love UK..

Problems? Same old problems and wait, there's more!! hehe it's getting crazy of sorts. Hay naku, kabaliw na, kung kailan patapos na yun taon, dun pa nagkakagulo.. Hehe

Love? Well, wala eh. Walang bago.. However, I did fall for some girls, quote and quote, girls. hehe Pero di pwede. Pag love ba, kailangan ba lagi sa bawal? hehe wala ako sinabi..

Future? As of now, it's still on the plan, but that may change. Especially, if somebody really wants me to get out of this..

6 months indeed fulfilling..

Many things learned.. And still learning..

Many things changed.. And still changing..

All I can say is, after 6 months, I am still at the middle of opposing forces..

He said, I always have reasons.. Then he should be in my place and see what will be the reason to say?

How tired I am?

I already shouted thrice at nobody..

Full house I'm in.. hehehe

(Eto dapat nun Sept 21 kaso, sobrang, ever busy. hehe)

apocalypse (1 of 3)

A time at night, after you closed the shop, walked out, saw a lot of people at road, confused and dazed then I thought, what time was it? What happened to this place? I know it rained hard but never thought, it will like in a bad sci fi movie. It's like in the set of Mad Max. Or, I am Legend. Everybody seems to be lost.

When I'm walking down the road and straight to our home, very dark, very quiet and very surreal. I asked to myself, what the hell happened? Well, I did not check the news.

Until, when I opened my reliable tv phone, it was brownout here at that Saturday night, and heard sexy babe Cristine Reyes is at her roof for hours with her pamangkins, and Pasig and Marikina cities are in deep waters, oh boy, is this the end?

Well, good thing, rain stopped at that night.

At morning, I just got up as usual, do the same ritual, praying for a good day ahead, and went ahead to open the shop. I know it was a rainy day but, never expected that Puregold at QI was drowned already, or how about our house was flooded again so much like last time for what? Hours only, oh by the way, our compound, was already flooded.

Then, scares came to my nerves when something exploded outside, then lights out.

Maybe it's because how busy we are that day, everybody lined up in the store counters, even us, we have customers buying cellphone batteries, call cards, and even the dusted car chargers... It was a good sale that day, but when I gone home, I just wished, I stayed at the shop because of the electricity. Just a normal life at least.

I took a bath even it's dark, not that dark, thanks to that one candle.

While I browse through tv shows that night, same news, worse news. I became worried to my friends, living at those flooded areas, like in Rizal and Marikina. I hope they are fine after this disaster. I thought, good thing that storm which I thought it's not Signal number 1. It's almost like Milenyo in the sense of the damage caused but good thing, we are still here, after one day of that heavy rains.

I also thought, good thing I was not studying in UST anymore, because if I am still studying at UST, I may stay there for a day, even my house is well near.

I know many lives were ruined because of the storm, and I just wish and pray that they can recover and move on. It will be a long one, but we have to move forward.

Even our dearest President, was not spared because of Ondoy. Oh, even the show Bitag, they showed replays last Saturday. hehe

Well, I just slept, try to listen to my zune and wake up next day. Sunday.

Hoping, indeed, it will be over on Sunday.

"intermission"

400 plus posts..

Some of secret part of life was already shown. If you can figure it out. hehe

More than a year of ranting, whining, telling it all, no holds barred crap.

3 social networks connected to this blog..

Still counting..

I am not tired yet..

There is 100 more or even 400 more if possible. hehe

I am not done yet..

It shows my down days, happy days, dreadful days and stupid days.

Whatever comes in my mind, some of them are here. Some of them are not.

So, for this post, feel free to leave a comment, whatever comment it is. Post whatever you want.

It's like recess. hehe

hot and cold

Climate change does have a bad effect to me, like yesterday, umulan tapos this morning? Damn hot. hehe Then now, ayun, nagkakasakit ako, and this is the bad sipon I get, kasi umiiyak ako because of sipon. Grabe, di naman ako umiiyak pero grabe lang talaga yun sipon. Mabuti naman wala na ko ubo. Crap. hehe

Anyway, while a person is shouting here, and I can't even rest, get a good rest. Oh life..

Eh paano naman kasi, magulo sa bahay. Magulo or sometimes quiet. Damn, that's why I said to one of my closest friends, it's better I think, I am not here. If I only have the money, I should just leave them here. Besides, I already sacrificed enough. That's what I think, and they don't think like that. Good grief...

Sana lang talaga, balang araw, I have no problem by myself to handle. Maybe yun mga problema nila. But not all of them, because sometimes, offering help will only get worse.

Well, sana this weekend eh may sagot na sa isang plan ko, at pagnatuloy yun, I'm better off here. hehe

Bad trip lang talaga ko this week, sobrang hectic, sobrang punished. Hehe Way punished than SMB cases with Dell. Pero this week lang naman, kung laging ganito, matagal na ko umalis. Magulo lang talaga, lalo na si Kuya Alpro na di alam ang gagawin. Pero naiintindihan ko naman siya, kaso wala naman magagawa for now na magandang plano eh. Kahit ako, medyo malilito ako pero may maganda naman ako plan, kaso ayaw niya iconsider. It's his choice, not mine. I'm just here to help.

Well, that may change in sometime. I'm getting grinded again, but that's a part of learning process, especially working with a different person. Lalo na kapamilya mo. hehe

I am still patient, very patient. Why do I have this trait? Minsan parang ayoko ko na ganito. hehe Gusto ko upakan or magalit, pero mukhang nasa dugo ko na ata. Grabe. hehe Like what is happening right now. Kaliwa't kanan ang nagsasabon sa kin.

Hay, peste.

Beam me up scotty to nowhere...

400

it's not a title of a film or even how much do I have. hehe Simply, this is the 400 post I've done in my blog. Well in blogspot doesn't show that, but in multiply, it does show. hehe

Anyhow, nakarinig ako ng kantang Poker Face in Easy Rock, in a different version. Acoustic. Di ko alam kung sino kumanta, pero may dating, but that dude, is running out of songs to sing. hehe

Regret is catching up.

Time is not on my side.

Need to decide fast. hehe

Well, habang medyo magulo ang buhay ko, eh eto nanood ako ng reviews in youtube, funny film critic circle, spill.com. Just watch some of their reviews and you'll laugh. Damn, intellectual yet funny critics. hehe

What else, ah, September na pala, sobrang bilis ng panahon. Marami na din nangyari. However, it's still the same Alfred. What a life. hehe I guess I don't have anything else to say besides that I wish, I can still continue this blog...

Even nobody reads it. hehe

I am glad that eto nakarami na, at sana, whether it's sad or good, whether it's bad or happy, I am still writing whatever I like. Whatever I hate. Whatever I love.

No matter what. Even in a distant place.

However, it depends in my future. hehehe

It's short for today, just to make that number..

Chrome

An hour ago, I can't believe that Administration party, or the Lakas Kampi merger whatever party, dig it's own grave. hehe

Bakit? Naman, wala na silang pambato, meron nga, pero pano mananalo yun? hehe Simply stupid. Tama nga si Gibo, ok lang maging John McCain, matatalo. hehe

Good thing nakabawi na ang JRU sa San Beda, di ko nga alam kung pano sila nanalo, pero may chance sila, ang tanong na lang, paano sa Baste? hehe

Well, enough of the other crap.

Right now, after a year of using Google chrome which I should celebrate last week, but due to some work, the only chance I had to write this is now. What a lucky guy.

Sa isang taon, di na ko gumamit ng ibang internet browser. hehehe At first, pag may video, pull up mozilla then chrome, but now, I don't even pull up mozilla, or even opera. What a waste. hehe

I really like chrome so much because it's easy to use and the bookmarks window, like opening a new tab is fantastic. One great feature is I don't need to pull up google.com, just type anything you are looking for in the address bar and there it is, you found it!!!

Sorry opera, the fave bookmarks window, is already at chrome, I already removed you in my programs. hehe Mozilla, you're lucky in my programs list, pero malamang, malapit ka na din mawala. Mabagal ka naman bumukas tapos magbrowse din, parang ala ka na din kwenta. hehe Siguro kila Rheg at Doc may silbi ka, pang bukas ng isa pang facebook account. hehe

Everything about Google Chrome is great and I just hope that it improves more and be more efficient and reliant. The biggest improvement is I don't need mozilla for streaming videos, I just need Chrome. Actually, I have nothing else to ask for any improvement.

I love this internet browser and I am looking forward for some great improvements in the future!!!

Others, will be simply left behind, like the dude who was chosen to run for their party. He can run, but be sure, he can accept defeat. hehe I am not rooting for the other one, I just don't know who to vote for now, especially sa manok ko, parang di na tatakbo. hehe 2010 elections will be a test of our nation's character. So sana lang, pumili tayo ng presidente na di tayo dadalhin sa kangkungan. hehe Sama sama daw tayo, siya na lang magisa!!! hehe

Or akala mo petiks, pero yun pala, mas petiks siya pag naging presidente. hehe Yun isa naman, ewan ko, sige mayaman na yun lungsod niya, but how in the earth can he transform our country into a strong country with our bad fiscal situation.

Ewan ko, yun isa lalaban daw, pero nagback out. hehe

Hay, in the end, history will repeat itself. What heritage do we have...

Anyway, bakit naman ako napunta sa pulitika? Siguro talagang naginit ang ulo sa kanila. I hope V is real, we need is anarchy. A real change not for the system, but for the people, people who wants order and peace.

Naks. Kaso walang taong ganun eh, walang pulitiko na uunahin ang bayan kaysa sa bahay niya sa US.

I still encourage anybody, to use google Chrome. hehe

Well, google chrome is great, especially for facebook...

What's your browser?

Black Dynamite

Before I start for this blog. Kakasawa magenglish. hehe Let's watch something new. Sana mapalabas dito or pag nasa DVD na, download ko na agad. heheIt's a movie, funny new movie, doing spoof of all 70's movies, specifically blaxpoitation, you know low budget 70's movies. Well, wala naman napalabas dito nun, pero yun aura talaga ng movie, parang turn back time talaga, tapos comedy. Saka yun spoof sa chinese kung fu movies, grabe, galing ni michael jai white. Well, he was in Spawn, kaso di siya masyado sumikat. However, he is super cool and knows kung fu. hehefor FB friends, you tube na lang ha.Anyway, what happened to me these past days. Well, it was nerve wracking. Sa sobrang pagod ko, kahit si Mommy, medyo nataasan ko ng boses. hehe I never do that, but ika nga, may pisi din ang pasensya.In other words, I am so tired. I am always depressed but oh well, thanks to my kinda religious faith, I am still here. I still put a smile on my face, kahit ganito. Ano naman kasi magagawa ko, ganito na siguro ang buhay ko. Kaya, itong two weeks na to is important. I hate fate, but mukhang this time, maniwala muna sa fate. hehe Think positive nga ika nga ni Robin.The real rest pa lang nakukuha ko? 3 hours ago, watching 100 bravo scariest moments in movies, what a way to have a relaxing time. heheWell, let's see what's going to happen. Should I stay or should I go?Other ways to be happy these days, when the trailer came out, naku, panay nood ko nito, pang pasaya. hehe

broken lines (collection 2)

unfortunately, UST lost to cheerdance. hehe Oh, this collection came from my fave lyrics from the smiths. Of course, from their great songs.

That's all for today. Bloody great.

When in this charming car

This charming man

Why pamper life's complexity

When the leather runs smooth

On the passenger seat ?

I would go out tonight

But I haven't got a stitch to wear

This man said "It's gruesome that someone so handsome should care"

I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour

But heaven knows i'm miserable now

I was looking for a job, and then i found a job

And heaven knows i'm miserable now

In my life

Why do i give valuable time

To people who don't care if i live or die ?

Two lovers entwined pass me by

And heaven knows i'm miserable now

Park the car at the side of the road

You should know

Times tide will smother you

And I will too

When you laugh about people who feel so

Very lonely

Their only desire is to die

Well, Im afraid

It doesnt make me smile

I wish I could laugh

But that joke isnt funny anymore

Good times for a change

See, the luck Ive had

Can make a good man

Turn bad

So please please please

Let me, let me, let me

Let me get what I want

This time

Oh ...

I know Im unloveable

You dont have to tell me

I dont have much in my life

But take it - its yours

I dont have much in my life

But take it - its yours

Oh ...

I know Im unloveable

You dont have to tell me

Oh, message received

Loud and clear

Oh dear, it's not deja vu. hehe

Unloveable

After a tiring day, and got bashed. O crap. I felt unloveable. hehe

Yesterdays, years ago, or even an hour ago, I always feel unloveable even I done my best.

What a life. Hehe

I discovered this song, well, accidentally and it's like love at first sight when I heard the first words.

It felt that, I think I am like that. Hahaha

Anyway, this is the best and my fave the smiths song. I know it's kinda emotional, but, oh well, simply if you want to know about me, some part about me, then listen to this song. That's it..

Oh well, I just hope before I die, I can see them live or just hear a news that they will be reunited for the last time.

However, because of the suits, misbehaviors of Morrissey and the past conflicts of the band which is still unresolved.

It won't happen.

Work is a four letter word.

Oh ...

I know Im unloveable

You dont have to tell me

I dont have much in my life

But take it - its yours

I dont have much in my life

But take it - its yours

Oh ...

I know Im unloveable

You dont have to tell me

Oh, message received

Loud and clear

Loud and clear

I dont have much in my life

But take it - its yours

I know Im unloveable

You dont have to tell me

For message received

Loud and clear

Loud and clear

Message received

I dont have much in my life

But take it - its yours

I wear black on the outside

cause black is how I feel on the inside

I wear black on the outside

cause black is how I feel on the inside

And if I seem a little strange

Well, thats because I am

If I seem a little strange

Thats because I am

But I know that you would like me

If only you could see me

If only you could meet me

Oh ...

I dont have much in my life

But take it - its yours

I dont have much in my life

But take it - its yours

Mmm ...

Oh ...

please please please let me get what I want

I still remember, wayback college, while me and my partner is taking a BA quiz and we need to get the answers right to go through the final round. I sang this song quietly, and all of the sudden. We did make it to the final round, and we won 2nd place! Despite, we're not the best of our classes. hehe

I used to sing this song when I'm sad and desperate, especially in stats. hehe Or in sales at the shop. The longest title in the smiths playlist yet it is the shortest song they have. Why it is better than the other 3? Pretty straighforward and very inspiring. hehe

I love how Morrissey sang this and Marr's chords, simply, well simple yet melodic, a perfect fit to its lyrics.

Well, I will make this short and it's a fact, I am still singing this song because of faith? hehehe

Why this is not the number 1 song?

That will be answered tomorrow.

I know, I feel....

Good times for a change

See, the luck Ive had

Can make a good man

Turn bad

So please please please

Let me, let me, let me

Let me get what I want

This time

Havent had a dream in a long time

See, the life Ive had

Can make a good man bad

So for once in my life

Let me get what I want

Lord knows, it would be the first time

Lord knows, it would be the first time

that joke isn't funny anymore

I still have the pirated CD of the best of the smiths. Hehe Of course, at first, "this charming man", and "heaven knows I'm miserable now" are the only songs I know and the other tracks? I skipped it. hehe Until I heard this song. At first it was boring because it's slow but when Marr's rifts and Morrissey's voice came in, that's it. I love this song.

Cleverness is really present here. Definitely. Eventhough the lyrics are somewhat, repeatitive, the whole song made me stare, my life is some what, a joke which is not funny anymore. hehe

Well, the song is the longest of my fave the smiths songs, and the rhythm of it is like a hymn due to the long rifts and vocals, fantastic. Oh the trick of the song is at the end, which you thought it's over, but not yet. Marr is not finished yet. hehe

That's how great the song is, I definitely recommend anybody to listen to it. I know it did not reach any top 1 position, even in the UK but damn, it's good. Morrissey should be given an english title. Sir Morrissey and Sir Marr, the other two? Forget it. hehe

I also checked that it's not only the emo factor present or even the cleverness of the songs, but also some desparation in a bright side. I mean, like I said yesterday, the tone is fun but when you check the lyrics, it's not fun. hehe

That's why I love them, but as number 2 band because of New Order. hehe I mean even they are fun, but my real feelings show in New Order/JD. However, the smiths are still great. Ah in terms of talent, of course, I will go to New Order/JD.

Well, that's all and it's getting shorter. hehe

Song about being desperate? Look tomorrow my friend.

Park the car at the side of the road

You should know

Times tide will smother you

And I will too

When you laugh about people who feel so

Very lonely

Their only desire is to die

Well, Im afraid

It doesnt make me smile

I wish I could laugh

But that joke isnt funny anymore

Its too close to home

And its too near the bone

Its too close to home

And its too near the bone

More than youll ever know ...

Kick them when they fall down

Kick them when they fall down

You kick them when they fall down

Kick them when they fall down

You kick them when they fall down

Kick them when they fall down

You kick them when they fall down

Kick them when they fall down

It was dark as I drove the point home

And on cold leather seats

Well, it suddenly struck me

I just might die with a smile on my

Face after all

Ive seen this happen in other peoples

Lives

And now its happening in mine

Ive seen this happen in other peoples

Lives

And now its happening in mine

Ive seen this happen in other peoples

Lives

And now its happening in mine

Ive seen this happen in other peoples

Lives

And now its happening in mine

Oh ...

Ive seen this happen in other peoples

Lives

Oh ...

And now its happening in mine

Happening in mine

Happening in mine

Happening in mine

Happening in mine

Ive seen this happen in other peoples

Lives

Oh ...

And now, now, now its happening in mine

(Ive seen this happen)

Happening in mine

Oh... now, now

Ive seen this happen in other peoples

Lives

Oh ...

And now its happening in mine

(happen)

Happening in mine

Oh ...

Happening in mine

Happening in mine

Happening in mine

Ive seen this happen in other peoples

Lives

Oh ...

And now, now, now its happening in mine

Happening in mine

Mine, mine

Happening in mine

heaven knows I'm miserable now

While mom is getting agitated because of some people here.. And I got some spanking, throw the garbage outside. hehe

Ah, this song above, always reminds me, that how miserable I am then I always get out of it. hehe

Simply better than the song yesterday, it's due to the words, lyrics of it, are metaphorically kinda, connected to me. hehe

Miserable I believe. Everytime I am so desperate and miserable, and there comes heaven, up there, doing some.. miracles.

However, I still asking for more... hehe

Anyway, the guitar rifts are simple (which is not) hehe but the lyrics, if you look at it, each word of it describes how we end up, and how lucky we are.

Even the song is kinda light, but like the charming man, the lyrics are more darker.

I consider charming man's lyrics lighter than this.

Well, I don't want to have this post long, especially my 2 brothers are debating at my back. I can't concentrate.

I can say, that this song, almost describe my life. Not most of it. But, some of it. Bwahahaha.

No more jokes..

I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour

But heaven knows i'm miserable now

I was looking for a job, and then i found a job

And heaven knows i'm miserable now

In my life

Why do i give valuable time

To people who don't care if i live or die ?

Two lovers entwined pass me by

And heaven knows i'm miserable now

I was looking for a job, and then i found a job

And heaven knows i'm miserable now

In my life

Oh, why do i give valuable time

To people who don't care if i live or die ?

What she asked of me at the end of the day

Caligula would have blushed

"oh, you've been in the house too long" she said

And i (naturally) fled

In my life

Why do i smile

At people who i'd much rather kick in the eye ?

I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour

But heaven knows i'm miserable now

"oh, you've been in the house too long" she said

And i (naturally) fled

In my life

Oh, why do i give valuable time

this charming man

As I said earlier, this week will be showing about my second fave band in my life. Ever. The Smiths. Well, they came from a great city of Manchester, UK and they became one of the great bands ever. How? Hmmmm I don't know which magazine was it, but they had a survey and asked who is the most influential band then the number 1 band is The Smiths, beating The Beatles. hehe In an alternative sense, that can be possible. Come on. Even Emo bands should thank them. hehe Or even many bands. Well, you can just check wiki for their profile, don't make me explain or tell their story. It's long and damn crazy, until now. hehe

They are not even close after they broke up. Suing each other. hehe

Anyway, let's look at the lyrics. I was surprised there is a New York Version.

A punctured bicycle

On a hillside desolate

Will nature make a man of me yet ?

When in this charming car

This charming man

Why pamper life's complexity

When the leather runs smooth

On the passenger seat ?

I would go out tonight

But I haven't got a stitch to wear

This man said "It's gruesome that someone so handsome should care"

A jumped up pantry boy

Who never knew his place

He said "return the ring"

He knows so much about these things

He knows so much about these things

I would go out tonight

But I haven't got a stitch to wear

This man said "It's gruesome that someone so handsome should care"

Na, na-na, na-na, na-na, this charming man ...

Na, na-na, na-na, na-na, this charming man ...

A jumped up pantry boy

Who never knew his place

He said "return the ring"

He knows so much about these things

He knows so much about these things

He knows so much about these things

New York version adds :

I would go out tonight

But I haven't got a stitch to wear

I would go out tonight

But I haven't got a stitch to wear

Oh, la-la, la-la, la-la, this charming man ...

Oh, la-la, la-la, la-la, this charming man ...

A jumped up pantry boy

Who never knew his place

He said "return the ring"

He knows so much about these things

He knows so much about these things

He knows so much about these things

Very simple song, actually, I am still in trance. hehe I haven't really understand the lyrics here but what amaze me in this song it's the whole song. From the great guitar play from Marr and the voice of Morrisey, it's simply great. I don't know how to play a guitar but with the sounds of it, it's hard to copy. hehe Marr is a God. hehe Cleverness of the song is really present here, as one of the qualities of the song. It's fun yet when you see the lyrics, it's about hate, oh how about the song "Panic"..

Even it's short, which another quality of their songs, they are really good summing up in such a short time, summing up the good rhythm, and a good lead singer, and basic bass and drums.

He did say charming man, but for just describing the guy. What a song. hehe

Oh well, I am not charming. hehe

Tomorrow will be miserable.

change of shift

Change na shift pa. hehe Pagkatapos bumenta ang USTe noong Sunday eh ano na ba nangyayari sa kin. Well, sana makapasok pa ng final four ang USTe. hehe Di ko inaasahan na pati sila Bata and Django inaalat din. hehe Hay buhay.

Ano nga ba.. Ah, habang bumabalik ako sa shop kanina, iniisip ko na yun mga nangyari sa kin, parang kailan lang. Lalo na yun mga plano ko this month. Hay, di ko inaasahan na gagamitin ko yun final ace of cards. hehe Let's see if that one works. And if that one works, no more disturbance. Especially if I passed and let me go.

Independence.

Being alone. Walang mangugulo. hehe

Pero tuloy pa rin ang normal ang buhay. Siguro, medyo napagod lang ako last week and daming iniisip. Kinda nervous as well. If this works, I mean that's a sign from above, I'll take it. hehe

Oh well, sana nga tuloy tuloy na lang ang mga magandang mangyayari sa buhay ko. Parang kasi nastuck lang ang life ko ng ganito. But I like this than working my ass off every night, literally, every midnight. Those days. Sleepless days.

For this week, you might wonder or got surprised with the smiths. Actually, after this post, I will give my fave songs from them, as my second fave band. Let's rewind last year. My number one is of course, New Order/Joy Division.

Isang banda lang sila so I don't consider them separate even they have separate musical pieces but no, for me, they are just one. Especially the albums done by New Order, may moments na JD pa din sila. hehe

If you hear me like kinda clever or weird, or so intelligent yet dumb sometimes, it is because of them, The Smiths. Buti na lang di ko natuto ang pagiging badet ni Morrisey. hehe But seriously, they are a fantastic band for me. That's your british accent right there. hehe

If these changes do happen, I am still not sure, what will happen to me. Indeed, I am ready I guess. But if this don't work, then let's stick to Plan A for a while.

Quite a while.

At least, nanalo pa din yun mga legends natin sa bilyar kahit medyo benta si Bata. hehe Good job!!

Am I charming?

...

Kinda hasty for this time.

OldBoy

I saw this trailer, wayback years ago, about a man who was locked for 15 years without reason. Then there was action scenes then thriller as well which I was drawn to it. Unfortunately, that was like 3-4 years ago, way before my ex came in. hehe Thanks to DSL and torrent, I was able to get this film. Hooray!!! hehe

So, I got the film and at first my plan is just take a look at it, some scenes, like browse some scenes just to make sure that it's ok. I used to do that for every film I got, however, when it started, I am really watching the film. I forgot that I should just check it. hehe

It starts that a man holding a man's neck tie and says his name is then the scence cuts right away to the interrogation scene with the police. The man was drunk, going nuts and well was released thanks to his friend.

While calling to his home, the dude suddenly lost and that's where the story goes..

Full of fun, action, thriller, I thought it's an action but it's not. Some gore, sex and well, thoughts. I can't spoil the movie here. hehe I just simply want to recommend it. Well, the lead guy is really unlucky, especially he was charged for a thing that he kinda slip. The one should be put in prison is his friend, but anyway, his friend got killed. So the lead guy is kinda lucky but not in the end.

The movie, directed by Chan-wook Park, by the way, it's Korean. I watched Korean movies before, but it's more love story like my sassy girl, and others. But this one, is the best Korean movie I saw. The Host is good but this OldBoy, is on the top. What made it good is the emotions shown in the film. I was drawn to it and it will change suddenly as it approaches in the end. Even it's kinda sad, the dude should be grateful, he is still alive with his love one.

Music is in pace with the movie especially the beginning and the end part. The setting, even it's dark but perfect for the story. The plot, kinda complex it is. Especially, about the theme of it. Vengeance for the 2 characters.

There were scenes that are shocking. Well, I am not suprised to the other scenes, but what shocked me is the octopus part. Damn. That's a true octopus. hehe Ewwww. Hehe But it adds flavor to the movie.

Everything is good in the movie. I mean, even it's dark, it's just I feel sorry for the dude because he was not given a chance to repent.

Moral story? Kinda complex but it's just don't spread rumors to your talkative friend. hehehe

The action scenes where few but good, especially how the dude handled hundred guys in a tight space. I thought they were more but oh well, it's not an action movie. Great actors, everything.

Oh, that is one of the vengeance movies made by the director, and his last one, also good but not as OldBoy.

But one thing is for sure in that movie, Sympathy for Lady Vengeance, Yeong-ae Lee, (jewel in the palace lead chick) is damn hot. hehe In Jewel in the palace she's kinda, well very conservative, but in that movie, she is not. hehe That made her hot.

I recommend that too, but I definitely recommend OldBoy first.

Damn for 15 years you're locked without any reason, I am going to kill that bastard. hehe

By the way, Will Smith is trying to remake this? I won't watch his movie even it's Steven Spielberg will direct, no way. If the ticket is free, or i'll just wait for the DVD, or just I don't think they will copy or do it in a different way. They will simply fail. hehe

realizations (part 6)

After DLSU won sparringly against UST today. After I saw and just don't get it what's the meaning of her rants. hehe After 2 days of wedding which got me drained but happy. Pagkatapos ng lahat na nangyari, last week lang. Eh, well, I ended up again, here. hehe

Maybe life is full of mysteries indeed.. Looking back and wonder, the what if's. hehe

83. Curiosity counts.

84. The more violent the movie is, the more I get excited. hehe

85. I am not a violent person.

86. Even as planned, I still change my mind at the last minute.

87. I am shy, still shy.

88. I am into music than reading books.

89. However, I need to make the balance of reading and listening. hehe

90. I am a man of my word. (then the Joker laughs like in the Dark Knight movie. hehe)

91. I keep my promises, not all but most of them.

92. 91 and 92 ay pareho lang. hehe

93. I rather stare at my computer than to eat or do the important things.

94. Pero, siguro, gusto ko lang magcomputer. All day. hehe

95. So, if I am addicted to blogging, then it means I am addicted in reading other blogs, even I am already dissed. hehe

96. I always feel, my life will be short.

97. I feel ugly, the reason behind what I get girls who are well, beautiful. Especially, GS and HS days. Oh, those damned days.

98. Why go for less if you can go for more.

99. The line above, I'll explain later. hehe

100. That's it for tonight.

and wait there's more!!! hehe

I don't want this to be a long night.

promised you a miracle

Well, while doing this, I am watching the music video of it. Kinda crappy. hehe Sayang naman, maganda yun song. How did I discover it? Thanks to Kuya Dong's compiled DVD of new wave songs, I accidentally played this song at ayun LSS na ko. hehe Mabuti pa yun "don't you forget about me" na music video. Eto eh crappy na, medyo badet pa ang dating. hehe

Now, well, I'm browsing to some interesting sites. Sa shop, well, going strong. Me? Happy because of what happened last weekend. However, I don't know what will happen in these next weeks. It maybe fast that I shouldn't blink. hehe

I decided to convert all the movies using the xilisoft converter. It is so perfect for the zune. Hehe Kahit yun mga panget na pelikula, sige dun ko na lang iconvert. I got 2 films that are really classic. Comedy classic. Blues brothers and Spaceballs. Reminiscing talaga ang 80's.

Oh yes, if God promised me a miracle, it should happen tomorrow. When UST fights DLSU. hehe Buti na lang Pares na lang ang bet. Mas mura eh. hehe at may plus pa UST, so dapat kung matalo UST, kailangan di tambak para panalo pa ko sa odds. hehe

Miracle indeed. Other miracles I saw or felt? Hmmm many of them, but I won't put it here. I will just keep it somewhere else..

Somewhere inside me. hehe

Anyway, what else.. Ah yes, may schedule na pala ko for the post. Wala lang para organized. hehe

Doing this maybe for asking a miracle.

I don't know. Maybe just tired. hehe