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Hay, sosobra pala ako ng isang post. hehe Pesteng kasing net to, sumabay pa sa kamalasan ko this month.
Not yet worst kasi pangalawang buwan pa naman ng tao. Worse lang. hahaha

Anyway, work, ok na sana eh, pesteng QA yan, nagsimula lang sa unang monitor lagpak agad.. Eh madaya pa, pagkatapos ng markdown, update na! Daya. 

Despite work output was down, mabuti na lang medyo hirap ang OPI so baka walang sharing.. Mabuti pala mababa stats ko. hahaha Ibig sabihin kahit mageffort, no extra profit. First time ata to for almost more than a year. 

Pero sana sa March bawi na.

After the long wait, implementation training sa SAP eh natuloy na. Unang topics kaya pa eh, kaso nung may UDV na at query, dun na ko pinugo. Sumakit na ulo ko at ayun, mukhang this March puro aral na.
Marami na nga ako sacrifices for March, hmmm I can't write for the paper and may namiss pa ko wedding ng friend. =( Very sad but well I need to do it for a change in professional path.

Mabuti naman this month eh may mga obligation na din ako tapos. Except siyempre yun bisita ni Gerro. hehe But other than that, eto ok lang. 

Napilitan ako ilipat ang computer sa ibang kwarto due to some signal issues of my new source of net. hahaha Infinite source..

What else.. More stress lang sa work at sa study. Medyo tahimik ang other factors. Ayos yun. 

Ah! Nasubukan ko yun pinakamalapit na spa dito, one minute nasa spa shop na ko. May promo eh. 

Bad trip, di sulit, dun na lang sa dati. hahaha Mabuti promo yun presyo. Parang ilang araw na, balik stress na yun katawan ko. Yun hard nung nagmasahe kasi di pa hard sa kin unlike other spa.. 

Anyway, ano pa.. May pag asa pa ang ROS!!!!

Extra rice, ROS!!!! hahahaha

March will be kinda a death march. =(

1000++

After checking my list and counters sa blogspot and wordpress, never in my wildest dreams to reach this mark!!! hahaha

I wonder to myself, why am I keep writing? 

Why I'm not running out of topics to discuss kahit nagbawas na ko ng post every month? 

Is it passion? Hmmmm yah. I'm a crazy man talking to his self.

Is it for fame? I'm not famous. hahaha

Is it for profit? How I wish.. hehehe But doing this for years and still not earned anything yet. But learning to do it due to well, distress..

Is it for love? Love for myself, love to others, Love God, Love Jesus, Love life. Despite a lot of hate around us. 

Is it for something to reach? To prove? Hmmm I just realize I can write kahit di naman ako nagsusulat in school. Geez.. hehe I'm quiet but when I write, parang ang daldal ko pala. Di ko alam why.

Is this going to end? From my motivation before to release stress, dissappointment or even hatred, but that has changed.. Maybe it's a tool or avenue of putting in record my life or how I view it. Through different ways, such as rants, reviews, films, music, o kahit food o kahit mga pangarap ko o lalo na yun mga nangyari na sa buhay ko. Maybe an inspiration to others or make someone hate you or even dissed you..
Anything goes. I don't really mind. What I do mind..

At least someone knows. It will only end when I wake up one day or I felt that I'm done, stop this anymore. Not dictated by somebody else. Only me that I'll decide. 

Is there going to be another blog? There is but di pa ngayon kasi this year I'm in kinda transition phase so after that and if everything is in place, mayroon pa. Sure na yun is about film.. But ayusin ko muna tong blog ko. Magulo, looks crap and pale. hahahaha Great thing, a couple of people might help me design this better. Just to become viral or marami magvisit o mangbwisit o kahit magcomment.. Please not bots. 

Is there a message you want to leave for the readers after this milestone? 

Just keep reading. Thanks for your precious time dropping here my friend!!!!!!!

Will go for another thousand more? I think I answered that. hehe

Oo nga pala, I need to have a copy of all my posts. hahahaha 

Safekeeping kuno. Para makasigurado lang. Mahirap din magsulat na wala man ako copy.


I won't mind the numbers or stats or whatever..

Just keep writing.

Moving forward.

How's being Single on Valentine's Day?

Fine. 

I'm fine that I won't need to rush buying flowers and then have a date with special someone in this very hectic day of love.

Everybody seems to be in a hurry with a smile in their face.

Longing to give not only such gift, but such love that lasts forever. 

I'm fine despite missing that day when I make a day in a month to have valentine's day. Of course, valentine's day is special but a monthsary is like the same. Give a gift to that special girl to feel that a month is like years that you've been together and loving amidst all odds and difficulties. I miss those days... 

I kinda made this day special now, by eating something sweet. Start off with my favorite salted caramel in Mcdonald's at lunch. After my tiring shift, I went straight to the terminal and while waiting I sip some cool coffee shake. Sweet indeed. 

Kinda liked when the FX arrived. At my left very tall and slender woman, around younger than me, very pretty. At the passenger's seat front, also another beautiful woman, reading some think book about money and investing, kinda like this one because the other has some make up, this one.. Less make up and beautiful. 

I kinda sigh well, thinking they have also dates around this day.

I went home and go straight to studying than well, roaming in a mall or other places which I know has traffic jams left and right. Avoid going to restaurants, bars, or even parks, all couples just want to have a special time in a special place. 

For me, this day not special. But I won't be sad or bothered. 

Still waiting and longing that one day, this time will be special because now I have someone to prepare a date or even prepare a meal to cook for. Or set a date in a different place, in a great sunset or under a moonlight.. Those kinda romantic scenes.

I know missing won't do anything but let's say I'm quite reminiscing those days. 

I won't push myself making that happen soon or tomorrow, but just be inspired every single day passed. 
Whatever happens that my status won't changed for some time whether single or getting married.. 
I should really never lose that feeling..

Feeling of not being alone in this ironic life.

Better yet, I should start seeing somebody and set a date.

No need to wait for valentine's day.

That way, hmmmm I'll change my answer to that question perhaps.

crushes: Saoirse Ronan

I always see her name in british films, not a lot but for the big ones. Namely the first I saw was Atonement. Despite that film's well depressing and slow mood, and you have 2 beautiful looking lead stars, I kinda focused to her. 

Until now, I don't know how to really pronounce her name, Saoirse? I looked at wiki and her name says it means freedom, and she pronounce it as Irish Sir-sha.. Huh? 

I don't care. =) I kinda followed her in other films, notably Hanna. Despite a very thin figure at that film due to her stunts, running and fighting.. Include of course, that her role in the film to be deadly, she still delivered that innocent teenager image. She stand out in that film besides Eric Bana and Cate Blanchett. I was focused of course, in her angelic face, immaculate complexion, and one of the most beautiful blue eyes I saw in an actress.. Ever.. Wow, that made me like get more films that has her on it. 

Although not complete yet, I already have byzantium, the host, How I live Now, Violet and Daisy then I should get The Lovely Bones,  and even critically panned The host! 

What is the great thing about her, despite her great looks, her acting shows first in the film then her looks leaves you a stamp in your mind that I should follow her. hahaha Her acting so versitile, that you can agree with her role like in Violet and Daisy. She is a teenager assasin despite the film's kinda lack of action, when her scenes come out, I do understand her role as a struggling teenager enjoying her teenage life at the same time, need to do her work as a killer. She's speaking american accent at the same time. Wow from thick Irish accent, then switching to american accent, that's very difficult. 

Despite almost perfect actress she is now, I just want her to improve in two things. I know she is just 19 but I hope she will look more built. I mean I don't like seeing her end up like Keira that very thin that you might end up thinking she is sick. I don't want her end up like that, as her most films suggest. So I hope she'll bulk not a lot, but just right. Another one, get more films that have a light tone, not the Host. hehe But comedy, or light story well there is one, The Grand Budapest Hotel. I hope she'll do more of it and it will help her not only financially, maybe artistically, Rom-Com will be good for her. One example, hmmmm About time, Rachel Mcadams is such a miscast there, Saoirse should be the one there to make the good movie into a great one. 

Well, with all this features she has and great thing almost no intrigues about her life, she will become one of the best actress in years to come. I am fond of few british actresses, and she is one that I really love. 
Until now, hmmm how can I call her? Or shout her name? 

It sounds like a panda or a bear. =)

Not Showing: The Armstrong Lie

The only reason why everybody watches tour de France is one man, one cyclist who not only survived cancer but won the yellow jacket not once.. But seven times! Record shattering, history at it's best and made cycling well notable in the world of sports.

Unfortunately, all is a big lie..

How? How on earth in worldwide broadcast a cyclist can cheat in a very physcial and tight race? Made arrangements with other riders? Shortcuts in the race? Flying?! Or in a more scientifically way.. Steroids? Enhancers? Illegal PED? or simply dope?

This documentary was made by one of my favorite documentary directors, Alex Gibney.. Let me tell you, of all the documentaries he made, I've never felt him so angry in other films until this one was made. As much he is always show different sides of the story, this one is different.. He emphasis how Lance Armstrong cheated all his victories in tour de France in the most deceiving and practical way.

Well, the only thing I didn't like in this film or I hope it will improve that the topic did not focus only to Lance Armstrong, but well the whole race it self in tour de France. I mean I know it might be more boring but because almost all cyclist are caught doping then why just make a film about the race itself.

But what I like most here is how Alex really got frustrated and disappointed to Lance as he intended to make this documentary for the comeback journey of Lance on 2009 but it turns out as he follow the rider in his journey, he saw some glaring fraud, lies or deceit by interviewing former team mates, the doctor/trainer, or even the media being puzzled how the hell Lance won easily in this race.

 I love how Alex gave a brief background of the tour de France, which is interesting that before, why this race is the hardest, how the cyclist survive, and other factors such as how they bike fast without PED. I was laughing that before cyclist can only use one energy drink.. Liquor! 

The interviews done in this documentary were very heart wrenching because you can feel the angst they have to Lance. From former team mates, friends and even fans.. As much Lance claims he's doing all his best to win for cancer patients, he is just getting sympathy from the crowd, all of us to cheer for him. I love one scene which was as his team mate in front of the race on 2009, then the manager advising him to slow down to give way to Lance. What did his team mate did? He did not follow the manager and left Lance to dust! 

That team mate was caught doping as well. Landis, and other competitors in the race, were caught doping. I'm not sure with Wiggins but he's clean perhaps.

I forgot, the most loved part of this film, the editing.. I loved the editing made for this film, as you'll have that feel of you like Lance at the start, but as it goes along, mixing his first 2009 interview and the one which he admitted using illegal PED, going to his conviction at the end, the emotion was built from being liking the dude to very angry to Lance. I feel sorry for the fans of cycling, or others who built trust to him, like celebrities or Nike.. And the most affected victim of this lie, the foundation he built for cancer patients.. Livestrong? Live lie? Gotta be kidding me.. 

It's sad on how this success was built using lie after lie to another. It also shows how detailed doping was used in this sport. I mean because of this, other sports surfaced using this kind of cheat like baseball, MMA and other sports. It became a standard now for sports to have anti doping test. 

Well, now I believe that Lance Armstrong should be not only banned from any sport but also not recognized or even remove his name from history for such a shameful act. I was furious at that tweet he did still showing the 7 yellow shirts he won. Defiant he is.. What a c*nt. 

Anyway, great documentary again from Alex and I hope his anger will go down as this documentary serves right to discredit...

An empathic liar.

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A lot of cramming I suppose. hehe Grabe, dami kong backlog in all facets in my life pero ok lang. This month will start for being serious. Tapos na yun ibang gagawin and time to focus yun mga kailangan kong gawin for me. Sound selfish but well, I need to.

Bad trip ang panahon nung January at idagdag pa ang crappy internet connection leading me na nadelay ang post sa blogsites ko. But good thing, bumalik ang mainit na panahon at medyo may connection na sa internet.

Umay na din ako sa balitang Vhong Navarro. For the past weeks, it's pathetic that this simple case of a dude who just want to have a good time ended up beaten and caught national attention. At ang lesson na sinabi niya, be faithful. What I understand, just don't get tubero sa BGC. hehe At magingat sa pagdala ng food sa condo. Geez.. Enough please.

Sad to hear na si Tado eh sumakabilang buhay na. At mas nakakalungkot nangyari eh sa bus na not exactly sinakyan namin dati papuntang Sagada but yun na, nadali siya. 

Kawawa naman, well, I hope it won't affect other tourist to go there o kahit ako pero sayang si Tado. Sa strangebrew days pa naman, siya yun driving force sa patawa talaga o kahit san siya magpakita, ayos siya lalo na sa radio show nilang brewrats. 

Anyway, what else ah, ayun matatalo na bukas ang Gaynebra este Ginebra. hahaha Scripted daw eh, so kailangang mag game 7 tapos talo din pala sila. Malaki problema ng Ginebra, kahit magfinals sila, grabe pagod sila, naghahabol sila at parang mas nawala yun chemistry nila nung nagplayoffs.. Tsk Tsk Tsk, bad omen. Ang kalaban lang naman nila sa finals eh yun team na isang beses natalo sa playoffs, 12 other games, panalo.. ROS! hehe Yun Alaska ko, next conference sila umayos!

Sa darating na NBA all star weekend, wag na magtaka o isipin sira ang graphics ng TV kung makikita na parang lahat ng events may isang pangalan ang nangingibabaw. Damian Lilliard. hehe Kakatuwa, marketing style daw nila yun para makilala siya. Sabagay, last year grabe na ginawa niya, kaunti pa din nakakilala sa kanya, kahit this year ha. Sabagay, may talent nga talaga yun player.. Nagulat lang ako pati Dunk Contest eh kasama siya. Anyway, give Kudos to that dude!

Actually this month, medyo mahihirapan ako magsulat. Naubusan na naman ako ng topic. Geez, I'm thinking what to write.

No, not love again?!

This shows a lot catching up to do.

Even in love. =)

Napulot!

Habang pumipila kami ni Igz sa KFC, kung buenas nga naman, nakakita ako ng 20 pesos! At least yun chicken fillet meal 30 pesos lang. hahaha 

I thought I'm not lucky but sometimes, especially may mga ganitong pagkakataon, eh I feel lucky. 

With a knack of details at medyo curious sa paligid, kahit simpleng lingon or tingin sa baba eh minsan nakakabuenas. Sa jeep, marami na ko nakuhang kahit 25cents, hanggang piso.. At minsan, nakabuenas ako na di ko alam kung ano ginawa pero nakapulot ako ng celphone! Kahit D88 lang yun na myphone, eh pwede na. 800 that time, libre! hahaha Walang charger pero madali lang kumuha ng charger, battery ok pa tapos may libre pang sim na tinapon ko agad. 

I was able to use it sometime pero di matagal sa dami ng cellphone ko dati. hehe In the end, nagloko na din kasi di nag-on na. Di na ginamit na matagal. 

MInsan payong, or dati sa shop naiwan na gamit ng mga  customer pero di na binalikan! hehe Tapos iba pa.. Pero minsan ako din nakakaiwan ng gamit, usually payong sa bahay ng mga friends ko. Kalat kasi nagsuka! hahaha Tapos ilan gamit, pero di naman mamahalin. Kaya parang kwits lang.

However, one Sunday, habang papunta sa PICC na sakay ng FX.. Bumaba isang pasahero tapos pagtingin ko sa baba, may nakarolyo na headset.. Sumigaw ako kung sa kanya daw, sabi niya hindi. Aba ayos! Naghahanap ako ng isa pang headset, just for backup kasi malamang this year may bibigay na isa sa mga headset ko. 

It looks like parang di maganda ang tunog, loops style kasi na ayoko, walang label at sabi ko parang di din tatagal to.. Kaso after putting in ear pads at checking it, aba eto yun pinakamalakas na headset na nakuha ko! Mas malakas sa Pioneer na nabili ko and Ministry of Sound, sobrang lakas, half lang ng volume sa phone gamit ko. Pag tinodo baka bingi na ko. hahaha Clear, rich bass, grabe.. Sobrang buenas at sulit! Kahit bilin ko ito, malamang sulit na din. Panget lang, until now, di ko pa din mahanap ang pangalan! Anyway, I don't care, sobrang sulit. 

Well, very grateful ako sa mga napupulot ko, whether maliit, mura, mahal or tingin ko walang kwenta, kunin pa din! 

Wala siya value today, baka along the road, it has the value the most!

I thought that God just leave some things that reminds what you need it most. Metaphorically..

All you need to do is pick it up and grateful for it. =)

Gaya na lang nung headset, I can't still believe I'm hearing it great. Damn great..

Kaya ako, mabuti yun naglalakad ka lang kasi sa daan.. 

Baka makapulot ulit!

Isolation

Damn I haven't done this for a long time. Being away from my comfort things and stuff. Or let's say reducing the usual stuff that makes me happy or comfortable such as playing DOTA or watching my own film fest. A lot of things limiting besides playing or watching, I need to really focus on reading and learning again. Oh by the way, I'm not really going out even with my closest friends before. 

I just want to be isolated here. My simple sanctuary, my room. Great thing, Bro is not here despite I'm quite prepared for him but it made easier when he left. Thank God. I can just look at the things at hand. I know these small sacrifices are worth it especially when I reach my dream which is just past that certification and from there, bigger things will come. 

I know it will be difficult for me, but I have no other choice. But to strive hard and work it out, despite I have not studying accounting for a decade coupled with a computer program that involves accounting. Geez, I know my knack for computer applications, the trial and error mindset will not work. I might need help. 

However, no one is free to help me. So, I need to just look around for more source of help. Books will be a great start.

Music will be silenced when studying. Thoughts should be at the topic at hand not wandering into something bright or going into abyss.

Even texting is limited which is fine.. Nobody bothers me to check anyway unless there is something important or lovely.

Oh dear God, maybe with this utter desertion, it's between you and me. If you can just lend me such wisdom to know all of this in just 2 to 3 weeks, that will be wonderful. I know you gave me such challenge that I can overcome. You have faith in me, and love me.. Maybe, I'll just bank on that.
For now, while writing this, I already thinking headaches in the coming weeks because it will not only be information overload that'll getting but more of a nerve wracking excercise. 

But great thing in Isolation, when I'm alone and at peace, feeling of anxiety or despair won't bother me a bit. It will happen if I did not do my best. So I should do my best here. 

For the Glory. 

Perhaps, love will be a great companion to this isolation.

Not feeling alone when you're in love. =)

classics: All About Lily Chou Chou

After that japan music film fest I did , well I put Hula Girls upfront beside this film.. After a long time thinking, I've decided that this film should be the best among those I watched in this film fest. 

The cause of sudden change of mind came when I compared the two flicks. Why became an instant classic as well? 

First of all, the only bad thing in this film was some scenes were quite confusing, and the shaky cam style in some parts. The bad japanese student Shusuke, he's really good student before but just he became bad due to happened to his family and that near death experience in Okinawa. The first parts shows his bad side then switches to some parts which he has a good side. Then the parts when Yuichi, the lead character, went with his friends to Okinawa, a lot of shaky cam scenes which I thought I got dizzy and frowned but to overcome these negative parts, just watch it again.

Anyway, first of all, despite that dizzy or weird editing, story is simple, Yuichi just living his senior HS life with his close friend Shusuke until after that freak accident in their trip to Okinawa, that changed Shusuke and became the ultimate bully not only to Yuichi but their whole classroom. Those were happening while listening or let's say they have an escape by listening to enigmatic Lily Chou Chou. The ending? You gotta see it. I don't want to really spoil after all the chaos that these kids done in the film.

Hula Girls, with it's superb plot and dramatic moments still has an edge over this film. But it doesn't mean this film was behind that much. If they only remove that editing style, and made like a simple smooth plot from Shusuke turning from good to bad then Yuichi's life being from simple to miserable, this film is way better in terms of plot and dramatic feel. The next parts made this film more memorable to me. Acting, I know Hula kinda done the hard one by having actresses need to train for the dancing skills then how it can help them getting them out from dangerous mining work.. This one, it just pure acting, especially at that bullying scenes which is so real! I mean it happens not only in their school, it may happened here at my school or I think each school! It was scary and heart wrenching. Especially the scene where one student ran into the pond and was told by Shusuke to get naked and ran across the field, that is kinda harsh. Geez.

Yoko, the character who got bald in the end, was also a surprise character. Silent, not that really care about the class but unfortunately did not escape the wrath of her classmates. Geez, especially that scene in the factory, very I hope it's not true in other schools. Lastly, of course Yuichi really kinda resembles like my years in HS, loser and got bullied but able to survive and got even with Shusuke. Shiori's character struck me the most, she is just I don't know what went to her head just be a slave of Shusuke of being a prostitute then got mad, then killed herself. The scenes where she was in, really struck me the most, especially that last scene of her. Yikes.. Don't forget the scenes that has the chatroom stuff and I thought that was kinda no value at all in the film, just another visual effect, but in the end, another surprise was there. 

Despite that weird editing, the cyber chat messages stuff, gotta give credit to the Director who despite this film has long running time, it never bored me plus I got that feeling of the thrill on what's going to happen to each character especially towards the end. Wow, this dude is damn good.

Lastly, Hula Girls has that good music, hawaiian music coupled with great hula dancing and hot Yu Aoi! Here at Lily Chou Chou, you'll see an innocent yet great acting of Yu Aoi at a tender age. Of course she done better in Hula because she's the lead character there. But in this film, if she was the lead character, this is her best film. But well, the story focuses to Yuichi. 

I almost forgot, the music of this film, simply astonishing. Yes, it is, especially get the OST, then watch this film.. A perfect fit with it's kinda suicidal theme then the songs used, wow.. Especially that end credits paired with Glide, such a great, classic ending credits. The OST is not only like OST, it's a great music album for rock fans. I recommend you to listen to it. Half the number there are japanese and the rest english or I forgot. They used so much of that Debussy song perfectly in the film. Salyu is like Bjork in japanese. No kidding, she's kinda great. I want to see her sing live. =) 

Only caution for this film, hmmm let no HS student especially those who are in crisis watch this film. This might make the student drive nuts. hehe Not kidding, but with the message it brings, I won't be surprised after watching it, it may depress you.

But thanks to the OST, that kinda changed. =)

Glide - Salyu

"I wanna be I wanna be I wanna be just like a melody 
just like a simple sound like in harmony 

I wanna be I wanna be I wanna be just like the sky 
just fly so far away to another place 

To be away from all, to be one of everything "

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Habang nagloloko tong niloload kong post eh ano ba bago? hehe 

Eto, nagaaral na ng SAP, but napaisip ko bumili na talaga ng accounting book for the terms. Geez, medyo mahirap bumalik ang alaala 10-12 years before about accounting. hahaha

Well, mabuti din pala di nandito si Gerro ngayon, marami na nagbago sa kanya but we'll see pag nabisita ko siya this week. 

Grabe talaga ang lamig ng panahon na to, first time ata sa buhay ko na mas malamig yun January kaysa sa Christmas season. hehe Tuloy tuloy na kaya to sa Feb or baka naman summer ganito na? Naku iba na yun.  Climate change na talaga!

Sana matalo ang Ginebra sa San Mig. Kung nakabuenas sila sa Alaska, malamang di sila buenas sa San Mig. hehe Bukas kailangan maaga ako gumising para iwas taxi. hahaha At para maganda naman start ng taon sa stats, I mean pasado QA, mukhang papasa sa AHT at 100% Attendance at walang tardy. Alam ko tuwing binabati ko nagkakaaberya pero I claim di mangyayari yun. hehe

Grabe ang net ng globe, sobrang bagal, mabuti na lang.. Hmmmm hahaha pasensya na lang!!!! Di bale this coming week, bibilis na to pesteng to.

Ah, looking forward next month kasi eto na, two things to consider eh start workout or simple excercise tapos mamaster na tong guide for SAP, kahit navigation and stuff, ok na sa kin, kahit medyo delay sa accounting kasi di naman yun major ko. Medyo hahabol ako this year na maintindihan again the accounting principles, kahit basic. Please..

Well, despite panata ko na medyo bawas laro and panood. Nagkakatotoo na. Di ko na napanood ang 47 Ronin or even Jack Ryan, pero hintayin ko na lang sa download. hehe 47 Ronin at the first teaser, something's wrong na eh, habol ko lang naman dun si Rinko Kikuchi and of course, Kou Shibasaki! hehe Dalawang films lang pinanood ko this month. Big drop.. Tsk Tsk. Sacrifice.. hahaha

Bagal talaga ng net.. Erghh.. Naglalagay na ko ng post eh.. Anyway, Oscars this year eh interesting. No clear winner sa best film pero sa actors/actress mukhang mayroon na. Nakita ko na preview lang ng mga nominees, like Blue Jasmine at Dallas Buyers, sure na tong Jared, Cate at Matthew. Grabe, medyo lamang na. hehe Yun others, di ko pa sure. Pero gusto ko makita yun 12 years a slave at American Hustle. Ok yun Captain Phillips. Pati ako natense sa nangyari sa kapitan. hahaha Gravity should win either best cinematography or Visual effects or sound effects, basta technical dapat may win sila.

What else, hmmmm sa ngayon, sana mainit na.. Kahit gusto ko malamig lagi pero wag naman isang buwan ako nakajacket, comforter sa bahay or whatever na makapal para lang mainit. Pero at least di ba di na kailangan pumunta ng Baguio o lalo na yun Sagada! Paano kaya yun lamig dun? hahaha

For now, just focus na kailangan gawin at namnamin na...

Nagiisa at walang pangamba.

Eye of the Beholder

Mula sa kwarto ko, ayun etong building na halos magdadalawang taon na ginagawa, hanggang ngayon, di ko alam kung ano ba talaga. 

Sabi nila templo, but with electric wires? Saka parang di ko pa nakikita yun nagfeng shui nito. Pwede ba talaga dito? Sabagay may isa pa sa tapat ng hospital at ang taas pa ng bakod.

Medyo tumatanda na din ang bahay, I think it needs renovation especially yun roof. Nagkakadila na. hehe Pero very thankful ako dito kasi sa daming bagyong dumaan at iba pa, eh matibay pa din kahit kahoy/plywood lang exterior nito. 

Paglabas mo, ayun may ginagawa na naman building, this time a college building ha! For a chinese school tapos nagextend pa ito college. I don't know kung magclick pero kung ako sa panahon ko college na yun lugar, aba kahit 5 mins ang gising ko before the bell, di ako malalate! hahaha Weird structures na talaga dito sa min.

Although may mga nawala na, like yun isang bentahan ng kotse, eh wala na malapit sa RCBC. Bakanteng lote na. Si Flying V lumipat na ng HQ, ngayon malamang buidling o whatever condo itayo dun. Yun isang lote, 50% na tapos yun pundasyon ng townhouse. Tapos etong kalsada sa Quezon Ave puro espalto at tanggal ng mga dahon sa isle. Di ko lang alam kung pagbumaha ba lumulubog pa din dun.. 

At pag gabi, alam na, may mga abangers na mga badet! At ang matindi, lumalapit sa kanto namin. hehe Pero dahil sa kanila ha, parang wala na nanghoholdup dito. Di naman lagi, pero dati may nagaabang kasi. eh ngayon, pwede pa din sila, yun mga badet ang unahin nila. hehe 

Ang bilis ng panahon, after more than a decade.. D. Tuazon hasn't really changed so much. What I see and feel, still the same. Thy place is a good location just to be myself. Or let's say, great times and bad days happened, this place stood still and me included of course.

Kaya, when I leave this place, I'm might be sad for sometime. Marami kasing mamiss ko dito. 
Sa ngayon, eto, abangan natin yun mga nangyayari sa kalsada dito, sana may shooting ulit, yun may Marian ulit. hahaha

broken lines (collection 41)

two words

over acting
deep worried
looking something
thinking ahead

always hurry
never worry
look dumbfounded
sleepy head

good insight
bad idea
quite itchy
clock ticking

freezing cold
bright lights
cracker munching
star gazing

planning ahead
wondrous deeds
time shifting
goal setting

behind schedule
stay late
alert always
simple smile

upside down
patiently waiting
great effect
worse scenario

initial start
final finish
nothing less
wanting more

flashbacks: Projects

Mabuti na lang, tapos na ang mga ganito when you get old. I mean, pag gumagawa ka pa din ng projects for school, aba magisip ka na. hehe You need to finish school!

Tapos na ang mga project na pampagastos lang! Like yun drafting project ko na ewan ko paano ako nakapasa, gumastos ng malaki kasi siyempre di naman mura yun mga gamit. Even in college, yun mga punta sa subic or other province na more of site seeing than doing real project! hehe 

Tapos na yun mga project na wala ginawa kung hindi pumetiks sa una tapos magmamadali sa huli!!! hahaha Nung HS marami yan, naku lalo na pag involve something sa drawing or reporting projects. May isang kaklase ko, imbes ang group lang niya gumagawa sa bahay niya, buong classroom nandun para tumambay at makikain! hehe College, ay eto ang grabe, kung hindi cramming, counterstrike muna, or worse inom muna ng ilan araw tapos pag malapit na pasahan, pre gawin na tin! hahaha That's team work. Or kung malas malas pa, nagsisimula pa ng ayaw  lalo na sa delegation of task! Grabe.  hehe

Tapos na yun mga project na talagang pinaghihirapan pero pagawa lang pala! hahaha Lalo na yun parol and advent wreath, geez, materials lang akin tapos sila Kuya na bahala. hahaha Basta yun ibang project ko, lalo na when it involves with art, eh kung hindi si Kuya, si Ate ang taga gawa! Kahit ngayon nga pagbalot, pinababalot ko pa sa iba. hehe Kahit ata nung college pero di naman ganun karami yun pinagawa ko.

Tapos na yun mga project na dun mo malalaman kung sino magiging kaibigan mo o maasahan mo sa buhay o mas maganda makikilala mo yun mga kaklase mo. Totoo ito. HS, hmmmm may mga projects na kasama ko yun CRAP kahit di kaming apat eh iba dun magkakasama kami. Tapos yun ibang kaklase ko sa HS nakilala ko mabuti nung gumagawa ng project at naging kaclose ko pa yun iba. College ang masaya! hehe from 1CPM to 4BA1, nakilala ko isa't isa ang mga kaklase ko at most of them friends! =) From Flytrap play, tapos tulungan sa pagpasa na lintik na accounting, saan kami pumupunta na lugar for projects, tapos Feasib, then marami pang projects na dahil dun, nakilala ko yun mga friends ko. hehe May magulo, awayan, at kasiyahan.

Kahit tapos na siyempre ang mga pagkakataon na yun, masarap balikan yun mga moments na lahat naghihirap para lang tapusin ang pesteng project na yun. hehe At bonding time, saka yun paano magflourish ang teamwork despite well, maraming odds, expenses at higit sa lahat deadline ng submission!

Kung tutuusin naisip ko, parang most of the projects we've done, wala naman silbi nung tumanda ako. Such as gumawa ng ham, eh bili na lang ako ng ham. Or gumawa ng parol which hirap naman magsabit dito sa bahay or even that honey making project, no way I'm going to do that! hahaha

Senseless but quite meaningful projects.

Most critical project of all, to finish good at this hard project.

Life!

flashbacks: An Engagement

Sa buhay, may mga bagay na dapat mangyari, at isa na yun siyempre ang pagaasawa. Di ko akalain na si Doc eh di naman kagulat gulat na eto mangyayari pero yun agad agad, yun na. hehe Habang nag DoDota eh sinabi niya kung available kami ng ganitong date last January, ako naman since Sat Sun off ko walang problema. Igz din ok lang, si Sir eh may pasok ng Sat at may service pa pero ok din, so ok naman lahat. Nagpapatulong din kung papaano daw isurprise si Tin. 

Well, kahit ako walang masagot, kantahan namin? hehe Baka matawa lang si Tin but anyway, nagawa naman ng paraan ni Doc. 

A week later, eto na ang pinakahihintay ni Doc, at kaming tatlo eh gutom na! hahaha Kasama pala si Khaye then family members ni Doc at siyempre relatives ni Tin, para ang plano eh dapat date lang nun dalawa tapos surprise na lang na nandun kami lahat.  Sa Guevarra's pala yun reception este yun place ng kainan.

Nung dumating kami dun, maganda yun lugar, parang reminiscing yun spanish times ha. Ganda ng set up, and ambiance, except well for the service which sabihin ko later. Yun Food, later na din. We arrived there around 6:30pm pero pwede na daw kami kumain. Pero siyempre ayusin muna yun set up and stuff at yun gameplan ni Doc such as tatago kami sa sulok tapos surprise namin si Tin, tapos may sasabihin si Doc na mahaba then bigay na ng engagement ring. Naks. Ang sweet ni Doc. =)

Kami naman eh well, abang na lang pero siyempre dahil gutom na, eh nauna na kami sa buffet. Grabe, pagkakita ko sa mga pipiliin eh kulang ata dalawang ikot, gustong tikman lahat ng putahe. hehe

Siyempre usap usap at chismax habang naghihintay at ninamnam yun sarap ng dishes, from inihaw, to kare kare tapos kanin at atbp. Biglang sabi ni Doc, malapit na si Tin so pwesto na kami according to plan.. Tapos may aberya pa pala sa service at yun plan kasi parang may mali itong ginawa yun waitress pagpasok namin kaya medyo mainit ang ulo ni Doc. hehe

Si Doc eh kahit sinasabing niya ok lang, pero sobrang nerbyoso at di mapakali, baka makalimutan pa niya yun sasabihin niya. hehe Pero wag ka, nakangiti naman siya, sobrang masaya at alam niya makukuha yun OO ni Tin. 

Dumating na si Tin eh to her surprise, nashock na nagaabang kami lahat sa room and naiyak siya coz it's her birthday at nandun kami lahat ng close friends and relatives of sorts. Eto na, pagkatapos ng simpleng intro ni Doc, which we thought mahaba pa sasabihin niya, binigay na agad ni Doc yun box containing the question and a ring, with a picture ng pusa, Will you marry me? Biglang yakap agad si Tin malamang OO na yun. hahaha So there, we have first sa CRAP na getting married this year. Ewan ko from Dec naging Oct na sabi ng aming source. hahaha Napapaaga ha ata.

Anyway, Tin cried for joy of course at very grateful sa mga pumunta at nagwitness nito, ah don't forget the singing waiters na walang ginawa kung manggulat at panira ng momentum. hahaha Palpak! Mabuti na lang masarap yun food. hehe Tin look more lovely after siyempre nun engagement, speechless kasi talagang surprise ni Doc and important is very happy siya. Si Doc, after that, kahit sinugod niya yun manager because of some slip ups eh nakalma na at nagenjoy yun pagkain and the event at pagasikaso ng mga bisita. Pwede na atang tumakbo ito si Doc. hehe Pero talagang natuwa kami sa sweetness at preparedness ni Doc kahit nawala yun mahabang sasabihin niya. Sabagay, mahal mo naman yun tao, wag na patagalin pa. hahaha

If you're asking me kung talagang sila talaga forever, well a resounding yes! Tin and Doc already withstood na sa CRAP nung kaming apat ay may girlfriend then nung kaming tatlo naging single, sila eh together pa din! hehe We saw their ups and downs, at yun hirap ng pinagdaanan ng relationship nila lalo na sa part ni Doc na akala di siya matatanggap ng family ni Tin pero siyempre sa courage at sincerity ni Doc eh di lang tanggap ng family ni Tin kung hindi pati yun mga relatives niya. Grabe. hehe Mahirap yun ha, kaya eto ok na at wala nang kaba si Doc, kasal na lang talaga. hahaha

With Tin aaminin ko, at first medyo hirap kami magadjust. hahaha Peace Tin! Pero pagtagal di lang kami nakapagadjust sa kanya, siya rin naman for us at sweet niya lalo na pag birthday ni Doc, kami yun contact niya para isurprise si Doc. hehe At siyempre sobrang ok kasama si Tin minsan nanglalaglag pa. haha Pero masaya kami at nakita namin mahal niya din si Doc kahit ano pa man, kampante kami na magiging masaya sila sa hirap at ginhawa.  Siyempre kung love ni Doc si Tin, kami din naman for Tin, love ng CRAP. haha

Di ko akalain na sa tagal ng panahon dati, pakain kain lang kina Igz, or tambay sa UST, or eto counterstrike pag linggo! hahaha Now, not only due to age or other factors, it's the path we choose to enjoy life to the fullest. One of them, getting married. Si Doc, di dahil siyempre best friend namin siya, pero makikita ko na he'll be a great husband but siyempre a great father din. A provider, protector and most of all, leader kung ano man gusto nila tahakin ni Tin na landas eh mangyayari yun basta si Doc eh let him lead the way. Basta may mag guide sa kanya at the best person eh si Tin. 

I wish the best of all sa kanilang dalawa, may God bless your relationship and remember that if you let him the center of your marriage, whether in bad times or good times, your love for each other will not only be stronger but it will stand forever. 

I accept that next coming years, I won't be surprised that CRAP meetings will be so much less na baka reunion na ang dating. hahaha Siyempre after Doc, eh may plano na din si Architect este si Igz at tuloy na. hehe Si Sir Rheg long delayed at dapat surprise pero alam na ni Khaye, hahaha tuloy na din. I'm relieved that those 3 found their love of their lives. Damn, mukhang aattend ako ng tatlong kasal in a year's time. Geez.. 

Am I sad that I'm the only left not getting married? No of course, masaya ako kasi since ikakasal na sila, wala na mangbubully sa kin lalo na yun isa diyan. hahahaha Kidding.. MIxed emotions of course, I'm sad kasi mababawasan na yun times of magkakasama kami kahit simpleng kain lang or DOTA lang or kulitan lang. Mamiss ko yun sobra. It helped me at least lessen my stress or any worries in my life. Masaya kasi at least, they found a greater joy which stands forever, living with someone you love most of course, second to Him. Alam ko na kung ano sinabi ko kay Doc eh will apply for the other two but it's such a refreshing feeling that through the years, CRAP evolve from being friends, close friends, brotherhood and now, future fathers of a family. I don't know what's next after that. Grandfathers? hahaha

Nobody can tell, but one thing is for sure, CRAP will always be CRAP. Brothers for life!

As for the food, well sulit siya for 700 something, grabe, ang sarap ng pinoy cuisine at it's finest. Di na nga ako kumain hanggang lunch ng umaga, sobrang busog. Medyo tumatanda na kami, 3 balik lang ako na dapat mga 5. hahaha Si Sir Rheg ako pa tagaubos yun pangalawang plato. Si Igz kakagulat, isang plato lang at dessert na. Si Doc, nakarami, paano ginutom sa stress!!! hahaha Interesting may mga artistang pumunta na dun, nakalagay kasi sa pader yun mga plato with sign ng mga artista. Guevarra's ok siya lalo kung date because of the set up and events like kung marami kayo kakain. Service, ask Doc for that.hehe Forgivable naman pwede na.

Isang feedback lang, yup di pwede commute, medyo maglalakad ka ng mahaba, ang layo from Wilson St. sa Greenhills. Effort to. hahaha Gusto ko ngang balikan para dun sa mga inihaw nila, kaso effort to. 

As for me? Oh God, don't expect me to follow that trend right away. hahahaha At least, may tatlong kainan na ko pupuntahan na dapat masarap ang handa! hehe 

For now, I'll just stay single and ready to mingle, I suppose.  =)

Punks Not Dead

i know to myself that my preferred genre in music is Rock. Well, from my nursery years going forward, I get used to listen to new wave 80's! Then going to high school, that was like the years of grudge and punk stuff. Although I still listen to new wave and New Order then became deeper due to some personal issues, I listened to Joy Division. An escape from daily conflicts and enjoying the dark lyrics of such band.

As I grew up and became aware of their type of sound, well they started as a punk band. At their time at around 1970's Manchester, they were awesome bands such as Sex Pistols, The Clash and Buzzcocks.  When they toured in the US which I don't have the exact band, that started the US punk bands. 

I became older and curious which are those bands, I found out such as The Ramones, Minor Threat, and that's it. But well, great thing, there is a documentary for this!

First of all, what is punk rock? Well, with all the genres about rock from Hard Rock, Alternative, Grundge, Pop or Slow, or there is also Goth/Emo type, NuMetal, and a lot of varieties. Punk is kinda different from all of it. You see, other types of rock well they kinda only differ in rhythm or pace they use. For Punk, all you need are trashy lyrics, at least one bassist, one lead, vocalist and a simple drummer and a lot of energy! 
This documentary really made punk music easy to understand. From those UK great punk bands, up to the first US punk bands even some at the present. I loved how it started then it moving towards how it influenced most of the musicians. I love the parts which has interviews coming from the greats of punk such as Johnny Rotten and Buzzcocks, Clash, then the montages of the yester years! I am surprised that some bands in this documentary started as punk band such as Blondie, Nirvana, Pennywise and I forgot the others. 

I also loved how the US punk scene evolve from the years that no record company wants them, even independent labels until it skyrocketed what is today. I loved the interviews from the first US punk bands such as Ramones, Green Day, Offspring, MInor Threat/Fugazi, damn there is another one I forgot! hehe A lot of more actually, telling how it was hard to release a record but it did not stop them going. The early footages of their gigs were awesome, a lot of chaos, diving and raw punk music! 

The documentary also shows how well punk music really part of lives of many, which shows through clothing, hairstyle and a lot of accessories and piercings. Which I kinda thought what if  I did those things? Nah, it doesn't suits me.

It goes until it cracked into mainstream radio after years of hiding, run from the police and bootlegs, and now, it became one of the integral part of music especially pop music. 

But the best part of this documentary was the explanation of how Punk these days became a commercial thing such as fashion statement, even bands that claim to be punk just because they look like one but they are not! Some discrimination from the parts of society because they thought this music makes one evil or worse murderers. I was laughing at that TV show clip showing this whatever.  Then there is a scene which shows group of friend who just meet on Sundays, staying at the house with their get up punk and having a great time! Despite well breaking some things in their house. 

For me, punk is not only like showing how you dress or claims to be. It should be the avenue of showing agression or hatred in a fast and raw beat. You know what I mean, punk songs doesn't reach 3 mins unlike other rock songs in general. After that, it's done and have a good time whether the punk song is about bad or something good. In life, there are things which happens so bad, you were not even prepared for it. Punk for me makes you kinda listen to your sadness or want to get wild and after that, done. Move on. Except of course, if you're wearing like a punk. That's another story. Punk music is not always about hatred or sadness and stuff, it's also having fun and do crazy things! hehe 

Well, these days Punk Music indeed became pop due to some bands who I think and feel don't really know what punk music is. I won't say their names but definitely, you know or you can see them in this documentary. Geez, they even promote goth/emo sh*t. They just attract young girls!

Anyway, it's not a perfect documentary because it kinda short at the end. I hope it's longer to really discuss more of punk music these days but it kinda fast finish the last part. Although they show some but it's sad that these days, large sponsors taking advantage of these live acts especially punk music scene. But this one never short of respecting the pioneers of punk, and great thing..

They still jumping and screaming!!! Rock on!!

"Do you feel lucky, punk?"

- Dirty Harry

Kung Ako'y Isang..

(engineer)

Habang naglalakad ako papuntang work eh ang daming ginagawa sa kalsada. Road work, nilalagyan ng aspalto yun daan para kuminis. Sa isip isip ko, nagtitipid lang ang gobyerno. Short term solution but it won't last. hehe Thanks to Dad na hindi lang Architect, kung hindi Engineer pa, tapos mechanic, carpentero and lahat na, alam na. Kaw na po Dad! hehe

Kahit mga buildings sa Makati or any high rise lalo na condos, the reason maganda ang building eh di dahil sa design or materials or even nice tiles or flooring, eh dahil na din sa engineering. Strength kung baga ng building using such design, lalo na wag naman po, earthquakes. 

Or kahit sa kotse, kahit anong ganda ng kotse eh kung sirain o ka karag agad sa kaunting mileage eh panget di ba. It lasts long kasi sa engineering ng car. 
Engineering also apply halos sa lahat ng bagay, furnitures, supplies, kahit appliances ata or even management!  

According sa Wiki, Engineering is defined as "The creative application of scientific principles to design or develop structures, machines, apparatus, or manufacturing processes, or works utilizing them singly or in combination; or to construct or operate the same with full cognizance of their design; or to forecast their behavior under specific operating conditions; all as respects an intended function, economics of operation or safety to life and property"
Ibig sabihin it is an engineer's job to make sure that the design works under all conditions in a most safe and efficient way. Mahirap din pala work nila.

Naisip ko kung Engineer ako, anong field kaya?

Chemical pwede kaso may allergic reactions ako, sayang halo halo ng mga chemicals and check if it's safe, ok na! hehe

Mechanical, hmmm palpak ako sa physics eh. hehe Saka di ako nasanay magkalikot ng mga gamit, so ibig sabihin pati Electrical, malabo din. 
Geo/Gas is good! Wala naman masyado ata iisipin dun, kaso buhay mo naman ang alanganin lalo kung Mining? Geez, one step to death, all the time. Saka ayoko maassign sa Middle East or sa dagat pag Gas, grabe, kung hindi sa sobrang init at desolate places, mapipirata ka pa sa dagat! Kapapanood lang kasi ng Captain Phillips. hehe

Dalawa lang ang nakikita ko pwede ako. One is Civil Engineering which involves public works and roads, o kahit building. Malaking kita este matutulong sa lahat pag ok siyempre yun mga project kahit simpleng road project or drainage eh ok na yun ha. Lalo kung makakabawas baha o makakaayos ng trapik. Gusto ko kasi dito eh di ka naman gagawa ng malaking building, puro daan, flyover or even foot bridge. hehe Madali lang kung baga.

Lastly computer engineering, which for me suits me. I think it won't only deal sa software, kung hindi sa hardware din, yun strength ng every part of CPU or mobile computing. Lalo na sa mga panahon to, napakabilis magupdate ng software at lalo na ng hardware so it's an endless innovation and engineering to achieve the fastest, effective and smartest computing which we may end up making robots with AI in the future. It may come soon than what we think of.

Well, yun lang naiisip ko na bagay sa kin. Actually akala ko nung bata ako, pag engineer..

Siya yun may suot ng Yellow Hard Hat. hahaha

almost gone: analog/barphones

May ganito pa kong phone namely Nokia X101 pero di ko na dinadala. hehe Actually pang alarm lang siya, malakas kasi maka alarm, talking alarm. Ginagamit ko lang siya pag sa mga holdup prone area or basta delikadong lugar. 

Unlike before, sikat ang mga cellphone na may keypad at kahit ano pa software, basta may sounds, call and text ok na!

Well, di na ngayon. Ang isang phone ngayon sa normal user, eh di lang call and text or even kahit may radio pa yan or mp3 or TV.. Ngayon kailangan may internet, multimedia lalo na nakakapanood ng pelikula, Android or IOS ang software and worst, games and apps! At dagdag mo pa ang paramihan na core, na ngayon eight core na!! hehe

Smartphones are like small computers, kasi kulang na lang maglaro ng DOTA sa phone mo. hehe Smartphones talaga ang in at out na mga barphones, so yun mga naka 3310 na dati sobrang sikat na, baka ngayon, pagtatawanan ka pa..

Ang advantage na lang ng analog or barphone eh size. Lalo kung di mo trip ang mga smartphone, ganito na lang telepono mo at ayos na! Di naman mga 6inches ang mga telephone na to. hehe Or may 2gb na RAM! Simple lang at iwas holdup pa. hehe Naalala ko, yun naholdup ako dati, mabuti na lang sobrang liit ng 6510 ko, di nakapkap ng holdaper. Nakuha yun walet ko at pera, pero yun phone, nasa ilalim ng bulsa ko eh ayun, di nakuha. hehe

I think that these phones won't be out sa market. Kasi naman, it's for the oldies naman. Si Daddy nga yun X2 pa din gamit niya kahit pwede naman siya magsmartphone. Si Mommy, kahit nakatouchscreen parang gusto na lang ng luma kasi hirap sa touch. hehe O kahit ibang matanda na may smartphone pang display lang pero ginagamit eh yun analog para sa araw araw.

Magulat na lang ako pag yun apple naglabas pa ng ganitong phone na may IOS. hehe Geez, kaka miss din yun ganitong phone, lalo na yun mga camera na ganito. Saka kahit ako, mas nasanay ako lalo sa text pag ganitong phone. Bihira magkamali kasi sa text, kahit nakapikit o san nakatining makakatext ako ng tama. Sa smartphone ko yun daliri ko minsan nagkakamali, kaya dapat pala 4.8 hanggang 5.2 inches yun phone ko dapat. Sa lumang barphone, zero mali sa txt. hehe 

Kaya ako hmmm tago ko pa din yun X101 ko. Yun X2 ko sana kaso bumigay na. hahaha Sad..
Pero totoo, kakatuwa lang na may ganito ka padin phone. 

Matibay at maasahan. Kasi at least pag nabagsak buhay pa at kung may sira, parepair lang sa technician.

Eh pag G2 nabagsak, good buy 20K! hahaha