first post in 09

Nothing new in the new year! hehe New Year Resolutions? Hmmm I am not into that I believe. Ayoko mangako baka kasi mapako. hehe Well, I just came from Algerro, sinamahan ko siya sa Ever tapos SM North na napakaunti ng tao. hehehe Year of the Ox pala ang 09, I hope that all of us get lucky in 09. 

I have no new plans, except for tomorrow, the rare outbound day. hehe Pero sana, makapag VL na ko next week. Malamang bukas, magpopost ulit ako. hehe Wala naman bago, eto kausap ko yun mga college friends. Reunion daw pagbalik ni Walter. Malabo pa kung where, but mukhang sure na daw. hehe

Makikita ko na din yung anak ni Walter. Ayun, ang laki pala ng anak nila. hehe Very lively and healthy. Hay, may mga makulit talagang tao, naputukan. Good job!! hehe Wala naman bago kagabi, di naman kami nagpapaputok, pero grabe sa labas ng bahay. Even raining hard, sige lang sa putok!! hehe Now what, medyo magulo ata etong post na to kasi magulo ang conference ng mga college friends. hehe Mga letche talaga. hehe 

Well, may mga bagay na talagang walang pinagbago while talking to my college friends. Bringing old issues and new chismax. hahaha Sabi ko na ba, basta pag alis ng isang party, ako naman ang tsinitsismis. hehe Mga peste talaga, showbiz ba kami? hehe

Bwisit talaga, ipanakuwento sa kin what happened in the past. hehe Pero ok lang, mga friends ko naman sila. Ika nga nila, MMK ito. hehe Di ko post yun nangyari sa min. No way, tapos na yun. 

Confirmed na uuwi si Walter, confirmed na mukhang tuloy na si Betch to her journey, good luck to both of them. hehe For me, I don't know yet. hehe 

I have plans for this weekend, one of them, play Magic and one of them, rest. More rest. Need to recover the energy that I lost for being Tier 2. Well, I hope for the best as always.. 

May magbabago kaya this year? Ano kaya ang unang pagbabago mangyayari? I am so excited to know. 

I hope it's not bad. 

isang taon nakalipas...

Ah letche, alam ko na napakabilis ng panahon. hehe Time really helps for a lot of things. Planning your life, healing from a broken relationship, recovering from a loss, thinking what's best for you, and other things that make myself realize na mukhang kailangan ko magsimula muli at tanggapin kung ano mayroon ako. Naks, malalim ata. hehe Pero totoo, maybe you need to be facing these kind of problems and difficulties just to realize who you are, what you want to be, things that you really need and well, dreams as well. Poverty is a very good diet. hehe

Oo nga, parang nung sumobra yun mga paghihirap ko, I mean not only financially but physically and other aspects of life, parang naisip ko na kailangan matatag ako by more praying, hehe believe not only yourself, but others as well, family, friends, CRAP, special friends. hahahaha and my PC of course, basta, compare this to last year, I can say, it's a lot harder this year. But I am more determined to win. To reach my goals in life. Sabagay, tumatanda na ko. hehe

What more can I say in this life, I am indeed lucky despite in this form. hehe

Tama na nga ang emo, dun na tayo sa Iskul Bukol. Siyempre nanood kami ng Iskul Bukol sa Trinoma. Mantakin mo, mahaba ang pila ha, pero buti na lang sure seats. hehe Puno ang sine dahil iba talaga ang dating ni Bossing. hehe Old skul fun yet in a new skul setting. Makulit yun Iskul Bukol, lalo na yung mga banat ng TVJ. Mga ungas talaga. Legendary Ungas. hehe

Ano pa pala, ayun tapos na ang drowing ni Igz at ayun nanlibre na sa wakas sa CPK. Sobrang busog nga kami eh. Di nga kami nakakain ng marami sa Mister Kabab. Grabe. hehe Ang sarap kahit papano ang CPK, medyo pricey yet masarap, lalo na yun salad saka yun dessert, na good for 4. hahaha Good job bro! Ayun, sa sobrang damin nang kinain, kailangan namin magpagod sa Timezone! hehe So Igz, post mo na yun pics, kung pwede lang no. Panay picture taking, di naman ipopost. hehe

Ang ibang films na mahaba ang pila, yun kay Ai-Ai saka yun isa, Shake Rattle and Roll. Yung iba, kala ko first day last day na. hahahahahaha

Siyempre, kung kailan pauwi na, dun na nagserious talk. Well, antok na kami at di rin natuloy. Pero ok lang, sulit ang araw kasama ang CRAP. hehe

Monday came and yup, we have a shift, then at the last part of the shift, they announced na kailangan may pumasok today. And I am here now, taking advantage of the double holiday pay for both days. hehe Pero talagang na bad trip ako kasi ang plano ko talaga ay magpahinga na. Diyos ko, mas masarap magpahinga kaysa pumasok at magpagod sa queue. hehe Sana pala, mataas CE namin. hehe

Meaning this is the first time since the first week of December that I posted here while at work. Meaning bumabalik na ang petiks time, lalo na pagpatak ng January. hehe Hay sobrang haggard ako this month, parang nagtrabaho ako ng 2 buwan straight sa mga pinaggagawa ko sa tier 2, kaysa sa tier 1. hehe Pano ba naman, pagkatapos ng training, ayon pakain agad sa mga leon. hehehe

Oh well, there is nothing you can do. At ayun, pasok sa Friday, pero puro outbound lang. hehehe Sabi ko nga, di naman ako masasama siguro kasi di naman 40 cases ko, pero ayun, ako pa rin. hehe

Ok lang, closed queue naman sa min eh. So sana ok naman sa Friday, puro callback naman eh.

Parang buenas ata ako. hehe

Sige uuwi na ko para makalimutan ang mga cases for a while. Happy New Year to all!!!

BiPolar

Like I said before, I already bought the most anticipated 2nd Album from Up Dharma Down, BiPolar. Nabili ko siya after ng bazaar sa La Vista, courtesy sa invitation of Raims and Claire. hehe I bought it while I am strolling sa Gateway Cubao. Of course, naghanap ako ng Astrovision, pero unfortunately, wala sa Gateway. So malamang may Odyssey, I never thought na mayroon sila, kasi sa MOA wala sa Odyssey yun album kasi Indie. Well, I tried my luck here sa Gateway at alas, pagkita ko sa Indie section, may dalawang copies. I bought one siyempre, hehe 299 pesos siya. 

Anyway, it was a simple cover and sort of. No lyrics, just plain snapshots, but nice layout and that's all. Medyo maliit ang sulat niya actually, pero nakikita naman kahit papano. hehe 

Let's Start. 

1. Blessed - 3rd fave song in the album, slow yet good rhythm saka balance yung kanta, like it's slow at one part then mabilis. Ok to. hehe

2. Clockwork - a very slow song, but maganda naman. However mas maraming magandang kanta compare to this one. 

3. Delayed Breathing - oh well, filler track. hehe 

4. All Year Round -  very slow yet medyo pagka RnB ang dating ha. my 4th fave song actually. 

5. Taya - Fave ni Raims pero ako hindi, well, maiksi saka medyo pop ang dating. nagexperiment ata sila dito pero ok naman siya. Di ko lang trip. 

6. Unspoken Definites - at first, di ko siya trip, pero nung nilagay ko siya sa cellphone ko at siyempre random lagi yun play option ko, na realize ko na fave ko siya, 5th fave song ko siya. Moody song yet may pagka alternative mix sort of. I can't describe it, basta ok siya. hehe 

7. The cold is warmth - eto, sa umpisa, ok siya pero nung tumatagal, walang lyrics pala. Damn. Sana naman nilagyan nila ng lyrics. Sayang to. Maganda pa naman yun mix, sayang. 

8. Two - Oh, this one I can say, it will be their second release from this album. My second fave. Nung una di ko pinapansin, pero nung inulit ko, gusto ko to. Ang drawback lang niya, maiksi. But this one, you can't hear this at Fragmented. Short yet powerful song. Lalo na yun first note, parang RnB. Mahilig magbilang ata si Armi dito. hehe I love this song, especially when it approaches the final part. Galing!

9. Sana - 2nd of their 3 tagalog songs. Hmmm simple song for me. 

10. Return saturn return - Filler track. no comment

11. Every First Second - When I first heard this or saw in youtube, then converted it to a mp3 file, I knew this will be good. The song itself. I already knew that when the album comes out, it will be better. And when I got the album. Tama ang hinala ko. My fave song in the album. My 2nd fave song from UDD, behind Pag-agos. Naks. hehe Pero totoo yun. Simple intro then when it progresses, ayun iba na ang dating. Longer ending. I love this song. The best in this Album. Galing talaga nila. hehe. Except for the counting part.

12. Furnace - Oh well, filler again.

13. Silid - My last fave song, iba ito na tagalog song. with the mixture of electric and guitars, and vocals, iba ang tempo. that's it. 

14. Sugarcoats and Heartbeats - Very very very long track, it thought it's short, but it's very long. Sinadya kaya nila yun? hehe It's a simple song I believe.

To sum it up, like I said to Raims, this album is a very good album, from a very good band. I hope I can see them perform at least once. hehe This album is the best of this year, from OPM or Pinoy Rock of course. Kasi naman, di lang kasi ito lang binili ko this year, but because the band itself. But like I said to Raims, the first one, Fragmented is better. Still better, but not that way better. The only reason lang naman bakit mas maganda yung una, eh mas maraming kanta kang makakarelate dun. So if we count them off in this album, 6 ang maganda, sa Fragmented, that's 8 of them. Yun lang. But still, I won't debate which is which, kasi that's my opinion. hehe I still like the album, highly recommended to everybody. Not only to the devoted fans. Unless you want to buy the new Wolfgang's album, which like Raims said, pang collection lang. hehe So I am hoping that UDD will do the same quality albums in the few years time, like Radioactive Sago. And I believe, in their next album, they will do a great album, again.  

That's it for me. Nothing new, from me. I got the best sleep and rest due to the long off, and bukas, pasok ulit then, yahoo, 3 days off na naman. Parang 2 days lang pasok ko next week. haha Happy new year sa lahat. Naku, manonood pala kami ng Iskul Bukol. No joke dude, yun ang panonoorin namin nila Rheg today. hehe

I don't even know why UDD titled the Album BiPolar. Sabagay, most bands, they just give titles to their albums with no reason at all. Parang magandang pakinggan siguro. Mukha nga. Parang sa Pedicab na "Shinji Ilabas mo na ang Helicopter" hehe or sa Radioactive Active na last album nila, siyempre mura na yun diba, pero may reason naman, straight forward naman sila sa album itself. 

Are you a BiPolar? 

inactivity

It's nice to be back. hehe Prior to this post, hmmm I missed of a total of 24 posts, this will be a record! Pinaka kaunting post sa isang buwan! Good job! Anyway, somebody might ask, what happened to me. When I started being a tier 2 agent, I got so many things to do. Follow ups, fusion, escalation, sending emails to our distressed customers. hehe Many things that really sucked my energy up. Ika nga ni Efem, kaya pala kami nilagay sa Tier 2 ng ganitong buwan! hehe Good job naman diba. Well, many things happened, working wise because of the new role. Of course, sobrang kapa kami from the very first day we stepped in this new role. 

Hmmm, how about other facets of life? Well, ayun nag pa xmas party last week, Saturday and Sunday. To make it short, one was very bad, one was very good, I just wish, sana yung isang xmas party na lang ako nagtagal. hahaha Oh by the way, Merry Christmas to all and a blessed New year in advance. Nagulat ako na mahaba din pala bakasyon ko, I will be back to work on Monday then another 3 day rest!! I love Dell. hehe Sabagay, the US crisis really hit struck to all companies, even here but the good thing is at least we have sound policies. Cut the monetary crap. Let's move on. hehe

Oh, Happy birthday to Dad on last Dec. 11, to Claire last Dec. 23 and today, to Ate Aila, which wala naman handaan. hehe Pero I am so full these days due to the Holiday Season. Medyo sira na nga ang diet ko. bwisit. hehe Oh, I met somebody very very interesting, I hope she is reading this. Rheg, hayop ka! hehehe

Speaking of the CRAP team, we will meet this coming Sunday. Wasakan na ata to!!! Oh, another thing, I already purchased the new album, of course, you know what I mean, if you're a fan of them. hehe Great album. I will post my thoughts later. 

Oo nga pala, congrats din pala kay Raims and Claire for the bazaars they joined. Mukhang ganyan na ang career niyo ha, keep it up! The day has come, time really flies fast, a year ago.

Everybody is asking what happened to me. Eto nga, ngarag. Wala naman bago eh. hehe Maraming nangyari pero I am still the same person, unless something really good happens. I am tired of bad things happening in my life. I want to put a stop on it. hehe

Nagshort me sa money so I was not able to buy the shoes I want for Christmas. Bibilin ko na lang siya next month or two. Sa sobrang busy ko this month, di ko napapalitan yung wallpaper ko sa office, even here at house. Thanks for this long off, I can really rest and do the usual stuff that I like, even for a short time. 

Well, sa mga teams ko, mukhang olats na. Sa NBA, mukhang Cleveland lang aariba. Sa PBA, sa 4 na pambato ko, isa lang ang magaling, wala pa rin tatalo sa Alaska. hehe Si Pacman, sobrang yaman na talaga, pero nagulat talaga ako sa paglagay niya sa kangkungan kay Oscar Dela Hoya. hahaha Halatang matagal na di nagblog dito. hehe Nakapunta na din kay Ron Marc ako at kaunting modification na lang sa Deck ko, kaya na. hehe Kaunti na lang, may mga mali lang ako sa mga decisions, but with these set of cards, I can win easily. hehe

Portland ko lumalaban na sa Dallas, ayun, sibak malamang. hehe Many things will end and begin next year. God knows it, but I don't know, as usual, but I am ready for it. I hope, all these problems will just go away, go far away from me. I can't say it was a bad year, but I cannot even say I had a good year. However, I still want to thank God that we're all here, and my friends as well. Thank you all. It was a roller coaster ride, that I don't want to ride it again. hehe

I am still optimistic, I hope that maganda naman mangyari this coming year. And besides, somethings do happen according to plan. hehe 

I have many things to write on but I seems to forget them. hehe Pero I will try to remember them, especially this Tuesday. hehe ano pa nga ba. Wala na ko maisip for now, talagang nasabik lang ako magpost. Ah oo nga pala, our xmas party at Dell? Great... At first, but when the end came, anak ng tokwa, umuwi na ko. hahaha Sayang di ako nanalo sa raffle nila.

I hope I could win next year, if I am still with Dell. hehe 

It's good to be back. Saka, bahala na. Whatever happens, I am still here, wag lang mahimatay ulit. hehehe Never give up, never surrender. (300 ata)

Twilight.

Last Sunday, Rheg pestered me an invitation to watch a film called Twilight. Well, on that week alone, all the friends I asked, will be watching that film in the weekend. Good grief, even sa training, ayun lahat yun ang gagawin sa day off. hehe Even the book, siguro best seller na naman kasi nung may film, siyempre comparison na, so sige, bili din ng book. hehe Crap. I was not interested because first, I don't really know what is this book or story is. Two, I watched the trailer, kinda good but I am guessing, who are they? hehe Number 3, everybody will be watching it, so it's just about the hype.

Before Sunday, some of my friends already watched it, some says good, some says as usual better read the book. Until I talked with Raims on her booth at the bazaar, siyempre, kwento kung musta na ang benta and some stuff, and I asked about Twilight. Todo kwento naman siya and she told me that some changes made in the film but it was good. What interest me? The love story part, hehe the last time I watched a love story in theaters ha, The Notebook pa ata.

After that Saturday night, ayun ang aga nagtext si Rheg na manood na daw kami ng Twilight. Sabi ko ayoko, gusto ko sa Scaregivers, hahaha Anu kaya nangyari dun sa film na yun, sayang nandun si Ehra. hehe Well, since makulit si Rheg, pumayag na ko. Why not try watching the hype. Besides, it has decide reviews, at least. So after going to Church, I went to SM North first kasi si Mommy may inutos pero dumerecho na ko Trinoma kasi malalate na ko sa showtime. Bumili na kasi si Rheg ng ticket for 11:50pm. Nagkita kami and ayun ikot ikot muna. Sweet namin noh? hehe Two guys watched Twilight. Brokeback to. hehe

So, we watched at the top pero pag tingin ko sa baba, grabe ang tao, puno ang sine. Parang yun lang ata pinanood nun mga tao that day. hehe Kinalumtan na yung Bolt and others. The movie started, started with the narration of Bella, a simple town girl, well she will be a chick later. hehe Usual US family setting, parent got remarried but the girl started living with his father because she wanted so.

Ayun, lipat sa new school, newcomer tapos simula inaapi siya then in the end may friends siya at may gusto pa sa kanya. Yung mga moves na "Are you free this weekend or Can I invite you to the prom?" Wow, HS moves talaga, parang si Rheg. hahahaha Then all of the sudden, pinakilala yun mga Cullens na sobrang weird. Parang lahat nakableach ang skin sa puti. Siyempre pumasok na si Robert, este Edward pala, yung bida. Gwapo pala. hahahaha

So, ayun love and hate sa simula pero in the end, nung nalaman ni Bella na vamp si Edward, dun na nagsimula ang true love. Yung mga quotes pamatay ha. Pero nakalimutan ko na. hehe So there, the Cullens are vegetarians and kinda strong in the sense that they are like that even they don't drink human blood.

Well there are many sweet moments, sana nga may kadate ako nung nanood ng film instead of Rheg. hehe Ika nga nung isang friend ko, kilig daw. Mukha nga. hehe

About the movie, it is one of the good movies this year because of the love element and the vampire or dark element so it was interesting and besides, it's for teens indeed. One of my favorite moments there? hmmmm The part where Edward carried Bella in a very tall tree, spend some quality time and sort of. That's sweet and romantic for me.

After watching that movie, we ate at Yellow Cab. Sobrang dami ng kinain namin na kinailangan namin pumunta ng SM North tapos balik Trinoma. I bought myself new shoes. Hay, buti sale. hehe

Well, eto, chaotic pa rin ang life. Daming cases. hahaha Sana bakasyon na!! Tinanong ko na din si Raims kung ano mangyayari since tapos na yun first movie. Nagulat naman ako sa mga next events, especially that Jacob dude! Damn. hehe

Forbidden love indeed is very special, intimate and beautiful even it's wrong in the eyes of men. The risk you take, the faith you have each other, and the love seems to be endless. I did that before, but maybe we were not able to give it all, like Edward and Bella.

Patay na naman ako kay Rheg, "move on na pare". hehe

Maybe he's right.

chaos

Yes, after a day in Tier 2, everything is chaos. What I learned in training is kinda hard to apply these days. hehe Sobrang ngarag ako kahapon and I don't know how I made to finish the day. hehe Di bale, malapit na ang days off. Wah, tuloy na tuloy na kay Ron this coming Saturday, time to test the "deck". hehe I took the APE yesterday kaya around 10am na ko nakauwi. I dropped by as well at Eastwood Mall, ayun, walang kalaman laman. hehe Hmmm Mom is doing good, but wants to back out to the shockwave procedure. Well, sometimes, she's stubborn like Dad. hehe But I encourage her to take the procedure since it's painless and no surgery so it's better to take that instead going into surgery. Besides, matanda na rin si Mommy.

I think, I will have less posts for this month due to my new work. hehe More customer oriented and more work. hehe Wala naman ako magagawa but as of now, masaya naman because it's a challenge. Depende kung masaya pa rin ako later. haha Yung iba kasama ko sa training, medyo nangangapa pa rin, good luck sa inyo ha. No new updates, except for this new job. Oh, malapit na pala, first anniv. hehe Ika nga ni Rheg, move on na daw. Ewan ko, bahala na. hahaha

Even though we don't have work on Monday, di naman ako nakapagpahinga kasi sa dami ginagawa sa haws, nandun pa si Algerro. Kaya magulo yun mga gamit ko, hanggang ngayon. hehe Tapos siyempre, nandun din sila Ate so di naman ako makagamit ng computer. Pero ok lang, at least complete kami kahit papano in a short time. Bili kaya ako ng NBA live or 2K9 sa PS2? Yun binili ko sa PC, di gumagana, eh hirap naman bumalik na naman sa quiapo. Sayang tuloy un 140 na binayad ko. Bili na kaya ako ng PS3? hehe Basketball, siyempre, ang POR, kumakamada. hehe PHX bahala na. Ang CLE, no match na mga team, champion na to sa East! hehe

Hay, kala ko makakapetiks pero eto, first time magoutbound for maraming cases. Pano pa kaya bukas. hehe Parang di na mababawasan to ha! Last week was a very stressful one, I thought parang mahihimatay na naman ako sa pagod. hehe But I hope, for these coming weeks, no pressures from the family, kahit sa work na lang. hehe

Life is indeed unfair, whether you do good, you get unlucky. If you do bad, you also get unlucky, or sometimes you get lucky. Life is unpredictable. I don't even know why do I need to say these..

Well, anak ng tokwa, hirap ng tier 2, bawat hawak mo ng case, kaw ang tututok. hehe Mababaliw ata ako dito. That's it for today, the first post on December and I hope it won't be the last.

harharharhar

very long 3 days...

Well, I did not reach 20 posts last November. hehe Anyway, of course, all the people close to me known what happenned. Mom got into hospital because of a stone in her left kidney. Ok na siya ngayon because of the stent sa ureter or whatever. Di pa tapos yung procedure kasi ishockwave pa yun bato around this week or next week. Saturday, after accompanying mom from Capitol, nakadaan ako sa booth ni Raims sa QC sports complex, at mukhang nakabenta ng marami si Raims. Congrats dude!! Sa La Vista na lang ulit. 

Thanks to all my friends who gave support last week. Im happy, that Mom looked better after what happened last Wednesday. Sunday naman, well, usual stuff naman since nakauwi na si Mommy, pero dahil makulit si Rheg, napanood kami ng Twilight. 

I will tell my thoughts about that, but what can I say, is it's a good movie but it's better when you have somebody special watching it. hahaha It's a real date movie of the year. 

That's all for now, pest kasi daming nakapila dito sa computer, how can I say no? 

Chopsuey

Of course, after na sabaw na training, umuwi na ko sa bahay. Kala ko uulan pero buti na lang hindi umulan kasi wala akong payong. I arrived, do the usual stuff and slept. Di na ko nanood ng Doraemon. hehe I woke up at around 1pm, took a bath, at alas, the same food I ate at lunch from work, then at home, Chopsuey without the beans of course. Oh well, this uric acid diet is unavoidable. I need to do this for my health of course. No choice.

Well, I found a new place to hang out around Pangasinan, thanks to Efem, Solomon's Paradise. Kinda great place, I will refer ko nga to sa mga bro ko para sa susunod na hang out. 6 hours trip lang daw, so not very far, parang nag Clark lang kami. hehe Ok to!!!

Wala naman bago, unless, our CE is good. Sana ok naman at makabawi from the last week's performance. Di ko alam kung sino na magiging new Team ko sa tier 2. Whoever it is, I will just do my best to reach our goals. hehe

Oh, everybody now is waiting for Twilight. Well, it will be shown tomorrow. Letcheng MCR ito, matutulog na lang ako. hehe

Rheg, pasalubong from retreat ha! hehe

one faithful day 2...

Nasa kotse na ko with Kuya Alpro and Ate Jenny, I am so powerless, groggy, lost and wasted. Di ko pa rin alam kung anong nangyari that time. However, I was able to say, "Kuya, sa St. Luke's ha, may medicard ako.." So, he followed and used his initial D skills to get there, parang nasa drag race ako that time. Every moment, I thought this is it. I can't avoid thinking it maybe the end of the road for me, I still can't feeling anything, I thought I can lay forever. Nagiisip na din ako that time, if it's goodbye for me, pano na? My family, friends and some people important for me. Many thoughts coming at that time, yet I can't move or speak that long. Parang nastunned talaga ako. Crap. Of course, Kuya Alpro and Ate Jenny, keeps talking to me since I am kinda lifeless. Naku, nakuha pa nga magbiro ni Kuya Alpro, para lang magising lang ako. hehe

Once Kuya Alpro told me na malapit na kami sa St. Luke's, I pulled out my wallet, and alas, no medicard. Napamura tuloy ako, pero sabi nila, sila bahala later. Kuya Alpro arrived sa St. Luke's ER so ayun, nilipat agad ako sa bed and brought me to the ER. I am staring with so many lights, people with me left and right, then I was placed in a secluded part in the ER. Siyempre, interrogated ako ng doctor kung uminom ba ko last night, what time ako natulog, or any related illness, grabe, kinakabahan na nga ko, mahina na nga, ganun pa tatanong sa kin! hehe Oh well, I answered them naman truthfully. Of course, they need to check my vital signs and all of them naman, normal. Except they need to get blood sample saka ECG to check what happen. After those signs, nilagay mo na ko sa isang part of ER, groggy pa rin, clueless and powerless. Medyo may life na ko that time since I am talking a bit with Kuya Alpro and Ate Jen. Pero inadvice naman ako to rest and get some energy. Of course, iniisip ko na din na since buhay naman ako, I thanked God first and hoping na makapahinga, pa admit na rin since nasa ospital na ko! hehe

Passed some minutes, then some nurse took some blood from me to check what happened, maybe to check if we can find something in my blood. After minutes passed again, some Med Tech dude prepared me for ECG. Kala ko may kuryente ang ECG pero wala pala, wag lang didikit sa rail ng bed. hehe Normal naman kaso ang kati lang kasi sa tape nakadikit sa body ko for that freaking test. hehe Bad trip, parang sobrang nanghina ako and planning na nga what to say to my family, friends. Sabi ko nga kay kuya, wag sabihin sa parents ko, kasi baka magworry, pero pasaway pa rin. hehe

After like an hour, the doctor advised sina Kuya na normal naman lahat, and sabi lang na hyperventillation syndrome nangyari sa kin, parang kinapos sa hangin. Di na daw ako maaadmit, pwede na daw ako umuwi after some checks. Kala ko maadmit ako, para makapahinga saka magamit ko yun ATA ko, kaso wala eh, pinauwi na ko. hehe While waiting for the doctor pala, of course, kaunting sermon from Kuya and motivation, nagpray din kami. Sabi nila wag na daw ako pumasok, pero I replied no way, sarap kaya dito sa Dell. hehe Magexercise daw ako, siya na daw bahala sa gastos, and marami pang iba, well, tinawagan niya din sila Ate Aila and others. That time, kahit ganun, I thanked God that I am still here and I am still alive, siguro may reason behind that. I can think many reasons, but well, important is I am still here, given a chance to like straighten things out of my life. From money, family, friends and other issues, even love, my health, myself, so I just need to focus what should I do to make things right with the guidance above. Naks. haha

Kuya Allan was able to get my Medicard from home then ayun ginamit na to discharge me from ER. The doctor only gave me an advice to drink more water/gatorade and eat fruits, especially, banana. hehe Everything went well after 2-3 hours in the ER, what an unforgettable experience in my life. Kala ko, gagamitin ko na yung Sunlife plan ko eh. hahaha

I did not tell this to my friends right away because I am still traumatized and I need to recover. Sorry to them, I kept this from them. Nasabi ko lang this Sunday kasi ok na ko, at I moved on na and enjoy my life as it is. If it's my time, then so be it, I just leave it to God.

However, what I learned from that experience, is to really live your life to the fullest. Death is really just around the corner. What if I did not come with Kuya going to church? No one will look at me when I became numb and powerless state. Walang talaga tutulong sa kin unless may pumansin agad na nahimatay na lang ako. That's why I always pray, and thanking everything I received whether it's good or bad. hehe I just move on, back myself on track and take care of myself to avoid that happening again. It's not a guarantee but I know, God will guide me and knows what's best for me.

I want to thank again the people who helped me, I am sorry if I did not thank them that time. Especially yung mga guards ng Lourdes Church. hehe St. Luke's as well, good service and prompt response. Hmmm, of course, I owe my life to my Kuya Alpro and Ate Jenny, to my family as well, who at least gave me advice or options, I will think about them later, especially early next year. My friends who were helpful, cheerful. haha Thanks for you motivation and everything. Sana si God na lang magbigay sa inyo ng biyaya sa pagtulong niyo sa akin. hehe I want to thank KFC as well, kasi after ng St. Luke's ayun ang libre ni Kuya Alpro, kaso yun na huling kain ko dun kasi bawal na sa kin after my blood chem results came out. hehe

If that happens again, I have no choice, let God decide my fate. However, gusto ko muna siya makita before I go. You know who I am referring to. hehe Kung hindi, oh well, I will just look from heaven I guess.

Oh, after that, I am always situated there every Sunday, almost the same spot. Praying and staring up there.

one faithful day...

After watching a NBA game in a simple Saturday afternoon, I slept right away without eating lunch. hehe I was so tired after that dreaded week, but with a good sleep, I was able to get some energy. Anyway, I just slept and woke up around 10pm then do some scanning especially with the virus scans I have. I slept again at 1am and like a normal day for me at Saturday night. Now coming on Sunday, I woke up early since it is Nov. 2 and I advised Kuya Alpro to come with them visiting Loyola after the Sunday Mass. I took a bath very early and prepared as well. At that time, I feel normal, no worries or whatever, hehe

After waiting for Kuya Alpro and Ate Jenny, we went straight away in Lourdes Church, then we parked easily since it's just 9am, no traffic or trouble. hehe When we entered the church, we chose the seat at the middle, like near the entrance of the church. We seated and I am silent because I don't know, hehe Maybe nothing to talk to them at that time. The Mass hasn't started yet because the previous mass ended early. I am still feeling normal or no worries that time, praying as usual for help and thanking God as well for blessings. For all of us. hehe Then, the 9am Sunday Mass started! It is presided by one of my fave priest there, so we were singing, and I am singing my hearts out, even my voice is kinda bad like they say. hehe The Mass started and went smooth at the first part. Well, it does happen that my mind wander a bit, hehe but most of the time in the mass, I listen to the mass and realizing what has been last week, I mean I had a hard time that time because of the schedule and the stress of the action plan and sort off. But I am thankful, the week was over and got some rest.

After the Liturgy, we sang for the Gospel of the week and the reading was good. All I can remember, the reading was about as Jesus is the way, the truth and the life. hehe Which is true. Now, the Homily started, I listened attentively and was laughing because of how the priest delivers it, we were laughing actually. hehe We were able to finish it and you know that we need to stand up.

All of the sudden, I felt numb. I felt dizzy, then my legs are numb, I can't feel them at that time. I noticed that my hands are numb as well, I can't even raise them up. My eyes, got blurry even with glasses. Nakaupo lang ako, nakatungo na lang ako. Sobrang nanghina ako, I can't even call Kuya Alpro for help kasi I thought that I can still make it after the mass. However, I felt that I can't make it, I tried to stand up, but I am powerless. I just looked up through the altar, praying that please Lord, help me, then I was silent. Kuya Alpro stood up and singing then he saw me situation. Siyempre, nilapitan niya ko at inakbayan, sabi niya, "ok ka lang bro?" Di na ko nakasagot tapos ayun hinihismasan at ginigising ako, sabi niya "alfred, hoy, ok ka lang?" Tapos, hmmm pinakuha niya ng tubig si Ate Jenny, tapos parang pinahiga niya ako. Naku, nagkakagulo na habang nagmimisa, lalo na sa part namin. Yung nasa likod nga, buti nagbigay ng white flower oil ata tapos pinapaamoy sa kin. Si Kuya Alpro, very nervous at tanong ng tanong kung anong gagawin sa kin, kasi, iba na kulay daw ng mukha ko. (I've only known that nung nasa ER na ko).

The monitoring guards at the church came in and asked what's happening, of course they were able to do the right thing, giving first aid to me. Pinaamoy sa kin yun ammonia para magising at kinukurot yun daliri ko sa left hand (which I don't feel at that time), then tinatanong kung may sasakyan si Kuya Alpro, of course sabi niya oo at mukhang dadalhin na ko sa hospital. At that time, nakakarinig ako but I can't speak, I just ask for water. Ayun na, si Kuya Alpro, umalis na and the guards offered to check me first while getting the reliable car. While waiting, medyo nakikita ko na dumadami na tao sa lugar na yun, mga usisero malamang, pero yun iba, willing to help. The guards advised Kuya pala na emergency room na ko because of my helpless state. But the other people are giving me help like white flower, may nagbigay pa nga ng Padre Pio paper sa kin tapos mayrun pa sa chest ko. Ah yes, medyo kumikirot na din yun chest ko, parang di ako makahinga ng normal. After the first aid, medyo may malay ako ng kaunti pero mahina pa rin but good thing, dumating na si Kuya Alpro with the car.

The guards prepared to lift me from the chair up to the car, well, the mass still goes on. 5 people were able to lift me up to the car and I was laid at the passenger's side, beside my Kuya Alpro, then Ate Jenny was at the back...

Well, tomorrow will be next.. hehehe

Sunday was a simple day, after mass, checked some stuff, watched some online stuff again like I said yesterday, It's just it was almost a friendly date with Tin and Rheg set up. hehe Di natuloy, so kami na lang ni Rheg ang nagdate. hahaha We met at Le Ching Banawe na dapat sa iba na ko sumakay kasi walang jeep sa letcheng Banawe. Then after a long talk with Rheg's colleagues, si Rheg nagsimba, ako di na kasi tapos na ko and we agreed that we will meet again sa haws ko.

Nakapanood ako ng PBA, talo ang Rain or Shine kasi ginulang ng Coke. hehe Tapos I took a bath and prepare some things, then saved the files for Igz. Siyempre, naki login na din si Rheg tapos may kachismax kami. hahaha After that, nagpunta na kami kina Igz, bumili muna ng ulam bque, saka isaw na bawal sa kin. hehe

After the eat, wala pa daw balikan nangyayari, ah ganun? hehe Tapos etong Rheg, eh mukhang may naloko, este may napaibig. hehe Tapos ako, kinuwento ang nangyari sa kin, despite eating isaw and bque. hehe It was a fun night capped by playing games of the generals, even I am so sleepy, at least, I won a game. That's it for now and damn, others don't have work on Thanksgiving while us, are going here for training. Good job!

Sorry for the long post..

blue screen of death!

bad trip, I am typing an important event here then that blue screen of death showed up. Bad trip, di ko pa nasave. hehe Well, I will just post that tomorrow. Wala naman ako ginawa last night, or Saturday, medyo tinamad ako. hehe Natulog ako ah, before that, naglaro ako sa PS2 ng KOF with a broken controller. Then natulog nako na natulog. After that, I woke up early today, then do the usual stuff. Watched how Suns torched the Blazers, also how the Hitman won today, na no match with the Magic Man. Ewan ko kung bakit Magic Man tawag sa kanya, wala nagawa yun magic niya to win the fight. hahaha

Medyo naging busy lang ako with that post talaga kasi it contains why I got sick and being careful with my health these days. Naku, pano ako magiingat sa Xmas! hehe I was able to talk with some friends and ayun my friends ko na girls waiting for Twilight. It got poor reviews, but mukhang kumikita. hehe For me? Pang date, manonood ako, pero as a movie fan, nope, sa trailer pa lang, mukhang pop candy movie siya. Teen movie. hehe I don't want to spend so much on that. Anyway, ayun dapat pupunta ako kay Dad, pero parang inatake ako ng katamaran. hehe 

Oo nga pala, I was able to watch the trailers of Harry Potter which I think more action and darker that the previous one then nanood ako ng Star Trek as well, mukhang sobrang action naman at parang di siya prequel ha. hehe Well you can't avoid doing films that should be a prequel with a better equipments, parang minsan naisip ko, bakit di na nila iremake lahat, one example? Star Wars. hehe 

So, what else. I don't know, parang wala na ko masabi. Bwisit talaga, pagkatapos ko magtype at magisip na sasabihin ko kanina, tinamad na ko isulat ulit.

But tomorrow, I will.. hehe 

Cab again!

I hope this will be first and the last time that in one week, I rode a cab again going to work! hehe Naubos ang baon ko for this week, so buti na lang, next week, may sweldo na! hehe Oh, good luck to Efem kasi for the toothache, sana gumaling na siya or nabunot na yun ngipin na sumasagabal sa kanya. Now, after I went home, hmm I planned to sleep right away but Mom kinda bothered me to open my computer to talk to Tita Nonette in the US. But since Tita is idle, I watched some trailers, mostly the movie "The Reader", starring Kate Winslet and Ralph Fiennes. I hope, they will be getting some awards this time. hehe Anyway, I watched Watchmen trailer as well, and I read their posts of awesomeness, rants and disappointments. For me? I will just watch the movie first and let's see if it will past my taste. It is like V for Vendetta, one of Alan Moore's great works as well, the movie is so good but others says, it's not good due to the writer's block or not faithful to the source. Films are designed maybe to the people who did not read the sources, like me. I liked the film and I got interested buying the material in the future time, because of funds. hehe Let's just wait until 03/06/09.

What else? hmmm I guess, nothing else.. Approaching the end of the first week of training and nauubos na kami ha, 10 na nga lang, naging single digit pa. hehe That's a corporate life, someone goes in and out.

Now what, hmmm I decided to go to Dad on Sunday since I did not bring my things with me while at work, I need to get a rest and slack at least for a day in my room. Siyempre, get some chismax from friends. hehe

Anak ng tokwa, si Nick, mukhang buenas ata. Hay, punta na kaya din ako sa Singapore after all of these mess ups I had. Crap. hehe Pero dun lang, other than that, no way. Just a thought. Switching to other companies will be not a good idea, especially in the first quarter of 09, due to freeze hiring, the effects of economic slowdown. Now what else. Wala na ako masabi I guess.

Let's see what will happen for today, if there is any changes, or any. Miracles.

Ah yes, may naamoy balikan na ata ika nga ni Rheg. Bwahahahaha

Ah, nope, not me.

akala late..

Bad trip kasi yun mga nasakyan kong mga Jeep, ang bagal tapos traffic pa. Buti na lang, di ako late, kala ko nung una but di pala. hehe I really ran thinking I will be late, but well, I am here, no trouble. I arrived 9:46pm, way before the 10pm call time for the training. hehe Good job! After shift yesterday, I did not do something different. I just ate a very early lunch so I can have a straight sleep, and I did. That's why I don't really like 10pm log in because of the traffic in Cubao. Naku, lalo na sa bandang Gateway, dami kasi stranded na pasahero. Damn so jeepneys having a hard time going through.

Anyway, other things? I don't know what else. Training is going smooth but kinda stressed because of the info we're getting. Minsan, kakaantok lang talaga. hehe At ngaragan na to. Crap. hehe Hmmm, I think some of us are really feeling down in these hard times for whatever reasons. It maybe because of love (naks!), work (lagi), money (lahat naman ata tayo) hehe. Ivan said the same thing in his blog, so I assume, some of us feel the same way. Me? Always for this year. hehe Let's just think positive and hope for the best.

Ayun, may STS (Save The Sale) module kami today, at ayun kakatuwa naman. I don't know what else to say, oh for this weekend, I don't know what to do yet because I need to check with Ron if he is free, or else, I will just visit Dad and Algerro. Boring noh? hehe Oo nga pala, siguro I can talk with some friends. Talk lang ha, kasi kung labas, malabo, short ang funds! hehe Makikikwento na lang ako.

Well, parang short lang ang post today because I really did not do something much, just eat, sleep and work.

A boring yesterday, but I hope not everyday.

back to back

I came to work again by cab. hehe Naku, after shift at medyo ingat na ko umuwi kasi sa mga balitang holdup malapit dito. Please guide us God naman. hehe May trauma na ko sa ganyan but bahala na si God diyan. Magiingat na lang ako. After shift, I went home right away, do the usual stuff, and natulog na agad ako. I woke up at around lunch, I ate then I tried to sleep. I really tried, but with so many things coming to my mind, I was not able to sleep. Bad trip. hehe I checked the first game for Wednesday in the PBA, Alaska vs. Rain or Shine. 1st quarter lang pinanood ko kasi 5pm na at di pa ko nakatulog agad ulit. Balita ko nasibak ang Alaska, ang SMB din, nasibak kahit depleted ang SLR! hehe Pero -nakatulog naman ako, at pag gising ko ng 8pm, inatake na naman ako ng katams. Katamaran. hehe But I got up at 9pm, and went straight to work.

Now, I am now in the middle of my training and draining my brains out. hehe Kakaantok, pero at least gising kasi important info na to. Pipilitin ko na lang pumasok ito sa utak ko. hehe Oh, I contacted Ron and asked if he is free on Saturday. Pero baka pumunta daw sila sa Virramall, I hope wag muna, para matest ko na yun deck ko. hehe Kung hindi, kay Daddy ang bagsak ko. hehe

Nothing new today, by the way, sibak ang POR ko. Pero si King Lebron, nakabanat naman. Kawawang NJ, masyadong kinawawa ni Lebron, ginawang HS game. hehe What else, the thoughts getting in my mind, same thoughts of course, kaya di me nakatulog agad. Peste. hehe Ah, nauubusan na kami sa batch ha, di na maganda to, sana naman may natira sa min by next year. hehe Well, whatever decisions they have, good luck to them. Sayang lang at malapit na kami mag anniversary here at Dell. hehe

Now, what else, wala naman bago. Nothing drastic.

Life has been simple these days. I hope, it will stay like this, for a long time..

Indeed, back to back simple days.

one u

Yung ang huli kong napanood sa TV kanina before I went to work. hehe It's a show from C/S 9 about teams in the university level. Lalo na ngayon, malapit na yun champions league sweet 16 tournament and other info about college teams. It's a good show, lalo na yun part na may game silang navideo tapos nag-rumble! haha Ang kulit saka nakakatawa, sa Cagayan de Oro ata yun game. Basta, grabe, nagrumble talaga sila, loko loko kasi yun coach, sinapak yun coach ng kabilang team kahit inaawat ng player, kaya ayun, lahat hanggang waterboy nakisama na. haha After that, I slept. Nakagising ako ng 8pm but di ko alam, bakit ako inatake ng katamaran, nagising na ko ng 9:10pm na! I have no choice but to take a cab. I was not late. Good job!

Wala naman bago after shift, it's just I was able to watch, Doraemon. Bago yun Doraemon pinapalabas, malalaman naman sa cel or animation na pinapalabas eh, di na old school. Makulit pa rin ang Doraemon, walang pinagbago, kaya hanggang ngayon palabas pa rin sa Japan at pinapanood ko pa rin kahit replay ha. hehe Makulit kasi yun story at yun boses din nung mga nagdub bagay. haha After watching it, I watched Flame of Recca then at 10am, I slept. I tried to go up at lunch, pero katams na naman. hehe Around 5pm na lang ako nakatayo. Tapos dinner ng maaga, took a bath and there, I slept, overslept!

The training I am now taking is kinda good, relaxed yet confused because of the new things we are learning for being tier 2. Di pa naman wasak na wasak. hehe Malamang pag nasa floor na, ayun, wasak na malamang ang ulo ko! hahaha We just found out na mahaba ang aming holiday break, once in a lifetime sa work to, lalo na sa call center, so pwede na rin. Pero sayang talaga kasi double pay for the whole week sana yun. Bad trip! Pero ok lang din, kaysa naman maliguak! haha Since naghahanap ako ng VL, sakto at sa xmas holiday pa natapat, so ok lang.

Naaddict na daw ako sa blog sabi ni Efem, mukha nga. hehe Well, pangtanggal antok and hmmm I don't know, I just want to post. Ano pa ba, wala naman bago. Ok naman CE ng previous team ko, kaya na nila without the Vets like me. hehe

I don't know what else to say. Maybe I can just enjoy this week in training and see what will I learn, and if I can apply that to real calls. Oh, my Suns lost to Jazz yesterday, but I hope Cavs will able to win against NJ tomorrow. Maganda talaga yun pick up ng Cavs for Mo Williams, pwede talaga, di naman sobrang fit, pero malaki na nagagawa in Mo sa Cavs.

Life has been simple these days. I hope, it will stay like this, for a long time..

crampy

Well, wala naman ako ginawang milagro nun weekend. As you see, nakapunta si Gerro sa bahay and have fun. I arrived home at 2pm on Saturday and then nakatulog na ko. Di naman ako nakakain ng dinner kasi sa sobrang pagod na siguro. Letche. hehe Actually, at this moment, I am in training for tier 2. Well, I just finished my lunch and I got more gossip from trainers!! hehe Marami na ata akong utang sa post dito, talagang medyo tinatamad ako these past weekends siguro for the rest I need and tinatamad ako bumaba from my room to our sala. I am now starting my diet for less foods with uric acid. Medyo nakakakaya ko. hehe Di pa ko sanay, pero kailangan masanay na. This week, mukhang may tatakbuhan ata ako. hahaha On Saturday night, I was able to watched "Catch me if you can" movie of Leo and Tom Hanks. I can say, it is a good movie! Thriller, fun and dramatic movie. Good movie again from Steven Spielberg. The only letdown of the movie was, the lack of story after Leo's character participated in FBI. The cases he was able to solve as the post script says. Medyo dun ako nabitin. hehe

Sunday, I was able to woke up that time, early. Since it is early, I was able to go at church early and then I ate at Jollibee. Spag and Pancake meals ang kinain ko kasi sa situation ko. I can't eat Lourdes Snack, or even Pares. Damn diet. hehe After that, I went sa palengke and do some stuff tapos I went home. The usual cleaning room and fixing things part and I surfed the net. Unfortunately, up to now, di ko nainstall yun NBA 2k9, sayang yun pera ko tuloy, dapat di muna ako bumili. hehe Buwisit.

Dapat magpost na ko by Sunday but the problem was Algerro wants to use the computer/internet kasi pinagbawal pala ni Dad sa Fairview. Nyek. So gamit naman si Algerro. I watched yun Milwaukee vs. Boston, talo na dapat yun Boston kaso nasibak si Ridnour ng OT! Ayun, tapos ang pangarap ng Bucks. hehe

Oh well, after scanning at fixing yun computer ko, niyaya ko si Gerro umalis. Bago pala nun, nanood muna ako ng all star UAAP vs. NCAA games. Walang kwenta, lalo na yun slam dunk, di hamak naman na maganda yun dunk ng import ng San Beda kaysa kay Espiritu ng UE. In fairness, may consolation ang UST, panalo sa 3 point shoot out. Di ko alam kung sino nanalo sa All star game Senior's division. After watching the game, ayun niyaya ko na si Algerro lumabas. Sabi niya SM North, so sinama ko siya dun. Simple lang naman ang trip ni Algerro unlike me. hehe So hanap kamin ng gusto niya, played some arcade games and in the end, bumili siya ng comics ng The Punisher, na pinakagusto niyang superhero. I treated him in BK and luckily we watched Iron Man there, but after we ate, we went home right away.

Nung nakainom ako ng gamot, yes, maysakit na naman ako, ayun nakatulog! hehe Coming Monday, and I accompanied Algerro to Dad at lunch. Late na rin ako nakatulog kasi sa init, peste pero pag gising ko, ok na ko. Di naman ako ngarag. I feel crampy maybe because of so much thinking and anticipated training in Tier 2. Ayoko pa naman mag tier 2! Pero wala naman akong chance. hehe It will be a challenge.

People do come and go, people decide what is better for them. For me? I don't want to leave yet. Ah uh.. not yet. I will make sure, that I will finish these obstacles. I'll just leave it to God. Naks. hehe

Well, wala na ko masabi.. Medyo ngarag siguro ako this week, pero I hope, every moment of this life, will be kind of great at least. Not crampy, or crappy. hehe

I am not a Chris Brown or Rihanna fan, so you won't hear about what happen last night, besides, I don't have money to buy tickets. Tapos si Algerro, naku naman di manood yun. haha Baka magwala!

oñin

Naku, habang nagmamadali ako pumunta sa mini stop in Eastwood and looking for a gift for my monito/monita, eh accidentally, nakita ko ang team mate ko. hehe Tapos, while looking for a "fluffy" gift, there was a tall guy entered sa Mini Stop, anak ng tokwa, si Canaleta lang pala. Akala ko kung ano bibilhin, kasi hanap ng hanap. So for me, I found the gift that at least fluffy, hehe and went to the queue right away. Pero mahaba yun pila, luckily, the other guy opened up another queue sa cashier. Siyempre, si Canaleta, ayun bumili ng 2 bote ng tequila. Anak ng tokwa, parang walang laro bukas ha. The transaction went fast and there, I did not mind him. I paid my due for the gift and went here at the last day of being tier 1. hehe

Ah, yun tequila binili niya, hindi el hombre, pero weird yun pangalan, parang bagong low brand tequila, naalala ko lang, weird yun cap niya. The cap looks like the mexican hat. hehe I went here at work and discovered, Air 21 has a game tomorrow, first game against Coke. Alam ko na kung sino ang di maayos ang laro. hehe Good job na condition yan, drink hard before a big game!

Nothing changed after shift yesterday, no more payday. No more funds. haha Then, yup, this will be the last day of being tier 1, I will cherish every moment of getting a lot calls, transferring them to IVR or escalating to tier 2. Next time, I will be getting those angry calls, for short tier 2. hehe Promotion? Nope, it's like a career path, or additional work in somewhat. Anyway, it will be a great challenge for me. Let's see, how long will I last!

By the way, I woke early after a short sleep. I've done some errands so that's why I only slept shortly on Friday. I woke around 8pm and watched a PBA game and fortunately, one of my favorite movies, Robocop. hehe It was shown at TV5, and when I saw it, the nostalgic memories of my childhood came back. Way way back, watching that film in betamax! hehe Sneaking to my brother's room and watching those movies. Hmmmmm, of course, I was a bit late because I started with the scene that the Officer Murphy got ambushed by thugs and supposed to be dead. To some point, I don't know how the hospital found that Murphy is really dead. Well, I guess for what happened to him, he should be dead.

Pero ayun, di pala. hehe Maraming scenes dun are really unforgetable like first sequence niya, yung baril niya, the gun fights, how he got his mind and life back, and the final sequences. Parang nga nakalimutan ko yun final sequences, pero nung napanood ko na, naalala ko na. hehe Nalaman ko kasi, yun part na nalusaw yun isang kontrabida, cut sa TV5. hehe While watching Robocop, ayun, ang Sta. Lucia, nanalo kahit walang Kelly, and Ryan. Partida. hehe

And I was able to finish those shows, good thing, there will be Robocop 3 tomorrow. I was surprised that there was one, so I need to check that out. Kahit olats, pagtiyagaan. haha May PBA din bigla bukas pero malamang gabi na naman yun, delayed telecast parang last week. hehe

Nothing changed, at sana next week medyo maayos naman ang mga problema ko. Not in work, but some other things. Tuloy ang plan for these days off and baka may gawin pa ko, pero wala naman masyado, as you see, I need to have an ample rest and diet. Si Gerro, bumisita na naman sa haws, so this coming Sunday, malamang kasabay ko siya papunta kina Dad. What a fast paced day! Kamusta kaya yun fair nila Raims. Sa end of November pala, sumali na ulit sa bazaar, sa QC sports club lang, at Nov. 28 and 29, so pwede ako makapunta dun and check their booth.

That's all I can say for now. I love those Red Lips. hehe What is the good news that Rheg have for me? Kinda mysterious.

8/13

I got a word from my beloved TM that I will be transferred to Tier 2 this coming Monday. I will go through training first. hehe Anyway, I have no choice, and besides, time won't last in one work to another. Para may challenge naman. hehe Pero talagang challenge ito kasi puro irate customers, pero di naman lahat, at may mga gagawin ako dito na talagang di ko alam, so this will be a great challenge to me career wise and health wise. Malamang baka puro OT gawin ko dito. hehe Mamiss ko ang dating team, siyempre, dito ako nanggaling and I just wish them the best of luck after I leave the team on Monday. Sana lang, makayanan ko ang mga challenges and get to the top. hehe

Oh well, for sure naman, Saturday Sunday off na naman so this is the only call center I worked na di nagiba ang off ko. Buenas ko naman. haha Payday? Don't ask. hehe Sayang talaga, parang isang araw lang yung fair sa Rockwell, di ko man lang mabibisita sila Raims. hehe Kung sa Saturday mayrun sila, pupunta ako, pero pag this Friday lang, malabo. Now what. Hmmm, I am feeling better than yesterday because of the sneezy effect, yet I am having a hard time of the diet plan. I discovered that there are so many foods that I need to avoid. Damn. Nadiscover ko na pwede Tofu instead of meat, kaso bawal lang ang mushroom which kasama lagi sa tofu chinese stir fry. hehe Oh well, basta limit ang meat and more fruits and some vegggies. Di kasi lahat ng veggies pwede sa kin. hehe

Plans for the days off, number one, I shall rest in this coming Saturday and number two, visit Dad and Algerro this coming Sunday. That's it. Ayun, kay Mang Ed pa pala. hehe Pero other than that, wala na. Wala naman bago for me, kaso natulog na lang ako after I took lunch, siguro sa pagod and sipon at ubo.

I guess, I just need to spend my final days in Tier 1. Transferring calls, dealing with irate customers then transferring them to tier 2 and of course, invoice request. hehe For the next coming weeks, I will be in the other side, this time, I will decide what's best for the customers. Naks, sipsip. haha

I have some great memories for this team, I just hope they can continue what we started and achieved so far. I want to thank this team Love a lot for everything I learned and received. Siyempre, magaling ang TM and Coach namin eh. haha Well, that's all I can say for today. I want to end this day good.

8th post pa lang for November? Grabe. Di bale ok lang, siguro sobrang sakitin ko lang this month. A sick dude.

sneezy

Yes, I have some coughs and colds today. I don't know where I got it, but I am still here, at work. hehe Medyo queuing tonight but anyhow, right this moment, mukhang wala na ang mga peste, pagpahingahin naman kami. We had some team meeting about the what will be our future here. Despite the current economic crisis, we are still upbeat that we can reach our stats and keep my job here. hehe Now, xmas is coming fast, and I don't know what will I expect. I just want to move forward next year and hope any of my plans will work. hehe Oh, may bazaar pala yun friends ko namely Claire and Raims, sa Friday at the Rockwell Mall, kaso di ata ko makakapunta kasi sa sakit ko this week saka dami ko gagawin on Friday like paying bills and etc. crap. hehe Pero let's see, it may change.

Speaking of my health, I got the results of my blood chemistry and the doctor advised me to stay away from foods with uric acid, meaning I have a bit high uric acid. Oh well, it leaves me no choice but to follow the doctor's advice. hehe Titignan ko na nga kung ano pa yun mga bawal sa kin, pero sa pagkakaalam ko, halos yun mga trip ko kainin eh bawal, lalo na ang mani. hahaha Di ko nga alam bakit ako biglang sinipon and drowsy today, siguro dahil na rin sa pagod at ayun may diet ako kailangan sundin. Letche, kakain ko lang ng lunch, bawal pala sa kin ang nilagang baka! hehe Hay, what will I eat, especially all my groceries, di na pwede sa kin. Anak ng tokwa. Parang saging na lang ata pwede sa kin. hehe

Malapit na ang sweldo, malamang, ubos ang sweldo. hehe What else? Hmmm nothing else, so for the next 2 months, I need to control my diet. Goodbye corned beef, luncheon meat, choconut, kahit galunggong bawal, sardines, or even pork and beans. Goodbye foods that I crave. Damn. This is the last day I am going to eat beef ata, depende sa xmas! hehe

The work is near, so that's it, kinda tired and I want to rest, 2 days left for days off.

I feel sneezy, oh by the way, I thought Bipolar will be available this month in stores. Maganda na daw sabi ni Raims, so from alanganin to maganda, pwede na. hehe

get go!

That's the shop I always see when I drop by in Eastwood. hehe Always in the get go! It's a 7-11 type store with bakery store, nothing special. I just thought this as a title for today's blog. We have a exchange gift setup in our office, and I haven't thought what will be my nickname. hehe Yesterday, after shift, nothing changed. Meron pala, dumaan si Ate Aila sa bahay at ayun namili pala sa Divisoria, buti na lang, maaga siya nagshopping, November pa lang. Way back college days, especially the class corpo days, nagshopping kami at the hype of the xmas rush, ayun, naglakad kami pauwi hanggang UST. Bad trip. Buti na lang tapos na ang mga araw na yun. hehe

Besides that, hmmm nothing really happened. I got some weird dreams again, I don't know why. hehe My health is kinda good, better than before but not that great. Some old me. Hmmm, what else? Ah, NBA news, panalo na naman ang POR and PHX ko! hehe Tapos, sa PBA news, gusto ireplay yun Air 21 ang laro nila against SMB, which in my stand point, dapat lang. Napanood ko yun TnT vs. Ginebra dati na imiskor si Alapag ng 40 plus points, pati si Eric Menk ng 45 ata, tapos ayun, dahil sa tip in na dapat counted eh hindi, umabot sa 3 OT. Kahit one point lang yun mali at nag OT, mali yun, dapat replay na lang para patas sa both teams. Since pareho naman sila napagod sa larong yun, eh dapat ireplay na lang nila. Lugi naman ang San Miguel na pagkatapos ng 3 oras na laro, eh forfeited na yun laro dahil mali. Pwede yun kung tinama agad ng referee at game time, but oh well, that's basketball. hehe Ewan ko ba sa referees, minsan parang pang barangay ata sila. hehe Grabe.

Oh yes, later after shift will be the release of the result of my blood chemistry. I hope it will show good results. Damn. I really should monitor my health carefully. I don't know what will the doctor say to me. hehe Medyo nagkakasipon pa naman ako. hehe Anyway, what the hell Hollywood is doing these years! Almost all the studios are doing remakes of classic films. Are they running out of ideas? Whatever.. Almost all remakes are not that good, or adaptations to be exact. At nabasa ko lang this moment, pati Karate Kid iremake. hehe Grabe, wala na ba sila maisip na pelikula. Mag film director kaya ako. hehe

Anyway, we hope that we have good scores tonight and I just need to sleep after my check up. Whatever the doctor says, I understand, I need to really take care of my health.

Get the hell out of here! hehe

panibagong linggo

Oo nga, wala naman sobrang bago. hehe Medyo ok na ko from what happened last week. Now the agony is back. hehe Oh well, I hope the new year will come fast. Saturday? After my shift, I was able to go home early and got a good rest naman. Nakapanood ako ng NBA game but di naman maganda yun laro. Nakalimutan ko nga eh. hehe After that, I slept then I woke up around dinner to eat and rest again. Nanood ako ng mga palabas sa TV, some crappy shows and at midnight, I was able to watch a PBA game, Welcoat vs. Air 21. I thought Air 21 will be defeated again in a close fight but for this one, they won because of their experience. However, Welcoat is very good, they just need a potent front line. After that, I got my sleep again.

Sunday. It was a simple day, I was able to go to church alone. hehe No more worries at least, and then I went to Quiapo to buy some stuff. Bad trip lang, yun trip ni Algerro na laro, mayrun na pala siya, sayang lang tuloy yun pera. hehe But he kept the game. Wala pa kasi yun trip niyang PS2 na laro. I bought NBA 2K9 in PC yet, yun unang bili ko sira ang unang disc, so after lunch, I went back to Quiapo and asked for an exchange, unfortunately, they run out to exchange it, so I need to come back next day. After that, I slept kahit sandali and I tried to download the game itself but the problem is, it's too big, 5 gb. hehe So I thought, I should give the exchange copy a try. After dinner, I was able to watch PBA again, but the second game itself, a blow out to Purefoods by Alaska. hehehe Tapos na ata ang buenas ng Purefoods. After that, luckily, I found the Matrix Revolutions shown at GMA.

I remember that day when I watched this film at SM North Edsa. Same movie, same effect, it's still a crap. I wished na sana, sa TV ko na lang siya napanood. hehe Well, dapat kasi sa Matrix 2 and 3, pinagsama na lang kahit medyo olats yun huli. In fairness to that movie, I still watched it till the end. I wasted my time. hehe At the same time, I was able to watch the fight of Calzaghe vs. Jones, and I admit Calzaghe was too good for Jones. Jones was badly beaten up, way too far the Jones I known like 8-10 years ago. Age does matter in boxing especially, if you can't keep up the opponent. Kaya pa naman ni Jones, kaso hirap siya talaga kay Calzaghe. But, for those 2 boxers, they deserved 2 spots in Hall of Fame. hehe

Now, yesterday, Monday. I did not eat because of my scheduled blood chemistry at St. Luke's. I cleaned my room and fixed some things na rin, na di ko ginawa for more than a week. hehe After that, at 9am, I went right away to St. Luke's, ayun mas matagal pa yun biniyahe ko sa pagkuha ng blood sa kin. Meaning, wala masyadong tao. hehe After that, I went home, watched the NBA game between Lakers vs. Houston, kala ko dikit, but it turned out na natambakan pala yun Houston. hehe After lunch, naglaro ako ng KOF sa PS2, at ayun bumalik sa Quiapo to get my NBA 2K9, I haven't tried it again fully, pero gumagana na ata. hehe

To wrap it up, my weekend was a simple one, oh by the way Algerro slept in our house this weekend pala, at ok naman siya, Masaya naman at good thing di nanggulo. hehe I decided na next weekend na lang ako pupunta kina Dad and Algerro. My weekend was a simple one, less stressful than last week. Sana lang, there is so much hope this coming week. Nothing new naman coming this week, unless there is another hurdle to pass. hehe

Well, I hope that I can finish this week strong and full of energy. I don't want to complicate things and do what I need to do. I know, I am still here, I am not dead yet. Thanks to him..

By the way, as the doctor advised, I need to drink more electrolytes or potassium. Gatorade is kinda expensive, so I will just eat more banana. hehe I hope my result for the blood chemistry will be good this coming Wednesday.

That's it for me, only for today..

approaching day off

Parang wala ako maisip ilagay for today. hehe Kasi naman, after work, I went home, eat and get the rest I need. I watched some shows, pero sandali lang. 4 and a half hours left before my days off. Everything is planned for these days off. So I hope, I will get the rest and energy I need for the coming weeks.

Kaya siguro wala na ko masulat, tinatamad na ko for today. I am eagerly waiting for the last minute of the day. hehe

I will just finish my work today strong and slack later. hehe

Very short for today.

another way to die

The theme song for Quantum of Solace, sang by Jack White and Alicia Keys. A weird song, not recommendable. The movie? Hmmmmm All I can say, it's a let down. Better watch Casino Royale. hehe Yun mga utang ko dito eh saka ko na ilalagay once na ok na ko. Malapit na ko bumalik sa dati, nakakarecover na ko. hehe Good thing, the Action Plan is freaking over. Galing talaga ni TM, she is now the best TM I have in this career. hehe

Well, after that lost moments and getting my energy back, these coming months will be critical for me. My health of course, and then my career. Pero sa tingin ko, ipagdadasal ko na lang ito. hehe Kung ano ibigay ni God sa kin, edi yun na. At kung natupad ang mga plano ko, edi good din. I hope that everything just fall into places good. Ang bilis ng araw, isang araw na lang, Sabado na. hehe At pahinga lang siguro gagawin ko and punta kay Dad on Sunday.

Now, since the action plan is over, it's time for payback to my stats. hehe Actually, wala na ko maisip masabi now but I am surprised that ang PHX ko umaariba, ang CLE medyo ok na. Lakers, mukhang mahirap masibak, hehe at ang DET, grabe, nakuha nila si Iverson. Sayang medyo late na nakuha niya yun line up na kailangan niya pero kaya pa ni Iverson ito. hehe Atlanta, wala pang talo? Totoo ba to? hehe Lastly, ang Sixers, puro talo, parang walang effect si Elton Brand. hehe

Gusto ko makita yun Air 21 vs. SMB double OT game na protest ng Air 21 na dapat panalo sila. Kaso walang replay eh, bad trip. hehe Grabe, bihira ang Double OT sa PBA. Sa NBA, kahapon, dalawang OT games ang nangyari, isa na dun ang SA vs. MIN na umiskor si Parker ng 55 points. Yikes. hehe No choice eh, wala pang panalo ang Spurs, kawawang team.

Mapanood nga ulit yun Casino Royale kasi halos lahat ng cast sa Quantum eh nandun eh. First bond movie that is really a sequel. hehehe Sa tingin ko, eto na lang muna isusulat ko. Wala na ko maisip. hehe

Good morning!

some other quotes from bob

Well, Obama won for the US presidency. Let's see kung kaya niya maglead ng US. At least, once in my lifetime, I see a different president from US. From a different race I believe. I hope, he will live up with his "Change" platform. First result of his winning the post? Stocks in the US dropped. hehe Anyway, oo nga pala, para mawala naman ang lungkot ko, may mga quotes ako nareceive from the office, galing sa kateam mate ko dati. Makulit na kasabihan galing kay Bob Ong.

Ako naman ay Ok, medyo malakas na ko, medyo wala na rin ang kaba. hehe Pero gusto ko talaga ng at least pahinga, so this coming weekend, I will just rest and relax. Sa Sunday, malamang punta ako kay Dad and Algerro. I still thanking God that I am still, here..

Cut the crap and simulan na. Yun iba dito, malamang mayrun na kay Villa hehe Kaya pala yung ibang text na narereceive ko, dito lang pala galing. Mga ungas talaga. hehe

Bob ong's philosophy on love Ü

1. "Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya.."

2. "Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba."

3. "Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."

4. "Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."

5. "Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin."

6. "Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din."

7. "Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."

8. "Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa."

9. "Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang."

10. "Kung dalawa ang mahal mo, piliin mo yung pangalawa. Kasi hindi ka naman magmamahal ng iba kung mahal mo talaga yung una."

11. "Hindi porke't madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at magkakatuluyan kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly, sweet, flirt, malandi, pa-fall o paasa."

12. "Huwag magmadali sa babae o lalaki. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon, mag-iiba ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong hindi pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang maganda o nakakalibog ito. Totong mas mahalaga ang kalooban ng tao higit sa anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan nagmumukha ding pandesal, maniwala ka."

13. "Minsan kahit ikaw ang nakaschedule, kailangan mo pa rin maghintay, kasi hindi ikaw ang priority."

14. "Mahirap pumapel sa buhay ng tao. Lalo na kung hindi ikaw yung bida sa script na pinili nya."

15. "Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo."

16. “Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala”

17. “Hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohan, at hindi lahat ng hindi mo kayang intindihin ay kasinungalingan”

18. "Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"

19. "Ang pag-ibig parang imburnal...nakakatakot mahulog...at kapag nahulog ka, it's either by accident or talagang tanga ka..
20. "Don't search for love, let love finds you.." Sinabi ko kay Rheg last week about looking for a new GF. hehe which is true naman.

With all these crazy and fun quotes, is there any solace with it?

come what may

After record breaking posts last October, I am now behind 4 days for this coming November. I will make this short for today because I am still dazed, confused and powerless for what happen these days, especially last Sunday, one of the days that I won't forget in my life. Why? It's almost a life and death situation. I will tell that someday this month, I just need to recover first, and up to this moment, I haven't recovered yet. 

Pero kung ano man mangyayari sa kin sa mga susunod na araw, bahala na ang Diyos. hehe Sabagay, masaya ako at nandito pa rin ako. Kala ko, di na ko aabot ng Dec. 30. for the first anniv. hehe Well, my plans changed but not that drastic change, it's a change that will at least remove their worries. I just hope and pray, that won't happen again, or at least, I am still here if that happens again. Sometimes, luck doesn't come that often, prayers will save you in a moment which you are really helpless. First, I want to thank Almighty God for saving me, and his Son, Lord Jesus Christ, and of course, the Holy Spirit. The Holy Trinity for the healing and miracle. hehe Salamat po din sa mga tao tumulong sa kin lalo na kina Kuya Alpro and Ate Jen. Kung wala kayo, baka sa loyola na ko pupulutin or di ako aabot sa hospital. hehe You might be puzzled what really happened, well I will tell it sometime. Kahit sandali lang yun, pero parang ang dami nangyari. And it was really, really unexpected. Hanggang ngayon nga, di ko pa rin maisip kung bakit nangyari sa kin ito.  

Well, I just rely to God, my family and other people around me, whatever coming to me, I hope I could overcome this. Maybe, I really need a good rest for a long time, but I can't do that this time. Sometime next year, hopefully. 

Come what may. By the, what a way to start a bright November. 

Purple Rein

Like I said, I saved the best or worse for last. hehe When we were together before, she like the color purple. I can see that the way she wear clothes, even shoes. Her smile, captivating and her looks could be deceiving but in the end, I really fell in love with her. Naks. Totoo ba to? Senti ka ata Alfred, lagi naman hehe Actually, there many words to describe "Pudit", my ex. Nonetheless, even it ended up that bad, I mean we did not end what we want due to some factors we can't seem to solve, I will never forget her. Like I said in my previous posts, I am still seeing her image in my room or even in the living room or even at the kitchen which I still remember she used to cook for us. hahaha

Hay, kaya eto tuwing nalulungkot ako or naguguluhan sa buhay, I always thought of those events in our relationship, whether it was good or bad. Maraming mga pangyayari na naisip ko, pano kaya kung ginawa ko ganito, or dapat ba ganun ginawa ko. Parang may pagsisi ba sa mga desisyon ko, pano ba naman 1st GF, naku ayaw niya tawagin GF lang I remember. hehe Pero it's a 1st what I call my better half. Naks. But that's true, if we are able to go through these problems before, sigurado, siya na lang ang babae sa buhay ko. Patay na! haha Ang tanga ko talaga, kala ko pa naman, kung gagawin ko lahat ng gusto niya or namin, kakayanin namin pero hindi pala.  

Tama na nga ang bitterness, let's talk about her na lang in per se and those happy moments. hehe I mean tapos na kami and there's no sign as of now that will be together again. Umaasa pa ba ko? Hmmmm In how things work right now, nope. But I am not losing hope, but I am also not expecting na rin because until now, di pa kami naguusap. The last time we talked, was like March of this year, after that, wala na. Nada. Pero on the way I checked her profile, it seems she is happy right now. 

If you read my previous post, if you really did, I always say that I hope she is ok, or fine. Or lagi ko siyang hinahanap, kaya ayun nakatanga minsan. hehe Talagang miss ko siya and I lied before. hehe I do love her. But however, that can be changed in some time or gaya ng sinabi ko, if I find somebody can show a different kind of love to me, then that's it. It will be a new relationship anew. Siyempre, di naman ako pwede maghanap ng katulad ng ex ko coz she is the only Rein in my lifetime. She also shown me what love really is, true love. Romantic love. Kahit anong sweetness gawin ko, parang mas sweet pa siya sa kin. hehe 

I still looking forward to meet her sometime, even for just one last time. hehe When I do that, that's the time I can have a smile in my face at least for sometime. 

"Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear. "

Correct. hehe That's exactly what happened to us. 

Well, I want to tell more about her but I think it's best that to close this for now, and let's see if we are going to cross our paths and rekindle what we have started, Love. I can describe that our Love reaches beyond the boundaries that we did not even imagine, and if I have a chance, I want to happen that one more time. Kung gusto pa niya, lagi ko siyang bibilhan ng KFC brownies. hehe Siguro nagugutom lang ako, kulang sa tulog or kailangan ko na ng professional help. hahaha Salamat ng marami, at alam ko nasabi ko na din ang gusto kong sabihin but sana ok ka and successful in the future. 

By the way, I first called her Rein. Why? Because before, I promised to myself that if I am going to have a special one, I will call her differently than the usual nickname. So that's the name I called her first then it became Pudit. hehe 

I love Rein..   

Quotes to ponder

Siyempre hindi ito galing kay Bob Ong. hehe Nakita ko to sa kahon ko and it was a letter I received from a retreat wayback in College. Villa should have a copy of this, or any of my friends in 4BA1. haha I was able to keep the letters of my friends and especially from my retreats in school. Kapag ako'y malungkot or nababagot like this week, I am used to read these past letters. hehe Let's start..

"Take some time to think about these...

Strength is the capacity to break a chocolate bar into four pieces with your bare hands, and then eat just of the one of the pieces.

I have done more harm by the falseness of trying to please than by the honesty of trying to hurt.

If yo have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call "failure" is not falling down but staying down.

We all live in susupense, from day to day, from hour to hour, in other words, we are the hero of our own story. 

Inside myself is a place where I live all alone, and that's where you renew your springs that never dry up.

I don't need a man to rectify my existence. The most profound relationship we'll ever have is the one with ourselves. 

I always felt that the great high privilege, relief and comfort of friendship was that one had to explain nothing.

Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live; it is asking others to live as one wishes to live.

It's so easy to think about love, to talk about love. But it's not always easy to recognize love.. even when we already hold it in our hands.

Lover starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear. 

It is hard to walk away if you will be losing someone who has been a part of your life. But it will be much harder to stay, if loving him would mean losing yourself. 

Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut deep as you  allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them. 

A sad thing about life is that when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and we just have to let go. 

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we know how to be grateful for the gift. 

In the maze of love, try not to loose yourself so that when love is no longer willing to stay, you still have with you the greatest possession and gift no one could ever take a way -- yourself. 

You can hide the pain that you feel and make others believe that you can move on but you can never deny the truth to yourself that the person who has failed and hurt you is still the person you will always choose to love. 

Whatever happens, it happens for a REASON. No one falls in love by choice, it is by CHANCE. No one stays in love by chance, it is by WORK. And no one fails out of love by chance, it is by CHOICE. 

There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn't expect you to understand that, or even believe it, but trust me; there are some love that don't go away. And maybe that makes them crazy, but we should all be lucky to end with that somebody who has little of that insanity. Somebody who never lets go. Somebody who cherishes you forever. 

Life is not meant to be fast. Life is beautiful. So try to be slow and savor them all that Life may bring to you... for being hasty will you make miss some of the Life's best things and best things in Life are free.. 

HAPPY RETREAT!!! "

When I read this, all of them almost happened to me. Touching I can say. Lalo na yun part that says "You can hide the pain that you feel and make others believe that you can move on but you can never deny the truth to yourself that the person who has failed and hurt you is still the person you will always choose to love. " Parang ako yun ha, and si Rheg and well all of us who had a break up this year. hehe

By the, condolence to Mark Bautista, who his mother just passed away yesterday. Mark was my HS classmate, same section with Igz, Ian and Rheg, so I hope he will be ok and I know his mom is now at good hands in heaven. Let's just pray for the best of Mark and his family.

Actually nalaman ko lang ito when I woke up due to so many messages in my phone and that's one of them. I went to Arlington asap and talked to Mark and good thing, nandun kami ng mga brothers ko. We talked a lot but cut short because me and Igz have work tonight. But if we can return tomorrow, we can drop by again.  Speaking of break ups, while we're talking about break ups and relationships, parang this year ata eh year of the break ups. Parang hula daw last year na this year is not a good year for relationships. Totoo kaya yun, kasi of course, mga brothers ko except Ian eh single na, pati si Mark and yun isa namin kilala break na din ang kanilang GF then some friends ko din, so this is not really a good year to have a relationship, sabay ba to ng economic crisis? hehe Bakit naman ako di nakaabot man lang ng January 1 at break na kami? hahaha Oh well, sana next year ay ok na dapat ang relationships. All of us has a right to be happy with a special someone. 

So, that's all lang talaga ang bago, well, nakapaglinis ako ng shoes, kasi naman, letcheng maynilad, nagbakbak na naman ng kalye malapit sa min so yun mga grabe and putik dumikit sa shoes ko. hehe I was to clean them, good thing. I just love my shoes I guess. 

By the way, its Joanne's birthday today, 10/30/08. Happy birthday dude! hehe The varsitarian editor in chief in our college days. Very good writer, speaker and friend as well. hehe Dude, sana naman libre ka ng lunch para naman macelibrate ang birthday mo, kaso di ka free. I hope we can celebrate it sometime. Good luck to your new job and God bless as well, take care! 

What else? hmmm as of now, I just want to finish this week and rest. I have plans for this coming weekend but I just keep it with myself. hehe Thanks Ann for the letter, and tomorrow's blog will be senti. I keep the best or worse for last. It's your take. 

Am I still here by xmas? hehe