nega plus nega

For the past weeks, I don't know why I met sad people..

I mean, kilala ko silang masaya biglang what the heck. hehe Seriously, they just have problems that can't easily handle..

And they talked to a person na let's say negative energy na.. However, I don't show it naman, besides, they're my friends.. For them, kahit inaantok na ko, gising ako for them..

Medyo marami sila ha, kahit ako nagulat.. I won't really divulge what were their problems.. Let's say serious..

Pero ang important at those times, masaya naman kami. hehe Kahit na sa una siyempre malungkot ang mood, subalit pag tagal, ayun nagiging masaya kami. Negative and negative, positive?

Ironic talaga, dati taga kinig lang ako, tapos minsan nagpapatawa lang, pero ngayon, nakakaadvice pala ako. Ewan ko lang kung nakatulong sa kanila. hahaha

Importante naman sa kin ay makatulong sa kanila kahit papano. Alam ko kulang pa yun nalalaman ko sa mga problema, kasi iba naman yun mga buhay namin, pero ang sabi ko lang lagi, "ganun talaga", "change your perspective", "tuloy lang ang buhay" and other answers na about life..

Life really is a hard pill to swallow. It is also ironic.. Sometimes, you can't believe it just happened. Pero, ang magandang gawin sa buhay eh ayusin na lang..

Well, one day, I just hope life will be easy for all of us.. I mean, less problems, worries and more focus to the good things we need to do. Rather than staring at a blank wall.. Or crying all day for nothing.. Or how about cursing yourself why this and that.. It won't do any good.. That's what happened to me before. hehe

Mabuti na lang at holy week, I guess we should spend time reflecting and contemplating ourselves. Ask and talk to him..

Maybe he'll give you positive answers..

gOH. Kenshiro (Fist of the North Star)

Dapat is Ippo ng Knockout yun fifth kaso, naisip ko, ang unang astig na anime character nakita ko nun bata, is Kenshiro. VHS pa noon, eh galing si Kuya Allan sa US, naguwi siya ng mga anime shows, some of them dubbed, tapos some of them may subtitle..

Tapos may napanood ako na anime na kakagulat. I mean, siyempre typical anime or cartoon nun panahon ko talagang pambata. Like Smurfs, Transformers, Bravestar, and others, pero eto, first scene pala, sabugan na ng ulo. hehe Wow, tapos astig yun sapakan saka siyempre si Kenshiro, well Ken lang sa english version. Kamukha ni Bruce Lee, tapos tahimik saka pagnagalit, angas. hehe With his rubberized jacket. Kasi pagnagagalit, napupunit yun jacket pero next scene suot niya ulit. hehe

Pero yun lakas niya, grabe, kahit talo siya kay Raoh (kapatid niya) eh bago naman niya nakalaban yun parang panis naman lahat ng kalaban niya.. Saka yun character niya, mabait pero masama pag ginalit. Hehe Tumutulong siya saka calm lagi, at alam na ang gagawin sa kalaban. Lalo na yun scene dun sinabi niya pagkatapos siya sapakin, kala nun goon eh buenas siya. Ayun pala, he's dead na di niya alam. hehe

Ah, you may wonder, the series itself it's like Mad Max, just remove Mel Gibson and add Bruce Lee, gigantic punks and most important part, the Martial Arts concept. Bloody good.. Good thing yun mga remake niya these past years, never dissappoint naman. Lalo na yun isang bagong OVA ata, maganda yun drawing, so I need to search that and download it. hehe

Bakit siya 5? Hmmmm dude, medyo di realistic siya.. If may ganun na tao, the perfect killing machine. hehe Saka kahit ganun siya, ewan ko, lagi siya talo sa huli. Bad trip naman, lalo na kay Raoh. Pero sa bago, panalo na siya. hehe Anyway, I still like the character, especially when he shouts!!! Watah!!!!

March 25, 2004

As I walk in the dim streets of Speaker Perez, wearing this very old UST PE shirt, I thought, what the hell happened after graduation? 6 years past? No damn way!!!!!!

Nah, di ka nagkakamali, that was the date we graduated, at least yun ang sabi sa TOR namin. Letche, nagfade na nga yun TOR ko eh. hehe

Time really flies fast, like I always says in my blog. I can't believe ganun kabilis ng panahon. Marami siyempre nangyari after graduation. Iba nagsettle down na. Yun iba, kung ano yun first job, hanggang ngayon dun pa din. hehe Yun iba, masaya na or has been successful in their chosen careers.

Me? Do I need to renumerate all over again?

No way.. It's all here..

Just scan my posts. hehe

Hay, actually pagkagraduate parang walang happening.. Nag kanya kanya for short. Pero nung pagkatapos ng final exams at bago mag graduation eh nagpansol kami. Damn, one of the best outings I had.

Sana may magpost dito ng pics nun. hehe Baka si Joanne mayrun. hehe

Or even the official photographer Ivan who will be expecting to go home this year. Pasalubong tol. hehe

Seriously, one thing is for sure, after those damned years, I know what I need to do in life, not only to be successful but to be happy as well. Happy on what you do, and what you believe for.

I didn't learn that in school...

I learned that in a very hard course, a subject that you don't know if you pass because you will fail first at the first time.

It's not like math that you know the answer right away even you know before hand how to answer it..

It's not like what, feasibility study that you'll pass as long you work hard and do good in presentation..

Or even yun pesteng business writing na muntikan na kami ibagsak ni Bruselas, muntikan na kami ni Al dun ha. Na dapat paimpress ka sa business writing which is not really needed..

Those subjects I learned well, not totally applied here in this difficult subject..

A subject called LIFE...

It is a forever course with limitless number of units..

Pero sa ngayon naman, pasang awa naman sa buhay. hehe

Kaya lang, in these times of hardship saka kung may gusto ka talaga makuha, eh di lang 3.00 ang kailangan, kundi 2.00 o 1 sa subject of life..

Mahirap nga lang, pero masaya.. Masaya kasi marami ka matutunan, at para sayo yun. Di naman kay Prof o parang maging DL. hehe

Well, sana nga may diploma naman ako sa huli pag naayos ko na ang buhay ko. hehe I don't want to eat at Emerald in Roxas blvd.

Maybe in a different place, a place which I can savor the moment of success.

With someone special.

Well, congrats to 4ba1 batch 2004, kung tama. hehe

Reunion na!!!!! Manlibre na yun mga taong dapat manlibre. hehe

Sorry di ako yun!!

5:28

Pagkagising ko kanina eh alam ko sa isip ko daming gagawin, listahan dito, yun padownload, saka siyempre yun mga blog.. hehe Ah another thing, to fix for today's shift.

Unfortunately, I woke up at the wrong side of the bed. Sabi ko pa sa sarili ko, ang sarap ng tulog ko, parang ang haba ata. Yun pala, mali yun alarm ng cel ko, at ayun, 32 minutes na lang, kailangan nasa RCBC na ko.

Oh shit. hehe

Feel the rush na naman.

Sakay naman ako ng cab agad then, well, marami akong namiss na gagawin at ayun nagmamadali. Pero sabi ko na, wala na to, I'm late. hehe

Pagdating sa work, gutom at pagod, pero tuloy pa din. Nandito na saka di naman masyadong late. Nice!

Pero late is late, and I'll be getting a love letter. hehe

Tapos, ayun take calls, getting feel kung ano yun account. As of now, I can say manageable naman, ang problem lang eh kung ops na kami, sangkatutak ang calls.

Ang staff eh 42 pero ang calls waiting 52 ata. Ayos, we need more manpower. Headcount. Grabe. hehe

Ah yes, may bagong team na ko at I'm looking forward working with them. As usual, I'll just do my best to help the team!

Mga next week, nasa kanila na ko. Saan kaya kami makakarating?

Are we going to the same path like my previous teams before? At first we're very bottom of the stats then at the end, near at the top. Naks. I like that challenge.

I hope the team will make it.

After that, ayun uwi sa bahay, check ang mga download at ayos na din ng mga gamit. Dami ko talaga na miss. hehe Peste kasi.. Hay.. Sana makapahinga naman this holy week.

For all these days, I was so busy that some of the time, I can't think anymore. Or don't plan, come what may. hehe

Pero I just still move on, finish the task and just think at the end of the day, I can finally rest and no worries!

Sana. hehe

Sana mamaya, at sa mga susunod na araw, wag na malate ng gising.

Sana di ako magising ng ganun oras ulit. Depende kung 7:30am ang shift. hehe

Well, I hope as well that next week, may routine na ko para naman di na ko mahirapan. Jeez.. Kung pwede lang mag clone noh? hahaha

For now, let's take an early sleep as a first step..

unplanned 11

I got a massage last week, good. I should do that every other week. fortnightly. hehe

Nothing new..

Ah, siyempre, new downloads meron. hehe

Less rest for quite sometime...

I'm missing some errands to finish..

Met great friends for a nice chat..

Ah, oo nga pala, tuloy ata ang swimming. hehe

Watched Alice in 3D, good thing there is Depp and Carter, anything else, eye popping yet not a wonderful story..

Although I like snacthing the 3d glasses. hehe

Got addicted in movies yet di ko pa sila napapanood ng straight ha.

Everybody got to learn sometimes -Beck

I wish palabas na ang Kick Ass!!!! hehe

At last, may time na magpahinga next week.

At last, no more worries in training.. Passed.

Yun ang mga nangyari for the past weeks. Kaunti no?

isang taong nakalipas

Oo nga naman, galing. hehe Pagkatapos basahin ko ulit ang blog na http://blackswordsmann.blogspot.com/2009/03/in-japanese-not-word-itself-but-usually.html, naisip ko, ano nga ba nangyari pagkatapos ng isang taon.

Ang sigurado, I'm back at the corporate ladder. hehe Pero, mabuti at normal na sked na ang work. Diyos ko, pag pang gabi pa din ako, ewan ko na. Baka wala na magsusulat dito. hehe

Sa totoo lang, napakabilis ng panahon ng isang taon nagtratrabaho sa araw compare mo sa gabi. Mabuti naman, walang sakit ako naramdaman last year, siguro parehas na sakit, may kabagalan at laging pagod. hehe Pero di kagaya dati na "pagod" na laging reklamo ni Rheg. haha Siguro, ok lang sa kin yun pagod, doble kayod na nga eh.

Alfred, doble kayod? Wow, parang anong gamot ang ininom niya. Dati lagi inuna ang pahinga muna o saka na yan at most used excuse, ok na yan kahit hindi. Which ngayon ginagamit pa din.hehe Pero di naman sa lahat ng bagay, lalo na pag sa relasyon sa bahay, o sa shop and even work. Mahirap din yun ha na kahit papano, magbago para sa ikakabuti. I will try na matuto magdrive this year. Sayang naman, matanda na ko, even wala pa ko kotse, at least sana makadrive na ko. Kakahiya naman sa future love o family. hehe Or even business meetings or other endeavors perhaps. Marami siguro ako magagawa pag marunong na ko magdrive, yun nga lang, ingat!

Marami na din ako plano this year. Mukhang sigurado na ko sa isang endeavor, I'll just stick it with me. Sayang ang ikot. hehe Kaya pa naman..

Tapos siguro time to be healthy na din, kasi pumayat na ko. I just learned that nun bumili ako ng shorts. Oy, I don't know bakit lumiit ang size ng waist. hehe

Ah, siyempre, investments at lalo na, spend more time to rest and for myself and well, looking for love.

Yes.. Sana magawa ko yun at alam ko, at a optismistic perspective, yun mga kailangan iimprove sa sarili ko. Di ko magagawa lahat yun for this year pero at least may progress, in small steps..

Naalala ko last year, wala ako iniisip kundi sugod lang ng sugod, kala ko ok lang sa kin. Pero pag tagal, siyempre di lang yun pagiging simple kundi pag grow na din ng sarili. Besides, I'm not getting younger. Jeez, I'm approaching my target age to get settled down. Don't worry, that will change, di ako aabot. hehe

Marami ako pinagdaanan last year na pagtumingin ako ulit, sabi ko, nagawa ko pala yun. hehe Salamat kay Kuya Alpro at marami naman ako natutunan sa kanya di lang sa biz, but in life. I kinda appreciate what he did. Although sometimes medyo harsh pero well, like he says, that's life.

I've encountered the painful and happy times last year.

The one time revival of an old flame...

Most importantly, ano ba talaga hinahanap ko sa buhay. Yun magpapasaya sa kin, o magbibigay sa kin ng comfort and security. Pwede pera, pero in the long run, parang di lang yun magbibigay sa kin ng ligaya.

I believe success is not measured only what you have, it's what you achieved and you became happy for it.

Alam ko marami ako dapat pasalamatan for the past year, of course, one is Family. Salamat.. Even I was timid or sometimes, selfish, well at least they understand me. hehe And I was more understanding to them.. Kaya sana, kahit di mangyari lagi, magkakasama pa din tayo.. I love the xmas reunion. Bakit walang pics dito? hehe I pray everyday... That God always bless this family despite these situations..

Friends, I don't know how much or how to describe or I don't know what words to say for helping me get through this past year. Yun mga brothers na laging nandiyan, Doc, Chef and Becky, este ang Counselor. hehe I'm grateful na nandiyan ko lagi at gabayan at tulungan lagi. Mahal ko kayo mga pare! hehe Alam ko may pagkukulang pa ko sa inyo, wag magaalala, babawi ako!!! To my college best and special friends, from 2012 crew, 4ba1 peeps, 2cpm barkada, salamat, at lagi din kayo nandiyan at nagkikita pa din tayo for a good time. Good luck sa inyo. Other acquiantances, wow, nandiyan pa din, from my previous jobs. hehe Ah special friends.. You know who you are. hehe Many to mention, but just thank you. Sana kita kits pa din and I pray for God's guidance sa inyo..

And to the people that I don't know much. hehe Well, di ko din alam kung ano sasabihin ko pero thanks na din. Whatever..

I want to leave behind what happened after a year when I started working and survive the challenge. I know di pa ko tapos, at marami pa ko gagawin pero sana balang araw, I don't need to worry much everyday, I just need to get the job done or if not, relax and enjoy...

Life!

By the way, I shouldn't forget to thank Him, for every moment of this life.. I've falllen so many times, yet he's there to raise me up.

Always..

Tamang tama for holy week. hehe

I listen to.. (disk 6)

1. Everybody got to learn sometime (Beck) - from the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind OST whatever. The only song. Actually a very good song kahit ilan lines lang siya. Hay... Lovely. hehe

2. Huwag mo nang itanong sa kin (Eraserheads) - naalala ko, ito lagi kinakanta ko sa Music test namin wayback HS. Madali lang kasi saka maganda naman yun kanta di ba?

3. Feels like Heaven (Fiction Factory) - siguro pag friday, pwede na. hehe Very new wave song, like pag narinig ko to, I still remember 80's with those haircuts. hehe

4. Turnip Farm (Dinosaur Jr.) - from reality bites OST, grudge whatever song na ngayon ko lang naappreciate. hehe

5. Blue Monday (New Order) - best selling 12 inch single of all time and I know why. However, fun fact, it made sense New Order doesn't want to show or perform this song live. It sounds rubbish and they don't look good. According to one of their interviews, I saw it as well, it made the sales of the song down at some point. hehe

6. Too young (Phoenix) - lost in translation OST, good song with a pop beat. Not too short.

7. Soma (The Strokes) - short yet energetic song, bad trip lang, bakit lagi silang maiksi kumanta. hehe

8. Change (in the house of flies) (Deftones) - a rock song na medyo romantic. Ewan ko, basta kakaaddict siyang pakinggan.

9. Lucky (Radiohead) - Pag nasa travel ako at bagot, eto yun kanta gusto sa trip.. Pampaantok pero masaya. hehe Labo noh, but I like the mood of the song.

10. Sanctified (Wolfgang) - one of my favorite pinoy rock songs. Short yet straight to the metal!!! Rock on!!!

yan lang muna.. hehe some were short, some were long.. Songs..

nice <> chat

That day was all bout a nice chat with friends. As I went home very tired yet satisfied... Tired because of the training. Satisfied because I talked to my trusted friends. First off, Doc.

While waiting for Carla in BK to close the shop, well I was surprised that someone called me.. Surprise, Doc. hehe

Doc is just killing some time before he goes to some meeting, said some things that are kinda serious. Sorry, secret. hehe But it's about life itself. Choices that bothers him, plans that he wants to execute or even what to do before he takes the board exam.

I told him to pass first the exam. hehe Then choose what makes him happy. What he wants to do or to finish... I know it's hard for him to decide or plan especially he's in duty, but since he will be in a vacation, I hope he can use that time to think and importantly, to study for the exams.

He will pass definitely, so good luck Doc!!!

I went home and checking my computer, until a text came in to my reliable china phone. (Not the exact text) "Dude, are you home? Can you come to BK?" I told to myself, what the heck? hehe Come in, Raims..

Raims and I met over in UST. Before I met her, damn, so many students marching around UST. I already thought, these are graduating students, and unfortunately, that will be last night to be students. Weeks later, they will be a certified bum. Bum squad. Welcome to the unemployed world. hehe

However, luckily, I met Raims and went to find some place to eat and drink. We preferred to drink. hehe We went to a solemn place called Tapsi.

A place where you discover drinking as a culture. Well, that was in my college days. hahaha

I don't know with those graduating students. Besides, every UST student should be able to drop by in their college days. Except for Raims. hehe

Anyway, so we just talk as well about life and another topic which we always think we're unlucky. Love..

Nobody in the race to 2012 dudes wants to go ahead in the race. I know it's still two years left, but come on, we don't want to be single forever. hehe

So, that point Raims to thought of advices to be ahead in the race. hahaha

Seriously, I hope my advices to her will work. I am happy that at least I was able to help her, but I'll be more happy if all what we discussed worked. Right? That will really put a smile in my face...

Well, before going in those points, we laughed and had fun talking about movies, the Paramore concert and even the Tanduay Ice we drunk. hehehe

We went to Mcdo after Tapsi because the place is filling up with students. Students who want to forget that after that night, go straight of finding work. hahaha

That was the time Raims and I got into serious details. That goes my experience advice mode kicks in. hehe However, at one point, we laughed. hehe Because I don't know, maybe the situation she gave me was kinda akward for me but I hope it helped her. Help her to find that love..

We both agree that we really love Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind and Kate Winslet. hehe

I went home and try to absorb the things I did. I said. I thought.

I knew I hate dwelling in the past, but at those times, I don't care, as long it helps me to show the present, or to help somebody. Fine with me. Besides, I doesn't hurt anymore. I just moved on, like speaking to a irate customer and took a deep breath and take another call. hehe

It was indeed a nice chat with them..

I expect more of that coming.. Especially, we are getting older..

Different aspects of life kicking in nowadays.

flashbacks: log in!!!

While taking calls kahapon, a first after a year, well, medyo confident pero nun feedback, ayun, crap.. Hehe 2 non-negotiable. Meaning, failed due to security or process sa call, which a no no sa call center. That's fine with me, buti na lang first day at di graded. hehe

Looking back around 5 years ago, I still only remember some parts of my first inbound call. Wayback in epldt, Parlance to be exact. My first call, as I recall, well, customer was asking is there a hurricane there? Kasi naman rinig sa call yun paghinga ko. Sabi ng buddy ko, wag kabahan. Diyos ko. hehe

Siyempre, ayun sa paglipas ng araw eh nasanay na ko. Pero hirap talaga ako at first, kasi first job, tapos yun account mahirap pa. Kala ko normal lang sa call center ang ganun kahirap na account, pero hindi pala. I'm looking back before, sana mga 6 months lang pala ang stay ko dun. hehe

Good thing may ecare and tumagal ako pa ng additional 10 months.

HSBC came pero magulo, but masaya. Gulo no? hehe Masaya in the sense, madali account, other happy things happened and ok ang team. Except for the HR which I heard until now, gotten worse.

Dell, like I said last year, if you're reading, wala naman ako reklamo. Kung pwede lang sana sila yun first job ko. hehe Kaso oh well, today toxic na sila. Kawawa naman. Sayang naman.

Now, 24/7, di ko pa alam ko ano pa maexpect ko. I will take an assessment on them after 6 months siguro. hehe Makikita naman dito yan.

Everytime I log in, I always feel like I'm feeding myself to the lions. The customers, a long line of them. Whether a good, poor, and most especially, irate customers.

How I was able to handle all of them? Siguro ang mindset ko lagi eh, tapusin yun call na walang sabit. Yun lang, kasi di ko naman mapapasaya lahat di ba. Lalo na pag ang issue eh sobrang gulo, ang magagawa ko na lang eh pacify or sup call na. hahaha

Kahit long call pa yan or short, basta ang sigurado ko lang ginagawa sa call, eh to give customer service. Until now nga, kahit sobrang palpak ang customer service dito, parang tawag ka sa hotline dito, eh patient pa din ako kasi alam ko CSR din sila kagaya ko. Di kagaya yun iba, porque nagwork lang sa Call Center eh pwede na magmanipulate ng call dito. hehe Siguro naging irate ako pero di galit, parang UK. Sa globe, yun doble load na di dapat kasi lugi ako..

Ang tagal isolve yun concern, kailangan ng callback lagi. Pero ayun, mga dalawang linggo bago ako nacredit. Grabe. hehe

Sa ngayon, mukhang babalik na ulit ako sa taking calls, pero maganda eh in a very normal shift. Sa wakas, sana this will be my last stop in this career. I'll give a try to stay and let's see, ano magiging path ko dito.

That path I hope will be righteous...

A stress free one as well..

Well, siguro kahit di naman mapromote eh ok lang. At least dayshift and yun role, lighter than before. hehe I can't say lightest pero sa ngayon, I need to pass training.

Passage of time, looking back those nights na kala ko di ko kaya pero natapos ko yun shift or ayaw na pumasok kasi tinatamad o hirap na sa account, eh napapangiti na lang ako. Sabi ko mabuti at tapos na ang mga gabing yun..

Sana this time, I won't go back at that rate.. It's just very tedious...

Those times, I remember that after one call, press log out!!! Or better, release na ang call. Peste. hehe

Those lifeless days.. Stressful days... Zombiefied days... Or a good simple word, Vampire days..

Good thing, it ends..

Log out.

gOH. Roberta (Black Lagoon)

Eto na, ang totoo guys first, but as the saying goes, let's the ladies show first their prowess. hehe

Ah, of course, I like anime, and I watched so many of it.. Alam ko medyo behind ako these years kasi yun mga lumalabas eh di ko trip. The last new anime I liked, well last year eh second round of Ippo. Kaso siyempre bitin siya. hehe Behind that anime, of course, characters that left a mark in the series. Ibig sabihin papanoorin ko lang yun series if there is one character or set of characters that show me interest. Pagwala, sorry, not worth watching. May animes din na kahit di malakas ang dating ng characters but have a great story, yun tiyagaan ko na at some of them, keep it. hehe

I want to list a lot pero I think 5 vs. 5 will be enough for me. 5 heroines, and 5 heroes. Di kasama yun live action stuff like Mask Rider Black or Shaider. hehe

I hope you like my choices. Especially to the fans of anime.. Ewan ko lang kay Kuya Allan kung sino choice niya, siya pasimula kasi nito nun bata ako. hehe Hanggang ngayon. hahahaha

Roberta? Speaking of Kuya Allan, eh nirefer niya ako about a series of Black Lagoon. Story of mercenaries, lead by gun totting Revy. Hot chick with two pistols. hehe Pero di siya pinili ko. I can't tell the whole story of her, kasi sobrang haba, but in the anime series, one or two episodes lang siya. hehe

Why I love her? Damn, looks innocent but deadly. hehe Mild yet hot with guns. You can check that episode na lang. hehe I like how she handled the goons with her umbrella and leather bag. With some grenades of course.

Parang terminator nga siya, lalo na yun nagsimula na siya bumaril. Parang buong armory ata na baril mayroon siya kahit di naman halata. At kahit incidentally panget ang suot niya. hehe But I can hire her as a maid/bodyguard. If she is true lang, naku, di lang siya maid. hahaha Alam na..

Just search na lang sa youtube about her, and check a good pic below. For FB users, I don't know if it will show up here, but google it ok?

0. ?

Tapos na ang countdown. hehe I miss those girls. Anyway, baka isipin mo what the zero means. It's either the next lady to really inspire me and to love again or another lady will show another dimension of love. Naks, medyo tumaas pa ata ang standards ko. hehe

Actually, parang wala pa ko nahahanap kasi busy na ko, pero with this new sked of mine, mukhang may time to search. I can say medyo mahihirapan ako this time kasi baka di ako makafocus masyado sa lady, especially to the courting stage. hehe However, this time siguro, what I'll do is take it slow and know the signs kung talagang mag work. Kung hindi, edi find again. Easy? Not quite. I'm not young anymore.

They can say that, however I just don't feel young anymore. Especially sa searching process...

Young again? Or Old yet feisty I guess. hehe Ah wag naman yun MMS na ang edad eh sobrang tanda. Yun mga 1-2 years older or 5 years max. hehe

I don't know, but what I know, love doesn't care about boundaries. That's what I believe in..

I don't know din when or where or even who to start.

Pero as days go by, medyo may mga plan na.

When? Hmmm at least this year, makapagstart na. hehe

Where? Let's say someone near at my house ok?

Who? Let's keep that hush hush... No clues.. Sorry. hehe

If possible lang Kate Winslet, since she's single again, siya na lang. Kaso hanggang pangarap na lang. hahaha I don't care if that chick has 2 kids.. Great actress and damn beautiful..

Now, I think I'll go for someone new din no? New acquintance I guess or somebody I don't know that much. Risky yet fun, ingat nga lang, baka lason. hehe

Well, this time, I shouldn't be rushing muna. That will be a good idea! Take it slow for finding a better half..

I expect naman na pag di nagwork eh masasaktan pero I believe, to be more mature this time. Unlike those college days, or even those broken heart days that I just stare myself and hurting deeply..

This time, have pity na sandali lang tapos go ulit. hehe Naisip ko na din, talagang malas ata ako pagdating sa ganyan.. Hay..

Sigh..

Breath deeply..

And look around.

I wonder, who will be that girl be?

The girl who gives a smile to my face when I wake up each time..

How lovely that girl will be.. Can I meet her now?

Sana nga pare, at ika nga ni accounting prof.

Pick and pick then select... Nah, didn't work before, bakit ko gagawin yun? hehe

Just select the right 1.

1. R.E.I.N

I never thought 8 months ago that I'm going to this. It's for the sake of thanking them.. You may say I'm kinda mean to like rank them up. hehe However, love makes you wonder, I'm lucky to meet them at least, once in a lifetime...

That points to the person in discussion right now. Rheg asked if I was able to greet her, I told him, I don't know where is she now.. Perhaps, I hope for the very best for her..

I don't really need to explain why she is the number one. Simply she's the only one for now, changed me.. Especially in viewing about the word, Love..

Nevertheless, as I always post here, I always... Miss.. Love.. Simple as that..

However, time to move on, time to let go.. hahaha

Until that movie showed up, Eternal Sunshine.. It shifts my view again, it's not like only me, but also, her. Clementine..

My Favorite lines, so many but here's one of them.. The scene when Joel wakes up in the forest, trying at least keep some memories.. Saves Clementine at least for that moment..

Clementine: You know me, I'm impulsive.

Joel: That's what I love about you.

Damn.. Like us before. hehe

Although, time flies fast and we're into separate ways, I can say that she has a place in my heart. And I'll cherish that in my lifetime, even in my memories.

I hope she is fine and wish her all the best.

Surprised? That this one is short? Well, it should be.. I wrote a lot about her and time to close this one.. Unless she wants to open it again.. A different chapter.. hehe

"No distance, will ever keep

My heart from loving you

There are no more tears for it to weep

For a love that runs so true"

Lovely lines.. Indeed.

Who's next by the way? hehe

Ah I passed product training.. Let's see how to translate that into taking calls. hehe

Damn, I never heard her took calls before.. Even she done outbound calls..

Sigh..

In-betweener

commercial break.

Like in Pacman's fight today, many ads indeed, election ads.. Good way to cheer for him..

getting ready for a morning shift.

Grabe tong linggo to, masaya kasi kahit papano may kita, hehe kapagod kasi maraming ginagawa pero ok naman kasi marami natutunan.

Pumasa sana ako sa training. hehe

Ah, someone will be celebrating a birthday today..

Very special..

Indeed.

Take a break first.. Yup..

If you read all my blogs, well, don't be confused, just remember, it all started on Monday.

Disclaimer I should say..

Yes, until now, no sign from that person.. I hope.. Fine..

Conversion

I will wake up tomorrow in a bright note that is because, I'll be a normal day.. No more midshift, at least.

Even I still went home around 1 am yesterday, a breath of fresh air came to me. A sigh of relief. A relax desposition. A time to tell myself, it is done. However, I need to pass the test tomorrow. I hope we all damn pass...

Well, I haven't finished watching the movies I want. And they are kinda piling up. Crap..

I need to relax a bit. I believe that this schedule will work for it. Besides, not only to relax but for other things as well. Lovely things.

Until this moment, I never thought of making it yet, I did. Whew.. Thanks!

Converting yourself for the better is not easy. For instance, me.. Doing two things at the same time was not easy. How about thinking all the things at the same time? Whether it's bad, worse or good. How about staying away or should I say avoid making the same mistakes? I can say I am still trying to do that. Although it's slow, but there is progress..

I should be dynamic perhaps?

More dynamic, outgoing, risk taker and whatever makes me change.

Change for the better.

Conversion to greatness.

I just didn't start right..

Maybe this time, you're quite confuse for what happened. Sorry, happenings.

Just a little while, I can sense the light shining again...

rolling!!!

I hope we did. hehe Good luck in the risk I took this week, sana umikot. At sana pumasa kaming lahat ng training and to start a normal life. hehe Yes, di ko pa napapanood yun Hurt Locker kahit ilan beses ko nagsulyap, scanning, review, pero watching it, nope. Preoccupied I guess.. Ah yes, I watched the new movies I got before the Hurt Locker. hehe I seem to forget.. Anyway...

What I can say, hmmmm marami na ko napapanood old movies, not so old, and well Ninja Assassin. Sana maganda yun copy. hehe Legion? Forget it..

Wala naman bago today except ayun pa din. hehe Pagod, whatever, happy, sad, I don't know. I just hope siguro to rest..

Pacman I hope he will win, not easily but just go for the win. I can see na si Clottey medyo bato, pero tignan natin yan sa Linggo. hehe

I believe I can catch up sa mga post ko. Not everybody but definitely more than last month. Especially this coming week, oh boy... Reminiscing. hehe Approaching number 1 and her birthday as well. I am thinking where the hell is she..

With this new schedule of mine, I hope I can do more things or rest as well.. I need to manage this and there, my blog, magic decks, movies and songs collection and programs as well... I haven't created a backup. hehe I just hope that my computer won't damn crash..

Twilight fans rejoice because there is a trailer for Eclipse. Do I care? I don't know. hehe Maybe the chicks will do. They scream not only for Edward but also the macho Jacob. Crap..

For now, that's all I can say.. For the moment.. I'll take myself a good sleep because 10 hours later, I'll go back to work..

One more push, tapos na ang midshift. Sa wakas...

At least, lessens my burden perhaps!!!

Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps..

Don't be surprise at the next post, it's all about heroines..

Kawaii!!!!

500

Thanks for reaching this mark.

Everybody got to learn sometime

Ah, di ko pa napapanood yun Hurt Locker kahit nasa zune ko na for how many months. hehe

Well, me? I need to learn as well sometime. hehe It's a title of a song from the movie Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Peste ka Raims, bakit mo nirefer sa kin tong movie. hehe It's just so... Me..

Even Kate Winslet did not win an oscar for this magnificent role, eh nakabawi naman siya last year. Pero sayang, she is damn great here. Jim Carrey as well, great.

Speaking of oscars, well, panalo lahat ng hula ko. Even Sandra Bullock win which for me, dahil siguro pinagbigyan na yun, pero mukhang ok naman siya sa The blind side, even critics gave good reviews. She deserves it.

Sa dami ng ginagawa ko, nakakalimutan ko yun mga nakaplan na. hehe Pero ok lang, next week, it will be a different game. By the way, maybe I'll stick with the shop for a while. hehe

Nakalimutan ko nga iburn yun mga films na nakuha. Mahirap na, baka magcrash tong computer ko. hehe I was able to watch well More than a game, grabe si Lebron, kaya pala ayaw magpatalo, bata pa lang siya with childhood friends, competitive na sila. Except yun part na may hummer na siya ng HS. hehe Pero magaling si Lebron, but it's not all bout him, pati yun team mates niya, may story talaga. Very touching.

Scarface!!!! Well, kaya pala hip hop artist mantra film, genre film, because it's a gangsta life. Hehe I'll park my review for that. It's a great movie. Kaso nakakaasar lang na di siya nagiisip talaga, ayun todas siya. hehe

Well, sana pumasa kaming lahat sa batch namin. Especially these are the days na important to learn, good luck to us.

What I can say for the past month was... Tired. However, I can't believe I was able to do it. Gising ng maaga para sa shop then sa afternoon, ayun pasok na. Paguwi, tulog lang ang pahinga. Grabe, there were days na kala ko aabsent ako or magkakasakit, but looking forward, I am still here. Only came in late once.. I can say, may buenas at the same time, may dasal din. Thank Lord!

Thank Lord as well, I won't do this for a long time.

I think I should learn more of it sometime.. Learning deeper, further about so called life..

My fave line from the song, na kahit dalawa lang ang lines niya..

"I need your lovin', like a sunshine"

I really need some lovin I guess..

discovery of arts

At last, after those days that I'm hungry of watching movies, I finally watch not all of them, but there's progress. At least. hehe

Not only movies, but also getting the music I just thought of getting and I listened to it, it was great. Like David Bowie or the soundtrack of Eternal Sunshine perhaps.

Of course, not the art of painting or drawing, I am a poor artist of that. hehe Even my Dad or Brother are good draftsmen or Architect, I was not given of a gift of drawing. Oh how about Kuya Allan who can draw anime all day. They're lucky.. They have the talent in drawing.

Anyway, I just focus myself watching movies and listening to unknown good music.

For movies, I don't know how I become addicted watching it, maybe I should blame imdb.com and movie sites. Hehe What I get watching movies? First, being imaginative. I mean, I wish I could be a director doing movies and create movies that not only to inspire but to show ideas, whether it's light or dark. It gives you ideas or shows situations that you don't really experience. Whether it's a love story, action and even horror. Second, it's entertaining whether the film is critcially panned or crtically acclaimed. Box office hit or first day last day. hehe Watching it forgets problems, stress and a journey as well in the human emotion.

Movies is not only visual but also an experience of something I did not feel before. There are many examples of that experience I felt in watching them, it will be endless to list them here. hehe

Music? Do I need to explain that again? hehe Just a outlet as well. However, getting all the Smiths albums, Bowie and great soundtracks gave me added appreciation of music which is deep yet clever. I know most of them are rock music, but in a different form. Better listening even at times of lost or boredom. Listening at times of happiness and victory. Listening at times of travelling and tired working. Those music makes me going on and on....

Well, I'll just reserve the films or music that I loved these days. New or old.

Later, I'll just watch the best picture in the Oscars, Hurt Locker!!!!

"Oh boy" (After pulling up around 6 mortars around him)

Great movie.

Wasak 'to

Anak ng tokwa. hehe Masyado naman serious, kaya eto balik sa serious ulit. Ah light I mean. Siyempre, seryoso naman yun mga nangyayari sa buhay, lalo na pag marami ka ginagawa everyday. You tend to forget things, example? Posting here..

Marso na pala. Kabilis ng panahon. A year earlier, I thought well, searching mode. A year after, searching pa din. hehe Nah, I did search naman what I want to do, it just takes time na mangyari yun. Pumayat naman ako ng sobra. hehe Kasi sa work and the biz. Busy indeed.

Marso ay kahit gusto ko ilaktaw eh di naman magagawa. hehe Di naman dahil sa sobrang bad trip ang buwan na to, pero may mga dates kasi na unforgettable. Happy dates and sad days. It's not a bad month I guess, pero siguro special month for me. Yun na lang, neutral feeling. Pero ang intensyon ko eh laktawan noh? Labo ko. Sobrang kakaisip. hehe

Well, may isang linggo na lang before bumalik sa normal na buhay. Grabe, kapagod ang 3-12 sked. Parang HSBC nun sa Ortigas, pero at least sa Makati, medyo madali umuwi. Unlike sa Ortigas na pag gabi na, patay na, madaming lakad ang gagawin at mahirap umuwi galing dun. Tapos na yun, matagal na. hehe

Let's just enjoy the evening shifts. Pumasa lang ako training, ok na yun..

Still, di ko pa napapanood yun gusto ko panoorin sa Zune ko, pero dapat mapanood ko na. That film, damn lovely.

Oh not Alice in Wonderland, especially with the reviews, mukhang kamote. hehe

I can't jog pala this weekend, sorry mga brothers. I need some rest. hehe

I can't believe na approaching number 1 eh wala pa nagrereact sa kanila. Siguro di matiyaga magbasa. hehe Pero ok lang, important is, I wrote those persons na talagang special sa kin, I don't know how to describe it, but they just became special.

Lovely friends indeed. Ah siyempre, iba pa din yun ibang friends, lalo na yun mga brothers kuno. hehehe Pero iba yun brothers, mahal ko sila.

Siguro after this crap writing, ngayon ko na panoorin, kaso tinatamad pa ko, sobrang pagod. Great. Malakas na bata!!!

Ano pa ba.. Tama ang prediction ko, kung aayusin lang ni Coach Ryan ang rotation at line up, ayun, champion ang Purefoods, at sweep pa ha. Kinawawa naman masyado yun Alaska. hehe Pero ganun talaga, pag maganda rotation mo saka depensa, kahit anong triangle gawin ng Alaska, talo. May tatalo pa pala sa Alaska. hehe

Bakit pala wasak ang title? Eh eto, laging wasak pag uwi. Daig pa pag lasing. hehe Di naman, sobrang pagod at sobrang lost. Di naman halata kasi I just stare to a blank space... Very stationary.. Then ayun, ok na ko, tuloy ang buhay!

Ah damn, medyo nagloloko yun connection ko, nasira ata sa kakatorrent. hehe

Pero sana naman wag wasak...

Mukhang maayos naman ata ang DSL. Pambayad na lang. hehe

broken lines (collection 8)

Let's go back to the usual lines..

Like

I believe..

Bwisit. hehe

Becky ka bro! (Pag si Rheg ang kausap)

I apoligize, I'm sorry to hear that... (Even it's not my fault. Usual markdown, like kanina. hehe)

I know I'm unloveable..

Musta benta?

Hay buhay..

Here we go again..

(Pag may sumisigaw sa umaga) Tulog muna ko, peste. hehe

Wow, panalo!!!

Ayos!

Waaaah!!!

Well..

Kabad trip. hehe

Hot!!

Yun lang muna for today.. hehe Nawala na yun ibang sasabihin ko, peste kasing mga phones yan. Ang gaganda, parang kailangan na ata din magpalit na ako ng bagong phone..

What's next in line?

travelling through dark lights

As I rode jeep going home just minutes and hours ago, I can't imagine how I was able to these things.. At the same time.

6 hours later, I will wake up and do the usual store thing. After 2 hours, try to get some rest and go to the other side of me, as a hard working employee. I guess..

Around 9 hours later, I'll wait for a jeepney in Makati, then go down at LRT Buendia station, waiting for a jeep going to Quiapo then, the last ride, going to Quezon Ave. If my schedule ends early than 12:30am, better! I can go home easily...

Then the cycle repeats until Saturday morning..

As I travel along the way every night, which I can say it's very dark, well, I'm happy. Happy because the day finished good. Not great yet enough for me to feel, ah it's done, at last... Even I'm not lucky in my business or team Romy always losses, the fulfillment of finishing all the task for today relieves me.

Besides, I'm having fun returning to work and at the same time, doing business.

However, there will be a time, I need to focus to just one...

It's kinda scary travelling at night, I know anything can happen at night. Good thing, he's up there anytime.. Good Lord..

Those dim lights at some parts in Taft ave.

How about the dark streets of Quiapo, damn scary.

The checkpoints which I don't think important, but I forgot, yes, election time. We need those cops checking empty cars or jeeps that might relate to election violence... I guess...

Crap... They just earn big because it's nightshift and do nothing...

Every commuter going home looks tired. Well, who can't be tired going home at around 1am.. Even me..

All of us can be tired going home at that time..

After the last jeep, unfortunately there are fags waiting at the side of the damn street. Good thing, they don't call names now, unlike those days. They got bigger as well. That's scary..

When I looked back those days that I am in that situation, going home late or even going to work late, I feel lucky.. Lucky that in the passage of time, I don't need to be vampire just to work hard.

If I pass after these 2 weeks, I'll be working normal. At last.. That is what keeps me going.. I hope as well, we all pass!!! I'm talking about my batch as well.

Let me say, it's been fun going into training then working with new team mates, and the competition, well, I don't know why they give so much effort!!! It's just a game, but it's fun..

I just get into that fun ride. Besides, as the days go by, it helps knowing each other better. What if we may end up in the same team in operations? That will be easier..

As those dark lights passes by, I really never mind it..

At first, but as the days goes by, it kinda become a sense to me that these lights show me the past.

Those past events, involving happiness..

Sorrows..

Breakdowns..

Restlessness..

Peace..

I know it's a weird comparison, yet well that's how I feel..

That's one of the reasons I love black. The dark vibe around me. Not morbid, just plain curious thought. Some of us thought black is really bad. However, for me, black is a good symbol of me. Simple yet if you stare at it for a long time, it's sophisticated..

No bad feelings or mood..

Maybe I thought, instead of working so hard at night, it's time to switch into having some fun at night..

Or my favorite past time, rest..

At the end...

I am going to miss this and look to a brighter side..

I shall be travelling through bright lights..