8. The black rose

Ok, I saved the best for last again. hehe You may think or if you see my testimonies, that I know a lot of girls, even I'm shy. hehe Kinda shy. However, through my life, I fell in love to some of them but well di naging kami. As the girls, girls, girls song of Jay Z, medyo tama naman for me. Iba iba kasi nakilala ko and I'm lucky to know them, some of them, being close.

Of course, you may ask bakit girls muna? Well, kilala na yun mga best friends ko na guys. Kaya napagkakamalan na gummybear. hehe Pero these are the girls that not only I'm proud of knowing them, but taught of how to approach girls, take care of them and how to love as well. Thanks to them. Well, some of them kahit nakita ko lang o di naging close, at least dun ko nakuha, ang pinaka ayaw ni Rheg, na tinatawag na Standard. bwahahaha

You know already who is number 1.

The black rose? Actually, naisip ko lang itawag siya like that when I was walking to shop. Kasi naisip ko lang din magsulat about them, para naman maevolve ang blog. hehe If I already told some of my life, edi itodo. hehe

Well, Rheg knows why this is her nickname. About her naman, well, same month ang birthday namin so kaya medyo naging interesting siya for me. Gemini attitude. Better check as well the link, http://blackswordsmann2.blogspot.com/2009/01/blackswordsmann.html

However, what I can remember about her na talagang made me realize to court her was her attitude siguro. Matalino, tapos medyo aggressive. hehe Nice. Tapos nun nakita ko siya, sabi ko, sayang. Hehe Well, congrats to her na tapos na siya sa Med and I hope she will pass the Med exams.

Even we did not end up like very close friends, that's fine, at least, without her, no name under blackswordsmann will show up. Saka I learned on how to accept first hand, rejection. Hehe

That's why she is number 8, lucky number, but I was unlucky to her. Hehe

Hmmmm nice nick, Black Rose.

two weddings and a holiday

After 3 days, you thought I had a good relaxing time? It was not. I got tired. However, it was really really great. Ironic isn't it? hehe It was really a great 2 days of wedding. Kala nga nila di ako nagbibiro, pero well, nakalong sleeves ako eh. Lalo na the second wedding, I thought I am a CEO of a big company, of course with William and Atty. Leo. hehe

I don't want to tell the details of the wedding. Both of them, well simple yet elegant. I saw the faces of the couples and oh well, I simply became envious of them. God forgive me. hehe Both of them fun as well, seeing how happy they are and very close. No one is letting go, blessed by the one above, match made in heaven.

Kaya nga sabi ko dun sa isa na friend ko na ikinasal, for marriage to work, you should love each other, every moment of your lives. Pray as well, especially in hard times and I forgot yun iba nasabi ko. hahaha

Well, I feel lucky to know them. I never thought that I will be invited in those special weddings. Naisip ko lang, kung paano ako kaya kinasal? Siguro di ako makakatulog. Hehe Baka nga sa exchange of vows, iba masabi ko. Hahaha

Ano pa nga ba. Ayun, masaya lang na may ikinasal, and the trip as well sa clark. hehe May special mention pa kami ha. Thanks!!!!

Holiday came today, ayun. Wala naman pera. Hehehe I was not able to get some rest, pero eto blogging again to release some tensions away. I don't know if I will have my own wedding. Hehe Eto na naman, dragging myself to oblivion.

However, whatever you say about what I felt, tama ka. The what if's. Or pano kung natuloy or what, pero ano magagawa ko. Tapos na yun.

I just my two cents worth of thought. Ang sure naman eh sa LSQC ang simbahan. hehe

After I slept last night, marami ako nalaman!!! Bwahaha

Pero napaisip din ako. For the future.

Who will be the lady that I share with at the front of the Altar, on Wedding Day?

Let's wait... I'll wait for her.

emotional wound

nakapunta ko kay Dad after what, months later. hehe The reason? To borrow some coats for the weddings. Hehe While waiting for him, eto looking for some classified ads, some articles, and garbage. Hehe As you see, my Dad's house is not that in order but oh well, in times you need something, one place to visit. His house. hehe Anyhow, while waiting for him, I found some article in PDI, from a writer, talking about her experience from one convention. I mean she was assigned as a source person, to talk something about a product, in a different way. Kasi yun product is about healing some scars and wounds. So she discussed.

Emotional Wound. How to heal from it.

Actually, she pointed out six points, however, medyo nakalimutan ko yun iba. hehe I still remember yun important points.

One of them, is give time to heal. Siya nga nagsabi ata na don't set any time to make sure na ayos ka na. Kagaya ng ginawa ko, ayun di pala tama. hehe Pero tama siya, let time comes to me and heal by myself. I know, it will be a long way, but I still believe, all of these bad things will end.

Another one I remember eh have an artistic outlet, like writing, singing or drawing just to let out something from yourself. Mukhang nagagawa ko nga. Matagal na! You're looking to it. All the things or ideas coming from my head, the rants, points of view, are all here. So parang nasa path ako of healing. hehe

The last is support. Sorry di ko nakuha yung other 3. Hehe Sa family, to tell you the truth, kaunting support lang eh. Iba talaga pag medyo sira. hahahaha Pero I am still grateful that at some times, they are my last refuge.

From my friends, who keeps me at bay, keeps me happy even at these situation. I am very grateful as well.

Special/Best friends, who are still there and giving great help. Thanks talaga, kahit ilan beses ko magsulat about them, I won't stop. Hehe Thanks.

The memories. The fun, even the saddest parts, I think will help me to heal these wounds. It will take some time to recover but one day, I will be free. Walking with somebody full of happiness and freedom. Starting a different happy family, a close one.

Enough said. hehe I was carried I guess for eating too much tonight kasi sa birthday ni Kuya Allan. hehehe

Ah, one more thing.

The real title of the article is how to heal a emotional scar. Something like that.

I just changed it. hehe What happened to me is not only a scar, it is a deep wound. More painful, more time it needs to heal.

And it's now healing... slowly.

Gerard

As I prepare fo the back to back weddings, di ko pa sure kung ano isusuot ko. Hehe Sana makahiram ako kay Dad. Anyway, what happened to me these past days? Hmmmm, tuloy pa din ang pagdownload and convert.. Marami na din ako napanood na movies na trip ko. Hehe Sabi nga ni Kuya Alpro, baka daw masira yun computer, sabi ko naman eh kaya yun, lalo na maganda yun power supply. hahaha Well, about the weddings, ok na ko for the Saturday one, sa Sunday, almost done na din except how to get there and what to wear. Hehehe Medyo may problem sa transportation. Literally, it will be a bad trip. Hehe We have no choice but to go the long way..

Nothing else new, except well, I met someone interesting. (Read my new post at the raceto2012.blogspot.com) hehe I am also collecting my previous posts, putting it in a single bookbind. It's now 50 pages, for 2 months pa lang ha... Hehe Special request from someone. Thanks to multiply, I still have my very first posts. Hehe Di ko na isasama yun sa friendster blog, panget eh... Hehe Di naman, basta years ago pa yun. Ah, I was able to download some good ol' films like Leon, good documentary like IOUSA and controversial like Grotesque 2009 (hanggang ngayon di ko pa siya tapos sa sobrang gore kahit 71 minutes lang, unrated version pa?, eh ano ba yun edit version nun? Parang kung mayrun, wala na ipapalabas yun. ) Hehe Anyway, sarap manood, getting back old memories saka yun thrill watching movies. Naisip ko nga, kailangan ko ata ng dalawang computer. Hehe

What eles? Hay, naku, si Ron mukha nakadig ng spanish american, chikas mi amor. Congrats! hehe Ano pa ba? Ah while watching Ferris Bueller's Day off, talagang tuwang tuwa ako kasi makulit talaga saka one of the best buddy movies talaga. Naisip ko nga, bakit di ko ginawa nung HS yun. (Actually ginawa ko yun pag katams na at may quiz, para next time na lang. Ngayon ko lang naisip. Hehe Pero di yun sa point na naglakwatsa or nagdrive ng kotse patakas sa bahay. Good boy ako eh. Nasa bahay lang ako saka kaunting acting. Hehe)

Hmmm well malakas benta these 3 days, I'm not sure yesterday and today. Hehe Ah life is indeed fast. Damn fast..

Now, who's Gerard? Rheg, kala mo gummybear ako ha. Bwahahaha. That's the middle name of Kuya Allan. Allan Gerard F. Reyes. Age? Don't ask. Kung baga sa bingo yun age niya nasa letter N pa naman. Hehe Because of him, half of my pop culture fanatic came from him. Especially, japanese! hehe Thanks bro, I hope you'll have more birthdays to come and padrowing naman sa tshirt oh! hehe

I want to greet Katrin din, happy birthday in advance. Sa Saturday birthday niya, pero sabi ni Ate Aila, sa skul ang celebration. Mabuti naman kasi malabo pa pag sa Saturday din. Ayos, wasak! From south to north ito. Hehe

Next? Hmmmm let's witness the weddings. The ritual. The vows. The love.

Buti na lang yun palabas ni Anne Curtis na the wedding matatapos na. Kala ko 1 month lang eh. Kakaantok kasi. Sayang lang si Anne. hehe

Baptism of Fire

Yes, I woke up very early on Saturday. I have a baptism to attend and everything seems set, but the problem is, the rain. It poured hard last Friday pa. Actually, I woke up dahil sa lakas ng ulan. Well, nakatulog naman ako mabuti pero ang problema, ayun, pag punta ko sa Suki, sobrang baha, so malamang sa Espa�a, lubog sa baha. hehe

Pinapunta ko na ng maaga si Carla, my tindera. Advised everything she need to do and well, I went right away to the baptism. Nagtext na nga ko inadvance na malalate ako.

Since this freaking rain caused problem to me, I thought of plans getting in LP. Plan A, the fastest route, ride a jeep or fx going to Lawton then FX to SM southmall. However, lubog na ang Espa�a, kahit bus di makadaan, (see manila bulletin last Sunday. hehe) eh mukhang malabo na makarating sa Lawton. Cross out Plan A.

Plan B, ride a FX going to Ayala, Makati then ride a Jeep to buendia then Bus. The problem, well walang office ng Saturday and yun FX terminal sa Suki wala. So, malabo na. Cross out Plan B.

Plan C, the longest route, ride a FX going to MRT, then baba sa Buendia, ride a jeep tapos Bus going to Southmall. Well, you guess it right, that's the plan I took. hehe I have no choice eh. Peste talaga.

So from Welcome, sakay na ko ng FX. Nung nakita ko yun Espa�a, grabe talaga, malabo na dumaan. Nakababa ako ng MRT, medyo maraming tao pero normal lang sa MRT. Baba ako Buendia, then first nakasakay na ko ng Taxi, kaso baha daw sa Washington, so di daw kakayanin yun taxi. Anak ng tokwa, edi sa Jeep na ko sumakay, like ePLDT days. hehe Baba taft ave, then got a bus going to SM Southmall. By the way, di na baha sa Makati, matirik nga yun araw. Bad trip talaga, hehe Kahit sa Washington, di na baha. Matraffic lang.

Ayun, sakay ng Bus papuntang SM Southmall. hehe Well going to taft ave took me 1 hour, so late na ko sa binyag. hehe Sa Bus, mabilis naman except sa coastal mall tapos sa bandang times street. Buti nga, di traffic yun papuntang Cavite. Pag Saturday kasi, laging traffic yun road na yun, oh yes, kahit madaling araw, walang pinipiling oras. hehehe

I arrived at SM Southmall around 11am na, but my friend texted me sa reception na daw ako sumunod. Good job talaga. Buti na lang di ako Ninong. hehe What a trip. Tapos siyempre, sa clubhouse yun so kala ko malapit. I did not expect that place is kinda far. hehe I rode a trike then ayun, kainan na nga. hehe Well, I just realized, no other batchmates or even our classmates were there. I'm out of place. It's like I am a sheep sent out to the pack of wolves. hehe

Anyway, after I ate a very good meal, we talked na. Almost sa dulo na din kasi maraming guest na umalis na. hehe We talked about life, after the college years, and well our lives. hehe Pero I'm grateful na tinanggap ako even I am late for almost 2 hours. I just hope for the best of her life, lalo na sa family niya with their baby.

I knew that baptism will run short, para nga mas mahaba ata sa kanila, around 1 hour. hehe The baby is healthy, malusog. Sabagay lalaki naman kasi yun baby.

So, that's it. After that, oh I went to Ate's place, marami nagbago ha. Pero same ambiance. hehe Tapos I watched UAAP, I don't want to give a rundown kasi alam niyo naman nangyari. May magtanim ng kamote. Bwahahaha Peace Rheg. hehe Then that's it.

Oh, sales was good at that day. Thanks to Carla.

And me? Very tired because after that, it's tita's birthday, mom ni Rheg. Nandoon pa yun The Bar, pero happy birthday kay Doc!!! hehe Best wishes saka sana pumasa ka din!!! Go Doc Ian!!!

I went home drained, and I don't know what will I be on this Saturday and Sunday.

Weddings...

Singko

Hay, habang yun tindera ko nasa shop ngayon at ako eto, nagpapahinga at gumagawa na lintik na post. Kaadik. hehehe Tinignan ko yun iprint ko na part 1 ng blog ko para sa friend ko, anak ng tinapa, ang dami na!!!! hehe Bakit nga ba ko napunta dun. Ah, this is about my fifth month dito sa shop or my partnership with Kuya Alpro. Marami na ko natutunan, kahit papano about running a business and most especially, kung ano business ko, like eto, cellphone and eload. Kaya sa mga kailangan ng brand new cellphone, PM ako para for quotes!!! hehe Wag lang load.

Sa limang buwan ko dito sa shop, ang iniisip ko lagi eh makabenta ng marami araw araw, kasi siyempre di lang pangbayad pwesto at tao kundi sa kinikita ko. Ang totoo nga, gusto ko akin na yun pwesto, kaso medyo malayo pa ata yun iipon ko sa pwesto na yan. Hehe Ang goal ko naman eh makuha ko muna yun pwesto na yun tapos doon na siguro masisimula yun mga plano ko. May mabilis naman ako paraan para makuha ko yun pwesto, kaso medyo tiis muna, mayroon ako nakatagong alas. hehehe

May mga araw talaga na mahina, kagaya ng linggo, siyempre, walang pasok yun SACI saka walang tao sa supermart. Walang taong dumadaan, edi ibig sabihin, walang bumibili. Mahirap, ang goal ko na lang eh kahit papano pambayad pwesto. hehe Pero maraming araw naman na malakas, sobrang lakas, kagaya kahapon na kahit baha nung umaga, umariba pa din sa hapon. hehe Ayos, ang ganda ng simula ng linggo ko. Ang cut off kasi sa kitaan eh biyernes. hehe

Ibig sabihin, sa susunod na buwan na ko anim na buwan na. Ang bilis talaga ng panahon. Ang akala ko nung una talaga, di ako tatagal, pero eto ngayon, mukhang may pupuntahan na ko, in the money side of things. Napakahirap ng dinaanan ko, kahit ngayon, pero di ko pinagsisihan na magtagal sa Dell. Eh kumikita ako maliit pero di sa lahat ng oras may cases kang gagawin. hehe Masaya talaga at sana makuha ko na yun pwesto na yun, kasi isa yun sa mga pinakamagandang regalo o bagay nakuha ko sa buhay ko. Alam ko marami pa ko pagdadaanan pero sa tingin ko kayang lampasan yun kasi nandiyan naman si Bro at si Kuya and her family din. hehe At ang magaling kong tindera.

Di ko nga alam kung ano magiging reaksyon ko pag nakuha ko na to. Pero alam ko, di dapat pumetiks ng todo, simula pa lang yan kung paano ko palalakasin yun pwesto. Eto na yun mga panahon, kailangan magamit na yun pinagaralan ko sa BA. hehehe

Hay, kaunting tiis pa Alfred. Malapit na. Sana, may araw na kahit wala masyadong gawin, kumikita pa din. hehe Siguro plano plano na lang kung paano maging malakas ang pwesto.

Kaunting tiis pa, Alfred.

Ilan buwan na lang.....

Religulous

You are not wrong. You are reading it right. Yes. hehe Ika nga ni Nick, baka religious daw. Edi sabi ko, mag google ka tsong. hehe The title of the blog is well taken from a documentary of the same title. I watched the trailer before, well last year and I was very curious. As you see, sa lahat ng documentary napanood ko, from my fave Super Size me, to Michael Moore's Fahrenheit, and other's, or how about Borat? hehe Wala ni isa sa kanila tackled about, Religion. Until this documentary came in. As what Bill Maher said (I just realized he's a damn smart comedian), it's ridiculous. Religion is ridiculous. Bill Maher said that, not me. hehe

Siyempre, noong napanood ko yun trailer, natawa talaga ako, and realize, mukhang may point siya. So, I downloaded this film, thanks to DSL and here it is, I watched it. I myself is a catholic, a normal catholic person who goes to church every sunday. Reads the bible everyday, no joke. Doing good things hanggang kaya ko, going to confession, yes. Lastly, praying everyday to God. I can say, I have a strong faith, which is the reason why I am still here. hehehe

Then, the film starts, at first, medyo ilang pa ko kasi mga banat ni Bill Maher, which is kind of offensive, but that's his view. Pero nakakatawa. Like for instance, when he shows his old pictures, from baby, Sunday mass, and while doing that, siyempre nagnanarrate siya on what his view about being a catholic. Kagaya ng, he was very bored when going to mass, why nothing happening to him even he prays, and even his Mom, stopped going to church because of ehem, birth control things like that. Pero, tinuloy ko pa rin panoorin yun, kasi Bill looks like, confused, on why people need religion. Inamin naman niya na he used religion as a topic for his stand up comedy, pero not that deep or tinira niya ng matindi. He is right as the film progress.

Ok, medyo mahaba kung isa isahin ko pa yun mga pinuntahan niya. hehe I will cut it short. Siyempre, inuna niya yun catholic, Roman catholic. From US, to vatican, and some preachers, he is searching for some answers. Like in one interview, with a senator in US, medyo lamang siya nun una, pero nung nagtanong na si Bill about specific ones, ayun tameme. Parang mas nagaral pa si Bill kaysa dun sa Senador with a famous quote of his "You don't need to pass an IQ test to become a Senator". He answered that in response to Bill's question about people following the senator as a known religious person. Good grief. I shouldn't vote for him. hehe

Then, another interview with a preacher na talagang mapapaisip ka. Bill said, which is correct na dapat simple manamit ang isang sugo ng Diyos. Ang problem, the minister wears good suit, with, lizard shoes, I mean shoes made from lizard's skin. Ayos. Well, sa atin, sa pari simple lang, pero yun ibang religious leaders, kala mo may concert. I mean, tama naman we should wear proper and decent clothes in a mass or celebration but not extravagant. Like that preacher na may DVD pa, as he promotes it tapos sabi niya he doesn't have a salary? Come on. Oh well. hehe

Then, marami pa siya kinuha points from scientist, priests, hmmmm people as well, oh, how I will forget the holy land park scene, which may sense naman, actually sila lang talaga yun kahit papano na enlighten si Bill about being a Catholic. However, may isang question dun na may point siya. He is interviewing a person who potrays Jesus, Bill asked, na bakit ang Diyos di pa niya tapusin tayong lahat since we are destroying ourselves, ang sagot nun actor, it's not yet time and parang God giving us a chance to renew. Bill became silent. hehe

After Roman Catholic, which he also went to Vatican na sinipa naman siya, hehe he discussed also some Religions na talagang napaisip ko. Like Jesus in Egypt has also the same story and events, even in Hinduism ata, may parang Jesus din na story basta ang galing, very informative. Tapos, the Mormons, which I can say, buti na lang di ako Mormon. Opps. hehe Grabe, their doctrines are very weird. Anyway, kaunti lang eh yun sa ibang Religions na niresearch niya, sabagay, sa dami ng Religions sa mundo, kulang yun dalawang oras. hehe

Islam or Muslim was his next topic. Ah, yes, that part really struck me, because on how they fight for their faith. Lalo na yun director na pinatay in broad daylight, at the streets because gumawa siya na film which is very offensive to our Muslim brothers. Di ata siya nagisip. hehe The cartoons, the wars, so forth, their mosque, doctrines as well, which is not for general discussions. Very sensitive. hehe Basta, I understand them better, ganun lang talaga sila and we should accept them. Accept their faith so we can have peace. Nuff said.

Oh, marami pang info na interesting like there is a ministry for smoking weed. That's damn. And about the holy land in Israel, now I know kaya pala sila nagpapatayan. In the holy ground as stated in bible, now stands a Mosque, tapos, near there is a Jewish place then sama mo pa yun sa tin, ang gulo. That's why the fights, wars, bombings won't end there. I just pray na sana we can just have peace for all of us.

May mga interviews pa na interesting, basta, I definitely recommend it, and it's funny and informative and well, I am still a catholic after watching the documentary. It's just Bill's view.

It ended in Bill's strong view that Religion won't really help you all the time, and won't answer all your questions as others say. If it's the end of time, then so be it as he says, while standing at Megiddo, the place where the armageddon will happen as the bible says.

The film itself, kung may time talaga sana nadiscuss lahat and sana yun mga ininterview niya medyo matino naman. Di naman sa pagmamayabang, I can answer some of his questions straight. Di kagaya yun iba, umiikot pa tapos sa huli, mali din ang sagot. hehe

By the way, I still believe Bill prayed before. I mean bago siya umalis sa church kasi one part, sinabi niya na di na siya magyoyosi if one hard problem of his is solved. Eh nasolve yun, wala nang yosi. Hehe It means, kulang lang siguro to sa dasal. Some things, you cannot explain, just happen. Do you think that's science? Sometimes no. It only means, whoever your God is, he has a plan for you why such thing happen whether it's good or bad.

I think Bill cannot accept that. hehe

In God we trust.

Wedding year

Have I thought of getting married? Of course. Before. hehe I want to have a simple and secured family. A loving wife, and sweet children. Like a normal family. I thought of this because I was invited by my 2 friends, in their wedding. Hehehe Both of them are girls and it seems they are happy. First, well my close friend for years. Almost 9 long years. I first met her when we were fresh grads from HS, we met actually in MIRC, then many things happened, became close and now, she is getting married. Congrats to Tin. hehe What can I say to her? After everything happened to you, I hope this is the time you can settle down, live lovely with Dexter forever. I am very happy that you met the person you can be with, and I hope that he won't make you cry.

The another person I know, who will be getting married, well my classmate from college, Kriska. I think she found the one as well, besides, I can see her as a typical housewife, except for being strict at budget. Hehehe I mean, not in the wedding but expenses in life, as she talked about it once before. Anyway, I wish her for the best, and they really look good, a good couple. Like Kriska said, Francis is the guy and together forever. Naks. Hehe

Forever is their common word. It's not only a word, but a feeling that keeps you going, when you're married. Wedding is a first step to that. I'm not a fond of what should I like in my wedding, not because it's a guy thing, but I just want a simple one. Me and my soon to be wife, in front of God. Making romantic vows in front of all the people, then that's it. I believe the wife can make the setting. hehe Or what motif, whatever. Since, you can be only married once and have a wedding once. Others, well, I don't know how they can be in a wedding more than once. hehe

Another thing they are kinda similar is they will be married, one day apart. Yes, at August 29, I will be at Tin's wedding, good grief that it's only at QC. hehe On August 30, I will be at Kriska's wedding and kinda lucky, I shall ride with Leo going to the home turf of Kriska, Clark. Kinda near eh? hehe

Right now, I am planning what to wear, and there is a slight problem, I don't know what gift I can give to them. Well, I know what to give to girls, on a date, or ehem to add advantage. hehe But I don't know in weddings. Seriously. Birthdays will be easy but no clue at weddings. Come on, should I give them a set of plates? Utensils? Or how about mugs? hehe I just don't know. Or just crash. hehe

Even without the gifts, the most important part is I will be a part of one of the most solemn, happiest part of their lives, well, our lives. Getting married and be with the person you can sleep, eat, drink, kiss, hold.. Together and nothing will stand in your way, except like in the movies, there's some objection. hehe I don't think that will happen in both weddings.

I know, definitely, damn tired after those weddings, of course, the party and celebration, but at least, I can think what should be my wedding.

Garden, Church, hmmmm Chapel, or in a Beach. That's it, it's endless, but I shouldn't be thinking of that now. Besides, I don't have anyone in my mind and heart who to be with. Before, yes, but oh well, past is past. Hehe Actually, we did plan that, but nah, it's going to be a shot in the heaven to pursue on that.

Nevertheless... Some people says, you need to get married early, other says, get married when you're secured and stable..

My take? Hmmmm I already said that before in my previous posts. The girl I love and we make each day a lovely one no matter what happens. A girl worth waking up and put a smile in your faces. That's the time, I will get married. hehe

Wedding is just a start, marriage, is a different thing. I don't want to discuss that. hehe

It will be a long night.

I am busy these past hours, watching movies of sorts. I should find somewhere in time, I know it's kinda old, but the story and the couple, I know it's sad, but for me...

That's love. Eternal love.

Oh, no year yet when will be my wedding. hehe

Regret

Of course, this is not about the song of New Order. Hehe However, it is still indeed a great song.. Anyway, we do have decisions that we thought of regretting in some way. I looked back on the things I did, yet some of them even it went wrong, I didn't regret.

Of course, mayrron din na masasabi kong sayang, sana nagpursue ako or di ko na lang ginawa. Hehe Example? hmmmmm ah, kung nagipon lang ako mabuti, di ako malulubog ngayon. Hehe or mga bagay na dapat tinapos o solution ko na dati pa, kaso hanggang ngayon, wala nangyari. Hehe

Ah, eto pa, minsan yun sobrang bait ko nakakapahamak pala. Kailangan magingat naman. Hehe Marami pang bagay na sana iba nangyari, pero di ko na mababalik yun. Well, maraming factors kasi eh, di lang ako, kundi sa paligid ko na din. Siyempre, never mawawala ang family factor. hehe

Ang dapat ko na lang gawin eh makapagbago, bumangon at magsimula ulit..

Magdasal na din na sana, lahat ay maging maayos.

I just hope, that I won't get old because of these failures and difficulties. Hehe One night, I was thinking of these things. Staring from our stairs, dark yet dim lighted. Thinking deep, depressed, unsure. As I go down, I saw my bro looking at some photo album. Maybe reminiscing. Me too.

As I pour downsome cold water in my head, taking a freezing bath, that didn't bother me. What bothers me, as always, is my future. Sa mga nasulat ko dito, at alam mo naman kung gaano kalungkot ng buhay ko.. Di ko alam kung kailan matatapos or makakabawi. Kailan ako mamumuhay ng tahimik. At higit sa lahat, damn happy.

I know you may think I'm selfish, but if you can see or feel what happened to me these past years, what I sacrificed for.. What mistakes I made.. I just want to make my life straight and be free.. Free from wars. hehe

It will be a long way, yet I don't intend just throw this opportunity, the opportunity of second chance. Hehe My hope, is still within my tired hands.

Sobrang emo ko ata. Wala lang, letting out, as this blog does for me..

Ah, dapat magexcercise nga ko para iwas sakit. Hehe Another example of...

Regret

NCAA

UAAP's competitor when it comes to college basketball. hehe Now, with PCU backing out and invited 3 colleges to try this league since they are kinda champions in their respective leagues, let me share kung sa kangkungan sila pupulitin o malamang final four. hehe

Well, alam natin, tapos na ang first round, tignan natin kung sino sino ang magsembreak ng maaga or tuloy sa final four and who will be the champions....

Hay, baka may copy paste sa ibang teams ha. hehehe Play ball.

1. Angeles University Foundation - Ok, First team in alphabetical order and the first team I think, will have their great early sembreak. hehe They don't defend, at kung nag run and gun sila, ayun, TO naman sila matakaw. Good job. Like what the commentators said, it will be a good learning experience. hehehe Well, pagnanood ako ng game nila (thanks to the TV phone and spare time) I don't know, mas lost sila kaysa sa NU and UP. hehe Siguro nga, ibang league na kasi ito. Kala nila madali. Ayun, isang panalo lang first round. hehe Well marami silang kailangan improve from offense to defense, kaso ayoko isa isahan dito. hehe Umayos na lang sila ha, sayang yun time and pera na pagsali dito. Number 10, period.

2. Arellano University - On the 3 new teams joined in this league, well, this is the only team came prepared. Kasi naman nagchampion sila sa NCRAA ata, I'm not sure, pero under sila ni Leo Isaac, so malamang maganda yun chemistry nila under him. Malakas sila offensively, no doubt about that. Lalo na nung napanood ko yun 3OT against Benilde, kaso talo sila. hehe Ang problem kasi nila sa depensa, di sila gumagalaw eh. Yun ang problema, tapos medyo maliit sila, lalo na yun may 5"2' silang gwardiya. hehe Kaya bagay lang sila sa run and gun. Well, sa tingin ko may chance sila mag final four, not only because of their record but on their offense. If the opposing team can't stop their offense, they win. If they were stopped, sorry they lose. Mga number four sila. If not, five because of Letran. Check it below why.

3. College of St. Benilde - Speaking of the rarely, epic 3 OT game, well what can you say about this team? It was a crazy game. Pero buti may Morial sila, kundi, naku hindi 4-5 ang record nito. hehe Ok naman ang line up nila, kaso ang problema, well is their offense. Medyo magulo offense nila, parang DLSU na may go to guy pero di nabibigyan ng bola. hehe Ang labo no. Sa defense pwede na sila kasi ayos naman yun coach nila, si Richard Del Rosario na nag host ng Baikingu sa TV5. hehe Seriously, all they need to do is what they do best, attack the basket. That's why, mas ok pa sila sa DLSU eh, walang takot na saksak tapos tira. Ang problema lang, wala silang shooter. hehe Kaya ganun ang offense nila. Well, the problem eh mukhang mahihirapan sila mag final four, lalo na Letran pa at Arellano pa yun maglalaban for the last spot. They have a chance, but slim, kung ang AU is 4 or 5, or even Letran, but sila, around mga 6th. Pero may chance kaso mas malakas pa din ang Letran kaysa sa kanila. hehe

4. Collegio San Juan de Letran Correct me if I'm wrong. hehe Anyway, they are the 4th place in this tournament, it depends kung magkakalat sila. hehe Well, marami nawala sa team nila, pero ang natira naman, dalawang player na under Smart Gilas RP program. Naman, 2 unguardable players. hehe Natatalo sila kasi wala silang malaki na malakas or kahit effective. Kaso, wala eh, mahina yun sentro nila. Tapos isama mo pa ang dalawang anak ni coach. Ayos. hehehe However, Jazul and Guevarra are really their main gunners. Without them, sumama na sila sa AUF, early sembreak. hehe Malakas ang defense nila, kasi trap, full court trap for the whole game, parang DLSU, kaso yun nga, pag setup na yun kalaban, mahina na sila sa defense half court set. Sa offense naman, walang problema, kasi yun dalawang player naman, magaling eh. Tapos yun mga anak ni coach, may laro pala. Sakto, yun maliit sa labas ang laro tapos yun malaki, develop sa loob. One big happy family. Di kaya nakakasawa yun? hehe Pagpasok mo, tapos practice tapos sa laro, tatay mo nandun. Nice college life. hehe Kahit wala silang point guard, power forward tapos center, eh effective silang team, yun nga lang, sa top 3, wala silang panapat. At least, nagtagal sila. hehe A sure number 4 team, but kung maginit yun AU and CSB, magandang labanan yun for just one unlucky final four spot. hehe

5. Emilio Aguinaldo College - Eto na ang copy paste. hehe Ok, they will have their great early sembreak. hehe They don't defend, yet they have complete line up pero they are lost din. Good job. Like what the commentators said, it will be a good learning experience. hehehe Well, pagnanood ako ng game nila (thanks to the TV phone and spare time) hehe Siguro nga, ibang league na kasi ito. Kala nila madali. Ayun, dalawang panalo naman sa first round. hehe Well marami silang kailangan improve from offense to defense, kaso ayoko isa isahan dito. hehe Umayos na lang sila ha, sayang yun time and pera na pagsali dito. Hmmmm. Mga number 8 naman sila. hehe

6. Jose Rizal University - Before the tourney started, sila ang pambato ko para magchampion. hehe Kaso after first round, well, that was changed. They are strong almost in all areas. Defense, experience, depth, and skills. However, they have a big problem. When they fought against Baste, the reason they lost? They don't have the size to match Baste's big men, I mean 4 of them. hehehe How about San Beda, well without Sudan Daniel, kayang kaya nila. Pero pagbalik niya, ayun, sina James Sena, even the african Njei, finish. hehehe Tambak ang JRU. Well, malaki ang guards nila, malakas din kaso masyado maliit ang 4 and 5. Tapos si Sena nagpadraft pa. hehe Si Wilson sayang, lalo na this year yun pinakamalakas siya. Kaso wala eh, maliit lang talaga sila, compare them to the athletic and long Baste and Daniel with Beda. They still have a slim chance, kasi kailangan ibang defense ilagay nila since ang liit nila, but for my bet, di sila magchampion. Pero sure naman na final four. Number 3. A lock or a chance for the top 2 slot. hehe

7. Mapua Institute of Technology - Well, kala ko copy paste, pero hindi, pero parang na din. hehe Siyempre di sila new team but when Dela Pe�a left and Pascual, they are like a new team. Kapatid ni Mangahas ng DLSU ang leader nila kaso, the problem? Many. Kahit si Victolero ang coach nila, they just don't work. It will work but some time pa. Run and gun won't work with them, half court set, doesn't fit. So for short, a learning experience. hehe Advantage, maraming shooters. Disadvantage, defensive wise, mabagal sila saka maliit sila, mas malaki pa ata yun EAC sa kanila. hehe Kaya ayun, talo sila sa EAC. Good job. hehe So sasama sila sa AUF, and they will be hmmmm 9th or 7th place, kasi may kaagaw sila. Look below. hehe

8. San Beda College - We did put up a stall once, in their school, way back College days. Samba days. hehe Yet, kahit maliit ang benta, ok naman, pambayad fee. hehe Bakit naman napunta tayo sa class corpo ko dati. Anyway, with the departure of Sam Ekwe, many asked, who will be their main man now? The answer? With the MVP's backing, they got an american dude, under Sudan Daniel. Same height, 6"8', payat kaysa kay Sam pero anak ng tokwa, ang haba naman saka maliksi. Sinong team ang tatapat sa kanya? Sagot? Baste. hehe Simple, because that team has men to put up against him tapos ang haba and malaki. Kahit 6"8' ka tapos dalawa naman 6"6' na maliksi tapos mahaba galamay, di ka ba matatakot nun? hehe Ganun ginawa ng baste, kaya ayun talo Beda sa kanila. Other teams tried to remove Daniel in the regular game, since from the bench siya kaso ayun, malakas naman yun mga guards like Lanete. If you can defend them, why not, pero wala eh. Letran tried that, almost but not close. JRU tried that but Daniel has less fouls, so ayun tambak JRU. hehe Daniel or Sam? I will go to Sam. For now. Kasi kahit walang post up si Sam, eh malaki naman siya saka wala naman katapat unless you have a perfect defensive plan for him. Kaso dominating talaga siya. Si Daniel, in the future, lalakas siya and better than Sam, kasi he wants to be near the basket, all the time, so may post up moves tapos may tira pa sa labas, panalo. Yun nga lang, the team is not good without him, so they just need to have a good plan to work as a great team without him. If not, they will be just number 2. Yes, runners up sila for me. But they have a big chance naman eh, basta they just need to have a good system with or without Daniel.

9. San Sebastian College - I was surprised when they are going 6-0, tapos naisip ko na panoorin ko nga, baka tsamba naman. Nung nakita ko sila, kaya pala unbeaten. Technically, they have a complete line up. Maganda yun bench, tapos may isang player sila na medyo di na kailangan gwardiyahan kasi ang lakas sa offense. Aquino of course. Sa low post, 4 to 5 guys who are tall and athletic, kaya si Daniel, di makadunk. hehe Ang problema pa, bata pa. Diyos ko, pano to next year? hehe Sila na naman ba? Yes, they are a young team, but a young team doesn't play like that. Maybe because of their new coach, Atom bomb Ato Agustin, looks deceiving, pwede pa ata maglaro. hehe Seryoso, mukhang magaling siya magcoach. Yun laro nga sa Letran, malapit na sila matalo kaso mukhang sinabon ng husto ni Ato, ayun panalo, sweep ang first round. hehe It doesn't mean, they can sweep the elims which a historic feat, but they are already dominating, lalo na yun isa, kala ko si Espinas, pero hindi pala. hehe Grabe, lalakas pa to in the future. And they are my bets. Bakit? Una, maganda yun line up and rotation, parang laging nakakapahinga ang players. Pangalawa, mukhang magaling na coach si Ato, natuto agad yun mga players niya. Lastly, their offense is efficient and defense is effective. Kala mo lamang ka na pero pagdating ng second half, talo ka pa rin. Magaling magadjust. hehe Baka magtaka ka, baka sa final four masilat sila, sa tingin ko hindi. Kahit sa finals siguro, basta nakikinig sila sa coach, they play like a veteran team. hehe Pag nauna yun kaba nila, malamang, yun ang weakness nila. Kaya for me, sila ang champion. From a hurting kickout last year (kasi naman 4 na team 9-5 ang standing) hehe now a contender, that's a scary team.

10. Hay, ang haba, UPHSD na lang ha. - Ok, eto ang kalaban ng EAC for 7th or 9th position. hehe Di ko alam kung lalakas sila in the future kasi mahina sila this year, no star player yet mayroon naman kaso mga senior na eh. Malamang next year, ganito pa rin sila. hehe Well, ang wish ko sa kanila, umayos sila under Coach Boris and in the future, back to the final four. Run and gun sila kasi well, undersized. And they have no choice as well. hehe Besides, for this season, like what the commentators said, it will be a good learning experience. 7th or 9th tapos ayun mag sembreak sila sa Times st. in LP. bwahahahaha

That's all for this. Actually, they are worth watching ha, 10 teams eh. Unlike sa UAAP, kaso UAAP pa rin, nandun UST. Pero with NCAA, maraming talents talaga, isipin mo, di sila napunta ng UAAP.

I just wish, one day, UAAP and NCAA will be under just one big freaking college league.

I hope that happens while I'm still alive. Bwahahahahahaha

laging sa gitna.

Hay, namiss ko ang pablog na may title na tagalog. hehe Talagang tagalog. Oo nga eh. Sa buhay ko, masasabi ko, kung di ko napupunta sa gulo dahil sa katangahan ko minsan, hehe Eh minsan, kahit wala naman ako ginagawa, nasasangkot sa gulo at lalo na sa problema. Hay buhay, napakasaya. Napakalungkot, at higit sa lahat, napakagulo!

Ayoko ko na masyado isipin ang mga problema na yan, iba na lang pagusapan natin. hehe Ah yun, ma mga barkada ako na kundi naman binyag eh may magpapakasal pa! At matindi, magkasunod na araw pa. Nagsabwatan ata sila. hehe Bad trip, magastos yun dalawang araw na yun. hehe

Sa bahay naman, walang pagbabago. Ni di nga ko makapahinga ng maayos, kaso ayun, magulo. Naku naman. Kailan ba tatahimik ang buhay ko. hehe

Sa gitna ng lahat na ito, ano pa ba magagawa ko? Kundi tuloy pa rin, kahit may naisip akong paraan, salamat kay Arman. Hehe Pero gagawin ko na lang huling alas ko yun. Para naman makalayo ako, at kahit papano, tahimik ang buhay. Di yun nasasama, ah, lagi ako kasama dito...

Sa gulo...

Mabuti na dito na lang sa pamilya ko, sabagay, di naman ako palaaway, kaya masaya ako at marami akong kaibigan. hehe

Maraming salamat sa mga kaibigan ko. Kung wala kayo, malamang, di ako nagsusulat ngayon. hehe

Ah, may paglilibangan pala ako. Salamat kay Nick, at may zune na ko. Unting unti bumabalik ang mga gamit ko. hehe Pero siyempre, kahit pakaunti eh bumabalik ang gusto kong gamit. Alam niyo naman, medyo nawala halos lahat. Di ko naman pinagsisihan yun. hehe

Kaya kailangan kumayod ng mabuti ngayon para makabawi. Lalo na sa kanya.

Alam ko na yun mga dapat makuha ko sa taon na to, kahit sobrang hirap, di pa rin ako nawawalan ng pagasa.

Kahit walang gimik. Walang minamahal, o walang nagmamahal, tuloy ang buhay. Patuloy ang pagdasal at wag mawalan ng pagasa.

Sana sa huli, yun pa din ang sasabihin ko. hehehe

Bad trip, hay buti na lang pala, di ako pala inom noh. Naku, sa susunod na linggo, wasakan to. Sabado, ewan ko kung pupunta ako sa binyag ng barkada ko, sa LP lang naman. hehe Tapos sa gabi, birthday ni Tita, nanay ni Rheg. hehe Tapos sa Linggo, Diyos ko patawarin niyo kami. Birthday ni Doc Ian. hehehehe Ayos!!!!

Wasak...

na Wasak.

Sa gitna ng lahat na ito.

Sana may katapusan, hindi ngayon, basta matapos lang at di na ko magsusulat na may halong kalungkutan.

Kundi puro kasiyahan at may pagkalokohan. hehe

At inspirasyon.

Yun lang, naku sa susunod na kabanata, abangan ang 10 team ng kabilang liga.

Hay, buti na lang, nakita ko na yun isang track na matagal ko na hinahanap, aksidente pa. Ayos, let's dance. hehe

broken lines (collection 1)

of course, I have another part of my blog which is some lines or whatever.. Since I am a reader of sort of.. I got this poem, somewhere, just want to post it here. hehehe

Forever Gone

At the moment you told me, it’s over

Everything falls apart, life is over

Because love gave us life, hope, energy.

But fate came in, destroyed our path

I tried to reach you one last time

But it seems you chose fate over reason

I don’t want to blame for this sublime

I want to know if that was the right thing

As time goes by, every moment was hard

Always alone, thinking like a retard

Staring at a blank state thinking you’re here

Images of you lingering my mind

Many events that made us together

Through up’s and down’s through life and death,

It kept me going for a little while,

But at some point, I need to let go

The feeling of your caress and sweetness.

The moments of your strong love and faith.

Daily routines we do like cook and clean,

Everything about you when you were here.

I won’t let go some things you left in me

Not the shoe boxes or pictures of you,

Not the white bear toy or letters from you

But the everlasting love you have shown

Love that stretches the boundaries of fate,

Love that connects the widest distance,

Love that is unconditionally pure,

Love that is worth getting up each morning.

Wherever you are, I know you are happy,

Whenever you are, I hope you’ll be fine.

Whatever you are, I see success in you,

What will I be? I don’t know the answer.

But do not worry, I will be just fine.

Ready to face anything on my way,

Way to discover new things, new fun life

Maybe new goals or even a new love.

Let’s keep moving on to different ways,

As you told me before, forever stay.

Now, I will tell you, you’re not forever gone…

The blackswordsman

My favorite anime, and my favorite anime character. Here is his intro. hehe Thanks to you tube.

The return of easyrock

I almost forgot, for the past weeks, welcome supermart having problems of getting their fave station, 96.3 easyrock. hehe Actually, Wrock sila then naging easyrock when MBC bought them out. Nagulat na lang ako kasi way back parlance days, I'm a wrock listener. Especially there is a show at Saturdays na about love, life or problems. Parang love notes. Hehe Fave ko nga si Cherry, un DJ dun kaso nung nag easy rock, wala na siya. Hehe I forgot the name of the other one, yun katandem niya, Paul ata whatever. Ok kasi yun show na yun. Sayang wala na. Well, it started na isang araw, biglang nagloloko yun speaker ng supermart, eh they tried to change channels but it didn't work. After that day, ayun, they changed channels. Hehe They tried crappy stations, like love or WRR, or yes! Haha After one week, they went to magic, nung una, ayos naman. Kaso may mga shows sila boring tapos yun ibang DJ, may pagkaarte. Heller..

Mabuti pa yun show nila pag 10 pm. Hehe Well, gusto ko sana RT kaso alam niyo naman, mahina sila sa audience. Hehe NU rock gone nowhere na. I am not sure where they are heading to. Hehe

At the time easy rock is missing, medyo namiss namin, of course, their jingle. Hehe Tapos they are playing the single ladies acoustic version always. At first, binabara ko yun kasi wala na siya makanta, bakit naman yun pa? What a way to become famous. hehe Pero nun nakita ko siya sa TV, ayos pala. Haha Gusto ko nga yun version niya ng right now ni Akon.

Di lang naman yun namiss namin, siyempre yun mga 80's and 90's ballad, love songs they play. Ah eto pa, recently lang, radio edit ng nobody. haha

This last Monday, when I heard their jingle sa labas ng supermart, mukhang bumalik na. Ayos! Hehe Soothing sounds are back..

Am I saying this because, it maybe, this is my fave station?

Hmm I can say that, because of the songs they play. Like they always say, less talk, more light rock. That says a lot to me. Besides, pag may hinahanap ako kanta, sa kanila ko nakukuha yun title. Hehe Thanks 96.3..

Ah may honorable mention naman ang RT.. Kaso may mga pop songs eh. I like RT because what they play at weekends and ang wasak trio, the brewrats! Hehe

"I need you through it all. Slow down and fall in love.. Easy rock!" hehe

Next post will be, somewhat mushy. I don't know. hehe

realizations (part 5)

After UST lost badly to DLSU in double OT, which they are now final four contender. UST won easily to UP and today, well, DLSU lost to ADMU. Sounds great? I don't think so. Masisira yun mga predictions ko. hehe

I am still getting stressed out and hoping for a great week and waiting a miracle to happen in my life, which I don't see it soon.

Let's cut the chase at magsimula na magisip about well, my life.

Past, present, future, thoughts, plans, whatever...

While studying photoshop. hehe

64. Hmmmmm leave it blank. hehe

65. Ah yes, I can say that college days are better than my high school days. Pero yun mga best friends ko are from high school. They are my proud brothers. hehe

66. Pero, mas marami akong friends from college. hehe However, I just love my friends. One reason that keeps me going...

67. Ewan ko kung bakit fan ako ng UST, eh nung college naman, sa kangkungan lagi sila. Siguro, noong 2006 championship run ako naging fan nila. hehe Bago lahat, kahit coach, mas gusto ko si Pido kaysa naman si Aric na wala naman ginawa kundi murahin sila Baguio. hahaha

68. Before, I only use the net for surf, and some research. Now, I can't just live without it. Maybe because of some things. hehe Inclining to be techie even I am not really a techie person, I don't have the gadgets dude. Not yet. hehe

69. Siguro, marami ako nalalaman na sa online ko nakita. Marami talaga. hehe Siyempre, yun mga nadodownload ko pa. hehe Like the number says. hahaha

70. Oo nga pala, since then mahilig na ko sa computer. Dapat pala com sci kinuha, kaso Commerce lang ako pumasa. hehe

71. Why I love Ateneo? Hmmm when I took their entrance exams, ang sarap ng scenery and the surroundings, everything on it. Sabi ko nga sa sarili, pagnakapera ako, kahit MBA, dun na. hehe Kaso for now, wala pa. Bad trip. hehe

72. However, I love UST, kasi siyempre the best, malapit, the people I met, everything on it, yun course lang ang panget. Hahaha They should improve College of Commerce lalo na sa Business Administration!!!!

73. As years go by, hahahahahaha Our house is getting nuts. Inside and out. Oh well, that's what you call family.

74. Oh, sana makakita naman ng bago maiibigan. hehe

75. After I said everything to her these past days/weeks, I felt relieved, free from anxiety, moving on and I just wish her the best of luck. Anything else, sa kin na lang. hahaha

76. To the other one? Hay, sobrang busy. Wala pang drinking session. hehe But oh well, find another one.

77. two lucky numbers? di pala ako lucky. huhuhuhu

78. another two lucky numbers? out of luck.

79. no more luck. hehehehe

80. Ah!!!! What you see in your childhood days shouldn't be seen in the movies.. Example? GI Joe. hehe

81. Second fave band, from where else? Manchester, The Smiths.

82. "I know I'm unloveable You don't have to tell me I don't have much in my life But take it - it's yours" My fave line from The Smiths. Sakto. hehe

Till next thoughts coming from my head. I hope that no headaches this time when I sleep.

revisiting headaches

while watching shoot 'em up, and after visiting Chard's Dad, well sa burol. Siyempre bago pumunta dun, I am a man of my word, time to pay some dues. hehe Siyempre, pumunta kami sa Mr. Kebab, as part sa pusta namin. Siyempre, alam naman natin talo ang UST ng DLSU, well talo na ko sa regulation eh, OT. I have no choice, talo na ko. hehe

Well, niyaya ko na si Rheg to pay up for him. Hehe We went to Mister Kabab and ate, well for me, shawarma plate. Tapos kay Rheg ang pusta siyempre, keema with eggplant, then 3 breads tapos watermelon shake. Ang sakit matalo sa pusta. hehehe Kaya kailangan manalo na sila against DLSU second round ha. hehehe

Anyway, on the way to Mr. Kabab, yun driver ng jeep, letche magdrive. Pinahilo ako. Kami ni Rheg, kaya pagdating namin sa Mr. Kabab, hilong hilo ako. After eating good, we went kina Igz to wait for Doc tapos kina Chard na. hehehe Wasak. Pero mabuti na lang nandun na si Richard at complete pa kami. hehe Nakapunta naman si Doc. Kasi Wednesday night, nakausap lang namin yun Tita ni Chard. Pero masaya naman, kaso mas masaya pag si Chard na ang kausap. Parang bumalik ang high school days, lalo na yun mga adventures niya. hehehe May mga nagbago sa kanya, pero yun kakulitan, Chard pa din. hehe

After that fun and wacky conversation, siyempre, umuwi na kami, actually naghahanap pa din ako ng paracetamol paguwi. hehe So I slept and Friday came, oh well, headache still came. I tried to rest before I meet Rheg, but well, maingay dito, thanks to the man downstairs. Hay!!!! Bad trip.

Anyway, after that day, there was Friday. Oh, Friday, I don't know what to do. hehe Well, it was good at the start but I need to do something important later. Then ayun, naisip ko to get my COE. Time to return, to Dell for the last time. It was very windy afternoon, I thought aabutin pa ko ng baha. hehe So nakarating naman ako ng libis, mabilis, pero medyo traffic sa Gentex.

Bumaba ako sa Citibank which I am a most wanted person. hehe Tapos bought some blank DVD's for safe keeping of files. I went straight ahead to Dell. Same security, very tight. Iwan ID tapos punta na ko sa second floor. Maganda COE ng Dell ha, hanggang ngayon dala dala ko sa shop. hehe Nakakalimutan ko iwan sa kwarto, but I'll do that later.

I went back agad sa shop, and kala ko pa naman may unit na nabenta, kaso ayun. Olats. hehe However, I still got this freaking headache. Even I drank some paracetamol, ganun pa rin. Siguro stress na to. hahahaha

Ah crap, so many to think...

So many to solve....

Yet no solution..

I just hope, this headache don't get worse..

hehe

Sorry medyo magulo ang blog ko, sumakit lang ulo ko. Naman.

This month will be very busy, visiting here and there. Weddings and baptism, and some birthdays.

Another headache.

Downloading

Well, almost 2 months up to now, I got addicted to my DSL. As we know, I used to have cable internet for 2 years, and it was good. the only problem is the speed. I noticed that when I am visiting websites and they are slow to load.

Not only that, I am using bit lord and when I am getting the files or crap, hehe it takes at least a day to get the file. I am talking about, a 700 MB file. Or less. For albums, at least 3 hours.. Kinda slow, and there was a time that I need to do something to kill time just to finish the download. Hehe Or worse, leave the computer all day or night.

Those reasons made me decide to switch a provider. Hmmmm of course the first choice was PLDT.. However, due to the bad experience I had way back at LP, and you will need to have their landline, it's a waste of time. Second choice, bayan DSL. We do have a bayantel landline, for a long time. Well coz of Mom. I checked their plans, and quite cheap, just a small margin. I just don't know how they serve.

Of course with PLDT, you do have good connection, but sometimes not all the time. I heard some horror stories, from friends, and Ron who had a computer shop before getting connection problems for a week?! It happened once but that was a big loss for a business. It did occur again, but only for hours or if you're unlucky, days. Hehe

There was a third choice, Globelines, but since I experienced bad connection and service when I was in LP, I crossed them out. By the way, they charged us for that. Good grief. They are the worst. Hahaha

So, after checking the options, I went to bayan DSL. I heard from my good friend that the service is good and connection as well. The only problem before when I apply, is I need a letter of consent from Dad. I went to bayantel first and check the plans. Asked some tech questions, even the sales agent was kinda rude, and I told her I'll be back to check, funds and arrangement with Kuya Allan.

After we reached some agreement, well I went back right away to bayantel then apply. At first, I thought it was done (the name was under Dad's name yet I used mine, since we're both have the same first and last name) hehe It didn't go through, so they just asked the middle initial of Dad then I just filled out again the form. Hehe

Approved then wait for ehem, 5-6 business days. At first, it disappointed me, but well better to wait than nothing. That was a Sunday afternoon..

Tuesday came, and it was lousy day at the shop. Then, I was thinking at that time to transfer my computer to my room so I can stay and I don't need to come down. Plan changed. Hehehe Mom called and was telling me that a dude will come to our house and install the DSL, at lunch..

I waited then minutes, just 30 mins, the dude is in the house already. Mom called me and told me to get my ass at the house asap. Hahaha

I asked permission from Kuya Alpro, then I rode a trike back to home. I saw 2 dudes, one from meralco which threaten us to pay asap or have our electricity cut. Hehe

Then there is the DSL dude. I opened up my computer, it's password protected that's why. Hehe The tech guy installed the DSL quickly, pop the modem and set up the address, that's it. I checked how it surfs the net.. Fast. Facebook, fast. Youtube streaming, damn fast. Hehe

Well, that's what you call fast install. Hehe At the first week, it has some problems, but when I called them, well, prompt response and quick fix. It took some days to fix the problem coz of my computer, like managing the OS first? No way.. Hehehe Reformat my computer? Oh no. Hehe Anyhow, thanks to Kuya Allan, problem solved. That was the last time it had glitches but now, I am download crazy. Hehe It has some small connection problems but just click disconnect, refresh and connect, ready to go.

I first saw the lola techie commercial and they do as advertised. Ang dali. Hehe

With my new DSL connection, I was able to get the hard to find albums, like is this it? By the strokes. Remastered albums of new order. Hmmmm hard to find films like mad max.. Or my fave film this year, watchmen director's cut. Hehe and some programs and some secret stuff. Haha

To sum it up, it's worth it to have this connection.. In one sleep, I got films and albums downloaded and enjoy it. I don't need to wait for days. Hehe I still wait for days to finish the download but of course, that's bulk downloading. I can't do that at cable. Hehe

I should create a list for that, hmmmm I don't know where to start and what to get. Hehe I wish I can have this connection for the year, as long we are good payers. Hehe

I have some readers already eh. I want to them. I just hope they will continue to read my long, ehem boring blog. hehe To Khaye, I'll work your special request. Hehe

Download this now!?!

What happened to the meralco guy? Well, we promised we'll pay it the same day, gave him pamerienda and left. Then hours later, we saved from being cut, we paid it of course directly to Meralco. That was so close..

unlucky too

Narinig ko sa homily ni Father kahapon na wag daw maniwala sa swerte. Because God knows best for us. He is damn right. hehe

Well, like what happen this past week. I am so much broke (pero lagi naman eh) I mean when I saw my earning this week, I went out cold. I started the week right then I ended up low. May effort yun ha.. Hehe I tried to let go tarmo and dark confidant but unfortunately it did not work. Hehe I will try it again this week kaso pag di ko pa nabenta. I'll try the other way. Hehe Hay, tapos sa bahay, imbes na makapagpahinga ka eh biglang dumami pa problema.. Anak ng tokwa. From my younger brother and to tito, I think this won't end. Bad trip. Idagdag mo pa yun pagkatalo ng ust kahapon tapos sa pusta pa..

That shows it won't really end. Hehe Sinasabi ko nga kay Rheg, wala bang consolation prize? Hehe Hay.. Maybe, luck wasn't at my side, all the time..

However, is it luck that some good thing comes to you. Or there is a time that you didn't expect to happen and it did happen, great. You can't tell as well if that is luck or bad luck that you lose something right away even you worked hard for it. Or kagaya nangyari ngayon sa bahay, tahimik kahit papano dati, pero ngayon.. Magulo..

Or kagaya ng laro ng UST kahapon. hehehe Bitter loss..

O eto na lang, lahat ng plano ko, ayos na sana kaso wala din nangyari. Hehe

Maybe, the priest is right. A person who had everything he/she needs or wanted came from hard work, or patience/preserverance, well a touch of luck but the most important of all is faith. Not fate ( I hate that word. Hehe)

Faith to yourself which gives you confidence. Faith to the people around you gives you motivation and purpose.. Faith to God gives you a reason to live according to his teaching. To love and to do good and hope for the best.

As the priest says, God gives tangible things, has no problem with that, but the reason Jesus is here, it's the faith he wants from. A strong faith to him, always and he will do what's right.

Tama nga siya. Napansin ko lang yun dahil sa mga nangyari sa buhay ko. Well, di naman lahat, pero yun mga nangyari, made me wiser, when to say no. Nagkaroon ako ng better goals, and never give up. More faith to the Holy Trinity and moving on happy. Trust the people around me more at well, being humble. Hehe Moving on, waking up early morning with full of hope, I guess.

Medyo nagbabasa na ko sa shop. Hehe The Art of War, at last. Bahala na yun sa taas, kung maganda or panget mangyari sa kin this week, or the coming days. Whatever. hehe

Oh, God bless Cory.. I knew that she will pass away since last week, hula ko nga Friday kaso sumubra. Hehe But thanks to her, the essence of freedom is here, every moment of our Filipino life. Thanks to her, kahit ganito yun present natin, we are here, living freely. She also taught us to pray deeply in whatever happens to us. She made us a very christian catholic country.

Feeling ko, maglalabas yun BSP ng special edition ng 500 pesos, magkasama na sila ni Ninoy. Ayos yun, and they deserve it. One of the ways we can honor them. Hehe They deserve it.

What else, that's it for now..

Benta muna ako dito. I want to thank my 6300 for this post. Hehe I still believe in luck, so I need to push my luck! Hehe Where's the button anyway..

Oh, kudos to Ivan, aalis na siya sa August 23. 8 months to sail.. Bon voyage!!!