Thursday, December 31, 2009

4. Bloody Mary


Yes, it is a name for a drink yet I don't really drink that one. hehe

I used to remember, way before the new SM Annex stands now, lies a SM annex with A&W restaurant and worlds of fun at the 3rd floor. Across to it, it has a billiard place and met one of the girls that changed my life. This was the time that I was really shy, it was after HS graduation and before college days start.

I can't believe that as time goes by, we are already friends for a decade. Many things happened not between us, because for your information, we were never had a romantic relationship. Close but well, not quite. hehehe Close friends I can proudly say. Many things happened in each of our lives. From entering college, to work, and most of all, the favorite subject is about love.

Sorry, I can't really tell about what we have done to help each other about that subject because some of them, unbelievable, and some of them, are really secret.

She is a very sweet lady, second best. hehe Hmmmmm Looks? Yes, reaches my standard.. Especially without glasses. hehe Oh yeah!!!

Thoughtful as well. Well, she always say, that I am more thoughtful than her. Bwahaha

But what stands out from her is the sweetness she brings in the conversation. The smile and of course the kikay mind, it makes the talk bubbly. Except if the topic is like a problem, oh boy, it's like therapy session. hehe

It is fun and I'm lucky to know her and knowing her for a long time until she settled down. I am glad that she found the happiness and the guy who I believe will definitely won't give her tears. No more worries from her and that comforts me now.

I just wish her the very best and God bless always.

Significantly, Mary.

I am indeed happy for her, especially when I saw her glowing while walking down the aisle.. Hmmmm way different..

Such a sweet Mary.

Why bloody Mary? Hmmmm is the drink sweet? hehe

realizations (part 9)

happy new year!!!!!!

133. Truth really set us free. Like me. hehe

134. I should have sided the right part of the house.

135. sana sumunod na lang ako sa options dati. hehe I hope I can still do that, better late than never.

136. I have downloaded more dark films than lighter films. But it doesn't mean I'm mad or scary. hehe

137. I love my family despite what happened to me.

138. I should gave myself a priority before than giving a priority to others. Help yourself before helping others. I am not selfish it's just it drained me. hehe

139. may mga taong talagang mabait. Lalo na ang mga kaibigan nandiyan lagi sa pagkakataon kailangan ng tulong. Salamat mga pare ko at "friends" ko.hehe

140. sometimes I need to push myself, further.

141. I really love Sarsi.

142. I know I already done it but you really need to forgive. Let others do the penalty for those who hurt you. hehe Bad karma for short. However, forgiveness makes you not godlike but at least, following him. Him above.

143. her. I still.

144. We do live because we have a purpose. I still don't know the whole purpose. hehe But I'm getting there.

145. 5 years is indeed damn fast. Wow.

146. dapat di na ko nagpakahirap hanapin yun avatar sa cinehan. hehe Peste. Sabagay kaysa manood ng Wapakman. hehe

147. Oh yes, I love dissing films that I know it will be a crap, some ol' crap. Like the one above. Another angels and demons.

148. Life will be different and better next year, I believe on that. Our lives.

149. Except for our country, it will become worse. yah. hehe

150. we should meet again. please, be good.

New Year Revelry

One hour before going to a new year..

Sabagay kanina eh may picture kami lahat, a whole family!!!!! Hehe Once in a century event. Bwahahaha

Two nights ago was a blast.

Damn CRAP, akalain mo kakain ng madami tapos laro pa ng CS, at uuwi ka ng 5am. Well, magbubukas ka ng shop ng 9am. Ayos, very good for our health. hehe

Mabuti nga at nagkita kaming apat na maayos, masaya at higit sa lahat, lalong lumakas ang samahan. Kaya sa new year, malamang sila ang mga pinakaaasahan ko mga kaibigan sa buhay. Di lang sa new year, it will be forever I guess. hehe Ang sweet. They are just in my back, or should I say, each other backs.

Three things I only wish for the New Year. Health, Prosperity and closer to God.

After knowing the truths, and looking back on those events, God never left me alone. I know I prayed a lot and asked those things I want asap. I did not come asap, but it did come at the time I needed it. hehe He knows everything and he knows what's better for us. I thank him and I hope that this new year, that he will always be my side and to all of us.

He is indeed a Big God. Thanks to him, I am still here and my family, even not together, nandiyan lang sila lagi, naghihintay at handa maging gabay sa isa't isa. Ang lalim naman. hehe Salamat!!!!

For new things to come, it will be a busy new year especially for me. I'll do that I never thought of doing, so let's dive into it. hehe If it works, then I'm kinda lucky. hehe I should believe in luck but not always.

Happy new year!!!!!!! Damn, yun usok sana di pumasok sa kwarto ko. hehe

A lot of surprises to come. Definitely. Just keep reading. hehehe

By the way, I hope, she is fine... and recover.

Tiger pala ang next year ha. Year of the growling tigers!!! hehe Talo na naman ang UST next year!!!! hehe

Release the tiger in me?! Naks. Scary. Rah!!!!

a Christmas rush

I haven't get any sleep or rest for a while, but after what happened these holidays, especially Christmas, it was a very good time.

Before Christmas, I already know what will I do, it's like a kid who saw a great toy. The thing that I should do. Well, things I should do. Thanks to some people who gave me some enlightenment and most especially, God.

Truth as well..

Before Christmas, well, very busy, from running to shop to shop and I tried to get a rest but oh well, so many customers. Hehe

Then, yeah, as I visited Dad and Algerro. I also what, eat and ate. hehe Damn it's Christmas and I changed my appetite, missed a lot of good food and oh well. hehe

Before Christmas as well, I've done which I never did like years already, going mass before Christmas. Before, I am with Dad or some years, Mom, but as time goes by, I am with myself. Watching the play of the nativity and of course, the mass proper. Standing for one and a half hours of pure hope, faith and love from him.

Christmas came, oh well, I should be with the other side of the trip. hehe But that's fine, went to Moonwalk, and it changed a lot. Met some uncles and aunties, and Ni�a Jose table calendar. Nice chick. hehehe Went home, sleep and next day? Work. Kinda went to the malls and want to watch Avatar. Unfortunately, since it's MMFF, Avatar is only at Imax.

Forget it. Just played my timezone card. hehe

After a hard day's work. That's it.

A very boring yet fulfilling Chirstmas. Boring because nothing much happened, except for the eve of Christmas which all the siblings are here, giving money and singing their hearts out. hehe Yeah, I am not that type of guy. That's why I said boring. hehe

Fulfilling because the support I got from my family, is up a notch. Never been this before. Do what will make you better. As long you're ok with it. They are there to understand. It's once in a blue moon. hehe But I'll take it and that is one of the best gifts I got in Christmas, support and well, a family.

Not material, not in new paper bill, but something you keep not only for the whole new year but for a lifetime. Oh yes, better than the toy gun I got decades ago. hehe

Kinda late but like she said, Happy Christmas!!!!!

Monday, December 21, 2009

pasiyam


What a day, I thought it won't end good. Hehe Even palapit na ang xmas eh I feel just tired or whatever. hehe Or even worry. Time is indeed fast. A bliss passed by my face, already 9 months? Well, what can I say... Did I reach something at this time. Most importantly, masaya ba ako?

We'll find that out when the real Christmas come. Oh boy. hehe

I haven't really relaxed yet, punta dito, bantay doon. Mga ganoon baga. Kahirap naman. Pero ganun talaga ang buhay. Mga akala, may tama, kaso maraming mali. hehe

I can't blame anybody but me. However, I hope there is a second chance. A real second chance. I have chances before but this one I'm asking is a different one. It's like rejuvenate my life in an awkward way. Learned lessons, discovered truths, finding happiness, those sorts of life things. Which you never learn in school. You learn it, by experience. I hate that subject. hehe It's because you fail first before you pass.

Indeed, another one you need in life, is to be free. Inhibitions, fear, failures, coercion, worries, depressions. Gloomy words isn't it? But as time goes by, I felt that way. Nothing seems going right for me.

Pero, yeah, kalimutan na yun, move on and start great I guess. I hope, it will be right this time...

Coming back isn't the only option right? hehe

Saturday, December 19, 2009

flashbacks: A big tree and a toy gun

Christmas is a very special occassion for all of us! For me, well, it's like a normal day. For now. However, wayback my childhood days, this is the season to be really merry. Why? Gift giving as usual, noche buena, the big xmas tree and my most memorable gift was a toy gun.

It's a big one as well. Everytime xmas comes, especially in the Project 7 house, Mom and Ate Aila or I don't who else preparing a big christmas tree in our house. I remember, I am also a part of setting that big one up, like putting the decorations in that big tree. Nah, my fave decor in the tree is the angels with trumpets. Not the big star. Hehe

I don't know what happen to that tree today, but it's memorable because when xmas comes, we gather there, open the gifts, and have fun as well, of course eating Mom's cooking. Hay, what a sight to remember. Well, time does change, I don't know as well, when that mood will happen again. I used to remember when I was a kid, I thought the leaves of the tree are true, well, it's just plastic. hehe

I believe it was after xmas, when I woke up in the morning, I saw this big box. Nicely wrapped and as usual, it has a card says, merry christmas! to Alfred. Well, that time, every kid is talking about Santa Claus and me? I don't believe at that time ok. hehe Gift giving already happened at noche buena and I don't know who will give me this gift. As a child, of course, I opened it and wow!! A big toy gun with sounds. It shapes like a WWII machine gun, not the big one, but the small one. Like hmmmm a tommy gun but no round clip. hehe Anyway, I was screaming happy and oh well, like one of the kids, use the gun all holidays long. After the batteries run out, I throw it away. hehehe

That gift was so memorable up to now, I am puzzled who gave that gift. Well, thanks! hehe I don't care if it's Santa or Mom, or Dad, or member of the family, it's just thanks!!! Memorable that I can say, one of the happiest times in spending Christmas. Even I'm old and not expecting any toys anymore, I'll just see what will make me happy this coming Christmas, like that time, not the screaming part, but put a smile on my face. Even without that big toy gun. hehe

Or even that big Christmas tree. I am looking for the spirit of Christmas, which is important for all of us. The spirit of giving, forgiving, finding happiness and most especially, celebrating his birth. The birth of our savior, which really I can say, saved me many times, because of him.

We don't notice it when we're kids like me, I just notice the big tree, good food and well, the toy gun. How I forgot, we should celebrate the kid in the manger. The kid who will become a man. The man who loves you for the whole year, again and again.

Maybe that big star up there in the tree is the most important decor in it.

Friday, December 18, 2009

Kris Kringle

Ah yes, one part of spending the holidays! Exchanging gifts. hehe Well, after college, di naman ako masyado nagsasali sa ganyan, except nun Dell days. But the years na talagang masaya ang gift giving eh nun college. Ah siyempre masaya yun section saka, ehem. hehe Oh well, those days of gift giving, not that memorable but masaya lang. Lalo na yun suspense, give something sweet, or next week something whatever.

More than gifts, is the act of giving that counts. I don't if I can give something for this year, pero siguro nabigay ko na even bago dumating ang holidays. hehe Sa mga taong mahal ko, or natulungan ko kahit kaunti, yun na lang ang pang Christmas ko sa kanila. Sorry, broke pa ko. hehe

Maybe this season, I thought of giving something for myself. The best gift for myself for this year? Hmmmmmm Think what's good for me. Tumatanda na ko, and I just want to enjoy life in what's should be. I mean kala ko being responsible should be caring all of them, like giving yourself to them with no questions ask. But, naisip ko, siguro before helping or being responsible for those persons, siguro, I should help myself first. Damn, those long years. hehe Wasted I can see, but that's fine. I learned anyway. Learning for me is easy for those technical things, but for life learning, is kinda hard to learn. Wala kasing homework eh, puro quiz agad. Hehe Masama pa, laging bagsak at make up lagi. hehe

Give something for me... What should be.. Well, I have 7 days to think for it. In exchange? Wala noh. hehe Unconditional giving.

Ah about Kris Kringle, yun name ko is laging blackswordsmann or berserk. What a xmas name. hehe I suck at kris kringles.

Mahirap eh, baka ayaw naman ng pagbibigyan mo..

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Winter's gone


Kanta yan from Daydream Cycle. Hehe Sana nga may winter dito, pero we are a tropical country so malabo yun. Umulan ng yelo pwede. Well, wag na mag winter dito, mahirap yun, kung baha nga wala na silbi gobyerno natin, paano pa kaya pag may snow. hehe Mahirap din. Hirap na ko matulog sa gabi sa sobrang lamig ng hangin. Di ko na nga ginagamit yun electric fan.

Right now, I am getting some pain sa head, not painful, parang kirot pero I am ok. Not that serious or kailangan emergency.

Ah, hmmmm wala naman bago these days, ah yes, Gerro is texting. At least I can speak or communicate to him. She is texting as well. I hope Joanne's sister is fine, it will be a long recovery but I just hope Celine is doing progress.

Sa wakas, medyo naayos na yun posting ko ng blog, paglagay sa multiply, dapat lagay na sa lahat. hehe

If you're going to ask me paano ang holidays before, siyempre masaya. hehe I just don't know this year, pero alam ko naman ang wish ko this christmas. The answer to my question. That's all. If I got that answer, I'm done. I'm happy and start all over again.

Waaah, di ko na namatch yun post ko last year, pero ok lang..

I'll see if I can post more next year, pero yun nga, I'm thinking of something new at my blog. hehe

Buy a domain I guess, pero madali na lang yun, isang tawag lang kay JP CEO. hehe Website? Nah, saka na.

What else... Salamat naman panalo ang Alaska. Wala ata tatalo sa Alaska. hehe Salamat talo ang ginebra!!! Bwahaha

What if there is a winter season here?

Well, I'll just stay in my room and watch some movies. hehe Nothing special nor great.

How boring it will be. But good thing well, I can rest. hehe

Rest is easy to spell but hard to dwell.

About the song, matagal na yan, but it's a good song. Nice vocals and tune as well. I don't know if they have a second album. hehe

District 9


When I watched the interview last night to QT about the best movies of this year, he didn't include this. He chose observe and report?!

When I am planning to invite a friend to watch this movie, hmmmm she declined my invitation. Good job, I don't like harry potter. hehehe

Good thing I watched this movie this week.

Ah, some movie trailers are really good, like this one. When I watched the trailer, I was surprised that it's a documentary style and it's about aliens residing in South Africa. Great job, sweet one indeed and I promised, I will watch this movie.

I did watch it and oh boy. hehe

The Gist: Twenty years ago a big alien spaceship landed in Johannesburg, South Africa without warning and of course, humans checked it out and Aliens are kinda in poor state. They are somewhat harmless, so they stayed in South Africa. In District 9 as South Africa built for them. Then, twenty years later, since as society are getting fed up of taking care of these aliens, especially like government spending in that area, they want it out of the country or somewhere far from them. So, the government bids for a corporation and MNU, got the bid to get the aliens relocated.

MNU or whatever corporation it is, it's not UN ok. hehe So, assigned a team to inform the aliens that they will be relocated in a more safer place. The leader of the team, Wikus is assigned to that objective. Unfortunately, as he doing some investigation, well, he picked some item and made him transforming into a prawn (another call for those aliens because they looked like one). He was detained by MNU and the real objective of the mission is to find a way on how to use the alien's weapons. Which seems to be very powerful. Unfortunately, Wikus because of his condition was able to use the weapons and MNU wants him as a example of the experiment.

As he uncovers the secret plan of his company, especially his father in law who is the CEO or the boss of the corporation, he escapes the facility and get back to the slums of District 9 at least find a way on how he will be back to human. He found a friendly alien, however there is a deal that if he return the canister he stole from the alien, he will be back to human.

They returned in the base, kill some soldiers, got the canister, and return to district 9. But the things got worse when the Alien told Wikus that he can be healed after 3 years. Well, the dude got angry, used the small alien ship to go at the mothership thinking of doing the operation by himself. But the ship was gunned down, even the Alien was taken into custody by MNU asking what is their plan. Well, Wikus was saved by the Nigerian gang still asking of getting his alien hand, because the boss wants to be an alien. The boss has all the alien weapons, due to payment by the aliens residing in district 9 for food or whatever they need. Usual corrupt gang.

So, as the dude escapes from the gang, luckily, he got the alien's robot suit. Kills all the soldiers and let the friendly alien escapes and back to the mothership. Wikus got hurt but the alien got away. Wikus, became an alien for good. For now.

The Boos: Dude, I don't know the actors in this film, even it's great, but no star power. Small flaw. The accent as well, way different than british. It's not for all audiences as well, body parts splatting anywhere. Especially the battle scenes, it's really like the real thing. hehe However, all of them didn't really affect the film at all. Just bits of flaws.

The Goods: Oh boy, it's like watching ET in rated R version dude. hehe The pace is really good, fast pace and pure action. It's like a first person shooter video game. They should do Halo. The actors as well, even they are no really star or known actor there, they've done their parts good. I thought I am watching a documentary. The effects? Damn, great effects especially the battle scenes, the alien weapons, the props. hehe Yuck. I mean especially the lab scenes, scary indeed and how the dude's hands transform into alien hands. Yikes.

I love the scene when the dude got the super weapon, damn, the production team of Peter Jackson has the right to do anime robots. One example, when I saw that robot scene, they can do Madox 01. Or Macross. Or Gundam. The dude is like a child getting his first toy, got wild. hehe Killing each soldier.

Not only that, like I said, it's a documentary type, so the emotions of the people are kinda true. hehe There were scenes that are emotional, like Wikus calling his wife, and the torture scene. And the most touching scene is the end. It means the dude still think as a human. How sweet. hehe

The Verdict: Watch it, get in the DVD, collect it. Damn great. I can say, QT is dumb not to include this in the best films of the year. At least. I still believe it's a good date movie. hehe But nah, I know girls have a different taste. However, this film is really good, it even defeated cloverfield. hehe Or how about star trek, nah, I won't put a word about that because I'll just watch star trek later and see. But District 9 is too good to pass. Interesting and provocative and remind you, this is not really a big budget film. Like Transformers. hehe

Or even GI Joe. Oh poor ones.

Simply way better.

By the Alien should return to earth for his promise even after 3 years. I hope so. Poor Wikus.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Shaun living in Zombieland


Tallahassee: [Upon finding a Hummer filled with rifles] Thank God for rednecks!


I love that line from Zombieland. Oh well. hehe Time to kill more zombies!!! Anyway, I watched Zombieland after I got the Hangover and I know I had a long night but it was a great time watching movies. At this time of being sad and empty, you need to be fun at least for sometime. And these are those times. And watching Zombieland is one of those times.

Thanks to trailers again, I kinda drawn to this film, I knew from the get go, that this is indeed the answer to Shaun of the Dead, the US version, obviously. Obviously, it's more different.

Well, no lines from Shaun movie because it's every line has a swearing word. Sorry. hehe

But Shaun of the Dead is a good one, after I watched it before in a pirated VCD, wayback years ago, I didn't understand the english, well because it's from the UK. After HSBC days, like other english films I watched, I did understand now. And yes, I really understand now. hehe

Both are comedy horror films.

Both are magnificent funny.

Both are well, since it's zombie films, expect eating stuff.

Both are about surviving Z-day, or judgement day of a plague that changes people into zombies.

Well, for Zombieland, the 4 main characters are not even related. They even hate each other in the first but oh well, they love each other in the end. hehe

For Shaun of the Dead, 5 dudes as well, but some what related because they're friends. If you call that related. hehe In the end, they become 3, 2 are human, 1 is a zombie. But I love the ending as well, very heart warming. hehe

Both have great plots, I mean in Zombieland, there are some great chemistry for the 4 cities. Oh yes, they are named Tallahassee, Little Rock, Wichita, Columbus. Nice forgettable names. hehe Woody Harrelson as Tallahassee, is damn good at this movie. He's a mad man for short. hehe In killing zombies. But I like Jesse Eisenberg, Columbus, typical nerd dude who brought his A game for being like close to the other 3 characters. hehe

Abigail Breslin, typical kid, but good acting as well, as Little Rock. And of course, the big chick, Wichita, Emma Stone, I am start googling for her. hehehe

So, typical zday and first the nerd meet the mad man, as the story progress, they were cheated by the Con sisters then, they split at Bill Murray's home. Bill Murray show up but accidentally killed (yes, it is). Then they split, the sisters went to a themepark as a childhood dream and thought no zombies, but the dudes, planning to go to Mexico, escaping and get some twinkies. But changed their minds, went back to the theme park, save the chicks and yes, they rode that nice SUV. Simple plot yet on the course of the story...

Tallahassee is damn good, he's crazy, funny especially the part when he talks about his son who was killed by zombies. And of course, seeing his idol Bill Murray. hehe Bill Murray shouldn't be killed in the story. Damn. Very short part. Oh well. hehe That's a let down. I love the part as well when they are surviving in the theme park which each character has own way killing the Z's. Woody should be in the US version of Hard boiled. hehe

The dialogue is perfect. From start to finish, even for foul mouthed Woody, damn great. Especially in the novelty store scene. Like that. And for all the characters, especially the sisters, great con women. hehe

The music!! In the trailer, damn that song from Van halen, perfect for the movie. Even that's the only song, but it's good. And the frights as well, the rules of the nerd, especially the first scenes, that was wild. Ah yes, Woody's addiction to the twinkies. Well, that's sugar for you. Gives you a different high!

Shaun of the Dead, as a homage to Dawn of the Dead, well, simply great as well. I like the scenes which shows Shaun's normal day until it switches to zombie days. That's cool. And the dialogue as well, like the buddy ones between Shaun and Ed. They wasted Blue Monday original vinyl copy! hehe Then Liz and her bothersome flat mates. hehe Liz and Shaun as well, sweet and sour. The curses. hehe Oh how to forget Shaun's parents. Mum and Stepdad. I was surprised that his Stepdad is from underworld. Bloody Hell, he's british. hehe

Well, Shaun and Liz has having a difficult time saving their relationship because of the vicious cycle of their lives. Especially in Shaun's part. Living with Ed, working at a boring electronics store and spending time with Liz and her flatmates in Windchester. Always.

Then one day, everybody is getting sick. Suddenly, it's zombie day. hehe Unfortunately, it was not easy for them. One by one are becoming a zombie or eaten by them. When they take refuge at the windchester, as they hope a good place to hide like in the theme park in zombieland, it got worse. Luckily, Shaun and Liz survived, happily together with Zombified Ed. Haha I like the ending, when the Queen song kicked in while Shaun and Ed playing some video game.

Music, as always in the UK pop film, you expect great soundstrack. hehe Effects, plot, great. Editing is great as well, like the plans for their escape. hehe

Well, both films are fun to watch. Zombieland is more fun from start to finish, less heart warming moments. Shaun of the Dead is balanced, some moments very funny, some moments very emotional especially when Shaun's parents are becoming zombies. And other moments as well, very human and sad.

Both films really worth to watch it all over again. No sequel for Shaun of the Dead, but I'll get Hot Fuzz. hehe Damn Simon Pegg and Edgar Wright, they are good, however, they can do serious stuff. If they will do one.

For Zombieland, definitely, there should be a sequel, please don't kill stars like Bill Murray. hehe

Both of them have one common letdown, it's short. However, it did work in the movie, but damn, it should be like 10-15 minutes longer. Not more zombie killing. Like in Zombieland, they killed Bill Murray right away!!! hehe In Shaun of the Dead, more of the normal days part or the journey to windchester. hehe However, those are minor flaws. I still liked the films.

I definitely recommend these flicks. A date movie, yeah. A buddy movie, definitely! Both of them, cult classics.

Oh, of course, there is a winner. Zombieland, the only ace they got over Shaun of the Dead, is the character of Woody Harrelson. Damn, one mean killing zombie foul mouthed machine. Hehehe

Everybody wants some!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

broken lines (collection 5)

I couldn't be wiser..

I couldn't be stronger.

I couldn't be healthier..

I couldn't be happier.

I couldn't be alone in the midst of darkness..

I couldn't be successful now.

I should be free.

I should be flying..

I should be walking in head up high.

I should be not worrying so much..

I should be eating mom's cooking.

I should be laying in bed comfortably, always..

I should waking up everyday with a smile on my face.

All of these happening, because of you.


I listen to (disk 3)

I was so deprived in music these days. I know I should be happy because of the holidays, however, wearing out tend to forget these things.

Ah, let's listen to some songs....

1. Everybody wants some!!! (Van Halen) - I'll discuss that later. hehe

2. These Days (Joy Division, original version) - Punk ang dating, ewan ko kung bakit binago nila. Blame that to the producer I guess. hehe

3. Whenever, wherever, whatever (Maxwell) - Timeless classic acoustic song. Very lovely, so lovely I sang this song to somebody. hehe

4. The Art of Letting Go (Mikaila) - No need for further or deep understanding. hehe

5. Bullet in the head (Rage against the Machine) - Activist ang dating!!! Siyempre one of my fave RATM songs.

6. Anchor (Boldstar) - love hate rocking song. I just love this song.

7. Ang kailangan (pedicab) - Tama sila, eto ang kailangan natin. hehe

8. Karma Police (Radiohead) - Pag ang feeling ko di naman bad trip, pero parang lost, this song is just fit at that moment.

9. Without Him (Astrud Gilberto) -Wow, who is Astrud Gilberto, the bossa queen. Actually, sad song siya pero ok to. I just realize that after hearing the album all over again. Many times.

10. Woo Hoo (The 5,6,7,8's)- Yes, from Kill Bill soundtrack. Yes, I like the song. hehe

11. Two (Up Dharma Down) - Powerful song, that's it.

12. Mambo Rat (Radioactive Sago Project) - Pinakapaborito kanta mula sa kanila. Sobrang galing, walang kapantay na kanta, lalo na yun dialogue sa huli. Panalo!!! Mga (censored, lahat ng masama) hehe

Thursday, December 10, 2009

100+ short

hehe That's damn right..

Medyo short ata ako sa blogs this year. Well, many factors affected my posting, one is very busy, especially in the first months of normality. Pangalawa eh medyo magulo pa ang mga ilalagay ko, lalo na pag magulo din ang buhay mo. hehe

However, I am glad also for two things. One, blog is still running. Two, is kahit papano may nagbabasa na! What a progress right?

I can't believe na dadami pa to and may readers, kahit ilan ilan. hehe

I won't stop, and why should I stop right? I want to post and tell anything I want, and some well, secret. hehe

As for now, I have plans of making another set, I mean like chapters, yun ay kung matutuloy na ang naisip ko talaga. The one I believe better for me.

It will be like a reboot, or replay na iba naman ang ending. Replay ba yun? hehe Parang yun mga games ng DLSU laging narereplay, at sinasabi baka sa replay maiba ang result. hehehe

That's all I can say for this time, parang pang dagdag lang to sa number of post for this month.

At least, I'm honest, and somewhat addicted.

Truthfully..

!

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

unplanned 7

I don't know, I am just listening to spill.com's Brothers audio review. Hehe Funny review. Cool one.

These days, giving me some enlightenment. Tama ba spelling? hehe Basta, some things para lumiwanag. Parang sa cartoons na may light bulb thing. hehe

I don't know, it's just parang yun sinabi nun pari sa kin last Sunday gave me sort of order. Kahit maiksi pero malaman. Akalain mo, sakto. hehe Di ko inexpect na ganun sasabihin niya ha.

Anyway, after changing some plans sa DSL, ayun I got great films, district 9, tapos tropic thunder. hehe May oldies pa din saka Iron Man!!! Yeah!!!!

Ah of course, everybody wants some!!!! Ang kulit nung kanta, bagay nga sa zombieland. Avatar will be showing next week!!! Hmmm sino kaya mayaya. hehe

Well, it's like a rundown lang naman. About what happened in down south? I was surprised how many was killed. Damn, that's what you call cutthroat competition. Including the customers.

Hay, grabe, I mean, killing sa mga lugar na yun because of politics is not new to me. Pero yun ganun kadami pinatay, grabe talaga, di na tayo nalalayo sa africa na killing other tribes even civilians. Parang mafia na to ah. I just hope that justice will prevail on this one and will end a clan that kinda dominant at that region for decades. Besides, di lang sa region na yun, even the prominent families.

Secret. hehehe

Ah, yes, Black Dynamite!!!! Panalo!!!

Dynamite!!! Dynamite!!!

"Who's disturbing my kung fu?!"

flashbacks: License to Drive

Everytime I stare to my non-pro driver's license, I thought of I am kinda lucky. hehe Kahit medyo mali yun name nasa licensya ko (kasi naman kulang ng II yun nasa pangalan ko). Peste talaga ang government agencies. Whew.

Anyway, paano ko nakuha ang lisensya ko. First, parang mga after college ata yun, kumuha ako ng student's permit, dito sa LTO malapit sa min. Around espa�a lang. Then after some 3-6 months, dahil na din sa kulit ni Dad na magdrive na daw ako (kahit sa lumang Nissan Sentra na hanggang ngayon umaandar at diesel pa ha) at kahit wala naman ako kotse, naisip ko, ID na din to, so napilitan ako. With the help of Mom kasi kay Tita Nonette, na may kakilala sa LTO, ayun pumunta ako East Ave. Iba talaga pag may kakilala system. hehe Just like in the customs days.

Anyhow, I got up so early, tapos nakarating naman ako LTO, pero grabe, kahit 7am na ko nandun, sang katerba naman ang tao, daig pa ang sinehan. O kaya OTB. Grabe ang daming tao. All walks of life, mahirap, mayaman with the fixers and kakilalas and of course, me, some lost dude.hehe

So, as usual, walang sistem when you apply that freaking license and guess what, mahal kumuha ng license, that time kasi nagsimula yun computerization and tons of test. Drug test, medical test, well, sorts of cash cows.

Of course, kukuha ka ng driver's test. hehe Lintek yan, take note may lecture pala. Kaso namiss ko yun lecture, kumuha naman ako ng exam.

Kaso, ayun, kangkungan, lagpak, halatang di nagdridrive. hehe Ehem, kaunti pakausap lang, eh sige sa next exam na ko.

The next exam is kinda surprising. I can't believe that I will drive, forward and reverse an old stainless jeep, yun parang sa pulis. hehe Oh crap. What a crappy day. Pagkatapos mo pabalik balik, pumila at maghintay under the freaking hot sun, sa huli, yun lang pala gagawin mo.

Yabang noh? Kala mo naman, marunong magdrive. hehe Siyempre kinakabahan ako kasi naman di pa ako marunong, kaso mga 4pm na at magsasara na yun examiner's desk, siyempre ang dami pa nakapila, ayun, isang tanong lang pala ang kailangan mo sagutin. "Boy, marunong ka ba magmaneho?" Sagot ko siyempre, "Opo,opo sir!!!" Ayun, can't you believe it, ID na lang. hehe Kaso ayun, sarado na ang picture taking. Alam mo naman sa government, before 5pm sarado na. Next day na lang. hehe

I was able to come back next day, pila ng sandali, tapos ayos!! I have a non-pro license!!!! Without driving a car.

I tried driving one, kaso wala naman ako madrive. I drove the mercedez na bulok, ayun bumibigay ang clutch at preno nagstuck pa. Wow. hehe

Ewan ko, maybe when I win sa Lotto, I'll buy a car right away, just to use my right to drive. Di lang pang pass ng requirements no. Bwahaha

One of my adventures in doing errands, especially in gov't offices. What made this memorable? The waiting, remember, that time di pa uso mp3 so parang ewan lang ako sa isang sulok. hehe The stupid process, may mga signs naman kaso, mali. Lalabas ka pa for the test. Naman. Paano tayo aasenso niyan. And why LTO only assigns East Ave for the application of driver's license, eh pwede naman sa lahat ng branch nila kung ganun lang pala ang sistema. They can do that at the farmer's plaza branch. hehe At least air con pa.

I'm glad, I don't need to go back there again!!!!

Ian Curtis and Tony Wilson (24 Hour Party People)


"Is it a bird? Is it a plane? No, it's the latest craze sweeping the Pennines, and I've got to be honest, I'd rather be sweeping the Pennines right now. "

Tony Wilson first lines in the movie. Well, before he launches himself in hand-gliding. Fantastic and clever.

I did watch this movie way years before, maybe in HSBC days in URCI. That was so late night and I watched it with Kuya Dong, of course, we're fans of New Order. hehe After that night, I wish I could watch it again. And again, again.

Thanks to the torrent age, I got this movie, same as the one I watched in DVD (he still have that DVD) hehe

Same cut, same feeling, same music. Bloody music!!

Well, the story of the film is about, this broadcaster, Tony Wilson is kinda bored of his usual job. As he says to Yvette, his girlfriend, this is only his hobby, working at granada TV. But his real love is rock and roll. Music and the fantastic bands he saw at his era, in his grumbling city. Manchester.

Oh, I remember, there is still Greater Manchester so that's two different cities in the UK.

However, let's go back. As the story goes, of course, Tony went to a Sex Pistols concert, with only 40 people in the venue, he was awaken, sort of bringing these bands in telly. TV for short. hehe

As he produced a TV show for these rock acts, he got bored and set up a rock venue, and of course, Factory Records. He got some weird partners to set up Factory Records, sign some good and bad rock bands and well, it was a long journey ended in a halt.

First successful band he signed is Joy Division, which was led by Ian Curtis. By the way, Factory Records doesn't own the band for the rights or whatever, but they split the earnings if there is. hehe The bands has the freedom to f*ck of!! Nice.

Well, JD was managed by great Rob Gretton and what I like in this version, is Barney looks like Barney, Bernard Sumner. The first time I watched this film, I thought Barney is the one really in the film, but oh well, I was tricked. hehe

Others, like Hookie is kinda quiet in this film, well for Stephen is still the same. hehe Rob is quiet but aggressive. Well, I like the Rob more in Control because it shows how he become a manager of JD and he is more likeable and mouthful I can say.hehe

So, as after the untimely death of Ian, and JD almost disbanded, the story shifts to another chapter. As the company grows even in a loss, yet successful in terms of the bands they produce and the music, they moved on and built the infamous club Hacienda.

Ah yes, Martin Hannett? I really like more here than in Control. More realistic and good acting as well. Especially in the part that he is managing Happy Mondays. I was laughing hard at that part. hehe I was surprised that he is gollum in the Lord of the Rings. I mean the voice. hehe However, I don't care because I did not watch any LOTR films until now.

Speaking of Happy Mondays, well that was the second band Factory got. Ah, yes, sorry, we forgot the cash cow, New Order. hehe

Unfortunately, New Order alone can't save the expenses of the superclub Hacienda, the mismanaging of partners of Factory, and the biggest problem is Happy Mondays.

Come on, those w**kers didn't care how much Factory spend on them and they only do is drugs, use drugs, or even like what the song they wrote, 24 hour party people.

They even kidnapped the tapes for their album and then when Factory got it, no lyrics!! bunch of wackos. hehe

Well, I sort of shortcut the synopsis of the movie. The movie is quite long, especially the Happy Mondays part.

However, what I like in this film is the cleverness and fun factor of it. Sort of comedy as well, especially the rehearsals, the tours, damn, so realistic and interesting.

Ah of course, I love Tony Wilson here, Steve Coogan did a great job and it helped his career to do US films. hehe The script here is definitely bloody great and fantastic..

I love the settings as well, they were able to turn back time and setting the viewer on that scene, on what really happen.

I also love the final scene, which Tony saw God. Hehe

I know that all of them are crazy but good thing for them, they created music that is not in the norm. Different from usual at that time. Rock and punk music at it's finest. I watched the documentary at the BBC, thanks to youtube, the music in the UK at those times, damn, more than crap!!! It's like boybands in the 80's. hehe

A great british film, one of the best. That also says in Control.

For me, 24 hour party people has a slight advantage over Control because of the light aspect of the film. The light plot. The comedy, the antics, I am more into 24. Control is really good despite those flaws, but it's just I have a serious problems and when I watched that film, it's just hurts my heart. hehe I'll go with a lighter film.

I still like both films, I don't care watching it over and over again even I copy their accents. Hehe

It's just phenomenal and bloody good.

Bloody Hell indeed.

It's my belief that history is a wheel.

"Inconsistency is my very essence" -says the wheel- "Rise up on my spokes if you like, but don't complain when you are cast back down into the depths. Good times pass away, but then so do the bad. Mutability is our tragedy, but it is also our hope. The worst of times, like the best, are always passing away".

Monday, December 7, 2009

Everything and Nothing


"Reorder your life"

Words of Wisdom coming from a priest today.

Years ago, I can say I did have a life which is simpler and somewhat peaceful. I did have almost everything I need. Not rich yet, secured I guess.

Living freely, and no worries. Well, that was years ago.

Look at me now, living desperate. hehehe

Living in a constrained state. Searching for answers which I know I can't find them. Anywhere.

I have no other things left in me. Everything just gone away. I feel so sad, empty and lost..

Nothing left for me.

Even my shoes are still the same after these years. I need to change them. Hehe Clothes are the same. Debts are still the same. Feelings are never changed after those events.

All of these mixed up in me every moment, equals, zombie mood. hehe

However, I am still here hoping that one day, everything will go back. At my own pace and my own path. I just don't know when it will that be.

As life goes on, I am always kneel down for whatever miracle I can get everyday. I am grateful that from up there, whatever the day ended, I should be thankful that I am still here. Writing, thinking, praying, hoping for the best. Eating? Ah, not that much.hehe

I am not asking that everything will be back, every thing I lost, it's just the state I am before. Merry go arround, some kind of lazy and most importantly happy!

It's better to be happy than being looked so tired. Oh boy...

Thanks to those words, maybe I already know what should I do in life. Where to start, when to begin, how it will end.

Small steps will be a good start. I just don't know how I'll step in to that.

Everything for me is gone.

Nothing is all I have.

Like what that dude in History in the World part 1 says,

"I have nothing to sell!!! I have nothing!!"

Funny part. hehe

Nah, I know it's not funny, but well, thank him, other things are still here. Priceless things.

Priceless things that are worth keeping for. More than everything.

More than nothing..

Precious is a better word.

True and False

If you're really reading my blogs or news, let's have a simple test. Just choose true and/or false under these crap and future statements. hehe

1. Our country is going nowhere.

2. I love eating ampalaya.

3. I am a health buff.

4. Our election is indeed automated, so the cheating is also kinda improved also. High tech or old school style, eliminate the competition.

5. Love is the most sweetest thing on earth.

6. I am not a romantic person.

7. Rheg is the gummybear.

8. I like dipping a pandesal with mayo and sugar into a hot coffee.

9. I don't like cold weather because it makes me sick.

10. Erap is going to win in 2010.

11. Nick Perlas is going to lose in 2010.

12. Pacman will win for the Mayweather fight but eventually lose in the elections in 2010.

13. Rain or Shine will win a couple of games more but still lose more games.

14. Phoenix Suns will be a playoff team.

15. Cleveland Cavaliers is a strong championship contender team.

16. New Jersey Nets will go for 0-82.

17. Rage against the Machine is my fave US band.

18. The Smiths is my fave UK band.

19. New Order is my fave band of all time.

20. I really missed watching new moon.

21. Updated ako sa sounds or music today.

22. I like listening to the radio most of the time.

23. Mas gusto matulog sa umaga kaysa sa gabi.

24. I solved all my problems.

25. I haven't solved all my problems.

26. I already moved on.

27. Tinatamad ako magblog.

28. I don't miss her, I accepted the fate. I was not good enough.

29. Di ko alam yun mga sagot sa mga sentence na to. hehe

30. I am not good in grammar.

Well, for answers, post it here. Thanks!!!

Sorry, walang prize. hehe

Bonus question.

31. My life is beautiful.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Ian Curtis and Tony Wilson (Control)


May the two of you rest in peace together in heaven. I don't know what will Ian says when he meets Tony up there. You c**t!!! hehe

Well, even they looked rubbish together at the two films I watched. They made history for the music they created, fantastic and brilliant. It gives a punch to your soul if you're really listening to it.

Bloody great!!

Control was the first one I watched. I decided to watch this first because one, I have the book, touching from a distance by Deborah Curtis, great book actually. Second, I know, it's like what's first, good news or bad news. I always choose bad news. It's dark and gloomy movie, so I started this first.

For those who read the book, like me, it's a different plot. Unlike the book, this movie really started when Ian is only like 14 yrs old at Macclesfield ( I hope I got it right ), UK. Well, typical rebel kid, as described in the book, chilling out with his friend and listens to Bowie, rock music and gigs and writing poems as well. Cool dude. hehe Until, he marries Debbie at the age, of 18. Very young couple indeed. They move at Manchester because of the job, then family life and this is where his band was made. Then Joy Division was made, recorded some demos until they were discovered by Rob Gretton (Manager) and then Tony Wilson (Producer of Factory Records) at some gig. As Joy Division gets popular, of course, Ian discovers he has epilepsy which shown at his old age. Quite different.

That affects his work and family as well, especially, when he and Debbie have a child, cute daughter. As time goes on, gave up his job, then struggling to be a father, and a lead singer as well. Then comes Annik, the mistress gave more Ian stress and unfortunately love as well.

Ian became confused and depressed because of all these events until the band will be touring US. He felt that all the people hate him and regrets joining the band because of the consequences happened to him. Especially to Debbie, which decided to divorce the marriage. Added that problem to Ian's struggles, equals to suicide, a day before the US tour.

The only difference I can see between me and Ian Curtis, I am still here even in a wounded soul and not epileptic. I know we are in different situations, but the feeling on those situations, we felt the same.

Confused, depressed and wounded.

After the film well, I was surprised that it has less dialogue. I don't believe that Ian Curtis was that silent all the time. hehe But it is a good film.

Of course, it has some flaws, like little dialogue for Ian. Hmmmm Well, writer's block I guess that some parts of Ian's life or even Debbie's life are not there. Like the scenes that Ian's job affected because of his sickness and band, it only shows like 3 scenes. It should be more, and another one is how the drugs given to him, affected his life, everything. It only shows, like 3 or 4 scenes. Actually, it does shows, but the acting or the scenes is about the effects of being epileptic not the meds he is taking. In the book, it's more morbid. hehe Ah, yes, Debbie has a fling!!! Come on, they cut that out, I know it's short but oh well, writer's block for you. hehe

And yes, Barney is not like that, like in 24 hour party people. hehe I'll explain that later, it's a little detail, but the difference, whoa. hehe

I agree what his daughter Natalie, commented about the film, it's just the depth of the dark life of Ian is not in full detail. But the film is almost 2 hours long and still, I didn't get the whole experience of Ian's life. Maybe because of the script and editing. However, it doesn't mean this film is not good.

At the start I already told it was bloody great. Hehe Well, here's why lad.. Because of these good points, it covered the flaws, for me per se.

Well, Sam Riley almost looked Ian, especially his fits, damn good acting, and how he performs on stage. Especially, the work scene which how he works and the girl who lost her job because of a fit. He was scared but not. Many scenes he's really good into, even the scene where he got a fit on stage and just get up and talk to Debbie.

The rest of the band as well, except for Barney. Hehe Tony Wilson displayed here a small role, but this movie is for Ian Curtis. hehe Rob Gretton, for both movies, brilliant. hehe The actors were brilliant portraying him. For both films.

Debbie? Damn love it. Especially the scene where she discovered Ian's mistress, I love that scene, it's shocking and sad. Samantha Morton great actress there, even little dialogue, she kinda brought the intensity for the film. Well, that's not writer's block. I mean, she had a fling because what she discovered, especially when your husband tells you go out with someone else. That's not good marriage. hehe

But from the start until the end, Debbie's character is the most steady one.

The setup, I don't know how they do it, but the movie is perfect for that 80's scene. Like the band performances, damn, they are good, I thought I am watching a live performance. Especially when you know that they don't do that on tape.

The get up of the characters and of course, the black and white is perfect for Ian's life. Simply amazing, come on, Ian's life was not colorful as it may seems. hehe

Annik's character, not perfect but good as well. It's just she doesn't look like belgian. hehe Ah speaking of get up, I like Ian's get up at the final scenes, like the jacket and an army bag, how enigmatic he looks like. With those sad eyes and cigar.

Even with little dialogue, the words they utter are straightforward. At least, it has meaning. Like how Ian got married, until the final talk with Debbie, and the letters, songs Ian created, metaphoric yet powerful.

Hookie is better her than 24 because of long exposure. hehe

As well for Stephen and Gillian. hehe

With all those factors, it boiled down to one thing I like this film, is the mood of like making you join Ian's journey to darkness and make you feel that hey, here's the reason why I just gave up.

At first, if he's praying, maybe he'll reach until now, New Order will not be New Order. It will be still Joy Division.

However, after I read the book, and watching this film, I realized, he's just run out of options. I was surprised that he only planned to do one album, because he loves his family. But it got complicated, then his sickness which got him into more trouble.

And everybody close to you, is leaving you especially the one you really love. What else you can do? I know, even he loves Annik, I still believe, he loves Debbie more, because if the divorce or the final talk didn't happen, I'll be seeing updated pictures of my Idol. Definitely.

Unfortunately, I'll just check the old pictures of him. In black and white.

"When you look at your life, in a strange new room, maybe drowning soon, is this the start of it all? "

I am feeling that.. out of control

Thursday, December 3, 2009

H and H


A lovely couple..

Everytime I see them together, I can't believe Rheg got a damn chick. Hehe Nah, I mean they look good together.

Natawa talaga ako noon first mee namin sa Mcdo Retiro, lately ko lang nalaman na, isnaber daw ako. Hahaha Well, come to think of it now, eh close na kami ni Khaye, mukhang nakalimutan niya na snub image ko. Hehehe Unang impression ko sa kanya, hmmmm typical good looking girl galing sa all girls school. Hehe Saka mabait and very thoughtful. Kaya buenas tong si Rheg, wala na siyang hahanapin iba. Hehe Ewan ko lang kung nagaalala pa din siya, takot kasi sa ahas. Haha

Rheg? Naku, kulang ang isang blog tungkol sa ungas na to. Hehe Pero after what happened years ago when he broke down and depressed, grabe biglang nabuhayan nang makilala niya si Khaye. He looks happy, satisfied, and most of all very much in love. Hay.. Hehe Si Rheg naman, I mean simply one of the best friends I have. Ireserve ko na lang isang post for him. Medyo mahaba at madrama ang post ko for him. May pagkabrokeback din. Hahaha Rheg is simply fantastic, and I'm happy that he was not only moved on but found a person who I think he can spend the rest of his life with. Naks, bwisit! hehe

Pero Rheg, wag ka sana iiyak ulit kagaya dati ha, mahirap ka kasi calm down. Nakakaistorbo ka kasi sa pagDOTA. Hehe Sabagay mabuti lang din kaysa sumuntok sa pader. Bwahaha Laglagan na to!

Looking at the couple, di ko naman masabi na perfect, but what I think is they are perfect for each other. Khaye made Rheg a better man, and for Rheg, made Khaye believe in love again.

Pag nakikita ko sila, parang ang tagal na nila eh even kaka first anniversary lang nila, sobrang sweet and close kasi. hehe Kahit nilaglag ako ni Rheg eh ok lang, may pumipigil naman, si Khaye. hehe

Siguro kaya sila ganun is because they are balanced. Balanse kasi si Rheg sobrang kwela tapos si Khaye, simple and quiet. Labo no, but their attitudes seems to work fine. Ganun naman dapat sa relationship, love works both ways, for both of you. Give and take. Forgive and forget. Whatever, important is both of you loving without boundaries.

It is true, I'm kinda envious at times, but fine with me. I'm happy for both of them, I hope for more anniversaries and as well, when the time comes that they will be together, forever...

Endless love for both of them.

Wag lang nila ako yayain as ringboy or Ninong ha. hehe Mas malala pag flower boy.

What advice can I give? Just believe in each other, always. Love every moment you have, for both of you being together. Lastly, always put God at the middle of your relationship, no matter what happens, he will guide your lovely union...

At Rheg, wag na maging gummybear. hehe Wag gumaya sa guru ha. hehe Lagot ka!

At Khaye, pag pasensiya na kay Rheg. hehe Wag kang magalala, mag tumitingin kay Rheg, at kaming tatlo yun. hehe

Ah yes, in times of trouble, we, your friends are here, good or bad times, always. Just don't ask for financial help.

That's all I can say for both of them, all I do is just stare at them. Hay..

Happy and happy indeed.