2. lllmiragell

Actually, number 3 siya but she up a notch because of the things she did for me. Kinda sweet. We're close friends kasi. She helped me a lot. hehe First time I saw her, wayback years ago, well, kala ko masungit kahit bata ang dating, pero mali ako. Hehe Siya pala yun magiging kaclose ko until now.

I never thought at first we will be that close. I mean, different ages pero almost same likes, lalo na sa games. hehe Pero she more into simple games. Mas adik pa sa kin to.

How can I describe her? Above my standards. hehe Yun lang. May pagka anime ang dating. Tama na. hehe

Ah, sa ugali, yes, mataray siya pero pag kilala na, ayun sweet. hehe Saka sobrang understanding and thoughtful. Parang kapatid na nga turing ko sa kanya. Ate for short.

Saka maganda sa kanya, well, may say lagi yun thoughts ko or opinions. It counts for her, unlike others na yes lang or bale wala lang importante lang may masabi lang. Her? She values it.

Kaya siguro, tumaas ang kanyang ranking. Ginawang mafia wars ba to? hehe Pero seriously yes. Why we can't be in the next level? Let's simply say, we can't really be. hehe Never.

That's fine with me, as long she's there to help and guide me, trustworthy friend, best friend, great!!!

If she reads this, ate, salamat sa lahat. I owe a lot, I mean a lot, I hope I can repay you and be as you are... Always..

A big Sister.

I just wish for the best for her. Sana tuloy tuloy na yun naplano niya na saka success... Alam niya na yun. hehe

When I watched Lost in Translation, parang ganun kami. hehe

It's just we switched places.. Yet same bittersweet ending..

Number 1 is approaching..

I listen to... (disk 5)

Although I'm quite busy.. Tired or whatever, never forget these songs. hehe

1. All I want is you (U2) - siyempre, may fave U2 song.

2. China Girl (David Bowie) - I don't know why.hehe But I'll listen more of Bowie since I have the discography. He's still a legend.

3. Every First Second (Up Dharma Down) - Powerful mellow song, at first of course, biglang favorite song ko na siya sa Bipolar album, but oh well, Two talaga yun favorite ko. hehe

4. The Sign (Richard Les Crees) - From chillout of course, ah club anthem track. Even it's short, but well, it makes you dance.

5. Pare ko (Eraserheads) - Una ko narinig to nung HS, eh walang kwenta for me that time. Pero nung tumagal, naisip ko din, parang college days to ha. hahaha

6. And so I know (Stone Temple Pilots) - Sorry, di Plush ang fave ko from STP, eto talaga. Accidentally heard from a pirated CD. hehe I like the mood of the song.

7. In My Eyes (Minor Threat) - Original is better. I heard this when RATM made their version of it, I searched the original song, and this is real american punk rock song. hehe No need for further explaination.

8. Bulls on Parade (Rage against the machine) - Not my fave one from them, but one of my fave rock songs. Powerful video as well. Damn Zack and Tom, powerful duo.

9. Tell Me Why (Penpals) - Of course, coming from Berserk soundtrack. Even you can't understand their english lyrics, it is perfect for the opening of my fave anime.

10. Leave me alone (New Order) - That's it. I love the bass though.

11. The one thing (INXS) - Since aussie account na ko, wala lang. hehe Ah may fave song from them. Short and simple yet may rockstar ang dating.

12. Y' want a single (KORN) - One of the songs that I listen when I'm angry..

kinda addicted to number 11. Nice Vid. hehe

fully time

yeah I know, medyo di na ko nakakatula or something. hehe reason behind that? well, doing two things at the same time makes you forget things. Dapat gagawa ako ng broken lines kaso sobrang pagod na ko magisip. Bawi na lang ako sa March. Haha Besides, March is kinda a special month.

While I'm typing this, I finished 2 blogs. Listening to INXS the one thing extended version which is a better version. That's the problem with the original version, vibe is short. Good thing they have a good 12" single version.

Ano na ba, ewan.. I just want to finish all dues. Hehe Bills left and right, errands everyday and well, duties to finish. Well, letcheng online assessment yan, kailangan ko magretake bukas. hehe First time sa training ko sa call center, I need to do that. I'm not focus that's why.

I'll just make up for it tomorrow then focus at the test on Tuesday.

This March, I should be able to post more, lalo na pag totoong dayshift na. hehe Let me tell you, I'm smiling pag naiisip ko na sa wakas, no more sleepless nights. No more dragging yourself going to work because I should be sleeping instead of working at night. hehe

I just realized, even I missed some events sa normal life, sobrang dami ko namiss nun nag nightshift ako. I hope I can still make up for it. hehe

Anyway, I'll see and make sure that even I have many things to do everyday, I'll definitely continue posting here... It's a sigh of relief once I start typing here.. Whew..

Yun muna for tonight. I have a very special movie to watch.. hehe

I'll be hearing so much of this once I get into the floor..

Cheers!!!

realizations (part 11)

171. I am getting thinner these past days. Ah sorry, weeks. hehe

172. Baka magbago isip ko about my fave Adam Sandler film. hehe I got 50 first dates.

173. After a year of not taking calls, lumabas ang pagka newbie ko. hehe Pero slowly but surely, will get there, the agent mode. Lalo na, normal na buhay naman ito.

174. I really missed posting here.

175. Akalain mo eleven na, and sometimes, I thought I'm running out realizations, but as the day goes by. Dumadami, kaso nakakalimutan ko na isulat. hehe

176. March na pala at yes, malapit na ang..... Dayshift. At last. hehe

177. Other than that, nothing else. hahaha

178. It's hard to do 2 things at the same time!

179. I should really give time for myself. Not pushing myself very much at this point.

180. But well, I have many things to finish. hehe However, I know, matatapos din to. I need to choose...

181. I need to decide and I need to set things straight this time.

182. Which part of me will first give up? Is it the owner half or the worker half..

183. Para makalakad na, dapat makahanap na. hehe

184. Letcheng araw na yun, sweldo nga, malas naman. hahaha. Hay buhay!!

185. It's better for me, and I know... To be alone....

crazy week!!!!!

Yes, after a long week of tireness and craziness, well I'm back here, writing.. and taking a time for myself to reflect. What the hell happened to me? hehe

Damn, I wasn't checking my blogsite for that long. So far this month, it will be my lowest number of posts. Great number. hehe Let me say, that was the most exhausting and thrilling language training I had. I hope that will be the last.

Speaking of the language training, lucky all of us passed even we went home around 1am just to wait for the results. However, I still thank my trainer for the time he shared to us, and being patient, and best of all, even he's so serious, way serious than me, he mingled with us.

For now, this coming week, I hope a less work and more of rest. Indeed rest. Even the training now goes for full 8 hours. hehe Oh crap.

And yes, schedule is still 3:30pm up to 12:30am, but weekends off. I hope I'll pass and reach March 15, which is the start of the real dayshift. hehe

I can't really elaborate what happened last week because not I hate it, it's because I've done so many, I just want to forget it. hehe What's important are two things. One, I passed the first base, and second, shop is still there admidst of the chaotic world of the telecom providers. They gave us problems this past week. Screw them.

For this week, I'll try my best to write more...

Especially I realized that some of my blogs needs continuation... Oh, yes, the last day of the month. Nearing the number 1. hehe

I don't know how can I manage this but first things first, I need to manage myself.

And yes, up to now, I haven't watch the movies I got. Damn!!!!

There is one movie that I discovered, seems to be like me. Clue? It has a very long title and it has Jim Carrey on it. Not liar liar. hehe

I should watch that within this week. One of my goals I guess..

Here's one line of it and great, valentine's day just finished. At the start of the movie..

"(voice over) random thoughts for Valentine's day, 2004. Today is a holiday invented by greeting card companies to make people feel like crap. "

Oh crap..

More crap ahead! Nothing to do with crazy..

Fast Forward

Siyempre, di naman ito amazing race, but what I did last week, it was like one. Oh crap. hehe

Sa dami ko ginawa last week, I felt mukhang lalo ako papayat sa ginagawa ko. hehe Especially Friday. Froiday, as my trainer says. Damn, I can tell I'm rusty right now, medyo hirap ako sa training. The only thing I'm not rusty is multitasking. Especially typing. hehe

However, as days comes by in training, medyo bumabalik yun agent mode ko, yun nga lang, like as always, medyo mabagal ako sa una, pero naisip ko, I have not worked for quite sometime. Expect ko naman ganun ako. Parang newbie ang dating. hehe Oh well, pero ayun mabuti pumasa ako sa unang tollgate and now coming this week, another tollgate to take. Ah, tollgate means sa training eh it's now or never. Pass or fail. I don't want to spend my last day in training. hehe

Sa sobrang busy ko, eto, this is just the second post for this month. Ang ganda kasi ng sked ko, 3pm-12am. Hehe Pero pag nakarating na ko ng ops, ah, beautiful. Normal day, just like those ecare days.. Normal and normal except that I have another work after the main work.

Speaking about the another work, medyo nagaalangan ako bitawan pero if I'm right, time to let go. hehe Not now, it's not with my time plan yet. So, yeah, let's see how long I can do this.

Damn, medyo dumadami na nadodownload ko, aabot na sa 20 na DVD na puro films ang nakalagay. At nahanap na din ang batch 81.. hehe My most fave filipino movie at all time.

Pero kailangan na talaga mag movie marathon at least once a day. hehe I should make a habit from it. Marami na ko nadownload, from Donnie Darko to what, Kaufman films. hehe Dark to light films. I also got some old school flicks. hehe

I just love this bayanDSL. hehe Sulit na sulit. Dapat may libreng month na ko sa kakapromote sa kanila. Like Rheg, mukhang higher level of addiction na kasi parehas na kami ng DSL. hehe

Today is a double celebration, one is well chinese new year! Kong Hei Fat Choi if I'm right. hehe Second, well, like a normal day, Valentine's day. Dati, siguro, 2 years ago, pero after that. Nah. hehe Well, si Ate eh makulit, may nirefer sa kin na I don't know. I have no time, besides, I have better sights. Better than that. Hehe Lalo na pag ok na sked ko, I think I'll be spending more time down south. hehe

I really missed posting here.

I should have typed more but oh well, work indeed eating some hours, especially the ones you love.

Blogging seems to be a part of me already.

How ironic. I thought I'll never type more than I asked for. But here, it's more than a year of posting, ranting, celebrating and writing. My life..

I just missing it.

Anyway, lalo pala nung Friday, grabe, kala ko di ko kakayanin pero ayun, nakaya naman at may bonus pang gimik. hehe Panalo, malamang yun 2cpm group, higher level na din ang gimik. Pang "Hangover" sabi ng mga pare. hehe

Valentine's... I wonder where she is now. I still remember those Valentine's days na very sweet, even apart, yet we are together in love. Naks.

Kaso ngayon, wala at wala pa ko balak. Siguro, sana next year, iba naman masusulat ko about Valentine's Day. hehe

Eto talaga fast forward, attention Lourdesians, the famous Alumni Homecoming is on Feb. 27 ata, host, batch 85. Don't count me in. hehe

Sa IV-Counsel, ano ba, kailangan magkita ba? hehe Sorry ang tanong eh may balak ba magkita? hehe

Mantakin mo 10 years na! hehe 10 years after those days of Counsel. From bullying to well, friends. hehe Ah, siyempre, kahit papano may natutunan naman ako values. Haha

I am a Lourdesian..

I don't want to fast rewind back to those days. Forward to the good HS days instead..

Oh, yes, like what I saw in a broadsheet one day..

Let the carnival begins!!! (Election time)

Can we fast forward that?

unplanned 10

What a crazy week it was. hehe Kaya ngayon lang ako nakapagpost eh sobrang busy. Taking care of the business, tapos siyempre mga bayarin pa. Then, may mga gulo pa. hehe Going back to the corporate ladder and then at last, I was able to accompany Algerro sa doctor na mukhang gusto niya na. Whew. Fulfilling and tiring at the same time. At the end of the week, I ended up broke. So broke. Hahaha

You heard it right, I'm going back to the ladder and well, I felt it's better than this, thanks for the long time of thinking, starving, sleeping, and praying. I knew that for now, for the short term run, this is better for me. Going back was hard, especially going back to the last company you worked with. Kaso, mukhang kanya kanya na ang alis tapos nagkakagulo pa, eh wag na lang. hehe I applied to others, kaso ayon, olats. Pero sometimes you are lucky. You ended up not only the job you know you're good at it but at a better time... Way better time, it's a normal life.

I'll park it first and tell more later. hehe

Ayun, ah sana ok naman this coming week, I hope I'll pass the training and remove my rusty fear and get back my swagger. hehe Parang basketball, malamig sa

una, so sa mga susunod na quarter, kailangan uminit.

Speaking of basketball, akalain mo yun Talk n Text, nagwalk out ng game 4. Nakatsamba na naman ang Ginebra, ah buenas pala. Sabagay, kung titignan mo naman sa 3 games ng series nila, parang laging may free throw yun Ginebra tapos ewan ko lang sa game 4, kung bakit lahat ng malalaki ng TNT eh biglang foul trouble. Something fishy about that.

Well, buti pa yun isang series, mukhang makakatsamba pa yun Rain or Shine. hehe Kawawang Purefoods, kala ko malakas pero sa huli, malakas pa din pero ang bobo. Pag nasibak sila, dapat sibakin yun coach. hehe Let's see that tomorrow.

I was drained, but I was more drained financially. Oh dear. hehe Pero after this week, mukhang back to normal na ang cash flow sana, and more importantly, I'll be working at a normal pace at medyo mas malakit compare dati. hehe

If this work went fine, I'll be staying here, beating some records before, besides, no more insonmia. No more cases to finish it. No more going late night travels. Most importantly, no more waking up late because I need to work.

Lalo pinakamahalaga sa lahat, I'll see a very good sunshine, everyday.. And a very good sunset, everyday..

I need to pass the training first. hehehe