broken lines (collection 37)

Her subtle eyes makes me stare more,
As I obscure myself from any other lore..
Focusing to her, with such lightness and happiness.
Her simplicity captivates me,  attracts awareness..

Thy we have same likeness of dark themes, aspects..
We have same such quiet, yet serious look and prospects,
Although she has fewer words to say or speak but louder actions.
Attracts my whole being into her kind of silent motions..

Despite that less time we spent together, I've never crave this much.
Just to be with her, walking, talking, listening music together, as such.
More than that, the feeling now burning inside, I've felt it again..
I can sense that vision of being with her, brings so much gain.

Gain in my life..
Gain to love...

Eiga Sai 2013

(pato 1)

Ano ba, bitin!! hehe Well, I can only give 2 flicks that I was able to watch. Ituloy na lang sa August at UP film center, again! hehe By the way, mukhang masaya nga manood sa Shang for film fest, like last year sa France film fest. It's free, cozy and good screens. Problem, ayun mahaba pila to watch another free flick. Dahil dun, di ko napanood yun gusto ko! Ergh.. 

About her brother - Very dramatic story, how touching that the lead character, Ginko still helps her worthless, bothersome young brother until death. Sad it is but has a good story. I like the performances of the lead actress, her brother in the story despite that bothersome character, but deep inside just looking for love of a family. Of course, don't forget, Yu Aoi! The main reason I watched this film. She just don't age. hehe Grabe, ang ganda talaga niya. Magaling din naman yun role niya. Oh, kala niyo ganda lang ha. 

Rinco's Restaurant - Parang ang nawawala lang. hehe Eto naman, di siya nagsasalita kasi natrauma sa love, ayun dahil magaling maluto, Noriko built a restaurant which caters at least one customer lang. Of course, don't forget her eccentric mother and some friends. It's a weird fun story and despite yun ayoko ang di nagsasalita na character dahil sa trauma, natuwa naman ako. Of course, don't forget, Kou Shibasaki!! The Mitsuko chick in Battle Royale 1, which is my second fave character sa film. Akalain mo she became old but still looks like Mitsuko in a lighter and fun note. Wow.. Got to see her in Ronin 47!

Sa UP nga lang ako hahabol, I hope may sumama or better makapanood ng marami. 

pato 2 soon! =)

Relieved

Noong sinabi sa kin ng Doc yesterday na there's no need to worry after that minor operation. I can say, I'm so much relieved at masaya. Praise God indeed that tuloy ang buhay and continue to be better. 

Even before that first colonoscopy, I was thinking a lot.. Talagang marami. I can say, if there is a chance to have better result eh optimistic ako. But when there is a bigger chance of somewhat failure or bad to happen, eh nagiging pessimist ako. Thinking a lot plans and most of all, keeping me motivated, whatever happens. More praying and talking to him. 

It's really hard to deal in this ordeal.. Di pa kasama kung paano ang preparation for a colonoscopy. Great thing I won't do it until next 6 years. hehe Yun castor oil na yun, grabe, that's the most yucky med I drunk for now. Grabe, kahit ilang tubig na iniinom ko, yun after taste it's just worse. Yuck! hahaha Pero mura naman. However yun recently na ininom ko kahit mahal, kakaaddict! Matamis kasi. hehe I haven't thought na laxative yun. So there, and yes, more water, soft diet and a lot of mami. hehe

Great thing talaga, I've become more conscious in my health for the past 2-3 years. Kahit maexcercise  pa ko and going into healthy living eh narealize ko na still need to check up with the Doc, para mamonitor lang ang health and improve more sa healthy living. Lalo na ngayon, a lot of stress and activities na mararanasan ko at yes, I'm getting older.

I thought nga na magpaadmit with that colonoscopy and polypectomy (weird and funny term) to get more rest pero mabuti na din sa bahay. Bitin ang LOA! Bawi na lang ako next time. hehe

Lesson learned is really of course, excercise and stuff pero yun, balance and healthy diet. Even Mom eh medyo ingat na sa niluluto niya. More veggies, high fiber diet, fruits din and less meat. Kung pwede vegan na ko pero matagal ko pa ata kaya yun. Kahit Dukan diet eh mas lalong effective but not now. Budget wise. hehe 

I want to thank of course, God.. For giving me this relief at longer life as long I continue that being healthy at walang inom for the longest time! Thank you for the love. Jesus for the healing and forgiveness.. Mukhang ready to serve na. hahaha Family of course, parents na laging nandiyan even Dad is quite afraid. hehe Mom na sinamahan ako kahit may ubo siya. Siblings na understanding and supportive at sabon na din. hahaha Friends who prayed and gave some words of motivation and optimism. Sa aking TL na sobrang masikaso, pasensya na TL sa mababang score this month! Bawi ako next month. hehe Saka although sayang ang opening for a different position, ayoko bumagsak dahil sa daming iniisip. Alam na ni TL yun. 

Sa team na kahit wala ako nagperform pa din! Ayos na talaga to. Sana tuloy tuloy lang. hehe 

For now, great thing di naman nakaapekto lahat while in this state of hysteria or worriness. 

Now, I can sleep.. Continue what I'm doing..

Enjoy Life! =)

unplanned 48

I don't know what to see.. Pretty unprepared to be exact.

A filler to what I should write tomorrow but mabuti na yun keep that creative side of me steady. 
It's raining and cold, alone but sitting here, staring at this wide computer of mine and just relieved. Wala pa yun biopsy report but I hope it's not really serious. 

This July is kinda confusing, work is tight pero ok lang, I mean kahit pressure sa target o medyo nagkakasakit na ko, eh at the end of the day, pahinga lang at tulog, ok na. But there were days I'm not really at myself. 

Worry creep me over at ayun, medyo nakaapekto. Sana nga nakaconfine na lang ako para pahinga, pero mabuti pala hindi, kasi wala naman magbabantay sa akin. hehe 

LeBron all of the sudden eh nagpakita na sa tin, at kinain lang naman niya si Pingris, so di naman kagulat gulat, pero sana bumalik ulit siya for a bigger event or how about the whole Miami team. 
UST having manpower problems, sana yun laban against UP at ADMU eh ipanalo na nila, para kampante sa number 2. Ibigay niyo yun number 1 sa FEU, lintek na Romeo, biglang gumaling at ok na ok siya sa kin ha. At least di bumebenta di kagaya yun isang team mate niya. Ang tanong talaga, ano ang nakain niya? Hmmmmm. hehe

After weeks of setting up this computer, I'm relieved at ready na to get this going. Sana makaVL pa ko for plans for the remaining months of the year, kaso mukhang gagawin ko na lang siya after work. Besides, di naman lagi paOT. Tama naman po, pwede pahinga din after work. 

Noong naglaro ako ng battle realms, anak ng tinapa, hirap ako. Paano, parang dekada na ata di ako naglalaro. Hahaha Yun pa lang nainstall kong games, warcraft at battle realms. If everything is in place, dagdagan natin ng NBA at fighting games. At siyempre ang pinakaimportante sa lahat, magpractice na ng SAP habang nagiipon pa ko ng budget at aral na naman na lintek na accounting crap. 

Good news, next month ay less errands for any checkup, meaning wala na pabalik balik masyado sa clinic kasi yun pala ang cause kung bakit yun ibang ginagawa ko eh nadelay na. Kabahan ka ba naman di ba. Sana normal excercise eh mastart na. Eiga Sai at around end of August sa UP! Ok na sa Shang, kaso grabe naman ang mga tao, hay, iba talaga paglibre. hehe 

Bad news, well may new LOB kami work out at ang AHT ko eh parang nesting, ang taas. Ang hihirap pa. Bwiset! hehe Pero importante, same sked, same normal life, same call free work. 
Makakaadjust naman ako.

Ah, sana naman kahit mag number 3 yun Gilas ok na. Kaya naman di ba? Sayang si Belga, dapat nasama siya o kahit Abueva, kaso hay ang liit ng line up natin. Sa bilis daw babawi, I don't think so.
Natatawa na lang ako sa sarili, I took a seminar about personalities, eh tumama yun isang quality ng personality ko. Slow to change. Grabe, kahit anong pilit ko parang ang bagal ko pa din. Pero at least, nagbabago di ba. 

I miss one close friend of mine, it's been years when she hasn't contact me.. Malapit pa naman ang birthday niya. How is she? Hay.. Sayang pa naman yun pinagsamahan namin, more than a decade, yes, it's longer than CRAP. hehe I don't know where or how to reach her.

I was able to transfer files, but sad to say some DVD files ko eh di na mabasa, ulit na naman sa paghahanap! Mabuti na lang kaunti lang yun may topak. hehe

Next month, since medyo kaunti ang errands, it's about learning ha, learning some new and inspiring things. Interesting.. =)

While enjoying the sounds and emptiness of rain.. I miss another person..
The spaced out moments with her. I guess, she's very busy.. Damn busy.

Worth waiting for her. =)

Feels good to have someone you have the same wavelength. Rocking wavelength..

She's fine anyway.

I'm fine too.

classics: The Shining

One of the films that I thought it will be pure gore or thriller horror film, changed me. Changed my perspective of the horror genre. No one could do it like my favorite director, Stanley Kubrick! 

While transferring a lot of files, I mean a lot, I want to watch a film while doing this boring transfer. I just picked a random film, and I picked this. Despite watched the second half already before, meaning I did not start the film.. After watching the whole flick, I was still shocked, kinda chilled my nerves and  I slept right away! 

Great thing I did not get any please, sleepless nights. One thing that bothered me a bit or well, let's just forgive Kubrick for it was a scene involving those twins or sisters killed. I mean it shows blood or those twins but it's just flashes of it. I'm interested what really happened to that family who also done the same job and ended in a bad way, but well.. No trace of them. But that's fine, it added the complexity of this epic horror flick. Another thing, well that's the worst opening letters or graphics used in his films. I mean colored letters? Come on, with that great musical score and tracking shot in that opening credits, he can just simply used ah black and white opening. Not that one. But well, forgivable, forget it!

I watched the documentary of the making of this film, I was simply amazed how Kubrick really want a perfect shot every scene, even the simpliest of scenes. He's really a perfectionist. 

I love first, the screenplay for this film.. I don't know how much influence of the Stephen King's book used for this film but I thought it's a total adaptation, I am surprised that it was not. Great screenplay, dialogue which was fit for each character.  Even those scenes that only involve dialogue, I love it like how the chef talking to Danny. Or even the bartender talking to Jack.. How about that scene which Jack is frustrated while talking to Wendy for the progress of writing? That is kinda dramatic. A lot of emotions involved.  Of course, can you believe that the huff puff script which Jack said before smashing the door was adlib? That is sheer talent. 

Another thing, great actors, even those extras really fit their parts. Well, the film focuses on 3 main characters, Wendy the very simpliest of moms you see on screen and quite unlucky but loving wife as well. Danny, a weird kid with a crazy imaginary friend but loving kid. Jack, a hard working Dad but at the same time or we don't know, a psychotic dude who just got disturbed. I think late Heath patterned his joker role not only with Alex Delarge but I see more into Jack Torrance psychotic state. But anyhow, damn Jack this role indeed seems iconic for Jack Nicholson. Second best? Shelley Duvall  as Wendy, I really pity her character and she delivered it great. Sad thing at the first, you can just feel sorry for her but great thing, she's alive. Danny, wow, that kid is talented at any way, I can't believe he was 9 at that time or I don't know how old but wow.. I thought, the sixth sense kid done better, but gotta watch what this kid done in the film. All the characters done a marvelous job, like Dick and Lloyd, who well my guess is right, doctor Tyrell in Blade Runner. hehe

Great element in this film, music! Sound as well! I can't forget that scene that Jack was transforming into someone mad then the music gives you the chills then cuts out! Wow, I was kinda scared even there is no like ghost or gore or scary look.. Damn.. There were a lot of the same scenes. I love  that old scene in the bar, very cozy scene, with little use of music. The pulsating climax at the end, won't be that thrilling without the great score. I can't believe that Kubrick was inspired by David Lynch through Eraserhead.. I thought it's vice versa but oh well, it's still Kubrick has ears for great music and sound score.

Lastly, I've give the big chunk of credit to Stanley.. He not only made this film looked great as he was a photographer/cinematographer already, but also how he paced this film. How he generate an experience getting you involve in this madness, and left you out still thinking about the film. The spillage of blood, the tracking shots, the effects, and everything he did for this film simply not only worked but it fit perfectly. Which until now, I haven't seen a horror movie like this, there were some but that was still old school. Nothing yet in new school of film.  I hope Stanley was able to do more this kind of horror flick.

After watching this film, I kept on wondering.. I loved this film like other Kubrick's films, a lot of open questions running in your head with a lot of possible reasons or logic can happened or already happened. Like Jack's psycho alter ego might be existed since 1920's. Or we know the hotel is haunted but does it really affected Jack or even Danny. Does Tony, Danny's imaginary friend, a ghost in the hotel? Danny, have psycho powers but does he really have one? Did Jack really die? A lot of fun questions can be put in this film but unfortunately, we can all do is guess.

But for me, one question is answered for sure, the title has a meaning in the film. I hope I also have Shining.

Please not seeing the dead people. =)

Here's Johnny!!!!!!!!!!

flashbacks: HWK

Siyempre kung may seatwork, may Homework! Actually sa lahat ng pinagagawa from skul, eto ang pinakakakatamad gawin. hehe Kasi naman uuwi ka na lang, may papagawa pa sayo! Bad trip.. Pero for me, eto yun maraming ako natutunan at diskarte sa pagaaral. Bakit marami? Una sa lahat, dito mo malalaman kung masipag ka or hindi. Kasi dito mo makikita kung talagang kaya mo gumawa sa sarili mo, lalo na sa assignment. Pwede din humingi ng tulong like sa family or friends pero iba yun aasa ka sa kanila para gumawa ng homework! hahaha

Well, siguro dito nadevelop yun pagiging pala aral ko, I still remember nung may tutor pa ko, si Tidad, naku kahit brownout at kandila lang ang ilaw namin, ginagawa namin yun assignment at di lang yun, may kasamang palo pa! hehe Old skul teaching yet it worked for me. Yun takot siguro sa palo eh nagpaintindi sa kin na magaral ng mabuti.

Isa pang natutunan ko sa HWK eh resourcefulness.. Bakit? Well, back in those days na dial up ang internet, actually di pa sikat ang internet.. Library lang ang sandigan for answers! Bago ako umuwi, tatakbo ako sa library to find answers sa HWK, at paxerox na din. We did have yun encyclopedia but antique collection na lang siya. hehe Actually malaking tulong yun dati lalo na pag sa science homeworks, yun na. Kaya siguro ngayon, matiyaga ako magbasa kasi dati pa lang, naku kailangan magbasa at maghanap ng tamang answer sa libro. 

HWK also does help with your creativity. May mga HWK that entails you to be creative lalo na kung english or pilipino subjects.. Yun gagawa ka ng mga tula, essay, research paper, at magpractice ka ng speech, magtula, even acting or worse singing and dancing. Siyempre ayaw mo magpahuli sa recitation bukas kaya todo practice kahit mapahiya, at least may assignment di ba? Naku ayoko yun bring this and that for tomorrow tapos ang hirap naman hanapin. Pagagalitan ka pa pag late mo na nasabi sa family kasi sarado na yun tindahan o palengke para doon. Naku yun ang ayokong task or homework. Dapat ang deadline kasi di agad agad bukas! Tignan mo ngayon, ganun na halos sa lahat ng skuls. Buenas ng mga bata. hehe

Isa pa at eto yun nagbibigay saya pag gumagawa ng homework eh ang pinaka malaking natutulong sa lahat.. Katamaran! Cramming! Ningas Kugon at ang famous phrase na tsaka na yan, matagal pa yan.. Pagdating ng pasahan, feel the rush! hehe Naku, it's a must not only in GS or HS but also in your whole skul life. Ang sarap ng cramming kahit nga sa work, ugali din kaya yan. Yun na ang tinatawag na pumepetiks.. hehe Well ang attribute na to, thanks sa HWK at nadevelop. Paano naman kasi, kung di naman advance yun homework, lahat naman ng subject sabay sabay magassignment, kaya ba gawin agad agad? hehe Hay..

At ang pinakafave ko natutunan sa HWK. At ang pinaka effective way lalo na pag all else fails matapos ang assignment, or HWK at minsan pero delikado sa mga project. Kopyahan bago ang pasahan.. Mainit init pa talaga!!! Last time ko nakakita niyan, ehem great example, tax assignment, nakalimutan may assignment, humingi lang ng yellow pad, humiram na ng assignment ko.. Kumopya, at pagdating ng prof, sakto ha.. Tapos na! hehe Abogado na siya ngayon. hehe Grabe at marami din instances, noong HS lalo na sa math.. Mahahalata mo nagkokopyahan na eh masyado maaga ang mga classmates mo lalo na yun notorious sa late.. Akalain mo nauna pa sayo pumasok! Yun pala, kokopya lang kasi. Walang mga sagot. hehe Well nung college mas organized, grupo grupo ang kopyahan, pag medyo mali yun sagot, kuha sa iba. Mantakin mo pumasa kami ng accounting ng ganun? hehe Pero infairness without this technique, I've known more yun mga kaklase ko, at most of my close friends. Kilala na nila kung sino sila. =)

Well, HWK activities indeed develop students, through skills, strategy, creativity and social aspect. Really, it's evident as it was shown above.

Right? 

Pacific Rim

Of all the summer movies, at first glimpse, this I thought was the weakest. I mean at the first glimpse or teasers, I don't know it's just a cliche of anime and they just made up like into Mecha versus Godzilla... I was not impressed.. But like Man of Steel, as more trailers coming in and I noticed that the effects were not only impressive but quite fit to the story. 

After almost 2 and a half hours of absolute sheer gigantic fighting between robots and machine, I love this film. I don't care about what others say, I just love the film. Not only a bit of originality, but how it was presented, second best this summer. 

A lot of skeptics like me especially in my office that have the same first impression but after they watched it, I mean they changed sides. Funny isn't it? Ironic may sounds but yeah sometimes you just need to try the film. That was said in Dredd last year, in the end, one of the best films last year. 

Despite second best, well there were flaws. First, screenplay was kinda weak, I mean for that long running time, I hope they inserted some back story, especially with the general, or with Mako or even the pilots, or how aobut the other jaegars who fought first.. The montage for the first scenes were good but I wanted more of that. Dialogue kinda lacking except for the general, and I thought Mako's dialogue were lip sync or dubbed but as the movie goes on, it was not. Dialogue was simple, except when fighting and yeah just simple. Confusing parts, such as why that monster chasing the doctor did not really eat or kill him. Well, another part as much the sword came very handy, I hope they place that way before in the end. Geez.. I love Ron Perlman especially his role, but to think of it, his character seems to be not needed in the film, especially he did not do anything until the end. 

Of all the countries who have the last Jaegars, why Japan is not there? At least they should have better looking Jaegars. Lastly, well.. For seven years fighting those monsters, they haven't thought flying Jaegars, especially when you have a nuclear reactor at their side. 

Well, I forgive those flaws.. Forget it anyway, I still enjoyed the film. First of all, I love how Del Toro assembled his cast. Not an all star cast but they did there roles correctly. I love the role of Raleigh, General, hmmm Mako of course, ah Hannibal despite he did not do something productive, pilots of Jaegars, even yeah those chinese ones and the ever intelligent scientists. They all fit together even they are not really brought light to the film but they kinda helped the film. 

Del Toro's direction was superb, I mean I haven't seen afraid of the dark and wolfman, but all his films were good, 2 hellboys and Pan's labyrinth. What I love in his direction, his details of the film, from massive set until the smallest props, he got all that shooting in a scene. Making his films always interesting and enjoyable, a good balance between visuals and dialogue. The screenplay is good despite it's quite simple and a lot of references which I'll list them down here. The screenplay worked at least to fit with the film. Explained every technicalities from the Kaiju, the decision of UN, how Jaegars work especially why in pair of pilots, and a lot more. Yes, I feel, I won't be surprised if there will be no sequel for this one, unless they thought of prequel or I don't know how they will pull up for a sequel. 

 Lastly, the biggest factor why this film is successful or it's worth watching, the VFX, Sound effects and production design, Jaegars and monsters. Another flaw, I hope there was a big fight in a morning setting. hehe But anyhow, compare this to Transformers? I'll choose this over that because the sound effects and visuals were just right and not confusing like Transformers or Transformers 2 and 3. One part of the film I was just cheering for that Jaegar to kill that bastard. hehe I was laughing as well, the Jaegar from China,  good looks, great weapon and strategy, poor quality.. Made in China! hahaha

That's how enjoyable I am watching this flick. I love how they presented the big fight scenes, or even those dream sequences, the funny experiment of the doctors, and the massive stage for the base of Jaegars and the cities involved in the fights. I feel sorry for Hong Kong.  I love also scenes showing the men proportionate to the Jaegar and how the Jaegar works. The anime feel of having mecha's or monster put in the big screen at last! Made it right with this one. I'm wondering when it comes of anime, US films are getting inspiration from anime and translate into something different works, not really adapting them. This year, like Man of Steel from Dragonball, last year was Chronicle from Akira for some big parts, and now this.. It's good.. At least it works. I mean Japan Cinema doing anime/manga adaptations recently and it's better if they do it their own. 

I hope I've seen this at Imax. Damn, I wish I had that money when I watched this. Man of Steel was above in this film due to a great casting, better screenplay and well, that's Superman. For this one, for the effects? It's better than Man of Steel. By the way, great thing in this film, the best parts were not shown in the trailers, so really better see this,I believe this one is better in IMAX. 

Well, 2 films left that I'm waiting for this summer are Kick Ass 2 and another scifi sort of anime style film, Elysium. Let's see if they will get the title of best film for this summer.

Almost forgot, anime references for this film. I maybe right or wrong but the way I see it, the creators of pacific rim really watched a lot of anime.

Gundam - Judging the feet of the Jaegar, it looks like a mobile suit. hehe It's just bigger than usual Mobile Suit, I hope this can be remade as a film by a big US studio, the screenplay for this one, easy to westernize.

Hero robots such as Voltes V, Getta Robo, Grandizer or whatever - the sequence which the head of Jaegar is going to it's body. Of course, no special space ship or flying saucer but it's just well they have that sequence. And yes, even the sword weapon. They made it like the logical design but well it's cool to have a special move to show the sword.  I has smiling that Jaegars can fly, thanks to the big choppers.  Robots versus Monsters or robot monsters.

Godzilla, Gamera or other original Kaijus - Well, no explanation needed for that. 

Ultraman - Man versus Kaiju or monster. 

Evangelion - Jaegars needs to have the psyche of both pilots sync with the robot, like in  EVA, of course this one, Jaegars need 2 pilots. No Angels sorry. or even Rei. 

Mazinger Z - The rocket punch of Jaegar which the only differnce, the punch doesn't go off from the arm, just a strong punch. And that move of the Jaegar from the breast which is like Breast of Fire. I hope they have a female Jaegar and copy andromeda, breast missile! hehe 

Robot Jox - I don't know if somebody remember this 90's film about big robots fighting in a low budget crap. hehe But well, it's the first one. At those days.

Lastly, I just realized while drinking a melon shake. 

Gunbuster - The last part of Pacific Rim, sorry for the spoiler. This OVA is all about an alien race trying to invade earth, but we have a big robot named Gunbuster. Piloted by 2 chicks, and at the last episode of it, to finish the alien warship whatever, as they exhausted all weapons, they used the atomic heart of Gunbuster to blast the alien warship off. They survived of course but it took time to get back on Earth. This one well instead of atomic heart, they sacrificed the robot because of the atomic/nuke reactor. Just a thought. 

Attack on Titans - When people discontinued Jaegar, we used walls to stop Kaiju, well that's the topic for this anime, almost the same. hehe It's just big dudes instead of monsters.

I can't wait to have this in blu ray copy.. I don't care if it's a big file. Well, it will be worth for the wait. 

What if really, monsters just show up in the pacific and what if indeed they invade us? Are we going to us that rusty warship to fight them? Or that new warship we just bought which it doesn't look like one?

I think we just need to run away.. Or we have robots right? According to the PS one game, Front Mission 3! hehe

In our dreams.