flashbacks: NEET

"Not in education, employement nor training".  Very famous status sa Japan, apply to those really don't want to do something, kahit magwork. 

I was one of those months ago. hehe I never thought I'll do that sa pinakapressure na mga buwan etong taon na to. Biglaan eh! Pathetic me. Well, I just stayed in my room, after siyempre nagkasakit ako ng kaunti. Just at the house, mostly sa smartphone ko, watching more stuff lalo na Japanese stuff. Jdorama, eiga and even documentaries. I thought I should have touch my movie library kaso wala, nagdownload lang ako nagdownload. Total bum. Useless dude. haha

Eat, sleep, pray, tapos ikot lang ulit. Some days, I'll write or mostly, watching and do household chores. May time din na umalis ako sa bahay just to cool off and think. It did not help. Sad isn't it? Of course, some days, I hid at nagisip. I don't know, it's just I was not really myself those months. Until I felt na kailangan na gumalaw galaw at magayos kasi maraming babayaran at namulat na din ako na tapos na. Move on at alam ko I failed.
What I hate sa NEET, hmmmm there were times na di ako tumutulong sa bahay or other stuff. Gusto ko lang higa, DOTA or just watch stuff online. I'm very helpful especially at my age. hahaha

What I loved sa short timely NEET, it's like waking up in a drowning pool. No kidding!!! hehe You know the scenes sa films na yun character bigla na lang nagigising na sa tubig o dagat siya at aahon. Siguro ganun. Basta ganun. hehe Anyway, despite may mga araw na di ako natulog ng maayos or done really nothing, sarap ng feeling na walang stress or pressure. Kung may pera pa ko, aba sana nakapagpasyal pa ko. hehe Saka, rearrangement ng plans, saka some important realizations, which I wrote earlier. I discovered what is my situation now and near future. 

Unfortunately, being in a relationship will take a back seat. Or worse, leave it for now. Hay, masarap sa lahat, nakahinga ako malalim. Looking optimistic despite such failure. 

I think, time to win na nga! 

Flashbacks: Dates

What a way to celebrate Valentine’s Day! Hehehe

One morning, while waiting at a certain mall, coming near me a lady that looks like, ehem.. Someone chinky. Anyway, played billiards, watched movies and ate out. Very friendly lady.. Sweet one and kinda sassy. Hahaha Talked hours over the phone and talked a lot. Also, hmmmmm we just like eating blizzard.

That was around 6pm in the evening, waiting around the school.. Despite it was kinda dark, a girl approaches, wearing some pinkish shirt and I thought I am meeting a high school senior. Well, nah. She’s older than me! It was a night to remember. We laughed, shared some stories and walked around then said goodbye. Not the last time we met.

Almost waiting for more than an hour, can’t believe that I’m doing this for a girl which well more near at the place we are meeting. I feel tired and getting impatient. For short, losing hope. Suddenly, a lady approaching almost everybody turning heads to her! Wearing in a blue blouse and just the right fit jeans and quite tall. Same as me.. After looking at her, she’s in front of me. She’s the one I’m waiting for! Watched movies, ate out and kinda talked long. Worth the freaking wait! Hahaha

Hmmmm while strolling around the mall, we just talked and laughed! We want to really get away from stress at home and school. I can’t even believe I can get close to her because at the time, it’s just I feel distant. Anyway, I enjoyed, she also enjoyed as well. I also forgot if we watched something, hmmmm maybe she’s more important than the things we did that time. An ideal girl I looked before. It never crossed my mind before that there is an ideal girl. What’s more to the standard that I’m looking for. Crazy idea.

We drank a lot of juices! Pineapple juice and orange juice. Hahaha Anyway, hmmm  it seems that we were having a great time, especially when one of my rock idols seated beside me. Well, what was important that night, is her. I got drunk not because of the juices, but maybe just her close presence. Rockin' the night with love..

Sitting at a bus, almost groggy and sleepy, a very long trip.. Beside me, a girl that I still can't comprehend. However, together, we are quite inseparable. That time, I don't know, staring at her giving me such love. Lovely feeling. I don't know why, even she's sleeping. Beneath her, I feel something bothering her. Anyway, we are now going back home. Even the bus was slow, middle of the Christmas traffic, I did not mind. Important is, we were going back, together.

That cafe was kinda dark.. Although I don't mind such dark and lonely atmosphere.. I still loved two things, the cold coffee dessert I'm drinking and the lady in front of me. Smiling, and laughing at the same time. We were having fun.. Despite a hot Sunday afternoon, it was filled with such cold love. Talking where to go, what to do and most of all, us. It was a special time. Lovely time.

Waiting outside of the farthest mall I can imagine. Well, she said she's on her way but well, as usual I'm the first one to arrive. Thinking what to say, or even what I can discuss. I haven't felt this for a long time. But I don't expect really something at the end. What to do or what she likes to do or where to go actually. I'm more anxious than excited. I don't know why. But, she arrived and we kinda smiled. A good start. 

I don't really matter. What matter is...

Love always comes in an unexpected date.