I'm Coming Home

(Part one)

Masarap siyempre umuwi sa bahay kasi di lang dun ka nakatira, dahil din dun ka nakakakuha ng lakas at pagmamahal. Kung mag isa ka lang sa buhay, dun ka naman makakapahinga. Medyo nalate na ko nagregister for KCON for this year dahil sa tight funds. hehe Pero thank God for some help at di naman ako nahuli sa register. Yun nga lang, talagang di ko nakuha lahat ng gusto ko talks pero.. Sa huli, masasabi ko na it was better, way better than last year! Dahil late register, eh yun talks ko sa bandang third day eh medyo alat pero siguro napunta din ako dun para mablessed. Thursday edition really was bad choices for me, talagang way off and buti nga di ako nakapunta. 

Kung nagkataon pala, thanks to APEC eh medyo napadali yun pagpunta ko sa KCON. Namove kasi yun Thursday and Friday skeds to the weekend, kaya buenas talaga. hehe Ok, let's move forward sa mga napuntahan kong talks. 

First talk was Innovation Economics, Leading with lesser resources ang topic. Dapat yun business class kaso ayun ubos. hehe Pero sa first talk, dahil short time lang, eh medyo short lang yun sharing and talk. Sa talk kasi na to, tatlong speakers kaya ayun, medyo bitin pero sulit naman. 
It was started by Coach Joel Banal.. Noong nakikita ko siya sa first session dati sabi ko, magshashare kaya siya? Yun pala, sa KCON na siya lalabas. As expected, dahil one of the great basketball coaches siya, una topic niya eh about nung nagcoach siya sa Mapua. Di ko akalain na wala pala siyang star noon? Tama ba yun? Back to back champions pa! Kevin Ramas lang ang player niya narinig ko. hehe Grabe.. Kaso dahil short yun time, eh gist lang yun nasabi niya. Pero interesting fact, may IS school pala yun family niya at way more affordable ha.. Parang naisip ko, pag may anak ako, dun ko nga enroll. Yun lang, sa Pasig. hahaha He started yun discussion na I forgot yun 8 princples, galing from a google executive pero first 4 steps yun sinabi niya. Very deliberate yet effective steps ha. Nagulat ako sa radical na decision niya about sa coaching niya na imbes kumuha sa labas na player, sa intramurals within Mapua na lang. Ang hirap nun saka yun impact word niya eh innovation. Dahil maliit yun line up niya, sacrifice offensive rebounding, daanin na lang sa speed at pressure ha. Yun lang ang line up niya, no big man so yun. hehe No choice siya. Pero tignan mo naman ang effect back to back champs!

After the 4 steps he discussed, eh sumunod na si Bro. Monching. At first, it's the first time I saw him at tama siya, akalain mo builder siya. hehe Kidding.. Siya pala builder ng Marikina and Sta. Lucia sa may Rizal. Grabe, di lang siya masaya at makulit, very related yun ginawa niya sa topic. Grabe, eto kung baga, ililibing na lang, nabuhay pa! hehe No kidding, coming straight from him, muntikan na pala isara yun Marikina kasi well, yun sikat na builder dun eh napromote at bigla from security ministry, biglang si Bro. Monching ang naging builder. Kahit ang ginawa niyang sharing eh isa beses lang at inamin niya di pa maganda. Kung baga, kaw na bahala! hahaha From endangering to close ilang months, dahil lang sa mga strategy ginawa niya at innovate at a bit of sacrifice.. Ayun from 30 attendees, naging dalawang session na ata sa The Feast niya at nanganak pa sa Sta. Lucia. Iba talaga nagagawa pag dedicated kang servant ni God. In the leadership and strategy niya, nakakatawa kung ano ano ginawa nila para dumami yun attendees, kahit magmukhang perya daw sila pero it's worth lalo na, small budget. Galing niya. Saka yun mga banat ha.. Alam na ano past ni brother. hehe Kidding.

Last speaker sa topic si Bro. Arun, ayun as usual, masaya yun talk niya. Simple lang yun sharing niya pero nakakagulat na grabe nilaki yun The Feast sa Alabang. Matindi yun hardwork niya at yun tinuro naman niya, proper deligation of work. Nakakatawa which is true, yun pagsulat sa bulletin, talagang inamin niya iba nagsulat pero of course may credit din. Kahit pala sa libro ha, humingi ng tulong pala siya. Sometimes, tama talaga na hingi ka ng tulong sa iba, lalo na sa nakakaalam nung gagawin. Naisip ko yun dati, grabe, self taught and yes, matanong ako ng tulong sa iba. Hanggang ngayon ata. hehe Anyway, great first talk at ayun... Bitin talaga.. 

Second talk was a first for me. It's about education and it's home teaching. I don't know what I'm doing here but kasalanan ko naman kasi wala naman ako ibang choice. Ala naman pumunta ako sa single women topic. hahaha Anyway, sorry I forgot her name, pero isa lang naman siyang prof with Doctorate degree sa UP, in education and sociology ba. She discussed different ways of education at how home school benefits saka yes, effective teaching methods na sana ginagawa ng mga teachers! Well, may history pa ng school na kasama. Sa kalagitnaan ng talk, parang ang sarap pakinggan, tapos bigla na lang pagbukas ng mata ko.. Anak ng tinapa, matatapos na yun talk! OMG! First time nakatulog ako sa talk. Sorry po. hehehe Anyway, parang naisip ko din na mas effective yun ibang style of schooling like home school or i forgot the name of the that method, yun parang low ratio setting and more on application than memorization of ideas. Parang ok yun sa bata. Ah, yes, the Iceland case pala. Sana mayrun dito at dapat sundin yun kahit ilan schools. Way more effective and less pressure sa bata. 

Last talk, a quite interesting talk. It's about a simple guide to a healthy leadership. Bro. Bert Miranda discussed about it and it's a surprise na kahit self explanatory and easy steps yun sinabi, ang galing nun explanation niya about the topic. Sinabi niya yun in a very short time. Lalo na yun proper mindset ng leader, being healthy and most importantly, have faith sa leader or of course, prayerful. hehe A leader can do a lot but prayer can do a lot more. Di lang faith for being a leader, siyempre sa members din, lalo na in difficult times. 

See, how short those talks are at masasabi ko, tama din yun mga napili ko. Siguro sabi niya, tama na muna ang Business and Career talks, dito muna sa leadership and education. Pwede ko pa nga habulin yun Thursday talks kaso it way different at di ako makakarelate. Managing church events, nyek. hehe Bully ology, yes I moved on from that and I don't need it. hehe Coffee date, ok na yun dati nakuha ko about one on one discipleship. 


Maaga na ko nakauwi at kahit trapik ng kaunti, nakapahinga pa ko. The next day is indeed the homecoming of our faith. 

Going home. 

Reflecting into the Abyss

I don't know but I'm quite relieved and thought stupid within the course of the Holy Week. After such contemplating and stuff, I'm now in an abyss.. 

I'm in a state of confusion as some of my other matters settled. Maybe as I reach that position of making it through, I fall again into that abyss.. I don't know why is this happening or what. Maybe some things, old ways doesn't seems to go away. It's sad for me, and due to some pressures I face, I'm kinda down at moment. 

Anyway, I admit, those old ways, darn JAV.. Can't get over that addiction. Despite it's one of the reasons I love Nippon, it's still causing me such guilt and yes, into sin. I don't know what to do get over with it, even after Holy Week or maybe I'm sick or stressed out despite I had a great rest. Honestly, I'm really tired after those years of watching it but when that moment comes, I feel such satisfied. After that, yes, crappy feeling. 

Confusing isn't it? But after hearing that message for the past week.. I know that Jesus, has plans already. Even in this state, or before.. I believe in his words, he doesn't look at my past or even my sins. It means, he'll always be there. Always..

It's up to me, to go forward and be renewed. I don't know how or if that's is possible. But I should never doubt from this moment forward, what he can do for me. I'm anxious, or even paranoid, but what less support I got outside, of course people are getting busy left and right... Less comfort I can get from others at this point yet, well... I have no choice but for now, I know I might sound selfish or self contained.. It's time for me, to have courage and be renewed!

Conversion!

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Ang Lourdesian (LSQC batch 00)

Ikaw ay isang Lourdesian..
Pag kaw kumakain sa Aling Lourdes kahit may baon at oorder ng porkchopsilog.
Kabatch ka namin pag nakakain na Mang John’s burger!
Pag recess, kakain sa canteen at isang order ng siomai na apat na kanin! haha

Ikaw ay isang Lourdesian..
Kahit isang beses ay nakapunta ka na sa APSA!
Bihira pumunta sa guidance office except pag entrance exam na. hehe
Tatambay sa library para magpalamig, at minsa’y matulog din! Haha

Ikaw ay isang Lourdesian..
Walang dala masyadong gamit sa bag, kung di filler, notebook at ballpen.
Kapag magtetest na hahanap na may papel, mapa 1/4 , ½ o pad paper! Kahit may bayad pa!
Ang unang mo matutunan, ay hindi aralin, kung hindi paano kopyahin! Hehe

Ikaw ay isang Lourdesian..
Sa pag gawa ng excuse letter, sa umaga bago pumasok gagawin..
Sa pagtapos ng project, isang araw bago pagpasa, dun lang aayusin.
Sa pag aaral para sa mga quizzes, sa gabi bago mag test, dun lang iisipin!

Ikaw ay isang Lourdesian..
Pag test na, hindi ang review ang iniisip, kung ang diskarte para sa kopyahan!
Pag gagawa ng project, hindi paano tatapusin, kung sino ang dapat kasama!
Pag gagawa mag isa ang presentation, hindi ang paano aayusin, kung paano magiging huli!

Ikaw ay isang Lourdesian..
Family day ay takas day! Alam na saan ang lusot para makatakas! Hahaha
Intrams day ay araw ng pride ng section! Angas ng bawat section na ito, talunin ang cream! Hehe
School Fair day ay para sa mga manyak, este conio pala at mga gwapo. Hehe

Ikaw ay isang Lourdesian..
Alam lahat ng all girls school kasi para mang raid at mag date. Hehe
Todo preparado sa interaction kasi sa ibang partner didiskarte. Hahaha
Todo porma sa Prom para masulit ang gabi!

Ikaw ay isang Lourdesian..
May tawag sayo kahit wala ka naman palayaw.. hehe
Na bully ka o inaasar ka pag pasok mo sa umaga.
Mabilis kumalat ang chismis kala mo all girls school. Hahaha

Ikaw ay isang Lourdesian..
Lahat ng kalokohan, nalalaman, ituturo at alam mo. Hehe
Napapaiyak ang mga titser dahil sa kalokohan ng section! Hahaha
Napapawalk out ang mga titser dahil sa ganun din. Hehe

Itutuloy… =)

Be Empowered!

When I first heard that KCON this year is 4 days.. I thought, at first.. Paano yun? Mukhang maiipon ata ako ng VL. hehe Take note, forecast na agad kung may Sat Shift, at yes.. Tama, may Sat Shift. I prayed na Lord kahit LOA or VTO na ng Sat shift, basta makapunta. hehe Or maaprove lang yun Thursday and Friday ok na.

Well, due to some events eh biglang napaisip ko magpalit ng earlier sked then have fixed off for good reasons, one is to look at Algerro when I go home at para marami din magawa. Ok naman yun 6am to 3pm pero para matapos na agad, 2pm uwian na!

He made a way, ayun napprove naman ang request ko at no more worrying about the Sat and Sun classes and siyempre grand Feast. Unfortunately, VL na lang, pero he still provide na approve yun VL ko at wala naman hassle.

Got some good seats and all I need to do is wait for these days.
Kaso due to some commitment eh di ako nakapunta ng first day, pero mabuti na lang, my friend sa CG eh nakapagrecord!! hehe

Let's go sa second day.

First talk was about We Chat, discussing about well how to not only talk sa members, but doing more than that. Mentoring, guiding the members and most of all, seeing their spiritual growth pag tagal. You might forget it in the future but malay mo, yun mga naguide mo eh di nakalimutan ang ginawa mo for them. I was touched with the sharing of Kitting Gelano that from her, to her former student tapos from that person to Bro. Velden. Of course, kakatuwa na sa huli nagkita sila and here sa class na yun. Pay it forward, a good one.
Last class ng Friday was about keeping the community's fallout rate low or in business terms or organization terms, eh attrition. Sinong company/org na gustong mataas na attrition? hehe

With Bro. Arun and Bro. Jay discussed simple yet effective ways of keeping your community kung di lang malaki, of course, low fall out rate. It's start with relationship then 3 ways to keep it working. Una na yun small groups, tapos fun activities then events siyempre. Medyo nakalimutan ko pero mabuti nasave ko sa voice recorder. hehe Ito naman inaapply sa lahat ng community it's just the matter how they execute. Kasi mahirap magmaintain ng group especially kung choice pala ng member eh umalis, wala nang choice. Let go.
After that, plenary speaking with I'm surprised Holy Mass, healing mass. Wow, very blessed with Fr. Dave as the lead celebrator ng mass at I can say, that's a priest. I mean akala ko marami na ko nakita at narinig na priest na magaling, iba to.. He's very transparent yet holistic on how he explained yun Gospel and the word of God. Truly inspirational, I hope I can see him again sometime. =)
Tapos ng mass, another talk and very energetic  and long worship. For that day, I can say ah very focused sa church/community building ha. Kahit namiss ko yun unang day, terms they used are more general than it's for sa min. hehe Which is good at maganda marami pumunta na galing ibang community. I hope they enjoyed and importantly, learned a lot from our community. They can bring that back to their own community, used it and make their community grow.

Saturday came and I thought, or let's say I'm thinking of rest.

Kasi naman Thursday whole day of waiting sa doctor tapos late na nakauwi. Friday it was good, blessed yet pagkauwi, sa sobrang pagod, tulog agad.. Di man lang nagayos ng gamit, bad trip pa paguwi. hehe Mapagastos bigla.

Shining bright at SMX and medyo nalate pa ko, Lord napakahaba ng pila. hehe

Eh mabuti na lang may friends ako kasama, madali kumuha ng seats, kaso kakahiya,malapit sa camera! hehe I hate dancing, at si Bro Migs eh pasayaw ng pasayaw ng fireworks. hehe Anyway, after that, ah after a very cool introduction, started with a very, very, I don't know what I can say.. Simply prophetic. Speaker was Adam Comiskey and thank God, he just spoke to my heart. Let's say, in my current weakness, sometimes I gave up on how but still trying to get away from it and most of the time, most methods don't work. He gave a great answer! =) I'll do that, but still I was moved, inspired and it's like when I'm remembering yun talk niya, parang sinisigawan niya na ko. hehe Now, I understand his mercy..

Dahil sa powerful talk na yun, I almost forget the next talk until the end. Pero siyempre ok naman yun plenary talk ni Bro. Bo, but still Adam's talk still echoing in my ears. In my heart. In my soul.

Well, after that long plenary talk and worship..

The day was not over yet..

The very best has yet to come!!!!

End of Part 1.