8. The black rose

Ok, I saved the best for last again. hehe You may think or if you see my testimonies, that I know a lot of girls, even I'm shy. hehe Kinda shy. However, through my life, I fell in love to some of them but well di naging kami. As the girls, girls, girls song of Jay Z, medyo tama naman for me. Iba iba kasi nakilala ko and I'm lucky to know them, some of them, being close.

Of course, you may ask bakit girls muna? Well, kilala na yun mga best friends ko na guys. Kaya napagkakamalan na gummybear. hehe Pero these are the girls that not only I'm proud of knowing them, but taught of how to approach girls, take care of them and how to love as well. Thanks to them. Well, some of them kahit nakita ko lang o di naging close, at least dun ko nakuha, ang pinaka ayaw ni Rheg, na tinatawag na Standard. bwahahaha

You know already who is number 1.

The black rose? Actually, naisip ko lang itawag siya like that when I was walking to shop. Kasi naisip ko lang din magsulat about them, para naman maevolve ang blog. hehe If I already told some of my life, edi itodo. hehe

Well, Rheg knows why this is her nickname. About her naman, well, same month ang birthday namin so kaya medyo naging interesting siya for me. Gemini attitude. Better check as well the link, http://blackswordsmann2.blogspot.com/2009/01/blackswordsmann.html

However, what I can remember about her na talagang made me realize to court her was her attitude siguro. Matalino, tapos medyo aggressive. hehe Nice. Tapos nun nakita ko siya, sabi ko, sayang. Hehe Well, congrats to her na tapos na siya sa Med and I hope she will pass the Med exams.

Even we did not end up like very close friends, that's fine, at least, without her, no name under blackswordsmann will show up. Saka I learned on how to accept first hand, rejection. Hehe

That's why she is number 8, lucky number, but I was unlucky to her. Hehe

Hmmmm nice nick, Black Rose.

two weddings and a holiday

After 3 days, you thought I had a good relaxing time? It was not. I got tired. However, it was really really great. Ironic isn't it? hehe It was really a great 2 days of wedding. Kala nga nila di ako nagbibiro, pero well, nakalong sleeves ako eh. Lalo na the second wedding, I thought I am a CEO of a big company, of course with William and Atty. Leo. hehe

I don't want to tell the details of the wedding. Both of them, well simple yet elegant. I saw the faces of the couples and oh well, I simply became envious of them. God forgive me. hehe Both of them fun as well, seeing how happy they are and very close. No one is letting go, blessed by the one above, match made in heaven.

Kaya nga sabi ko dun sa isa na friend ko na ikinasal, for marriage to work, you should love each other, every moment of your lives. Pray as well, especially in hard times and I forgot yun iba nasabi ko. hahaha

Well, I feel lucky to know them. I never thought that I will be invited in those special weddings. Naisip ko lang, kung paano ako kaya kinasal? Siguro di ako makakatulog. Hehe Baka nga sa exchange of vows, iba masabi ko. Hahaha

Ano pa nga ba. Ayun, masaya lang na may ikinasal, and the trip as well sa clark. hehe May special mention pa kami ha. Thanks!!!!

Holiday came today, ayun. Wala naman pera. Hehehe I was not able to get some rest, pero eto blogging again to release some tensions away. I don't know if I will have my own wedding. Hehe Eto na naman, dragging myself to oblivion.

However, whatever you say about what I felt, tama ka. The what if's. Or pano kung natuloy or what, pero ano magagawa ko. Tapos na yun.

I just my two cents worth of thought. Ang sure naman eh sa LSQC ang simbahan. hehe

After I slept last night, marami ako nalaman!!! Bwahaha

Pero napaisip din ako. For the future.

Who will be the lady that I share with at the front of the Altar, on Wedding Day?

Let's wait... I'll wait for her.

emotional wound

nakapunta ko kay Dad after what, months later. hehe The reason? To borrow some coats for the weddings. Hehe While waiting for him, eto looking for some classified ads, some articles, and garbage. Hehe As you see, my Dad's house is not that in order but oh well, in times you need something, one place to visit. His house. hehe Anyhow, while waiting for him, I found some article in PDI, from a writer, talking about her experience from one convention. I mean she was assigned as a source person, to talk something about a product, in a different way. Kasi yun product is about healing some scars and wounds. So she discussed.

Emotional Wound. How to heal from it.

Actually, she pointed out six points, however, medyo nakalimutan ko yun iba. hehe I still remember yun important points.

One of them, is give time to heal. Siya nga nagsabi ata na don't set any time to make sure na ayos ka na. Kagaya ng ginawa ko, ayun di pala tama. hehe Pero tama siya, let time comes to me and heal by myself. I know, it will be a long way, but I still believe, all of these bad things will end.

Another one I remember eh have an artistic outlet, like writing, singing or drawing just to let out something from yourself. Mukhang nagagawa ko nga. Matagal na! You're looking to it. All the things or ideas coming from my head, the rants, points of view, are all here. So parang nasa path ako of healing. hehe

The last is support. Sorry di ko nakuha yung other 3. Hehe Sa family, to tell you the truth, kaunting support lang eh. Iba talaga pag medyo sira. hahahaha Pero I am still grateful that at some times, they are my last refuge.

From my friends, who keeps me at bay, keeps me happy even at these situation. I am very grateful as well.

Special/Best friends, who are still there and giving great help. Thanks talaga, kahit ilan beses ko magsulat about them, I won't stop. Hehe Thanks.

The memories. The fun, even the saddest parts, I think will help me to heal these wounds. It will take some time to recover but one day, I will be free. Walking with somebody full of happiness and freedom. Starting a different happy family, a close one.

Enough said. hehe I was carried I guess for eating too much tonight kasi sa birthday ni Kuya Allan. hehehe

Ah, one more thing.

The real title of the article is how to heal a emotional scar. Something like that.

I just changed it. hehe What happened to me is not only a scar, it is a deep wound. More painful, more time it needs to heal.

And it's now healing... slowly.

Gerard

As I prepare fo the back to back weddings, di ko pa sure kung ano isusuot ko. Hehe Sana makahiram ako kay Dad. Anyway, what happened to me these past days? Hmmmm, tuloy pa din ang pagdownload and convert.. Marami na din ako napanood na movies na trip ko. Hehe Sabi nga ni Kuya Alpro, baka daw masira yun computer, sabi ko naman eh kaya yun, lalo na maganda yun power supply. hahaha Well, about the weddings, ok na ko for the Saturday one, sa Sunday, almost done na din except how to get there and what to wear. Hehehe Medyo may problem sa transportation. Literally, it will be a bad trip. Hehe We have no choice but to go the long way..

Nothing else new, except well, I met someone interesting. (Read my new post at the raceto2012.blogspot.com) hehe I am also collecting my previous posts, putting it in a single bookbind. It's now 50 pages, for 2 months pa lang ha... Hehe Special request from someone. Thanks to multiply, I still have my very first posts. Hehe Di ko na isasama yun sa friendster blog, panget eh... Hehe Di naman, basta years ago pa yun. Ah, I was able to download some good ol' films like Leon, good documentary like IOUSA and controversial like Grotesque 2009 (hanggang ngayon di ko pa siya tapos sa sobrang gore kahit 71 minutes lang, unrated version pa?, eh ano ba yun edit version nun? Parang kung mayrun, wala na ipapalabas yun. ) Hehe Anyway, sarap manood, getting back old memories saka yun thrill watching movies. Naisip ko nga, kailangan ko ata ng dalawang computer. Hehe

What eles? Hay, naku, si Ron mukha nakadig ng spanish american, chikas mi amor. Congrats! hehe Ano pa ba? Ah while watching Ferris Bueller's Day off, talagang tuwang tuwa ako kasi makulit talaga saka one of the best buddy movies talaga. Naisip ko nga, bakit di ko ginawa nung HS yun. (Actually ginawa ko yun pag katams na at may quiz, para next time na lang. Ngayon ko lang naisip. Hehe Pero di yun sa point na naglakwatsa or nagdrive ng kotse patakas sa bahay. Good boy ako eh. Nasa bahay lang ako saka kaunting acting. Hehe)

Hmmm well malakas benta these 3 days, I'm not sure yesterday and today. Hehe Ah life is indeed fast. Damn fast..

Now, who's Gerard? Rheg, kala mo gummybear ako ha. Bwahahaha. That's the middle name of Kuya Allan. Allan Gerard F. Reyes. Age? Don't ask. Kung baga sa bingo yun age niya nasa letter N pa naman. Hehe Because of him, half of my pop culture fanatic came from him. Especially, japanese! hehe Thanks bro, I hope you'll have more birthdays to come and padrowing naman sa tshirt oh! hehe

I want to greet Katrin din, happy birthday in advance. Sa Saturday birthday niya, pero sabi ni Ate Aila, sa skul ang celebration. Mabuti naman kasi malabo pa pag sa Saturday din. Ayos, wasak! From south to north ito. Hehe

Next? Hmmmm let's witness the weddings. The ritual. The vows. The love.

Buti na lang yun palabas ni Anne Curtis na the wedding matatapos na. Kala ko 1 month lang eh. Kakaantok kasi. Sayang lang si Anne. hehe

Baptism of Fire

Yes, I woke up very early on Saturday. I have a baptism to attend and everything seems set, but the problem is, the rain. It poured hard last Friday pa. Actually, I woke up dahil sa lakas ng ulan. Well, nakatulog naman ako mabuti pero ang problema, ayun, pag punta ko sa Suki, sobrang baha, so malamang sa Espa�a, lubog sa baha. hehe

Pinapunta ko na ng maaga si Carla, my tindera. Advised everything she need to do and well, I went right away to the baptism. Nagtext na nga ko inadvance na malalate ako.

Since this freaking rain caused problem to me, I thought of plans getting in LP. Plan A, the fastest route, ride a jeep or fx going to Lawton then FX to SM southmall. However, lubog na ang Espa�a, kahit bus di makadaan, (see manila bulletin last Sunday. hehe) eh mukhang malabo na makarating sa Lawton. Cross out Plan A.

Plan B, ride a FX going to Ayala, Makati then ride a Jeep to buendia then Bus. The problem, well walang office ng Saturday and yun FX terminal sa Suki wala. So, malabo na. Cross out Plan B.

Plan C, the longest route, ride a FX going to MRT, then baba sa Buendia, ride a jeep tapos Bus going to Southmall. Well, you guess it right, that's the plan I took. hehe I have no choice eh. Peste talaga.

So from Welcome, sakay na ko ng FX. Nung nakita ko yun Espa�a, grabe talaga, malabo na dumaan. Nakababa ako ng MRT, medyo maraming tao pero normal lang sa MRT. Baba ako Buendia, then first nakasakay na ko ng Taxi, kaso baha daw sa Washington, so di daw kakayanin yun taxi. Anak ng tokwa, edi sa Jeep na ko sumakay, like ePLDT days. hehe Baba taft ave, then got a bus going to SM Southmall. By the way, di na baha sa Makati, matirik nga yun araw. Bad trip talaga, hehe Kahit sa Washington, di na baha. Matraffic lang.

Ayun, sakay ng Bus papuntang SM Southmall. hehe Well going to taft ave took me 1 hour, so late na ko sa binyag. hehe Sa Bus, mabilis naman except sa coastal mall tapos sa bandang times street. Buti nga, di traffic yun papuntang Cavite. Pag Saturday kasi, laging traffic yun road na yun, oh yes, kahit madaling araw, walang pinipiling oras. hehehe

I arrived at SM Southmall around 11am na, but my friend texted me sa reception na daw ako sumunod. Good job talaga. Buti na lang di ako Ninong. hehe What a trip. Tapos siyempre, sa clubhouse yun so kala ko malapit. I did not expect that place is kinda far. hehe I rode a trike then ayun, kainan na nga. hehe Well, I just realized, no other batchmates or even our classmates were there. I'm out of place. It's like I am a sheep sent out to the pack of wolves. hehe

Anyway, after I ate a very good meal, we talked na. Almost sa dulo na din kasi maraming guest na umalis na. hehe We talked about life, after the college years, and well our lives. hehe Pero I'm grateful na tinanggap ako even I am late for almost 2 hours. I just hope for the best of her life, lalo na sa family niya with their baby.

I knew that baptism will run short, para nga mas mahaba ata sa kanila, around 1 hour. hehe The baby is healthy, malusog. Sabagay lalaki naman kasi yun baby.

So, that's it. After that, oh I went to Ate's place, marami nagbago ha. Pero same ambiance. hehe Tapos I watched UAAP, I don't want to give a rundown kasi alam niyo naman nangyari. May magtanim ng kamote. Bwahahaha Peace Rheg. hehe Then that's it.

Oh, sales was good at that day. Thanks to Carla.

And me? Very tired because after that, it's tita's birthday, mom ni Rheg. Nandoon pa yun The Bar, pero happy birthday kay Doc!!! hehe Best wishes saka sana pumasa ka din!!! Go Doc Ian!!!

I went home drained, and I don't know what will I be on this Saturday and Sunday.

Weddings...

Singko

Hay, habang yun tindera ko nasa shop ngayon at ako eto, nagpapahinga at gumagawa na lintik na post. Kaadik. hehehe Tinignan ko yun iprint ko na part 1 ng blog ko para sa friend ko, anak ng tinapa, ang dami na!!!! hehe Bakit nga ba ko napunta dun. Ah, this is about my fifth month dito sa shop or my partnership with Kuya Alpro. Marami na ko natutunan, kahit papano about running a business and most especially, kung ano business ko, like eto, cellphone and eload. Kaya sa mga kailangan ng brand new cellphone, PM ako para for quotes!!! hehe Wag lang load.

Sa limang buwan ko dito sa shop, ang iniisip ko lagi eh makabenta ng marami araw araw, kasi siyempre di lang pangbayad pwesto at tao kundi sa kinikita ko. Ang totoo nga, gusto ko akin na yun pwesto, kaso medyo malayo pa ata yun iipon ko sa pwesto na yan. Hehe Ang goal ko naman eh makuha ko muna yun pwesto na yun tapos doon na siguro masisimula yun mga plano ko. May mabilis naman ako paraan para makuha ko yun pwesto, kaso medyo tiis muna, mayroon ako nakatagong alas. hehehe

May mga araw talaga na mahina, kagaya ng linggo, siyempre, walang pasok yun SACI saka walang tao sa supermart. Walang taong dumadaan, edi ibig sabihin, walang bumibili. Mahirap, ang goal ko na lang eh kahit papano pambayad pwesto. hehe Pero maraming araw naman na malakas, sobrang lakas, kagaya kahapon na kahit baha nung umaga, umariba pa din sa hapon. hehe Ayos, ang ganda ng simula ng linggo ko. Ang cut off kasi sa kitaan eh biyernes. hehe

Ibig sabihin, sa susunod na buwan na ko anim na buwan na. Ang bilis talaga ng panahon. Ang akala ko nung una talaga, di ako tatagal, pero eto ngayon, mukhang may pupuntahan na ko, in the money side of things. Napakahirap ng dinaanan ko, kahit ngayon, pero di ko pinagsisihan na magtagal sa Dell. Eh kumikita ako maliit pero di sa lahat ng oras may cases kang gagawin. hehe Masaya talaga at sana makuha ko na yun pwesto na yun, kasi isa yun sa mga pinakamagandang regalo o bagay nakuha ko sa buhay ko. Alam ko marami pa ko pagdadaanan pero sa tingin ko kayang lampasan yun kasi nandiyan naman si Bro at si Kuya and her family din. hehe At ang magaling kong tindera.

Di ko nga alam kung ano magiging reaksyon ko pag nakuha ko na to. Pero alam ko, di dapat pumetiks ng todo, simula pa lang yan kung paano ko palalakasin yun pwesto. Eto na yun mga panahon, kailangan magamit na yun pinagaralan ko sa BA. hehehe

Hay, kaunting tiis pa Alfred. Malapit na. Sana, may araw na kahit wala masyadong gawin, kumikita pa din. hehe Siguro plano plano na lang kung paano maging malakas ang pwesto.

Kaunting tiis pa, Alfred.

Ilan buwan na lang.....

Religulous

You are not wrong. You are reading it right. Yes. hehe Ika nga ni Nick, baka religious daw. Edi sabi ko, mag google ka tsong. hehe The title of the blog is well taken from a documentary of the same title. I watched the trailer before, well last year and I was very curious. As you see, sa lahat ng documentary napanood ko, from my fave Super Size me, to Michael Moore's Fahrenheit, and other's, or how about Borat? hehe Wala ni isa sa kanila tackled about, Religion. Until this documentary came in. As what Bill Maher said (I just realized he's a damn smart comedian), it's ridiculous. Religion is ridiculous. Bill Maher said that, not me. hehe

Siyempre, noong napanood ko yun trailer, natawa talaga ako, and realize, mukhang may point siya. So, I downloaded this film, thanks to DSL and here it is, I watched it. I myself is a catholic, a normal catholic person who goes to church every sunday. Reads the bible everyday, no joke. Doing good things hanggang kaya ko, going to confession, yes. Lastly, praying everyday to God. I can say, I have a strong faith, which is the reason why I am still here. hehehe

Then, the film starts, at first, medyo ilang pa ko kasi mga banat ni Bill Maher, which is kind of offensive, but that's his view. Pero nakakatawa. Like for instance, when he shows his old pictures, from baby, Sunday mass, and while doing that, siyempre nagnanarrate siya on what his view about being a catholic. Kagaya ng, he was very bored when going to mass, why nothing happening to him even he prays, and even his Mom, stopped going to church because of ehem, birth control things like that. Pero, tinuloy ko pa rin panoorin yun, kasi Bill looks like, confused, on why people need religion. Inamin naman niya na he used religion as a topic for his stand up comedy, pero not that deep or tinira niya ng matindi. He is right as the film progress.

Ok, medyo mahaba kung isa isahin ko pa yun mga pinuntahan niya. hehe I will cut it short. Siyempre, inuna niya yun catholic, Roman catholic. From US, to vatican, and some preachers, he is searching for some answers. Like in one interview, with a senator in US, medyo lamang siya nun una, pero nung nagtanong na si Bill about specific ones, ayun tameme. Parang mas nagaral pa si Bill kaysa dun sa Senador with a famous quote of his "You don't need to pass an IQ test to become a Senator". He answered that in response to Bill's question about people following the senator as a known religious person. Good grief. I shouldn't vote for him. hehe

Then, another interview with a preacher na talagang mapapaisip ka. Bill said, which is correct na dapat simple manamit ang isang sugo ng Diyos. Ang problem, the minister wears good suit, with, lizard shoes, I mean shoes made from lizard's skin. Ayos. Well, sa atin, sa pari simple lang, pero yun ibang religious leaders, kala mo may concert. I mean, tama naman we should wear proper and decent clothes in a mass or celebration but not extravagant. Like that preacher na may DVD pa, as he promotes it tapos sabi niya he doesn't have a salary? Come on. Oh well. hehe

Then, marami pa siya kinuha points from scientist, priests, hmmmm people as well, oh, how I will forget the holy land park scene, which may sense naman, actually sila lang talaga yun kahit papano na enlighten si Bill about being a Catholic. However, may isang question dun na may point siya. He is interviewing a person who potrays Jesus, Bill asked, na bakit ang Diyos di pa niya tapusin tayong lahat since we are destroying ourselves, ang sagot nun actor, it's not yet time and parang God giving us a chance to renew. Bill became silent. hehe

After Roman Catholic, which he also went to Vatican na sinipa naman siya, hehe he discussed also some Religions na talagang napaisip ko. Like Jesus in Egypt has also the same story and events, even in Hinduism ata, may parang Jesus din na story basta ang galing, very informative. Tapos, the Mormons, which I can say, buti na lang di ako Mormon. Opps. hehe Grabe, their doctrines are very weird. Anyway, kaunti lang eh yun sa ibang Religions na niresearch niya, sabagay, sa dami ng Religions sa mundo, kulang yun dalawang oras. hehe

Islam or Muslim was his next topic. Ah, yes, that part really struck me, because on how they fight for their faith. Lalo na yun director na pinatay in broad daylight, at the streets because gumawa siya na film which is very offensive to our Muslim brothers. Di ata siya nagisip. hehe The cartoons, the wars, so forth, their mosque, doctrines as well, which is not for general discussions. Very sensitive. hehe Basta, I understand them better, ganun lang talaga sila and we should accept them. Accept their faith so we can have peace. Nuff said.

Oh, marami pang info na interesting like there is a ministry for smoking weed. That's damn. And about the holy land in Israel, now I know kaya pala sila nagpapatayan. In the holy ground as stated in bible, now stands a Mosque, tapos, near there is a Jewish place then sama mo pa yun sa tin, ang gulo. That's why the fights, wars, bombings won't end there. I just pray na sana we can just have peace for all of us.

May mga interviews pa na interesting, basta, I definitely recommend it, and it's funny and informative and well, I am still a catholic after watching the documentary. It's just Bill's view.

It ended in Bill's strong view that Religion won't really help you all the time, and won't answer all your questions as others say. If it's the end of time, then so be it as he says, while standing at Megiddo, the place where the armageddon will happen as the bible says.

The film itself, kung may time talaga sana nadiscuss lahat and sana yun mga ininterview niya medyo matino naman. Di naman sa pagmamayabang, I can answer some of his questions straight. Di kagaya yun iba, umiikot pa tapos sa huli, mali din ang sagot. hehe

By the way, I still believe Bill prayed before. I mean bago siya umalis sa church kasi one part, sinabi niya na di na siya magyoyosi if one hard problem of his is solved. Eh nasolve yun, wala nang yosi. Hehe It means, kulang lang siguro to sa dasal. Some things, you cannot explain, just happen. Do you think that's science? Sometimes no. It only means, whoever your God is, he has a plan for you why such thing happen whether it's good or bad.

I think Bill cannot accept that. hehe

In God we trust.