panibagong linggo

Oo nga, wala naman sobrang bago. hehe Medyo ok na ko from what happened last week. Now the agony is back. hehe Oh well, I hope the new year will come fast. Saturday? After my shift, I was able to go home early and got a good rest naman. Nakapanood ako ng NBA game but di naman maganda yun laro. Nakalimutan ko nga eh. hehe After that, I slept then I woke up around dinner to eat and rest again. Nanood ako ng mga palabas sa TV, some crappy shows and at midnight, I was able to watch a PBA game, Welcoat vs. Air 21. I thought Air 21 will be defeated again in a close fight but for this one, they won because of their experience. However, Welcoat is very good, they just need a potent front line. After that, I got my sleep again.

Sunday. It was a simple day, I was able to go to church alone. hehe No more worries at least, and then I went to Quiapo to buy some stuff. Bad trip lang, yun trip ni Algerro na laro, mayrun na pala siya, sayang lang tuloy yun pera. hehe But he kept the game. Wala pa kasi yun trip niyang PS2 na laro. I bought NBA 2K9 in PC yet, yun unang bili ko sira ang unang disc, so after lunch, I went back to Quiapo and asked for an exchange, unfortunately, they run out to exchange it, so I need to come back next day. After that, I slept kahit sandali and I tried to download the game itself but the problem is, it's too big, 5 gb. hehe So I thought, I should give the exchange copy a try. After dinner, I was able to watch PBA again, but the second game itself, a blow out to Purefoods by Alaska. hehehe Tapos na ata ang buenas ng Purefoods. After that, luckily, I found the Matrix Revolutions shown at GMA.

I remember that day when I watched this film at SM North Edsa. Same movie, same effect, it's still a crap. I wished na sana, sa TV ko na lang siya napanood. hehe Well, dapat kasi sa Matrix 2 and 3, pinagsama na lang kahit medyo olats yun huli. In fairness to that movie, I still watched it till the end. I wasted my time. hehe At the same time, I was able to watch the fight of Calzaghe vs. Jones, and I admit Calzaghe was too good for Jones. Jones was badly beaten up, way too far the Jones I known like 8-10 years ago. Age does matter in boxing especially, if you can't keep up the opponent. Kaya pa naman ni Jones, kaso hirap siya talaga kay Calzaghe. But, for those 2 boxers, they deserved 2 spots in Hall of Fame. hehe

Now, yesterday, Monday. I did not eat because of my scheduled blood chemistry at St. Luke's. I cleaned my room and fixed some things na rin, na di ko ginawa for more than a week. hehe After that, at 9am, I went right away to St. Luke's, ayun mas matagal pa yun biniyahe ko sa pagkuha ng blood sa kin. Meaning, wala masyadong tao. hehe After that, I went home, watched the NBA game between Lakers vs. Houston, kala ko dikit, but it turned out na natambakan pala yun Houston. hehe After lunch, naglaro ako ng KOF sa PS2, at ayun bumalik sa Quiapo to get my NBA 2K9, I haven't tried it again fully, pero gumagana na ata. hehe

To wrap it up, my weekend was a simple one, oh by the way Algerro slept in our house this weekend pala, at ok naman siya, Masaya naman at good thing di nanggulo. hehe I decided na next weekend na lang ako pupunta kina Dad and Algerro. My weekend was a simple one, less stressful than last week. Sana lang, there is so much hope this coming week. Nothing new naman coming this week, unless there is another hurdle to pass. hehe

Well, I hope that I can finish this week strong and full of energy. I don't want to complicate things and do what I need to do. I know, I am still here, I am not dead yet. Thanks to him..

By the way, as the doctor advised, I need to drink more electrolytes or potassium. Gatorade is kinda expensive, so I will just eat more banana. hehe I hope my result for the blood chemistry will be good this coming Wednesday.

That's it for me, only for today..

approaching day off

Parang wala ako maisip ilagay for today. hehe Kasi naman, after work, I went home, eat and get the rest I need. I watched some shows, pero sandali lang. 4 and a half hours left before my days off. Everything is planned for these days off. So I hope, I will get the rest and energy I need for the coming weeks.

Kaya siguro wala na ko masulat, tinatamad na ko for today. I am eagerly waiting for the last minute of the day. hehe

I will just finish my work today strong and slack later. hehe

Very short for today.

another way to die

The theme song for Quantum of Solace, sang by Jack White and Alicia Keys. A weird song, not recommendable. The movie? Hmmmmm All I can say, it's a let down. Better watch Casino Royale. hehe Yun mga utang ko dito eh saka ko na ilalagay once na ok na ko. Malapit na ko bumalik sa dati, nakakarecover na ko. hehe Good thing, the Action Plan is freaking over. Galing talaga ni TM, she is now the best TM I have in this career. hehe

Well, after that lost moments and getting my energy back, these coming months will be critical for me. My health of course, and then my career. Pero sa tingin ko, ipagdadasal ko na lang ito. hehe Kung ano ibigay ni God sa kin, edi yun na. At kung natupad ang mga plano ko, edi good din. I hope that everything just fall into places good. Ang bilis ng araw, isang araw na lang, Sabado na. hehe At pahinga lang siguro gagawin ko and punta kay Dad on Sunday.

Now, since the action plan is over, it's time for payback to my stats. hehe Actually, wala na ko maisip masabi now but I am surprised that ang PHX ko umaariba, ang CLE medyo ok na. Lakers, mukhang mahirap masibak, hehe at ang DET, grabe, nakuha nila si Iverson. Sayang medyo late na nakuha niya yun line up na kailangan niya pero kaya pa ni Iverson ito. hehe Atlanta, wala pang talo? Totoo ba to? hehe Lastly, ang Sixers, puro talo, parang walang effect si Elton Brand. hehe

Gusto ko makita yun Air 21 vs. SMB double OT game na protest ng Air 21 na dapat panalo sila. Kaso walang replay eh, bad trip. hehe Grabe, bihira ang Double OT sa PBA. Sa NBA, kahapon, dalawang OT games ang nangyari, isa na dun ang SA vs. MIN na umiskor si Parker ng 55 points. Yikes. hehe No choice eh, wala pang panalo ang Spurs, kawawang team.

Mapanood nga ulit yun Casino Royale kasi halos lahat ng cast sa Quantum eh nandun eh. First bond movie that is really a sequel. hehehe Sa tingin ko, eto na lang muna isusulat ko. Wala na ko maisip. hehe

Good morning!

some other quotes from bob

Well, Obama won for the US presidency. Let's see kung kaya niya maglead ng US. At least, once in my lifetime, I see a different president from US. From a different race I believe. I hope, he will live up with his "Change" platform. First result of his winning the post? Stocks in the US dropped. hehe Anyway, oo nga pala, para mawala naman ang lungkot ko, may mga quotes ako nareceive from the office, galing sa kateam mate ko dati. Makulit na kasabihan galing kay Bob Ong.

Ako naman ay Ok, medyo malakas na ko, medyo wala na rin ang kaba. hehe Pero gusto ko talaga ng at least pahinga, so this coming weekend, I will just rest and relax. Sa Sunday, malamang punta ako kay Dad and Algerro. I still thanking God that I am still, here..

Cut the crap and simulan na. Yun iba dito, malamang mayrun na kay Villa hehe Kaya pala yung ibang text na narereceive ko, dito lang pala galing. Mga ungas talaga. hehe

Bob ong's philosophy on love Ü

1. "Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya.."

2. "Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba."

3. "Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."

4. "Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."

5. "Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin."

6. "Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din."

7. "Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."

8. "Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa."

9. "Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang."

10. "Kung dalawa ang mahal mo, piliin mo yung pangalawa. Kasi hindi ka naman magmamahal ng iba kung mahal mo talaga yung una."

11. "Hindi porke't madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at magkakatuluyan kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly, sweet, flirt, malandi, pa-fall o paasa."

12. "Huwag magmadali sa babae o lalaki. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon, mag-iiba ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong hindi pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang maganda o nakakalibog ito. Totong mas mahalaga ang kalooban ng tao higit sa anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan nagmumukha ding pandesal, maniwala ka."

13. "Minsan kahit ikaw ang nakaschedule, kailangan mo pa rin maghintay, kasi hindi ikaw ang priority."

14. "Mahirap pumapel sa buhay ng tao. Lalo na kung hindi ikaw yung bida sa script na pinili nya."

15. "Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo."

16. “Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala”

17. “Hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohan, at hindi lahat ng hindi mo kayang intindihin ay kasinungalingan”

18. "Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"

19. "Ang pag-ibig parang imburnal...nakakatakot mahulog...at kapag nahulog ka, it's either by accident or talagang tanga ka..
20. "Don't search for love, let love finds you.." Sinabi ko kay Rheg last week about looking for a new GF. hehe which is true naman.

With all these crazy and fun quotes, is there any solace with it?

come what may

After record breaking posts last October, I am now behind 4 days for this coming November. I will make this short for today because I am still dazed, confused and powerless for what happen these days, especially last Sunday, one of the days that I won't forget in my life. Why? It's almost a life and death situation. I will tell that someday this month, I just need to recover first, and up to this moment, I haven't recovered yet. 

Pero kung ano man mangyayari sa kin sa mga susunod na araw, bahala na ang Diyos. hehe Sabagay, masaya ako at nandito pa rin ako. Kala ko, di na ko aabot ng Dec. 30. for the first anniv. hehe Well, my plans changed but not that drastic change, it's a change that will at least remove their worries. I just hope and pray, that won't happen again, or at least, I am still here if that happens again. Sometimes, luck doesn't come that often, prayers will save you in a moment which you are really helpless. First, I want to thank Almighty God for saving me, and his Son, Lord Jesus Christ, and of course, the Holy Spirit. The Holy Trinity for the healing and miracle. hehe Salamat po din sa mga tao tumulong sa kin lalo na kina Kuya Alpro and Ate Jen. Kung wala kayo, baka sa loyola na ko pupulutin or di ako aabot sa hospital. hehe You might be puzzled what really happened, well I will tell it sometime. Kahit sandali lang yun, pero parang ang dami nangyari. And it was really, really unexpected. Hanggang ngayon nga, di ko pa rin maisip kung bakit nangyari sa kin ito.  

Well, I just rely to God, my family and other people around me, whatever coming to me, I hope I could overcome this. Maybe, I really need a good rest for a long time, but I can't do that this time. Sometime next year, hopefully. 

Come what may. By the, what a way to start a bright November. 

Purple Rein

Like I said, I saved the best or worse for last. hehe When we were together before, she like the color purple. I can see that the way she wear clothes, even shoes. Her smile, captivating and her looks could be deceiving but in the end, I really fell in love with her. Naks. Totoo ba to? Senti ka ata Alfred, lagi naman hehe Actually, there many words to describe "Pudit", my ex. Nonetheless, even it ended up that bad, I mean we did not end what we want due to some factors we can't seem to solve, I will never forget her. Like I said in my previous posts, I am still seeing her image in my room or even in the living room or even at the kitchen which I still remember she used to cook for us. hahaha

Hay, kaya eto tuwing nalulungkot ako or naguguluhan sa buhay, I always thought of those events in our relationship, whether it was good or bad. Maraming mga pangyayari na naisip ko, pano kaya kung ginawa ko ganito, or dapat ba ganun ginawa ko. Parang may pagsisi ba sa mga desisyon ko, pano ba naman 1st GF, naku ayaw niya tawagin GF lang I remember. hehe Pero it's a 1st what I call my better half. Naks. But that's true, if we are able to go through these problems before, sigurado, siya na lang ang babae sa buhay ko. Patay na! haha Ang tanga ko talaga, kala ko pa naman, kung gagawin ko lahat ng gusto niya or namin, kakayanin namin pero hindi pala.  

Tama na nga ang bitterness, let's talk about her na lang in per se and those happy moments. hehe I mean tapos na kami and there's no sign as of now that will be together again. Umaasa pa ba ko? Hmmmm In how things work right now, nope. But I am not losing hope, but I am also not expecting na rin because until now, di pa kami naguusap. The last time we talked, was like March of this year, after that, wala na. Nada. Pero on the way I checked her profile, it seems she is happy right now. 

If you read my previous post, if you really did, I always say that I hope she is ok, or fine. Or lagi ko siyang hinahanap, kaya ayun nakatanga minsan. hehe Talagang miss ko siya and I lied before. hehe I do love her. But however, that can be changed in some time or gaya ng sinabi ko, if I find somebody can show a different kind of love to me, then that's it. It will be a new relationship anew. Siyempre, di naman ako pwede maghanap ng katulad ng ex ko coz she is the only Rein in my lifetime. She also shown me what love really is, true love. Romantic love. Kahit anong sweetness gawin ko, parang mas sweet pa siya sa kin. hehe 

I still looking forward to meet her sometime, even for just one last time. hehe When I do that, that's the time I can have a smile in my face at least for sometime. 

"Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear. "

Correct. hehe That's exactly what happened to us. 

Well, I want to tell more about her but I think it's best that to close this for now, and let's see if we are going to cross our paths and rekindle what we have started, Love. I can describe that our Love reaches beyond the boundaries that we did not even imagine, and if I have a chance, I want to happen that one more time. Kung gusto pa niya, lagi ko siyang bibilhan ng KFC brownies. hehe Siguro nagugutom lang ako, kulang sa tulog or kailangan ko na ng professional help. hahaha Salamat ng marami, at alam ko nasabi ko na din ang gusto kong sabihin but sana ok ka and successful in the future. 

By the way, I first called her Rein. Why? Because before, I promised to myself that if I am going to have a special one, I will call her differently than the usual nickname. So that's the name I called her first then it became Pudit. hehe 

I love Rein..   

Quotes to ponder

Siyempre hindi ito galing kay Bob Ong. hehe Nakita ko to sa kahon ko and it was a letter I received from a retreat wayback in College. Villa should have a copy of this, or any of my friends in 4BA1. haha I was able to keep the letters of my friends and especially from my retreats in school. Kapag ako'y malungkot or nababagot like this week, I am used to read these past letters. hehe Let's start..

"Take some time to think about these...

Strength is the capacity to break a chocolate bar into four pieces with your bare hands, and then eat just of the one of the pieces.

I have done more harm by the falseness of trying to please than by the honesty of trying to hurt.

If yo have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call "failure" is not falling down but staying down.

We all live in susupense, from day to day, from hour to hour, in other words, we are the hero of our own story. 

Inside myself is a place where I live all alone, and that's where you renew your springs that never dry up.

I don't need a man to rectify my existence. The most profound relationship we'll ever have is the one with ourselves. 

I always felt that the great high privilege, relief and comfort of friendship was that one had to explain nothing.

Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live; it is asking others to live as one wishes to live.

It's so easy to think about love, to talk about love. But it's not always easy to recognize love.. even when we already hold it in our hands.

Lover starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear. 

It is hard to walk away if you will be losing someone who has been a part of your life. But it will be much harder to stay, if loving him would mean losing yourself. 

Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut deep as you  allow them to go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them. 

A sad thing about life is that when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and we just have to let go. 

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we know how to be grateful for the gift. 

In the maze of love, try not to loose yourself so that when love is no longer willing to stay, you still have with you the greatest possession and gift no one could ever take a way -- yourself. 

You can hide the pain that you feel and make others believe that you can move on but you can never deny the truth to yourself that the person who has failed and hurt you is still the person you will always choose to love. 

Whatever happens, it happens for a REASON. No one falls in love by choice, it is by CHANCE. No one stays in love by chance, it is by WORK. And no one fails out of love by chance, it is by CHOICE. 

There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn't expect you to understand that, or even believe it, but trust me; there are some love that don't go away. And maybe that makes them crazy, but we should all be lucky to end with that somebody who has little of that insanity. Somebody who never lets go. Somebody who cherishes you forever. 

Life is not meant to be fast. Life is beautiful. So try to be slow and savor them all that Life may bring to you... for being hasty will you make miss some of the Life's best things and best things in Life are free.. 

HAPPY RETREAT!!! "

When I read this, all of them almost happened to me. Touching I can say. Lalo na yun part that says "You can hide the pain that you feel and make others believe that you can move on but you can never deny the truth to yourself that the person who has failed and hurt you is still the person you will always choose to love. " Parang ako yun ha, and si Rheg and well all of us who had a break up this year. hehe

By the, condolence to Mark Bautista, who his mother just passed away yesterday. Mark was my HS classmate, same section with Igz, Ian and Rheg, so I hope he will be ok and I know his mom is now at good hands in heaven. Let's just pray for the best of Mark and his family.

Actually nalaman ko lang ito when I woke up due to so many messages in my phone and that's one of them. I went to Arlington asap and talked to Mark and good thing, nandun kami ng mga brothers ko. We talked a lot but cut short because me and Igz have work tonight. But if we can return tomorrow, we can drop by again.  Speaking of break ups, while we're talking about break ups and relationships, parang this year ata eh year of the break ups. Parang hula daw last year na this year is not a good year for relationships. Totoo kaya yun, kasi of course, mga brothers ko except Ian eh single na, pati si Mark and yun isa namin kilala break na din ang kanilang GF then some friends ko din, so this is not really a good year to have a relationship, sabay ba to ng economic crisis? hehe Bakit naman ako di nakaabot man lang ng January 1 at break na kami? hahaha Oh well, sana next year ay ok na dapat ang relationships. All of us has a right to be happy with a special someone. 

So, that's all lang talaga ang bago, well, nakapaglinis ako ng shoes, kasi naman, letcheng maynilad, nagbakbak na naman ng kalye malapit sa min so yun mga grabe and putik dumikit sa shoes ko. hehe I was to clean them, good thing. I just love my shoes I guess. 

By the way, its Joanne's birthday today, 10/30/08. Happy birthday dude! hehe The varsitarian editor in chief in our college days. Very good writer, speaker and friend as well. hehe Dude, sana naman libre ka ng lunch para naman macelibrate ang birthday mo, kaso di ka free. I hope we can celebrate it sometime. Good luck to your new job and God bless as well, take care! 

What else? hmmm as of now, I just want to finish this week and rest. I have plans for this coming weekend but I just keep it with myself. hehe Thanks Ann for the letter, and tomorrow's blog will be senti. I keep the best or worse for last. It's your take. 

Am I still here by xmas? hehe