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Siyempre, habang nasa harap si Zen ng pwesto namin at magrereport na naman about the never ending price freeze sa commodities, eto ako, nagtytype para sa blog ko for today. Hmmm her compare sa others? Maganda siya, pero, sorry, di pasado sa standards ko. Hehe Sana bumili naman siya sa shop namin kahit paload lang. Hehe Kakapagod magtype for these past days, nakita mo naman, mahaba kasi..

Nothing new for this week. Ah, congrats to ADMU they won easily yesterday. Simply, they used the advantage they have. No brainer. hehe Kudos to them except kay jaiyabang. hehe Napanood ko pala din kagabi before I sleep, Franz Pumaren, about resignation from being a coach. Napanood ko yun sa hardball. Well, short lang interview niya, pero nagtataka lang ako, bakit niya lalabanan si Defensor? or who the heck will be running for congressman district 2 QC, or 4 ata. Para naman feeling niya sure win si coach, which is not. However, thanks for being one of the great coaches of the UAAP. Bringing the animo spirit every game, because of your team. Naks, parang galing DLSU, which is not. Hehe Inoffer na pala siya na maging coach or assistant coach ng isang PBA team, sayang naman. Baka Red Bull nagoffer, kaya ayaw niya. hehe Good luck pa din sa kanya, kung yun talaga gusto niya. Sana manalo lang siya para di sayang yun pagalis niya ng DLSU. May Q&A portion dun eh, sana nagtanong ko kung sino sa mga nacoach mo player na mahilig bumenta. bwahahaha

Well, start na ng PBA Sunday, so parang magagamit ng todo yun tv phone ko. 28 naman NBA.

As for me, nothing changed, some disturbing thoughts going in my mind, like the what if's, or ganyan or kung ganun nangyari. Medyo magulo. Hehe Nagtatanong nga ko sa sarili ko, hanggang kailan ganito buhay ko. It's like I'm running in a lonely highway without an end. Thin line between regret and optimism. Even I have a smile on my face, I can't put it in my heart. How sad I am. Despite of that, I don't know why, I am still here.. Sana makabenta naman ako ng unit. Hehe Medyo inaalat ata ako this week. Sana makabawi ako next week.

Speaking of next week, medyo busy na naman kasi birthday ng inaanak ko, so malamang kasama ko ulit si Atty. Hehe Sunday, kasal ng isa sa mga close barkada. Don ng gapan. Hehe Akalain mo ikakasal na siya. Hehe Idol ko to nun nasa 2cpm ako..

What else? Wow, wala lang.. Parang gumaganda siya. Hehe I don't know, I can't take off my eyes from her. Aysus.. ayun, magsasalamin na. Nahawa. hehe

Not Zen.. Hehe may bloopers pala ang mga reporter, kung nandito lang kayo sa spot ko, at nakita niyo lang like practice tapos maginterview, tapos yun sinasabi after the interview like blah blah patrol ng pilipino. Hehe kakagulat ha, kakatawa! Sana nga, sa susunod, magpapicture kaya ko, pang FB lang. Hehe Isang blooper dun sobrang bilis niya magsalita, kinakain niya na yun sinasabi niya. Yun din ang markdown ko datis QA. Hehe Slow down babe..

Whoa, I'll rest my fingers for now, too much typing and numbers..

6 months search

"ikw ang gummybear bro. i will gve u 6 mos dpt may gf ka na."

-rheg, text 08/04/09

That didn't motivate me. Hehe anong pets na. Edi ibig sabihin, big time loser na naman ako. Bwahaha As I write this blog, well sinabi ko na kay Rheg na talo na ko kagabi pa. Peste talaga. Hehe What the hell is this? Well, sa sobrang love ata ni Rheg, I mean as a close best friend, hindi brokeback, eh he wants me to be happy, pati siyempre yun mga brothers ko. Best friends I mean. hehe

Eh we had some what kind of deal na pagnakaGF na ko within 6 months, ililibre niya ako sa Cajun. (Restaurant near Mcdo Retiro, kung gusto mo mura yet damn good dining food, I recommend you to eat there.) Pag wala ako GF after 6 months, ayun, parang DLSU vs. UST lang, manlilibre na naman ako. hehe

The result? You're looking at it. I don't have a GF. So much, very much, bloody loveless. Hay, naisip ko nga, do I need to wait another 23 years to have a better half again? hehe

Bakit? Magaling daw ako meeting girls which I don't think so. Edi sana 10 na ex ko. Hehe I take a relationship seriously kasi. Di kagaya ng iba diyan. Bwahaha Well, there are reasons. One, is which Rheg hates, my standards.. Korak! Kasi naman witness kasi siya, well di lang siya, pati mga friends ko, even my raceto2012 guys. Ayoko magexplain why, kasi realizations blog ko na yun. Hehe You can just ask them siguro. Maybe, I'm lucky or why go for less if you can go for more.

Two, Rheg is really a good friend, kaya loves ko to. Hahaha Talagang kahit wala kaming usapan na magreto siya ng friend for me, eh ginawa niya pa rin. He did refer me to some friends, pero like I said in my raceto2012 post, one of them, ayun di umabot sa deadline at di ko kakayanin. However, siyempre tuloy ang friendship with them, sa mga pinakilala ni Rheg. I am thankful for him, well, kasalanan ko din, ang ungas ko lang talaga. hehe Tuloy pa rin ang frienship, sayang naman di ba. May nakilala din ako na iba kaso di nagtetext eh. Once in a blue moon lang. Hehe Kaunti lang ang nakilala ko in the span of 6 months and I think that won't work. Hehe

Three, if I only meet few girls, then let's say I'm interested to them, kaso kailangan ng time and effort. Unfortunately, at this part of my life, I don't have extra time. Effort? Siyempre pag walang extra time, ibig sabihin wala kang effort. Alam ko kung anong effort like gifts, discarte, pero sobrang busy ako sa shop. Ala naman papuntahin ko yun girl sa shop and have a talk. Hehe saka di lang sa shop, pati na rin sa bahay. Hay bahay.. Sana kung college pa, edi pick and pick then select.. Loko lokong accounting prof yun. Hehe Ah, siyempre, wala pala ko funds. Ala naman all the time babae pa manlilibre. Hehe

Four, 6 months is not enough. That's it.

Five, hmmmmmmm I thought of fixing myself before going into a relationship again. I knew that my relationship before, even I thought I gave everything, kulang pala. Hehe Pero masarap talaga ang feeling, to fell in love to someone you want to spend with... Hay..

I want to arrange myself first back to balance..

Besides, after naisip ko ok na ko after break up, eh pwede na kaso, inisip ko muna sarili ko kung ready na ko, di lang yun puso ko, physically, mentally, even financially, hehe Kasi back to scratch ulit. Back to nil.. Kaso hindi pa, dami ko pa aayusin sa sarili ko. I can say nadrain ko. Hehe but no regrets.. Ever.. For her..

Six, Rheg knows another reason for this mishap. Hehe Even Khaye..

Seven..

"Babae lng nman mkkpagsaya sau e. Hehe loveyou pare.mwah"- Rheg text. 11/06/09

Tama siya, gandang birthday gift kaso, mukhang nahawa ata si Rheg kay gummybear. Hehe

I miss that happiness.. Love without boundaries..

$11,928,479,995,981

I have debts, but not that big. Hehe US dollars pa.. If I'm having, a difficult time escaping or makapagbayad ng utang, paano pa kaya ang isang bansa na may ganun kalaki na utang.. Well, what country is that? The United States of America. The country which my dad wants me to stay, way before, pero ayoko nga. Hehe I watched. I.O.U.S.A. documentary tungkol sa fiscal situation ng US. Actually, nung pinanood ko, parang $10 trillion dollars lang ata. hehe

Let's face the fact that everybody in this quiet planet gusto tumira sa US. I am lucky to visit US way back 13 years ago. Kasi graduation gift ni Daddy, grabe school graduation. hehe 3 months of fond memories being in the US. Great living, kahit nakikitira lang sa kamag-anak, weird cousins and relatives, good food, big malls, everything is good there except values. Hehe Family values I mean.

Cut that short, and go forward to what we are discussing. Hehe I mean it looks like everything is ok in the US. Pero pag na check mo yun situation nila, lalo ngayon, anu ba pinag gagawa nila at parang magtatanim na sila ng kamote sa future to survive.. Hehe

You know I love watching trailers, so I was serious after watching this trailer. A strong country with a very high debt.. I don't know paano sila tinawag na richest country in the world when you have that astronomical high debt. If they are indeed rich then pay the debt now! Hehe

Para naman napakadali nun, well the documentary deeply explains that.. It's not like the funny docu of Michael Moore, since iba naman gumawa nito. Actually, pwede nga siya pa film showing, very GP. Hehe The documentary starts with a journey of a concord coalition, a NGO who has a mission to spread the word about US "cancerous" fiscal situation. The narrator, US cheif accountant, also with the team. Not only that, guest din siya sa radio stations, tv shows, so parang artista ang dating with a serious tone. Hehe Then he explains what are the causes of this, gigantic debt. Well, it's deficit lang pero what cause that deficit sa tagal ng US dito sa earth.

That dude explains, they are 4 main deficits affecting US. First, budget deficits which involves government earnings and spending. Inflation and fiscal policies as well. Second, savings deficit, how much does the gov't save after all things they need to do, especially contributions of social security and etc. Third, trade deficit, how much the country produces than imports goods. Lastly, the most important part, leadership deficit. The president has the power to make amends/actions for these deficits. Unfortunately, no US president solved this ongoing problem. They just swipe the US credit card. Hehe

The docu ended on how this will affect their future and some solutions of this fiscal cancer.. Yun lang. Hehe Pero what I like in the film is paano niya explain lahat kung bakit naging ganun na lang yun US. As you check may part na may history of US sa film, talagang pagtayo ng US, akalain mo may utang na agad, lalo na nung dalawang WW. World wars. Hilig kasi makisawsaw. Hehe Tapos may part na talagang eye opener, magugulat ka na lang kung sino sa mga bansa ang inutangan ng US. I won't be suprised if the US will become a province of China, Japan, or even Middle East. Hehe Malala pa, baka pati social security eh ibayad nila. hehe Ayos. That's your government.

Ah, yes an interview with Warren Buffett. Kahit sandali lang, talagang nakakabilib, siya na mismo nagadvice na umayos ang US, saka ano dapat gawin. Kala ko ba isasami ni Obama siya sa kabinet? Kahit Secretary of budget or sa Monetary Board man lang. Hehe Squanderville na kasi ang US. I like the parts where common people were interviewed, checking if they know about money..

Of course, there are flaws. Like I said, since di siya fun to watch kasi parang nasa college ka, lecture to. Medyo boring. Nung una ko nilagay sa zune ko to, nakatulog ako. Hehe Unlike super size me, religulous, or Michael Moore docu's, eto serious tone talaga. Parang "the corporation" docu. Which until now, di ko pa tapos. Mas masaya nga panoorin yun Enron: The Smartest guys in the room eh. hehe

Another thing is, yun solution part, sobrang vague. Dapat specify din nila kung ano ba dapat gawin ng US to fix this mess. Don't wait until their grandsons are the ones to pay this huge debt. Or even our country..

What I learned? Even di ako US citizen, eh dapat matuto na ko about money. Parang ginagawa ko naman ata ngayon. Hehe Di lang yun. Sana mapanood din eto ng gov't natin especially our DBM. They should think of plans ahead of time of avoid this catastrophe happening in our country. Alam ko lumalaki na din ang utang ng bansa natin, at alam ko nagbabayad na tayo, interest lang. That's a fact. We won't let that happen to our grandsons and daughters right? My first advice? Behead the corrupt officials. Hehe Reduce corruption first, it will be a good first step.

I know I have so many debts. In fact, they thought I'm running away. Nah, I'm here and waiting for an arrest. Hehe Wala lang talaga pa ko pambayad. Pero pag ako may pambayad na, humanda sila. Hehe Kakahiya na.. Well, that's why I'm always broke. However, my motivation is 1 day, all of these debts are gone.. Prayers and hard work. I hope it works. hehe

I don't know kay United States of America, kung kailan siya magbabayad. Yun ang makapal ang mukha. Mahiya naman kayo sa mga kababayan niyo. hehe The figure at the tile is brought you by http://www.usdebtclock.org/. Thanks!

06=09

Don't ask Norman Black if he is having deja vu. Hehe Yan ay malalman sa huwebes. Akalain mo yun UE, my prediction only to them, at least 3rd or 4th place. Pero etong FEU kasi nakarma kay Barroca, ayun sibakation. Bwahahaha That game on Sunday shows UE has a big chance of ending a long drought. Hehe Sabagay, gusto ko mapahiya si Jaiyabang. Ang lungkot naman ng graduation nila with Badet and Rabeh. Hehe

Let's go back time '06. UST was the champion at the expense of ADMU. Same scenario. Hehe I am working, well malamang training with HSBC alabang. Tahimik pa ang buhay ko doon, down south. Hehe Ah yes, that time, I am with Rein, full of love. Aysus.. Yihee. Hehe

Well, simple yet secured life that time. Almost.. May inspiration pa. Hehe Sarap.. You can see that at my blogs in my friendster account. That year, was good for me.

Press fast forward, at eto na buhay ko now. Bad trip. Hehe anyway, alam mo naman ang buhay ko. Taghirap, magulo pero still happy, in the sense that I'm still here and still writing.. Not losing hope. Loveless. Hehe

Very opposite indeed what my life reached this year. Who's to blame? I'll let it out hmmm later months..

Naisip ko nga, kung di nangyari ang mga problema that time, siguro sobrang carefree na buhay ko at may lovelife pa ko papuntang marriage. Hehe Bitterness..

However, ganun talaga, you're in the web unescapable inner conflict, you'll be drawn to it, no questions ask. It's not I don't want to help, it's just I'm not the person to solve the problem. I made the problem worse..

And I'm paying it dearly until now. So don't ask me if I'm in deva ju. Hehe Those years are not really the same..

For me...

6:00

Weatherman Phil connors wakes up every 6:00am, on February 2nd, again and again, then again. Like yesterday did not happen.. Of course, I'm not Phil, and you may guessed what film I watched last week. It's groundhog day! hehe One of my favorite movies and thanks to torrent. I got it. hehe

After watching pure action, dark, horror movies. I thought of well, watch some feel good movies. Comedies for short. It's an old film, like I said before, I'm 80's and 90's guy..

The film has a very good cast, Bill Murray, Andie Macdowell, and others which also delivered good performances. Of course Bill Murray's acting stands out! Fantastic! ( I need to watch lost in translation I guess)

This is the story of a weatherman whose always assigned to report at Punxsutawney, PA (what the #@$k spelling of a city is that. I came from call centers and fortunately, I don't need to pronounce that everyday. hehe), on Groundhog day. Actually it's his third straight year. Agitated he is for the assignment, he still went to that tiny city with his lonely cameraman and new producer, Rita, who is Andie Macdowell. Of course, he checked in at the inn then it shows what's the routine when he goes there and what happened after his assignment. Suddenly, he wokes up, at the same time before he reports the groundhog day. He thought he's in deja vu, but when he wakes up again at that same day, he knew he's in trouble.

As the story goes, he was able to do anything he wants.. His adversity of getting out groundhog day is really funny. At first, he is taking advantage of it like getting to know girls, being rich, courting Rita which it did not end good, even speaking french.

When he was busted by Rita, and felt that his life is already worthless, he tried to kill himself, but well, he si still woke up at the same time, same day. Never ending cycle. He wakes up, like nothing damn happened.

Since he is doing nothing at that point and as you see he's selfish, so he thought of doing good on all the people in that town. Including his cameraman and Rita. Hehe The end of the story? Simple, after doing great things for the city and getting the heart of Rita, he wakes up February 3rd.

The film itself is great. I mean I really laugh at it, especially at the repeating scens. Then not only that, it has heart warming scenes like how Phil tries to avoid the death of an old beggar, or even the last scenes or the scene which Phil try to convice Rita that he is living the same day.

I wish my life was kinda like that. Stuck in 1 day repeating over, and over again until I get it right. I know my life now is redundant, and down, hehe. But as days goes by, I want to change my fate. Well, my path to be exact. Given a chance to recover. But having my life living the same day over again? Impossible for now. hehe

Lessons? Don't moch the groundhog? Bwahaha Nah, every single day whether it's redundant or a new day, happy, bad or boring, is a chance to make it right. As long you live the day, try to change for the better. For yourself and others I think. I just hope when I wake up one day, no more worries, anxieties or simply not living the same bad day. hehe

Thanks for imdb.com for this

Phil: I'm a god.

Rita: You're God?

Phil: I'm a god. I'm not *the* God... I don't think.

unplanned 1

first of the many posts that wrote, unplanned. Yes, nakaschedule na lahat ng ipopost ko. hehe Pero days in advance lang, like bukas, may subject na ko for the post. This is a proof that how addicted I am in this outlet called blogging.

Kumbaga sa studio albums, eto ang b-sides, or in a value meal, free sundae and drinks and fries. hehe So it's a bonus material if this is worth reading or whatever.

Today, well, back to normal, thanks that Pepeng wants to cause trouble in other places. Actually, di ko alam kung ano isusulat ko. In this type of post, I am just killing time I guess. Babalik na kasi ako later sa shop. I planned to rest today but oh well, paturo si Mommy left and right how to use facebook. You guess it right, she may become lola techie. hehe

Uploading pictures and sort of. How to do this and that. Ngayon ko lang naisip na dapat yun ibang posts ko, nasama sa ganitong set up. Siguro part 100 na to. hehe Lalo na yun mga posts ko na like I did one earlier, tapos gumawa pa ko ulit. hehe

Life is pretty quiet today, went to church, prayed hard, went to the shop, fix some things, then argued with Kuya allan. hehe Went home, thought of getting a rest but did not. Instead, ate fish, taught lola techie and here I am writing nuts.

Oh boy, when will be a time that I can just be alone or in a place seems no one disturbs me that much. Well, except for gerro. Or mom. hehe But it seems, no choice.

I haven't checked what is happening to magic this time. Full of crap it seems, but the new set is kinda good, new fetch lands!!!

Thanks to my tito in the US, oh may nakita na naman ako bittorrent na matindi ang library.. Hmmmm. Baka lahat ng hinahanap ko nandito na!!! Hehe

Anyway, this coming weeks medyo busy na naman ako. Baptism back to back with a Wedding again! Ayos. hehe Better than back to back weddings. hehe

Zune HD came out and unfortunately, wala ako. hehehe Pero, I will wait for any upgrades, kasi nabasa ko lang review, mukhang di masusulit sa wifi capability niya and web browsing. But other than that, ayos na Zune HD. hehe

Other than that, hmmmm eto na lang muna. Wala naman bago eh saka talagang purpose eh is to kill some time. hehe

What a waste of time!!!

Ciao..

Signal no. 1

Of course, we need to be cautious even Pepeng did not hit us. hehe But this is the real signal no.1 I'm expecting to, unlike last week na kala mo twister or doomsday tumama sa atin. Strong winds yet minimal rainfall. Manageable I believe. Hmmmmm. Nothing new for these past days, as usual, same old self. I thought tatama talaga yun bagyo pero mabuti at nadala sa dasal na wag na. Spare our city, good thing, yun mga tatamaan nakaprepare na like Cagayan, all the northern cities in luzon. Whew.

Plans? This coming week will be busy and I am expecting or hoping that malilipat na tong computer ko. Kakatamad na akyat baba para lang magcomputer. hahaha Edi dalin na lang sa taas. For my shop, hmmmm just hoping for good sales and to survive, as what Kuya Alpro always says. Kahit makabreakeven lang ok na, pero kung kaya bumenta, why not di ba. Sana malakas lang ulit this coming week. hehe Ah, oo nga pala, malapit na pala yun bet namin ni Rheg, pero siyempre talo na. Di naman ako nagkaGF eh. Hehe Anak ng tokwa, do I have time for love in my situation? I don't think so. Meeting girls, or acquiantances is a good start for me, but being close was not the homework I did. I did not finish it. I failed. hehehe

Anyway, I don't have really plans for that, for now. I want to fix myself first, then fix everything here, tapos bahala na. Dami pa aayusin dito. Kakapagod na nga. Mukhang matatagalan pa maayos ang mga yun. hehe

Oh, happy birthday kay Ate Jen. Sana masaya siya at good luck to her especially with her family, Kuya Alpro. God bless always and take care. Take some break.

Ah, yes, salamat nagkita kami ng mga brothers ko, lalo na si Doc and Igz. Kahit sandali lang tayo nagkita at sa lamayan na naman, eh masaya na ko, yun nga, peste si Rheg, lagi na lang ako nilalaglag. Bad trip. hehe Condolence pala kay Mark Manahan, whose his Dad passed away. I know, kaya ni Mark yan, bato nga tawag namin sa kanya wayback high school. hehe Bato kasi, tibay maglaro ng basketball.

What else? Hmmmmmmm may twitter na pala ako. JP CEO kasi eh. hehe Niyaya ako. Kala ko ano yun twitter, pero mukhang ok, kaso next time ko na lang iayos yun. My twitter? Just type in the search field blackswordsmann. That's it. I'll navigate it in my free time, if there is any. hehe

This month of October, as usual, like last year. Dark, surreal or even sad. I know I am kinda sad always, but not this month. Do I hate this month? Not quite. But I just feel bad. I don't know why.

Hmmmm, maybe ah! Last year was the time I fainted. hehe Or about somebody, or maybe something else. Oh, well, focus na lang muna sa shop. At sana makasetup na din ako dun. hehe

By the way, sana makaisa naman ang UE bukas. Tapos pwede na sila patalo sa game 3. hehe Masyado malakas yun ADMU pag di nila na stop si Rabeh. Bwisit. Nakarma kasi yun FEU. hehe

Life goes on for all of us, whether it's signal number 5 (as the first warning says) or another ondoy, or even the man shouting downstairs. I don't care, I just want to get out of this mess I made and come back. Better. Others, just move on, do your stuff and don't give up.

Drama ko naman. Wala lang kasi masulat. hehe

While writing this, I don't know what the hell is happening to my zune!!!!!

Oh crap.