A year of simplicity

Bilis ng panahon, isang taon na agad.

After that very painful end sa RAM last year.. Well, it was not easy for me. Yes, it was a lot of conrfusion, kahit nadepress eh mabuti tapos na.

For those who are looking for me, lalo na sa 24/7 eh eto na. hehe Or other friends as well who are wondering what happened to me after that sad end. Anyway, mabuti ok naman yun operation ni Dad sa kidney at ngayon he's doing well except going for regular check up. Naku! Ergghh.. hehe But he's ok.

Yun maliit ko shop and business for cellphones kahit load eh wala na, I gave it up since February last year. The reason behind that is simply pag balik ko ng calls or any job na parang malayo sa RAM eh parang di ko na kaya. I can't believe that I was able to sustain being sa salesman, manager, tapos FS/RAM agent for almost one and a half year. Every single damn day. I can't rely my income dun lang sa shop, especially medyo nadrain not only physically pero emotionally din. But well, until now, nandun pa siya thanks to Kuya.

But I won't regret that I have that venture for 3 years, meaning I can hold a business pala despite yun mga kaunting misses and inconsistency sa strategy.

It took me almost 4 months to find a new job, at sa Teletech pa. Telstra pa account! haha Residential billing was my queue, handling all types of inquiries. Almost all, siguro except tech and online questions. Pero as much ok yun sked but damn, napakalayo at dangerous. Lalo na sa taft around 3am. Geez... Why it took me 4 months of looking for work? Well, I tried to stay away sa industry again but I ran out of luck. Although nadiscover ko naman yun ibang places like the fort and mckinley, pero alat talaga. hehe

I only stayed 5 months sa Teletech, the shortest in any job I took sa BPO. Wow, very pathetic. hehe They tried magwinback pero nah, wag na. Besides, sa balita ko ngayon, gulo na dun. At kahit dumami ang LOB nila, forget it. But thankful at ok naman yun pay pero not worth it especially ganun kalayo at ang sked. Kakapagod. I miss yun team dun, buenas pala ako kasi yun TL humawak sa kin, sobrang bait kaysa yun ibang TL dun na napakasungit at walang kwenta! hehe

After that boozed out session with that team, ayun I resigned then after somewhat 3 weeks, I found a job sa Stellar in my favorite place to work. Eastwood. hehe

Ayun, I work sa Simply Energy as CSR in backoffice for their billing queue. I can't believe na backoffice na ko and kahit well, way below ang sweldo, ok naman, enjoy and not very toxic. Although mas mahirap siya sa RAM ng kaunti but may support naman, kahit wala yun magaling namin TL. hahahaha

Between those times, of course, I got the rest I need, simply not doing anything, or just around the house. Kung may gimik sama naman ako, minsan hindi pa din kasi budget. hahaha And yes, more closer to Him, family and friends. Masakit siyempre yun nawala yun job na gusto mo pero ganun talaga sa industry na to, you're lucky if you have the same job for 3 years. Geez, that job security for you.

But I have no hard feeling of it.. I've move on, then now may mga plano na ko na matutuloy na basta talagang will ang papasok sa kin then I'll see if it's good. Thanks for that whole year, I've become focused sa kin, what I really like, what I can do, and what I am aspiring for in the future. Small or big plans, I know now.. I know it will be another long journey, but it's better to start than procastinate.

Better late than never nga sabi nila. I can't believe I am now approaching 3 decades. I asked myself, did I really achieve something in my life. Of course, masasabi ko na wala. Pero sana for the coming years, kahit small change lang, that will motivate me to work harder, to do better and serve, especially for Him. Yes, I've now becoming closer to God and I feel refreshed about it. =)

Jesus, oh boy, I pray that you're always my guide. =)

Now, I'm enjoying the things I have, alam na kung ano ano yun. hehe Pero I'm getting closer to change my computer muna.. So I can start studying again that SAP module. Tapos yeah, excercise, reading, doing chores, working hard sa SE.. Meeting interesting people which it's happening, I can't even do that before. hahaha Ah, yeah, not pressuring myself too much unlike before.

But my friends, oh God, pressuring me to have a girlfriend/fiance/married thing. Geez.. I know single na ko for what, 6 years na..

Tama! hahaha Pero darating din naman ako diyan.

I can't believe na kahit marami ako pera those times, narealize ko lang na sobrang pagod ako or yeah worse, getting unhealthy not only outside but also in relationships. Kahit anong diskarte ko to manage everything, it's not working. Passion is gone and just don't care of anything else, just earn.

Now, even I'm rich as a rat, I enjoy the simple joys of not getting up so early to think ahead sa shop, work and others. I enjoy waking up, doing what I need, then work then here.. Write, watch flicks, play if I can sa computer. hahaha Going out with family, friends..

To pray, and yes.. Read more. I felt healthy. Like they saw me..

One step to living a life of fullness and happiness, perhaps..

As simple as that!

Daddy Freddie

Throughout the years, I'm kinda distant with him. Honestly, at first after what happened, eh I was harsh or had bad feelings towards him... But panay naman bisita ko sa kanya and hingi ng tulong. hehe 

However, feelings changed and it's for the better. =)

As I unravel some truths and logic, and spending more time with him, I can proudly say I have a loving Dad. Besides giving me a simple but good name, he really provided me everything that a father do. Values you need to know while growing up, working hard, hmmmm right decisions in life kahit di ko pa nagagawa, magdrive kahit di ko natatapos ituro sa kin.. hehe Doing errands like pumunta sa mga hardware and other shops, be tough kahit siya eh mas nerbiyoso pa sa akin. hehe To pray din, and read a lot. Most important is finishing education which I hope he did see me graduate.

A lot more he did teach me sa buhay at siyempre, mahal naman ako niya like Mom. He love all of us despite our shortcomings or approach niya iba't iba bawat isa sa amin. We're blessed to have him always as our Dad. Of course, a lot of memories with him not all eh masaya but some really fun, like yun Circle days namin, or even his treat out.

Although not perfect, I can say he did everything for us to provide what is good or sometimes what we want in our lives. He never runs out na mga paalala niya about life, especially health. Kasi naman with all the health complications he experienced, eh sobrang nagpapayo na siya. Diabetic, kidney stone removal, and triple bypass heart surgery.. And he's still here. Thank God that he was able to overcome all of it!

I know it's a second chance for him for this life and he is still doing it until now for us. Even he should be retiring but well, he's working. Maybe he doesn't want to stop working because he doesn't know what to do if just sleep or resting all the time. 

Sa kanya ko siguro nakuha yun talino, hmmmm mahiyain. hahaha Nerbiyoso din ako.. Makalat din ako kahit lagi naman ako naglilinis! hehe Ah matiyaga, at sa pag gastos din. hehe Palatawa at faithful din. Moves o diskarte to ladies, I don't know. It's our genes perhaps.  Bwahahaha Reading din ha saka sipag sa aral.

Saka responsibilidad and accountability. Doesn't really show he's in worry even a mountain of debt comes or any other event comes. Pero sa loob, sobrang kinakabahan na! haha Parehas kami.

I hope there will be a time na I could spend not only more time pero siyempre treat out din or giving him something he likes. 

I want to say thank you Dad for everything you did di lang sa kin but all of us sa family. I do understand what happened to us sa family, or even in your ventures. Like you always say, kapalaran talaga. But don't worry, I'll do my best to kahit papano, change fate. Or if I can, defy fate.

I always pray na you'll have a long life, be productive, at naku magpacheck up! 

We love you always, God bless and please take care lagi ha. Always really check yourself lalo na sa health. We'll do our best to make you proud. I know I have shortcomings, and I'm sorry to fail you but I'll do my best to make up for it. Dad, if you need something or kung gusto niyo help if you need any.. Don't hesitate to call us po! hehe

And if you think you do have shortcomings sa kin or hurt me anytime, ok lang yun. That's done, I'm thankful and I forgive you, like Mom. I'll always love you and yeah, the second eh. hehe

Mabuti naman di na wanbol tawag niyo sa kin. Malamang wala na eh!

One day, I can drive you around with my car. =) 

ReView

Can we just move on to February? hehe Hay, as much I want to be great or at least good sa work eh mukhang alat na ko. QA lower than last month, and some bad luck na din kasama sa QA, ayun, kadisappointing. I'm surprised why they still ask questions for me for help even they have better QA scores than me.. Absurd isn't it? hehe

But anyway, yeah, for this month that's a big letdown. Parang di lang March ang malas na month for me, (according to previous years.) pati na talagang itong month na to. I don't know why! Siguro I need to do those new year rituals to put away bad luck, such as maraming bilog na fruits sa mesa, (I remember marami naman kami nakahain), jumping with those coins (which I don't like to do), making new year's resolutions (which only confuses me for the rest of the year and I have kept some already), at marami pa. Nah, I don't believe that much sa mga ganun. =)

Well, important is to move on na lang to the next month. Besides, I have 11 more months to make it up and to do better. By the way, mabuti nakabalik na ang punishing fire ko at mukhang maayos naman. No major letdowns or any weird happening to it. Pero once pagtagal nito, I'll just get a sammy one due to service and warranty. Damn these china's other brand spinoffs, very tricky. For now, important eh may film fest ulit ako, but not every week kasi sa sked. Important eh unti unti nakakapanood na ko ng straight. hehe

Yeah, another great thing, hmmmm as much I want to go to other brands, eh Philips seems to be keep enticing me to get one of their in-ears. I did at this one, I can say, even not louder as yun pioneer na in-ear pero very crisp naman after burning it for 50 hours, at way better than MOS in-ear, with it's tough cord at really fit in my ears. Sana black na lang kinuha ko. hehe Kaso light blue or aqua is enough.

Despite lowered QA score, I kinda like the work, not stressful like taking calls or so, may pace kung baga. As much I want to it RAM type of work pace, di pwede! Bad trip, kailangan metikoloso. hehe Unlike RAM na pag nakita mo lang yun type ng transfer eh ratsada na agad, kahit walang second look.. Dito, damn really need to check every detail. hehe Even for a third look, hay kailangan maayos pa din.

So, for this one, I need to be detail oriented and definitely careful so I can reach high QA next month. Or just to pass it will be fine with me. Medyo bagalang ko na lang lalo kung maclose ko yun task. 

For this month, definitely better than last year. I mean, last year eh binibilang ko na lang yun araw enjoying working sa RAM because of its demise.. Now this year, although not getting a good score eh I still have a simple yet fun job. Kakasabi nga ng isang TL kagabi, stay and aim for high scores and position, you'll be somewhere in the company. Nasabi ko nga 1 year, I want to be in a different position. Just to do something different than agent or so.. I'll just do my best every day at my work and to help the team. Always. Stay siyempre! 

Otherwise, at the back of my mind, at my real mindset...

I have other plans.  =)

Eye of the Beholder

Looking across such wide, massive windows,  I can't comprehend what lies beyond that.
Just staring to those luscious greens, clear sky with serene scenery, I thought that if I can stare the whole day above. Looking and just wandering whole day..

Alone, in a big, big, big house.

Back of my mind, I don't know how I will stay here if I do own this great house. Let's say I'll be so dazed and lazy everyday waking up and go down, then work. I want to just stay at home and live freely.  Alone all the time. But of course, not for long. Spacious, almost zen like environment, less clutter and vibrant.

I can say it's a dream house but its quite big for me or even if I have a future family.

I may not even need a lot of space for it. However, due to the spacious design and almost minimalist one, I can say I enjoy having this kind of house. At least I can stay for a while, once in a lifetime.

Past weekend, I planned everything already but it seems I delayed it. I just watched TV all day, even I thought I should clean the house.. I surf the net then I almost forgot to write something for my blog. With the amenities I needed, it seems like I can't leave this house except for work of course. 

Besides with all the amenities and great features it has.. How about the comfortable beds and ergonamic furnitures? Rooms are quite big, its like combine the 2 rooms in the second floor at our home just equivalent to a room here! One thing stood out the most is I can just stare outside, without those bothering windows, just the plain outside sky. 

Birds chirping, greener leaves, more trees than housing or other obstruction. Simply, a quiet, serene place, especially here upstairs. 

A deep sigh suggest that I kinda like it here. 

Better enjoy staying here since we did not have this kind of house before! =)

Better stay here perhaps!

Better have one in the future...

unplanned 43

Well, eto naghahabol for that old school light comedy film fest week. Haba. hehe Anyway, siguro for now as I am impatient of having a new computer and get on with my digital plans eh mukhang waiting style muna ako. =) Before that and to keep me busy, better ready of getting fit. I should read or indeed prepare yun binigay sa kin ni Raims na program and Rick's program, let's see if it will works for me. 

For this past week, ayun medyo alat sa QA pero ok lang, bawi na lang for the final weeks. Work although yeah, not really financial rewarding pero ok naman, not stressed or somewhat pressured. Siguro more of improving na lang sa QA and to reach my goals for the next month. I haven't thought of taking a VL, I'll reserve that for important na lakad. This year with all that small plans I have, there is one more goal I need to reach..

Surprisingly, di ko naman naset pero biglang lumitaw. See your close friends or even friends you haven't seen for a while, a very long time. Like kay Ate Mela, na it was a refreshing trip going to her house siyempre nandun ang kanilang baby Bianca Trish, at siyempre si Mike. At mabuti nga talaga nakaalis na ko dun, with the chismax I got.. Ayos! Hahaha tama lang pala ang escape route. 

Then, Bes is also sending signals na when will I meet her. Definitely top of my list, before travelling around, maybe time na din to meet her personally or kahit sa video call perhaps. hehe 

Another suprisingly event, For Cy and Ghe, congrats! I wish the best for your wedding and I can't believe I'm invited! hahaha Even I did not see Cy for once after college at kahit di ko siya kaclose nung college but thanks to my blog and multiply, I will be meeting one of my fans. hahahaha 

Other friends that I haven't seen for a long time, dapat nga today pupuntahan ko another close friend kaso piyesta sabi ng isang friend ko, hirap pumunta. Next time na lang.. =)

Sad to say, ROS got swept away. Pero ganun talaga, ayoko ko lang kasi sa TNT kasi matagal na silang champion. Pero give credit to them, despite with a weird frontcourt.. They won a championship again! Sana Alaska na lang nakalaban nila sa finals. hehe

NBA, can't believe OKC is the number one team! Pero makikita natin kung gaano talaga sila kagaling pagdating sa Playoffs, lalo na walang Harden na and with a new offensive system. I hope Perk will improve lalo na sa defense. Yun na lang gagawin, katamaran pa niya! hehe

Can't wait na din sa new sked, an hour earlier, pero ok lang kaysa sa walang change sa sked. Still hoping for a morning sked, kung pwede lang palayasin yun ibang LOB! hahaha

Unfortunately, this month will be start of a long time circus towards election day.. Can we just vote those who are really qualified and dedicated, not those who look nice or sounds good in any place..  Geez, simply vote for the right people. Except siyempre sa mga makukulit na kay laging tumatakbo, talo naman. hahahaha Yeah, all of them, almost.. Parang perya na to, iba't ibang talent para magpasaya ng tao pero pagkatapos nun, wala na! Peryang perya nga. hehe

Mukhang ok naman ang less posts for a month. Wala naman masyado epekto, although sobra ng 10 for this month, pero reaching 10 is no problem. 

A lot of time for rest , being productive and waiting. 

Patiently.

The West Memphis Three doc series

 I stumbled upon a news that after 18 years in prison, 3 guys who were arrested due to murder of 3 8-year old boys and persecuted because of a belief that it was done as a satanic ritual, are free. 18 years, damn, they did miss a lot of their lives.  Of course, I read the facts through wiki and I saw something wrong in their verdict. Well, as the trial did 18 years ago and with a lot of mishandling, inappropriate proceedings and harrowed prejudice, the state of AK persecuted indeed 3 innocent boys. I thought our justice system is bad, in that case, justice system is a lot worse!

 I can't believe and it's for the record that I watched the 4 documentaries in a span of one day. It's a marathon, I tried to pause and say I'll come back next day or a week but nah.. As I thirst for answers and keep hoping that those 3 will have their freedom even in a most crazy way, I was able to finished it.

There were 4 documentaries made for the plight of truth and justice for these 3 guys who were sentenced of death row and life sentence. 3 out of 4 made for HBO, called Paradise Lost 1, 2 and 3. The another one which I believe has the bigger budget and a lot of movie star support is West of Memphis. If I will be asked which one is the best or so.. I say, if you want the whole journey from start to finish, just watch Paradise Lost series. If can't stand watching around 2 and a half hours each documentary, and you want a shorter version, go to West of Memphis. 

As I was saying, the story starts, well.. I also advise you check wiki for this because it will be very long if I give the all details. But to make it short, 3 guys were arrested of murdering 3 8-year old boys. Those boys were killed in a gruesome manner, beaten, bitten and it may thought of sexually molested and one of the boys was sexually mutillated. All of these, as the police and persecutors pointed that this happened due to a satanic cult. Then, unfortunately for the 3 guys as there were witnesses, or even a confession directing of persecuting Jessie Misskelly, Jason Baldwin, and Damien Echols for these crimes. The facts they used? First Damien wears black clothing, loves heavy metal music including Metallica, and has knowledge of Wiccan religion even he's catholic. Jason was just a close friend of Damien who well, also likes stuff that Damien does. Jessie is really doesn't know the other 2 as he was forcibly confessed that he saw the killing or participated one due to the fact that he's borderline into mentally retarded. As emotions were high even the best defense lawyers can do, prosecutors and police was able to sell great logic to the jury.. 

Damien was sentenced to death, Jessie for 40 years in prison and Jason, life imprisonment with no parole. Their journey for freedom starts there, 18 years.. Yes, 18 years later after all the support they've got from the documentaries, even the people of the state, the family of the victims or even their respective families, then celebrity support such as Peter Jackson, Eddie Vedder, Johnny Depp, Dixie Chicks and others... They were free as they did the Alford Plea, meaning they will plea guilty, but they will maintain innocence and reduced life sentence as indeed around 18 years in prison. 

They are now free, but of course, they want to know still who is the real killer of those 3 innocent boys. Until now, nothing filed or even arrested a suspect of these murders. 

It is sad that in this life, or in this world, this kind of justice still processing in our society. It's sad that like the US with all its capabilities, with their State and Federal Laws and advanced law enforcement, taking pride of their Jury system, has big flaws. Not only these cases, but a lot of cases, big ones. Like the case in Gasland which it involves enviromental issues and they don't seem to care of the towns that were experiencing health issues. Or how about in the Invisible War which higher military officials done sexual harassments or even rape got away and some of those accused even got promoted! Or simply the Client 9 blown out, I mean Spitzer is not perfect, he admitted that, even Bill done that but because of his resignation due to immense pressure from the wall street giants, USA fall to deep recession because of the banks/corporations he exposed who were rigging. 

For this simply case that made out of hand due to wrong interpretation of evidence, or even procedures of the cops.. I mean, it's hard.. It's bothersome not only in the US, but the whole world. I mean, like here in this country, as we have a justice system which also or almost like any other justice system, a lot of holes or loops just to get out or if you're unlucky, you'll get in due to the fact of a lot of factors. Whether it can be political pressure, mishandling of evidence or facts or worse, due to slow process of our justice system, it wore out in the end. 

What fascinates me in these series was how this jury, able to buy that notion at the trial of Jessie, that his confession was falsely made. In the simplest defense and logic, they did not listen. It's the first time I heard a real forced confession. Well, here it happens but this one, no force physically was done unlike here. hehe But police knew that Jessie is somewhat mentally challenged, they kept him asking the questions for a day, then in the end because of that pressure, he gave what the police want. Jury or the judge did not even check the evidence, I mean they dude was kept in police for a day then the confession recording played in the court room was only 45 minutes? Is that really enough evidence to pin him down? Not only that, with a lot of witnesses testifying that Jessie was far away from the crime scene at that night even there was a written proof, they did not look at the evidence. 

Then, going to Damien's and Jason's trial, with all the proof that they were in school or each other's house at that night of murders. They did not listen as well. What helped to get them convicted? The so called forensic expert plus the "cult" expert then one dude who said Jason confessed that he done and that which in the end, he was a drug addict and admitted it was made up, all of those poor points of evidence led to the conviction of the two. That doesn't include well, how police forgot asking the neighbors what happened to the time of the crime, even the families of the victims were not that throughly investigated which they really messed up in the end. 

Hay... It was really more than a national spectacle, it's more of a circus show that these 3 guys will be put to that you know wheel and the other person at the other end has a knife and keeps throwing to those 3 guys until they we're worn out. I felt sad after watching the first Paradise Lost, seems after that no hope for those 3. 

Then, as years goes by, new evidences were showing up due to the help of those fans who watched the first Paradise Lost. Like most of the viewers, they can't stand the hypocrisy happened to those 3 guys! They raised funds and get the necessary support and more credible and reliable experts, then new evidences emerging. Such has there were bite marks, and with it, it will show no DNA from those 3 present to the victims. Some of the evidences were planted and do not really link to any of those 3 accused. New suspects can be questioned or maybe have involvement in the crime. Other factors also arises such as the state of Arkansas approved new trial for new DNA findings and sorts...

But why it took 18 years? Well, there were a lot happening in the appeals of these guys, especially Damien who accused his former defense lawyers of not representing him correctly, then the biggest factor was the judge of the murder trials which until now I can't believe it... All the appeals they have done for retrial or new trail, it was the same judge who convicted them in the first place? How you will win an appeal if that same judge will trial the case? There was one instance that he did not even look at the new evidence or hear the arguments, he out closed the case and said no for the appeal. Did these guys have a right to have a different judge to trial the case? Hell yeah! But nah.. 

However, in the end of their plight of freedom, they were able to get a breakthrough of the case, such as The Supreme Court allowed them due to the new law of DNA testing for the guilty convictions to re-examine the cases again, to have retrial or hearing the new evidences. Then, the state had a election for Senate, this judge they allowed to win so a new judge will hear the case. 

Then, just August 2011, a surprise hearing made and the prosection, and the defense agreed for an Alford Plea to make this case closed and move on.. The 3 guys agreed and made this plea to the Judge. Judge agreed, set them free. 

At first, those who were shouting for execution of those 3 way back 18 years ago, you can check that in the first Paradise Lost but 18 years later, they were shouting for the freedom of those 3. They did understand the evidence, logic and other suspects can be involved in this murders, they want them free.. Which I can't believe the jury of the trial, the judge, prosecutor who made a great acting in the trial but great he lost in the elections.. hehe And even the retired police investigator who initiate this fiasco of convicting 3 innocent men.. They still believe that those 3 done the crime. Geez, they're simply outrageous! 

For the Paradise Lost series, what I really like was the emotion build up collected in the first 2 parts, I mean they got blow by blow accounts of the case and even some evidences pointing not to the three guys.. It's real and yeah, I did not mind it's 2 and a half hours each. Although the third one did not disappoint, but it was kinda rushed even it has nice graphics and clear cinematography and pacing. It's shorter and it lack some facts or new evidences which they it did not show in detail. But what I love in this documentary, damn Metallica soundtrack all over it. Ted gonna love this. hehe Metallica shown support wayback 1996 by giving their music which they not always do in movies.. Because maybe they love the convicted that they are proud fans of their music and nothing to be ashamed of. Gotta get the best of Metallica. The documentary properly used the music in the major shots and I love there the scene which Jason's Mom wants to dedicate Nothing Else Matters of Metallica to the 3 guys because indeed, nothing else matters to her but the 3 convicted guys innocence from  the crime. Real justice should be served. She want them free. Cool Mom! =)

For the West of Memphis, this what Paradise Lost 3 loss, it was filled by this movie.  More compact and accurate timeframe of the trial and some of the evidence and facts that you did not see in the Paradise Lost series, are here! I was laughing although I should not but yeah, it's clever on how those boys got scracthed, bitten and the unlucky one, police did not even think of it. New evidences were explained in detail here, better.. The logic also explained in the right way.. Most importantly, you can really see or feel who is the real suspect for these murders. Or maybe there are two of them. What I like most in this film, not the OST because no Metallica here, there is Eddie Vedder song but I like the Metallica stuff. hehe But it's the celebrity involvement of this case. I mean I'm not a Peter Jackson fan but in this film, I said damn, I am his fan! He exerted not only financial support but also effort to really push for the freedom of these accused. Count Johnny Depp in then you have Eddie Veder who I am surprised he supported these guys from the start, then let's thank that Dixie Chicks Vocalist who because of her libel case against one of the stepfather victims, has shed some light in the murder case. They were up and arms for the freedom of the West Memphis three and a lot believed in their advocacy and followed for the fight. 

The star of course of these documentary is West Memphis Three.. I feel very sad for these three especially at the time of the trials, I mean I don't know how they were able to survive for 18 years of waiting in agony. For Jessie, I mean, even he's that mentally challenged, you can see he was afraid at the trial, admitted he was coerced. But indeed a loving son and his family stood behind him. For Jason, I mean almost not agreeing to the Alford Plea which it may cost their early freedom, very calm and not really agitated thanking for the support of his Mom and friends. And Damien, as he said that he's very thankful for the documentary because without it, he might be killed inside the prison or by himself. But he never give up and I'm happy for him not only he got married but also find peace and happiness after he was released. Happily Married. For those 3, I wish them enjoy freedom, and move on.. Although it was a hard process but well.. In the end, they prevailed even in a flawed manner. I will do the same thing, even I mean it will be a longer trial for getting all the evidences, talking again and looking for those witnesses who were coerced and say this in the trial before.. The appeals and arguments, I mean do you think the prosecution will just let them get away, of course not.. As the last prosecutor thought, well.. It will be more costly and a long process if there will be retrial. Besides, it's one of a big deal of a lifetime. I just want to get out, let the facts present if not with the justice system, but the minds of the many that indeed.. You are innocent. 

I hope that whether it's a jury type of system or the regular one, everybody should really go to the evidence rather than the emotions or pressure of many. I mean, this won't happen if the jury just checked the evidence or even thinking of basic common sense. Make sure listen to the right experts not the so called experts who did not even take right courses or training. But sad to say, this might happen again if not there, or here, it will happen everywhere.

John Byers, well.. After watching the last Paradise Lost 3 and West of Memphis, I believe you did not do something but it doesn't mean you're off the hook, one last time. If there will be an investigation again, just submit and prove you're innocent then yeah.. You're free! Great job you did at the Paradise Lost 3, with that cardboard you made with all the logic and facts. You're pretty damn right. 

Terry Hobbs, if you're really innocent.. Maybe it's time to really admit or defend yourself with all the evidence or even testimonies pointing to you, and the history you have. I mean, it's not bad to have yourself again in trial like what you did in your case against the Dixie Chicks. Just prove yourself. How about negating that  "hobb's family secret" statement. It will help you see. By the way, it will be hard for your friend to keep quiet and doesn't know anything in the murders especially when there is DNA evidence involving him. I'm thinking although John Byers can do by himself because of his physique but he has no history of violence, unlike in your case. I'm also thinking 2 people would've done it. 



For those kids, don't worry, if not now.. Later, justice will be served. =)

flashbacks: Cutterpillow Album

The greatest OPM album ever. Simple as it sounds, but well evident naman sa lahat ng mga ka edad ko or even pumunta sa Eheads reunion concert eh malamang gusto makinig ng halos lahat ng kanta sa album na to. 17 songs of about love, iba't ibang trip, even CMT, or having a bliss in life. Melancholic songs na din, very sad or some songs na sobrang happy. A well balanced album that appealed to all of us. 

I don't think may ganitong album pa ginawa after that, well they tried even Eheads themselves but di ko na trip. Naging iba na sounds nila after this. There were a lot of reasons, Ely changed inspiration, Raimund has other bands or even produced other bands album, Buddy and Marcus doesn't really care kung ano mangyari as long they can do their own thing. At marami pang rason, which lead to there inevitable disbandment. Siyempre nagreunion sila after sometime for the fans which was very lovely. 

For me, I missed the reunion concert, but did not mind anyway. As long I have this album and listen to it, worries or troubles seems to be far away. In a high! 

Out of their numerous albums, I only liked 4, siyempre yun makulit na ultramagneticpop, yun dark yet clever Circus, tapos eto na. I did have their Christmas album, Fruitcake pero yeah not really worth for keeps. hehe

Before, noong nasa school pa ko, uso pa nun yun casette and cd's as for music collection. Ako naman yeah, I have a collection na, ang nasa OPM ko lang eh Eheads albums, CD's pa nabili ko sa tower records here sa QC (which now became a rent space owned by national bookstore). I remember, the first Cutterpillow copy I have was given to me by Kuya Dong, casette pa siya and at first I did not mind. Kasi hinahanap ko mga kanta eh nasa Circus pala, that time, bagong release pa lang ng album. 

However, as days goes by and after listening to it since di ko alam paano pumili at bumili pa ng tapes. hehe Parang naattached ako agad and became a treasure for me. I mean, everyday, after school, I go home and before doing something, I listen to this album and kinda cheer me up for the rest of the day.

So going back to those school days, ayun I forgot kung sino humiram ng casette basta I'm sure may humiram at after sometime and checking my music collection, aba wala na! Di ko na makita. Damn... 

Kaya ayun, bumili naman ako ng CD type ng Cutterpillow. By the way, ang kulit ng cover ng ablum, with that iconic jelly fish pciture thatpos orange cover, with the lyrics and yun funny dun ay ang thank you part na walang pause, I mean no period or comma, basta tuloy tuloy lang. 

Anyway, college days, since di pa uso ang burning, eh siyempre ako may CD player sa skul at minsan dala ko yun Cutterpillow, as a nostalgia from my other classmates, nakita nila. Gusto nila hiramin, pinahiram ko naman..

Same thing happens as I checked my CD collection, wala na siya! Erghhhh. hehe But welll, all I have is the mp3 na lang which sana lahat mayroon na di ba. hehe

Well, I can't blame na di na siya nasauli, who will not hate that album? Geez, it symbols the generation ko, I mean it's like Voltes V, Shaider, Eat Bulaga, or even Palibhasa Lalake, part of growing up ang album na to. Cutterpillow. Ganun siya kaiconic. =)

I want to thank Eraserheads for this and of course from all the fans, well keep this piece of treasure. Many artists or bands lalo na sa OPM are doing albums na maganda, like Radioactive or UDD, or even Orange and Leomons that I don't why they disband. hehe But nothing, nothing will come close to this album. I thought meron pero nah... hehe

Definitely a pinoy OPM great album. Hands down. 

Dati fave kong kanta eh Ang Huling El bimbo kaso through the years, naisip ko masyadong malungkot. hehe Superproxy, slo mo, back2me, fine time!!!! Those di pwede wala sa playlist ko. hehe Pero yun pinakafave ko, I just realized at kinakanta ko pa sa karaoke! Huwag mo nang itanong . hehe At second fave, Torpedo.

Weird secret last song. =) 

"I used to have a cat
Who wouldn't ever wanna get fat
So she ate a feather pillow, yellow willow
A furry furry furry furry furry furry furry little fellow
Exercising all day
She never could swim in the beach it seems
Infested with jello like fishes no melotron wishes
The cat and the pillow and the jello like fishes"