A Prodigal Son

One of the beloved and well known parables in the bible. A very long gospel which endears me most especially at times that I kinda slip due to my sins.. Di ko akalain, sa dami ng parables na gusto ko basahin or memorize, eto yun parang tumitigil ang mundo ko or it always giving me fits... Kung baga, parang, mapapaisip at mararamdaman mo na talagang mahal ka ni God. 

I admit that I'm a sinful person, for the past long years.. Pero masasabi ko naman na nagbago ako paunti unti nga lang. hehe Hatred was gone. A bit of alcoholic eh wala na, not drink or sip an alcohol for like 4 years. hahaha Pwede naman sa inom pero depende kung sino magyaya, but definitely, just few bottles I'm done. I'm more optimistic than pessimist. Unlike before na baligtad. I'm more understanding, lalo na sa mga taong nakapaligid sa kin. I feel more relaxed despite immense pressure or stress. Yes.. A bit change sa health but still, I'm far behind being healthy. hehe 

But despite those changes, I need to change more. Like the son did in the story, squandered inheritance in a far away land. I did waste something for the past years, my time and effort. I did not manage well the expectations. Kala ko kaya ko pero hindi pala.. Dagdag mo pa na yun iba, na I felt napagiwanan na. Sakto, the son felt that same way nung wala na siyang makain. Said to himself, na mabuti pa yun mga alagad ng tatay ko, di nauubusan ng pagkain at iba pa. Mas mabuti kung bumalik na lang ako and tell him I'm sorry and deny me as a son and make me one of your servants! It's hard to eat and swallow, pride, failures, disappointments tapos babalik ka sa Ama na tanggap na nagkamali ka at gusto mo magbago ulit.

Mahirap, kung ako ito, sa ngayon, parang pabalik pa lang ako sa Ama. Drained, confused and thirsty. Great thing that the Son was able to go back and given the finest robe at may fiesta pa na may masarap na baka! Wow. 

Samantala ako, I just got out from the mud and going back, in the right path. Yes, coming from that mud of sin, despair and exhaustion. For the past days, while listening to Fr. Bob's talk, I just felt I'm really that sinful. It means, the hardest part of conversion is now at hand. I just figure it out how to overcome them. Make to do some sacrifices such as define my value. Look for a work that not only makes money but ignites or envigorate passion.

Get out the old ways, forgive myself, learn to purify. Get away from JAV. =( Damn these stars... hehe Value the people around you more and became more patient. If I'm alone which I always feel these days... Pray na lang. Or talk to myself.. Look other ways to fill myself with love from Jesus. 
These difficult things, I felt that hindering me to grow further. That's why, I'm thankful for this holy week and yes, this story.. It reminds me that at the end of that long road, that hope and love, faith I learned always... I just need to stick with it. Stick with it every moment. Every moment.. 

I just realized, na kahit ganito ako, I still blessed and grateful. Got the opportunity to reached great accomplishments which I did not expect. Still got the things that I thought I'll get it later. haha Bad vibes or events were less up to this moment. And yes, I can sense na this is the high time, fulfill my commitment to serve Him. Pero di ko pa alam ang time, pero parang this year na. Simple serve lang muna. hehe

Indeed the Father in the story, as this year suggest by the church, gave full mercy to the prodigal son. Not only full mercy, but also love that gave the son meaning to himself and what it meant to go back. We don't know if this son really changed, or if he did amend with his older brother who complained such mercy. I don't care about those parts.. 

What I care was that very act of full mercy and love. The son was able to receive without even asking. 

That's the love of God. 

Siguro ang ending talaga nun, nasa state of shock yun anak. hehe Just staring at the feast at di pa din maka move on sa nangyari na ginawa ng tatay niya. 

Sa kin, siguro pag nangyari yun, I might fell down and cry very hard and embrace like forever.. 
My great father. Thank you.  =)

unplanned 69

Ha! Di ako susulat sa huli ng March. hehe Para maiba naman. Kakagaling ko lang sa party ni Lolo, at ang sarap ng lengua. hahaha 

Hmmmm I'm taking this short time to rest and move on to let's say, a new path for me. This will determine my future. I want to make sure, I don't want to go back and yes, taking my own path. Malalaman natin yan in the next weeks. I hope, there will be, progress.

Di ko alam, kung lahat eh excited sa BvS!!!! I am of course, fan ako ng Man of Steel at lalo ako naging excited kasi mukhang ok si Ben Affleck as Batman. Pag naka una ako, malamang, ireview ko agad di ba? 

I am breathing freely. No rush of sleeping early for tomorrow's work. It's the first time, that I'll be alone for a career. Di pala first time, kasi way back ePLDT days, ako pala nagdecide nun then the rest pala. hehe First time pala again for a long time, to take a different career path. 

Maganda ang takbo ng Alaska pero sana naman di ba mag finals sila. At manalo naman ng championship. hahaha NBA, hmmmm ano ba, paano kaya talunin yun GSW? Yun CLE ko, anak ng tinapa, parang masisilat pa sa playoffs!

What else, weird, ang init sa gabi, na dapat hindi. Wag mong sabihin ang summer eh all day hotness?! Geez. No kidding? Ano pa, yeah.. I'll open my FB and twitter most of the time. For social reasons? 

Next month eh Civil War at si spidey eh mukhang badet. Parang ang bright ng costume niya. Parang rush yun pagkalagay sa kanya. hahaha Pero grabe ang nilagay nilang cast, parang mini, super mini infinity war. Lugi nga si CAP dun, di ko alam, paano siya mananalo dun. hahaha But due to the trailers, and some plans, I think I have a reason why I need to watch it. Seriously.. Then siyempre, sunod mo pa yun XMEN and yes, the most interesting comic book film this year, Suicide Squad.. 

What else? Ah.... Yun lang muna, I don't want to tell more or write for now. I'll just rest my hands for a while then..

Reflect. =)

What if..

(Miriam is our beloved President)


Bakit beloved? Baka siya ang iboto ko.. For now at di ko pa sure. hehe Matagal pa naman yan. Pero first choice ko siya sa mga naunang nag declare na tumakbo.. Kaso malabo naman manalo. One digit lang siya sa survey, tapos, eto may sakit pa siya.. Paano siya mananalo niyan? hehe

Anyway, malay mo may milagro. hahaha Una sa lahat, pag siya presidente, malamang laging may impeachment court sa Senado. hehe Gusto niya na prosecute o kasuhan yun mga kurakot. Malamang pag siya presidente, dahil international lawyer naman siya or Judge, aba yun issue natin sa China, sigurado na panalo natin. 

Isa pa, maiinspire yun mga kabataan dahil sa ngayon, mas nagiging malapit siya sa youth. I don't know how she was able to transform pero naging effective sa image niya. Di lang yun mga hugot lines niya, kung hindi yun mga views niya sa politics at laws na dapat para sa tin lahat. Dahil sa tapang niya, malamang matatakot di lang yun mga criminal, lalo na yun tiwaling opisyal. Siyempre, ala naman ayaw mo masabon ng galit na presidente. hahaha

Isa pa na malaking matutulong niya, eh kung payag siya sa chacha eh alam niya yun mga dapat ayusin saka baguhin di ba? At siyempre susunod yun congress natin to implement. Dahil sa tapang at knowledge, talagang maexecute yun mga orders ng president na walang delay. Di kagaya ng iba na kaibigan na nga yun mga cabinet members, wala pa din nangyayari. Palpak pa din. 

Kaya sana manalo siya. Sana nga, nagsama sila ni Duterte na lang para panalo. hahaha Kaso malabo.. Eto na, sana may pagasa.

Kampante ako sa bansa natin pag ang Presidente natin..

Eating death threats for breakfast. 

Legend (2015)

       I saw first the trailer of this film and I was shocked that you'll see not one but two Tom Hardy's in one flick! Based on a true story?! I don't how he pulled it off but I hope it will show here.

Months later, it was shown here but sorry, my source got first. hahaha I thought of watching it in the cinemas but hmmm, save some money first. 

Gladly, I did the later part. But it doesn't mean I totally shun this movie in cinemas. I mean, you can still watch it in the cinema but I don't know if it's really worth it. 

Let's go straight with the flaws. One, the film moves very fast. I mean, most good or great gangster flicks have a bit slow story development but it has great origins. Like for Scarface, who has a bit of origin, but it works. You know right away his drive to be a gangster. This one, it goes straight to the twins having a pub and running their gang. I hope if they just made it longer, they can do it 2 films or at least 2 and a half hours. 

Two, despite a great cast, you can only choose like 3 characters you can  like or even follow. One good example, Taron Edgerton's character. Damn, I am interested in his role but he has only small lines and not really important in the film. How about the investigator following the twins? I hope they did expand the list of  characters surrounding the twins. 

Third issue, for a gangster film, it has small amount of action scenes. Although those scenes were intense and so packed, it was short and few. I hope there were more, a bit more, but unfortunately, even some shocking scenes, it was short and more dialogue driven. Some time in the film, I almost got confused, especially with the british dialogue. 

However, two things stand out in this film. First one, the simple plot. Although some great gangster flicks have some complex plot. This one, it only centers to the twins, how they work and how the people around them got influenced. I just feel sad to the exwife of Reggie, to her demise. Anyway, the flow of the story was good and I hope they kinda fixed it more or further. Second thing I loved was Tom Hardy's performance! I checked in the internet how the Kray Twins look like, Tom's prescence kinda got it because the twins were damn big. Not only that, how Tom acted not only for one role, but two roles at the same time. I don't what trick or CG they done it but Tom should have at least gave credit for that. One was a very psychotic, Ron Kray which I love more than Reggie. I love more Ron because Tom Hardy can really act psychotic and yeah, gay. From Bronson and Rock and Rolla right? So he just mixed those roles with a dash of 60's gangster boss. Although I felt for Reggie's character, that he won't do anything bad to his twin brother, even he's damn crazy. One scene I was kinda attached to it was their fight in the bar. After that scene, I kinda looked to Algerro and said to myself, damn.. I don't know what to do if I'm in that situation. Emily Browning's character, even with the poor writing and bad ending for her, I love her looks, very classical and what she did. It was just right for her. 

Ah yes, I think, without Tom Hardy's acting performance, the film failed big time. It will be  waste watching it in the cinema. But great thing, I think that's the worth of the ticket, one of his best performances. 

Oh, after watching the film, better to search the news about the twins, and oh boy, I was shocked. They edit a lot to  fit into one film. Kinda shocked about those twins. If some of the facts shown in the film were shocking, do a lot of research then. 

Are they really a legend? 

Damn those bloody twins. That's all I can say. 

broken lines (collection 63)

I take a deep breath,
when I will do a lot of work.
I take a deep breath,
when odds are against me.
I take a deep breath,
after the stress of life is done.
I take a deep breath, 
while I'm feeling angry into something
I take a deep breath,
before I wash all those clothes.
I take a deep breath,
close my eyes and think of something.
I take a deep breath,
when I saw something interesting. 
I take a deep breath, 
if I will plunge into unknown abyss..
I take a deep breath,
when I just got up from being hurt!
I take a deep breath,
while walking thru a long winding road..
I take a deep breath,
and pray for the best..

I take a deep breath,
so I can live within beneath..
I take a deep breath,
then sigh so I can smile!
I take a deep breath,
while my eyes closed then open..

For a new breath of moment.

flashbacks: Back up Blog

At last!!!! Sa dami kong ginagawa for the past days, eh salamat, kampante na ko na di na mawawala yun blogger site ko. Nakaback up na. 

Tapos na! hehe Kidding. Anyway, I was just worried that this blog might not have any copy. Yes for almost 8 years of writing, I did not back it up. Seriously and all of the sudden, just a safe precaution, I back it up sa aking extra HDD and flash drive.

While browsing and even reading my posts, I was laughing, sad, surprised and even.. Confused! Yes, I wrote my own posts and still got confused. Ano ang nainom ko ng mga araw na yun? hahaha
I can't believe in three things habang ginagawa ko ito. Una, napakadami!!! Lalo na yun circa 2008-2010. Grabe, parang nobela ata sinulat ko nung mga panahon na yun. Pangalawa, yun iba, mabuti natapos ko na.. Yun iba, sana naituloy ko lang, tinamad ko lang. What I mean was, some series in my blogs should have continued, kaso wala na ko maisip o tinamad lang ko. Mabuti na lang yun iba, tinapos ko na kasi wala na din ako maisip at ayoko ko na sa series na yun. Gets?

Huli, eh kahit mixed emotions yun mga nasulat ko.. I was delighted and satisfied. I mean, I can't believe that my blog was not only like stayed long pero nag grow. I did not expect a lot of things, like poems, my political views, personal views, or even reviews.. A lot things I wrote just to keep this blog alive. I did not even intend to write that long. All I did, just to speak out from myself. My mind.. My soul. 

How long it took me? I was able to finish one Jdrama series, namely Orange Days. 11 episodes, so mga 13 hours of just doing ctrl C and ctrl V. Ang sakit sa daliri. Di ko na nga inaayos yun tags ng mga blogs. hahaha

Kahit ganun... I still don't know where this writing goes. Or if there was indeed somebody like it, hate it or even reading it. Comments were low at blogger and stats were just numbers for me. Maybe, I'm looking for answers if I should continue, for others? Coz if its for me.. Tinapos ko na matagal na to. 
Pero, my heart says, now... I'm still writing. Siyempre the reason naman why I need to back it up.. Malamang, I want to this blog, in a better and more presentable platform.

That will come up soon. =) 

Oh yes, I was surprised, that all my blog posts were a total of whopping!!!

5mb. 

Ring! Ring!

part eight

ACN - Yes, they have a big building at the back that houses, mostly, HMO accounts and clients. I've never tried going there, even they have scheduled training there. hehe 

CVG - Ah not in the cybermall if I'm mistaken, they have a separate center in MDC 100. I don't know the account it has there, but what I know, they have US account. 

WNS - Well, some of my former trainees went here, no idea what accounts they have but what I heard, very low pay. And they have Airline account which I don't really suggest working into. 
Dell - Of course, one of my favorite centers. However, I don't think they are the same today. I don't know what they handle these days. I know they added a HMO account. What I'm very sure of, they are not like that what they used to be before. 

Stellar - Surprisingly, despite the very low pay, and have some lucky bonus, I stayed for long. hahaha Well, due to the happy, easier work and some important benefits.. I kinda stayed long. I don't know if you can survive with that small pay and no allowance. But if you can, why not?

ANZ - Despite a lot of big Australia banks that had outsource, this is the only bank who kinda took risk early and have an inhouse center here. There is one in Makati, solaris building. Then the second one here.. Of course, I took the exam and first interview but well, of course, I was not lucky. Definitely, one thing is for sure.. Great pay and benefits. Especially if there is a Philippine Holiday, they don't have work. Australian Holiday, they don't have work as well. That's around, almost 1 
month of free leave on top of the VL's you'll have. Wow!! Other than that. Well, try it for yourself! 

HGS - Suprisingly, from one center now they became big! They know have a center in the 1880 then they have a center in Alabang! They started small as having the only HMO account then expanded with Sony and AMEX then became bigger. Well, I passed the recruitment but due to the small pay and US account, I thought of giving up. But if you want to start, not bad if you start here. 

If I miss another company, let me know. hahaha