flashbacks: Wanbol

I had other nicknames in the past.. Tentay, JR, hmmmm well, recently Pnoy, Fred, Pedong, Alfred of course, one time eh Alf, kapangalan ng Alien character sa isang TV show dati.. All of them, siyempre kinaya ko..

Unfortunately, one really not stands out for me, or even my Dad calls it, I'm quite demotivated.. Those childhood years.. It's Wanbol. Yeah, I cannot believe I still remember that name. Sa other classmates, Bukol. Great.

Why is that? Alam naman ng lahat na meron ako physical defect before. My Mom would explain na maliit lang dati hanggang sa lumaki but tumigil ng laki pero ang tigas. I felt that when I was around 5 years old, medyo flat na pabilog sa ulo at biglang, yes, from Elementary, HS and yes, can't you believe in College, pero mabuti di na nun college... Lahat sabihin na nila pero eto, parang sometimes, di ko na kinaya..

There were attempts to remove this bump in my head, pero due to uncontrollable circumstances, troubles and everything, tumagal na tumagal.. At muntikan na kalimutan.. Until yeah, I went to UST and thinking I hope one day, wala na tong peste sa ulo ko..

Mahirap talaga, kasi with this bump, nauuntog ako sa jeep, or masakit yun impact pag naaksidente kang nauntog sa pader or pinto.. At ang pinakamahirap talaga eh yun gel ng buhok ko.. Siyempre mahirap magpagupit.. Malaki kita sa kin ng gel companies before. Pero thankful ako sa US size gels, madami eh. hehe

Ayun, everyday I need to put a gel on my hair, kasi makikita yun bukol, and I cannot do other hairstyles kasi makikita. Gusto ko nga yun 90's Goma hairstyle version eh, kaso ayun di naman pwede. hehe Saka ang hirap magpakapal ng buhok.. Grabe, I mean, I need to cut my hair every at least 1-2 months kasi pag maaga, manipis agad ang buhok ko.. Hirap talaga.. Mabuti na lang magaling ako magsuklay and nasasabi ko na lang may bukol ako pagtinatanong eh bakit yun lagi gupit ko.. Then I explain, and they left dazed. hehe

The other and main disadvantage eh because of it, sobrang mahiyain ako.. From girls, public speaking excercise, even in plays, mabuti kung may hat ang character ko and other things. It really affected my personality before.. Low self esteem and not confident.. A really shy dork.

I cried sometimes I hope na wala na siya at mabuti di naman ako nagkasakit because of that kasi delikado, talagang nasa gitna siya ng ulo ko. Oh God..

Then after sometime, and approaching my last year in School, I don't know what I said pero parang one time, I asked Dad na kailan ba mawawala itong bukol ko.. Besides di naman deadly or serious kasi na CT Scan ako dati and it's not life threatning naman.. Sabi ni Dad, then patanggal naman. So I called Mom, asked some advice from her friend Doctor in surgery, asked for an Xray since nawala yun CT scan and that's it.. I cut my OJT short for a week, to go on and proceed for this life changing operation. I was nervous before kasi makikita ko na kalbo ako with that pathetic bukol .hehe Sabi kasi ng Doc, pwede din sila maggupit kaso baka panget sila mag gupit.

Then before the operation, that's it.. I looked myself to a mirror and there was the bump that I kept for decades and there is a smile on my face, after this day, no more Wanbol, or Bukol name for me!

The operation was done in UST siyempre discount kuno at Doctor gave me instructions on what will happen, after that.. I fell asleep. Almost an hour, ayon.. Nasa room na ko.. With a big bandage in my head na parang bombay.. Mom is beside me, and she is texting and yeah, I'm texting my classmates as well, CRAP and other friends.. They visited naman.. I'm surprised na nandun sila, from CRAP, 4BA1, yun mga Pre-Com dudes, ayun even number 3 and her best friend came in.. I was delighted although it was painful kasi nun nawala yun anesthesia.. Grabe sobrang sakit.. I was crying but well, it was tears for joy. =)

It was one of the happiest days in my life, and it somewhat kahit di ko nareach ang potential pero marami nagbago.. I was able to be more confident. Not shy anymore, lalo na sa Girls and evident naman di ba? hehe Then I was more outspoken kahit ngayon medyo tahimik pa din. At higit sa lahat, I was free from that monicker. No more that name and my old self. It peeled off my lesser self and began to reborn. It's like the butterfly going away from it's previous self, the cocoon..

I was free and I know it's quite late, but well, I have more time to make up. =)

Until now, even it was painful, one of the painful pasts. It really put a smile in my face and can't seem to imagine, why it took so long, even my doctor was quite surprised.

I was so happy that my grad pic, well, I'm bald already. Kalbo na!!!!!!!!!! Yeah.. No more makapal hair style!!!!!!! hehe

My scar pa naiwan and natanong ko sa doctor now kung pwede pa matubuan kasi natatanong sila kung bakit di ako magpakapal ulit ng buhok. I tried but that area talaga, wala na eh.. Doctor says, the only thing can be done is hair transplant. Sabi ko, di na! hehe

Marami na natulong sa kin yun being bald, no more gels.. Or rushing to comb my hair.. Yun na, except sa dandruff. hahaha Pero nawawala naman.. At presko ha..

One of the best birthday gifts given to me, kasi nangyari yun around June 3-4 of 2003.. Dermoid cyst ang biopsy and yes, I saw it, a big white lollipop.. Geez.. Ewwww. =) I hope to keep it, pero after seeing that in seconds. Tama na! haha

Well, I can say it helped me one thing. It is important to me because of that cyst.. The kindness I show, or humility and patience, dahil sa bukol na yun.. Parang naging foundation siya sa kin. I know sometime I'm still shy but not very often.. Perhaps shy pa din ako, pero other than that. I am still thankful for that bukol =) I believe kasi, kindness is shown not on how you are good looking and looks kind or good but, it's what you do and what you show or give to others.

8 years and counting.. Although physically marami pa ko kailangan ayusin or achieve, but important is my basis of confidence, or simply no shy type or naiilang na eh wala na..

Important is nahahawakan ko na yun ulo ko na walang sabit. =)

Doc Ian

When there was a time na as he helping my uncle at noong tinitignan ko siya, sabi ko.. Sobrang swerte ko na meron ako bro na maasahan not only in the field of Medicine, pero sa buhay.. Dedicated sa work and of course, di lang dun. As a friend, at may assistant pa siyang magaling, Doctor din. hehe

Kahit late at night na, at kailangan ng tulong, he share his expertise agad.. Wow.. =)

Honestly, I can't believe, to the other 3, siya yun di ko talaga expect na sobrang close kasi number 1, CAT, ako boy Scout lamang. hehe 2, back in HS, nakakatakot talaga siya, mas nakakatakot siya dati. Since officer and dreaming to be a soldier, siyempre, strict at matapang. Well, ngayon, matapang na lang. Oh ha! hehe

Lastly, well, matalino pa sakin.. Kahit anong talino ko ngayon bro, mas matalino ka na. hehe Geez.. Kahit ata maglaw ako no..

Anyway, pero all that change as time goes by at mga events na di ko akalain nangyari pa sa kanya kasi despite what's happening, tuloy pa din siya sa buhay and to finish studies. His love for family at friends, brods at sa CRAP, although not showy, pero talagang pag kailangan at willing siya.. He's there on time. =)

Sa tatlo, honestly, mas gusto ko siya magadvice kaysa yun dalawa, but sometimes lang.. Kasi if it's serious, serious din ang sagot, no holds barred straight to the point, no more interrogation kahit kaya niya.. Yun na.. Talagang gising ka na. hehe

At kala niyo yun na ha.. Eto ang pinakamalupit.. Pagdating sa Lady.. Hay, kahit sabihin ni Rheg o Igz ako eh choosy but may kilalang girls na medyo standard.. Etong Doc... Hay, luluhod kaming tatlo.. Matinik.. Ako na nagsasabi.. Grabe, kaw na!!!!!!!! Idol, Lord, Master.. Lahat na.. Teacher? hehe

Like sinasabi nun Raider sa Battle Realms, silent but deadly. hahahaha

Cari�oso kasi at mas proactive siya at marunong magalaga. Great example si Tin, tignan mo naman, strong ang relationship nila despite all odds, at eto na.. Opisyal na. =) Ingat lang sa tutok. hehe

Pero makikita mo naman not only sa girls pero sa ibang kabrod at kabatch niya, sobrang madaling kasi siyang lapitan. Maasahan talaga.

Although di naman siya perfect.. Especially sa ehem.. Mga banat.. Pero improving siya ngayon, dahil kay boy pick up. hehe At sa aming tatlo. Di ba Doc?

Saka yeah, I hope na maigi na din ang health. Given talaga stress in his line of work pero I hope, give time to heal yourself. =)

At isa pang maasahan sa kanya.. Mahilig mag medical mission, a great way to serve others. Siya na nga nagooffer minsan, pero don't worry Doc, pag sa group namin natuloy. Kaw na ang Doc namin. =) At ang sweet din niya kasi yun mga extra niya binibigay niya especially kung may extra pa siya.. At kusa yun.. Di pinipilit.

Mas may panalo to sa eleksyon kaysa yun isa diyan. hehe

Doc, alam ko na unti unti mo na nararating ang mga pangarap mo except for some minor problems, pero in the end. With your service, dedication and faith to your profession, God will bless you abundantly.. Kaya tuloy mo lang yan at malayo ang mararating mo.. Malay mo, di lang yan makuha mo in the future, more than you expected..

Unconsciously, even you missed mass or service kay God, as long you help people in need or in distress. God will reward you for that. In his time.. =)

Ah, yun sa banat at jokes, alam mo na eh.. Advice, nood ka lagi ng Eat Bulaga at Boy pick up. hehehe

We love you bro from CRAP, siyempre, panget naman kung RAP lang, kailangan may C. =)

CAP ok lang din, kahit wala yun R. bwahahahaha

Tama na, this is for you Doc. Pwede ba ko Secretary sa clinic mo in the near future? hehe

Doc, I have a problem.. My prescription ka ba for my problem..

My heart?

realizations (part 26)

449. for so long, I still afraid of riding a bike. hehe

450. parang sometimes, lumalabas ang pagiging gummybear.. Hay badet. hehe A form of expression kasi especially when you're environment is in this industry.. Gorah!!!

451. my sbarro calendar still set up at July.. Pathetic me. hehe

452. I thought my relationship with God is already close.. This year, I realize.. it should be improving, everytime.. Always..

453. facebook will give a hard time posting my blogs.. Tumbler anyone.. Or I will use the slow notes apps here.. Damn.

454. PBA will give me a great dose of fun this year.. Especially the teams are playing. Sayang yun barako bull. hehe ROS na ko!!!! Aces, well, babalik ako pag umayaos na kayo. hehe

455. bwisit, sa race to 2012, mag2012 na at ako pa din ang pinakalast nagupdate. Naman oh..

456. I met new and great friends, although not yet close pero we'll get there. Spiritually perhaps.

457. that yes, I got more than I expected kaso as usual, kapos. hahaha

458. with this situation, I hope you can buy more than 24 hours per day. hehe

459. to be become a peacemaker, natawa ako sa isang strategy.. Be foolish.. When I look back, oo nga no. hahaha

460. grabe, until now, ang sarap talaga ng Crepe ni Igz.. Paano pa kung talagang pang crepe yun presentation.. Kaw na bro!!!!!!

461. na tatalo pa kaya sa FB?

462. I hope magsurvive yun Multiply.

463. I'll see what I can do sa Tumbler.

464. ang bilis ng panahon, pupunta na naman ako sa St. James!!!! hehe

465. FTW webcast, ok naman pala si Jai Reyes.. hehe Natawa ako sa comment niya, I mean before he speaks about Gary David, "my first and last season..." hahaha Panalo!! Di pala siya maangas.

466. Sabagay, katabi naman niya yun dating manager niya sa HS. =) Not sure kung nagabot sila.

467. I can try AMD naman.. Hmmmm cheaper and same performance.

468. I am going to Samsung.. Due to curiosity of Android.. Besides, Nokia will be going to oblivion. hehe

469. Wow, sudden change of heart.. New pic at real name. Same block. hahaha

470. The last one.. Will be memorable.

unplanned 29

Yes, I can't believe this.. I have some changes in my plans lalo next year.. The theme or goal is still the same pero ayun.. Due to more misses and hits and wear off.. Ayun.. Parang papunta na ko dun.. Para matapos na.. Hulaan mo. hahaha

Anyway for now, I hope Pacman will win on Sunday.. I won't be suprised kung kaunti lang pupunta ng the Feast. hehe For now, ayun, I don't know kung may malas at sobrang dami na din na iniisip. Pero yun nga malaking change ang gagawin at hinahanda ko na sarili ko. Change of plans na din at yes, the goals for myself.

I believe with my whole faith.. Ito ang tama. Wow. hehe

Sana magenjoy naman kami sa outreach tomorrow at marami kaming maitulong o kahit papano magpasaya sa mga kids. =)

For the coming holidays, I don't know what to expect.. Well, strong sales.. Or better stats sa work at sana makapunta sa mga xmas Party. hehe For this month, ayun sana less work lang..

All of the sudden, which don't be surprised makikita to sa realizations, eh parang nagstop ako and think.. Kung san ako masaya, at dapat ano gawin not only for others pero sa kin din. The words of Raims that night, long time ago struck me.. Wow, oo nga.. Maybe I was too giving sa iba, pero ako, most of the time, I forgot myself.. Me..

While I am doing some usual stuff and when I feel down tired.. Those voices, or advices always coming at my back. It is some what called a light to my mind, heart, body, or even my soul.. For all these times, I know what I should first. What will make me happy.. The simple things and deeds. The hard work that I am aiming for..

The goals that I should for myself.. The things I can do for others and until which extent I can do. The pains I experienced which I already healed even in the midst of confusion or difficulties..

The lost time or opportunities that I can still achieve and there is still small time to go for it..

Indeed, after some time, I reached to the point of what is certain of me. The fullness of me.. The potential that I have which it is still in progress..

Definitely, I reached a point where.. I should be doing the right choices.. The right risks.. The right path to whatever success I want to reach..

Like someone said, God is with you in this journey and you should see the glory, whatever glory at the end of this long journey.

Well, na carried away ako from those statements ha.. Ano pa ba magagawa ko? hehe Nandito na eh.

If experience is a person, love it or hate it.. I love that person. =)

Long Awaited CREPE

The best crepe I ever tasted. The long wait is finally over, it's worth the wait. Partida budget na kami. hehehe At sobrang busog pa!!!!!!!

It was Sunday and at last, nagkita na ulit ang CRAP!!!!!!!!! Yeah boy!!!!! Actually di dapat eto ang post ko pero natutukan ako eh. hehe

Anyway, after ng the feast and feast sa Chic-boy Sta. Cruz branch which is the second best branch eh deretcho na kami nila Rheg kay Igz.. At ayun, kulitan na naman.. =) Si Doc, biglang napaalis ng maaga kasi kala niya 6pm pero ayun napaaga ang punta kay Igz. Si Igz, ayun pumayat, parang magkasing laki kami. Ok kasi ang diet namin, Stress. hehe Geez, we're killing ourselves everyday..

Si Rheg, after a long hiatus sa CG at the Feast eh ganun pa din. Sir pa din. hehe Pero siyempre may pinagdadaanan din pero jolly at happy pa din ang ungas. hahaha

Well, may balak pa kasi kumain pero sabi ko, ayoko ko na kasi sa sobrang dami ko kinain sa Chic-Boy eh di na ata kaya ng tiyan ko.. Pero pagnasa CRAP, di pwede ang no. Labo no?

So, after some debates at lokohan, ayun order na ng crispy pata. Ang sarap ng Crispy Pata na yun, at nakakagulat yun place na pinagbilan namin, I can't believe na bilihan pala yun ng crispy pata at matagal na siya.. Wow. hehe

400 was sulit, nanunuyot ang balat, sobrang lambot nun pata.. Wow, pwede siyang ipalit sa Lechon ni Elars. hehe After that, we went sa SaveMore to buy ingredients para sa Crepe.. Although apat lang kami, pero yun serving parang pang 8. hehe Sobrang dami.. And the bread Igz used is wheat pancake. Wow meron na pala ng ganun..

Then, ayun kainan, at kain pa din. Napasubo na din ako, wala naman ako choice. hehe At siyempre, while eating, may cooking the crepe na. hehe Grabe, sobrang dami namin napagusapan, I think kulang ang ilan oras for us.. Seriously, kailangan namin mag out of town.. Di ba?

Anyway, while doing that, siyempre etong si Sir may kausap so medyo busy din at that time.. John Lloyd kasi. hahaha

Then, ayun na, after some years passed.. White thick vanilla with around 4 layers of great pancake and caramel, lucious mix of sweetness and fluffy ness.. There you are, the great Crepe of Igz.. =) Magnificent... Although di talaga siya nadesign every layer, at fast yun presentation... 5 mins, ubos na. hehe

At least walang nagrereklamo ng separate plate. hahaha

Wow, at after that, well... Some serious talks about the future.. Sana good luck na lang sa aming apat.. Lalo na si Doc at Igz.. Sana tuloy niyo na ang gusto niyo ituloy at alam ko, yun na ang simula ng happiness niyo. Naks! =)

Eh kaming dalawa ni Rheg.. No comment. =)

Wait there's more!!! Nagyaya si Doc ng Starbucks, aba.. Dun pa napahaba ang usapan.. Talagang graduate na ata kami sa wasakan at uwakan days. hehe Retire na ata kami. Pero ok lang, simple things make us enjoy.. Enjoy the company of the four of us.

At yes, since may kukunin kay doc na mga gamit for the outreach, punta kami sa haws nila.. Kala ko sandali lang.. Yun pala, dun kami pinaka matagal. Peste kasing boy pick up at ang legendary game na Battle Realms. Si Igz, talagang gustong bumawi!!! hahaha

It was a fun filled night and it was worth it.. I wish it was longer pero di pwede.. But definitely, there will be a time in our precious lives that we will meet, not 3 times a year.. But maybe, not everyday, maybe more times in a year.. It is very special every time we meet.. Forgetting everything for a while and focus..

The bond we have! =)

Boy Pick-Up: Namimiss kita..
Nene B. (A hot Sam P): Bakit?
Boy Pick-Up: Thank You!

Bwisit.. hehe

Eto pa, not sure kung si Pushback or Sukli
Pushback: Kailan ba kitang pwedeng tubusin?
Nene B: Bakit?
Pushback: Kasi lumalaki na ang interes ko sayo!!!

Ayos!!! Di ka kaya masampal ng mga lines na to?

Oo nga pala, Igz, thanks sa advance gift mo!! Ginulat mo ko ha.. Bawi ako sa inyong tatlo. =)

The chismax of the night.. I can't believe may xmas party sa lugar na yun.. Wow. hehehe

Final Round: Mang Inasal Vs. Chic-Boy

The more, the many-er.. Ayos, yun pala, nagdagdag lang sila ng menu. Great help. hehe At pagtinignan yun menu, hmmmm parang may nilalaban kay Chic-Boy. More Menu, at halos sa mga dinagdag, parang mayroon si Chic-Boy. Eh sa sarap kaya, sino mas ok? hehe Alam na kung sino.. Kawawang Mang Inasal, chasing the race..

I was not paid by Chic-Boy. hehe Definitely and true. For this post, I want to thank Chic-Boy for posting my entry since last year, quite touching perhaps. =) Anyway..

After a year of eating at yes, kain pa din sa Chic-boy.. Nagbago na ang buhay ko. haha I mean, what fast food chain to eat into. The experience and everything into a Chic-Boy branch is definitely worth while. Alam mo naman kasi, masarap, sulit at ok ang service.. Nothing to ask for more or less.. More or less, ok na siya. hehe Sana yun Sarsi may bottomless na. Yun na lang idagdag nila. =)

Like I predicted before, after a year, wow, sobrang saya kasi marami na talaga ang Chic-Boy. At di naman ako binigo pag may nayaya pa ko na ibang tao to eat there and enjoy. Lalo na si Algerro, na sobrang adik na, dalawang ulam lagi ang order. hahaha Then marami pang nangyari na masaya dun, kita naman sa mga posts ko di ba?

Although some branches, di medyo ok, like in Morayta and Quiapo church, lahat naman sila isa ang sigurado. Masarap ang CB6!!!!!!!! Yeah.. Sa sobrang sarap, ayoko ko na laging yun ang order. One kasi highblood siya, at two, sigurado, kahit anong gawin ko unless sobrang dami ng kinain ko bago ako pumunta Chic-Boy.. Siguradong, limang kanin agad. Nagpapayat na ko no. hehe Kaya ginagawa ko, iba naman ang order. Pinakafave ko ibang order, bangus belly. Sobrang sulit, gawin kaya nilang unli rice din. Kasama nun steak. hehe

I can't believe, in more than a year, sobrang dami na nila and it made it's presence felt sa kalaban.. Because of that, some Mang Inasal Branches, desperate to match, buy 1 take 1.. Wow, sobrang threat ata sila. hehe Nah, di naman ako kumakain na sa Mang Inasal..

Speaking of Mang Inasal, ayun kumain na ko once di ba, at halo halo lang ang order, pathetic pa. Edi tama na, ayoko ko na talaga dun. Geez... Yes, like I predicted, it became worst... Not good, bad service, and yes, since the takeover, medyo bland ang taste.. Kulang na lang, they can put a jollibee menu there. hehe

Well, what else to say? Chic-boy is not over yet and I won't be surprised, in the future. Some tycoon will buy that chain for a whopping amount. Even buy the pier one business, if it's for sale perhaps. Ok lang kung hindi mabenta sa iba, basta same service, great food, kung broke magpier one o dencio's at kung gusto ng inom, Chic-boy na, may pulutan pa! hehe Ah the best Chic-Boy outlet, go to Timog.. Ang laki at may band pa!!! One time, ayun may all chick band. hehe Si Rheg Sta. Cruz branch, pero ako 2nd best siya kasi mabilis at masarap ang luto!! Lahat. hehe

Lamang lang ng timog, kumpleto eh.. Kaya walang bar dun na malapit kasi lugi. hahaha

The winner is from the stable of Pier-One, chicken na at baboy pa!!!! Chic-Boy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kung Ako'y Isang

(drayber)

This is so attainable at my situation, which I hope tuloy na next year. Kung magiging driver ako, recently nadiscover ko, gusto ko maging Senna!!! hahaha Malabo geez.. As Mike Schumacher says, Aryton Senna is the greatest driver in F1. Watched the documentary and he's damn correct.

Naisip ko din, paano talaga kung ang work ko eh driver lang. Siguro dun sa mayaman na! Kasi kahit sa panaginip ka makamaneho ng luxury or sports cars, eh madrive mo naman thanks to your rice amo.

Or how about construction driver, geez, di lang driving matutunan mo, kundi extra excercise kasi sa laki ng mga dinidrive mo. hehe

Simpleng driver sa middle class family, like ours before which di ko naman naabutan, ayun may driver pa daw kami at may chedeng kami ha.. Dalawa pa! Wow.

Pero parang ang middle class family can't afford to have an own driver, talagang pang rich na lang sila. Or company drivers perhaps, ok lang eh, kaso some cars has company logo o sign.. Geez, di pwede pasimpleng gala. hehe Or how about driver for the stars na malamang, mas una ka sa chixmax. hahaha Or malalaman mo kung totoo ang chismax. Grabe, magulo yun! hehe

Hmmmm, actually the kind of driver I hate, no not jeepney drivers kasi bihira lang accidente, more on bangga kasi. Pero ang matinik talaga sa lahat, bus driver. Kung ako walang choice, siguro, janitor na lang. hehe Pero maiintindihan mo naman sila kaya ganun sila magdrive, ginagawang hatchback yun bus. Since commission basis ang sweldo, aba di ka pwedeng mabagal or basta may kalahating sakay eh biyahe na. Wala na silang sweldo nun. hehehe Kawawa naman yun konduktor.

Kaya ayun, haribas ang takbo at higit sa lahat, talagang scary sila, lalo sa dikdikan. Buwis buhay din, lalo na kung provincial bus driver ka, alam naman smooth driving ka lang.. Di pwede. hehe

Well, of course, before you can be a driver, dapat may car ka. Eh kaya naman ako tinatamad magaral magdrive, I know it has many benefits but come on, what will be my car? Invisible car perhaps. I hope I can have a lightcar like in tron. hehe But geez, pero ako kung may car, siguro yun pang city car lang, or siguro yun pwedeng dalin sa sagada like the AUV's. For now, mangarap na lang. hehe But my dream car is a porsche boxster or kahit BMW M3 or z8 two door, ok na. =)

At least eto, I can say machieve ko naman despite at a late age but well, it's better late than never at all.

Malay ko na lang in the future, I'll have one at my own. I can go anywhere at anytime. =)